In this chapter, we find out more about Soundwave's past. This is a very emotional chapter, so there might be crying. I do not own transformers except for Berserk.
Three weeks passed, and Berserk was playing peek-a-boo with Ravage before Arcee drove in with Jack and June. "Mom, this is Berserk, and her daughter Ravage. Berserk, meet my Mom," said Jack as he got off of Arcee. "You have a creator? How come I've never seen her before?" asked Berserk as she observed June. "My mom is a nurse, so she's busy at the hospital" said Jack. "A nurse? What's a nurse? What's a hospital?" asked Berserk. "A nurse is someone who helps sick people get better, and a hospital is where sick people stay until they get better" explained June. "Does this mean that Ratchet is a nurse?" asked Berserk when Ratchet shouted, "I heard that!"
As June explained to Berserk on a clearer definition of what a nurse was, Soundwave walked in as he stretched his thin arms a bit. Ravage began babbling something happily as she reached her paws towards her father. June looked up at Soundwave as he picked up the small panther and gently rubbed her cheek. "Who, what, is that thing?" stammered June as she saw the former Decepticon. "Oh, that's Soundwave. He's Berserk's husband, and he was a former Decepticon" said Jack as Soundwave stared at the two little humans.
Suddenly, the warning siren blared as Ratchet picked up a few Decepticon signals on the screen. Ratchet punched in a few commands, then said "Prime! We have a few Decepticon signals at the Hoover Dam!" "On it! Ratchet, prepare Ground Bridge for transport" said Optimus. "Ok" said Ratchet as he operated the Ground Bridge "Berserk, we're going to need you for electrical use. Soundwave, you stay here with the humans and Ravage. Arcee, you stay here to keep an optic on Soundwave." "Why do I have to stay here with Soundwave? I can contribute too, you know" said Arcee. "I know that, Arcee, but they may need a medic there, and we still don't trust Soundwave yet" said Ratchet as he operated the Ground Bridge.
Arcee sighed as she closed the bridge as Soundwave approached her. "What?" she grumbled as she looked at the former Decepticon with Ravage. "By the way, I've been meaning to speak with you about a few tremors that we've been having lately. Is this base built on an old fault line?" asked Soundwave to Arcee. The femme blushed, then said "Uh…yeah. But I wouldn't worry about them."
Just then, Jack yelled "Mom!" that got the robots' attention. "What's up?" asked Soundwave as he approached the humans as Arcee wiped her brow with the back of her servo. "Mom just asked me how often we go on missions" said Jack. "I just worry about him, that's all," said June. Soundwave knelt down to June and said "You shouldn't need to worry, Jack's creator." "It's June" she said as she looked up at the Seeker. "Ok, June. Ever since Berserk has become a mother, she and I have both become more responsible, and we both keep an optic on the humans and Ravage. We both make sure that the humans aren't harmed when on missions, and they prove to be very useful" said Soundwave. Ravage whined that she wanted to be on the ground, and he gently placed his sparkling on the ground. She babbled something happily as she crawled toward Raf. Raf petted Ravage gently on the head as she licked the little boy. June smiled, then looked up at Soundwave, saying, "You must be very proud of her." Soundwave nodded, then said, "Yep, I am. I wanted a family once the war was over, but the war stretched into many millions of years, and Cybertron, our home planet, was destroyed in the process. I actually wanted ten sparklings, but Berserk agreed to give me eight."
"Sparklings?" June asked with a puzzled look. "Baby transformers, if you will," said Soundwave. "Eight sparklings?" asked Arcee as she walked up to Soundwave. "Yeah, Decepticons tend to have huge families" said Soundwave as he rubbed the back of his neck. "How is it that Decepticons can have huge families when there's an energon shortage? Aren't Decepticon femmes rare to find nowadays?" asked Arcee. "They are, but Seekers are capable of producing sparklings just as easily as femmes. As for having large families during an energon shortage…well, let's just say that you Autobots would blow a few circuits when you hear some of the ways that we get energon" said Soundwave. "Wait, seekers having sparklings just as easily as femmes?" said Arcee with a baffled look. "Well, I can't say too much with the younger humans and Ravage around, but…let's just say that there are some secrets about my past that I won't be sharing with Berserk anytime soon" said Soundwave. "Skeletons in your closet?" asked June as she raised an eyebrow. "You could say that" said Soundwave.
While Soundwave, Arcee, and June were talking, Ravage crawled around the base with Raf following behind her. "Hey Ravage! Wait up!" he called as he ran after her. Miko rolled her eyes then ran after the baby sparkling with Jack in hot pursuit. "Make sure that Ravage doesn't put anything in her mouth yet. She can't chew solid metal yet" called Soundwave as the kids ran off. He turned to June and Arcee and said "Well, if you two want to know about my past, now's the time because I don't want to tell my story with Berserk or Bumblebee around." "I'm interested," said Arcee as she crossed her arms. June looked up at Soundwave as he sighed, then said "Ok, but I know that I will have to explain to June about Seeker biology."
After a few deep breaths, Soundwave said "Well, my story goes all the way back to before the war, back to my childhood. I was one of the middle sparklings in my household. My parents were both powerful warrior mechs, but they didn't make much at their regular occupations, so they both worked as pleasure bots to support us. My parents were disappointed that I was born a mech instead of a femme, and that I didn't learn to talk until I was eight vorns old." "You didn't learn to talk until you were eight?" asked Arcee as she raised an optic ridge. "Yeah, the other siblings bullied me into being quiet" said Soundwave before he continued "Whenever there was a femme born, my parents sold her because femmes brought in more credits than mechs when sold to certain Autobots." "I've heard of that occurring on the shadier parts of Cybertron," said Arcee as Soundwave nodded in agreement. "My parents considered removing my cable to make me look more like a femme when I was fifteen vorns old, but the doctor said that there were some other expensive other upgrades needed before I can pass for a femme, including having a valve installed" said Soundwave. "Cable? Valve?" said June as she looked up at Soundwave in confusion. Soundwave sighed, then gently picked up June with one tentacle, and whispered in her ear what a cable and valve meant on Cybertron. She blushed a bit; then Soundwave nodded before he placed her on the platform where the video games were kept.
"So, your parents thought that you could pass for a femme?" said Arcee. "Yeah, well, I do have the legs for it" said Soundwave as he rubbed the back of his neck. She nodded, before Soundwave continued "When I was growing up, my parents were abusive on me because I wasn't a femme. Since all of my sisters were sold early on, my parents sometimes looked for a femme to rape whenever they got drunk on high grade energon, and whenever they couldn't find a femme, they used me. I frequently had nightmares of what they did to me before the war broke out, before they sold me as target practice in the gladiator ring. I proved to be tough in the gladiator ring, and I quickly became a warrior. It wasn't long before I met Megatron in the gladiator ring, and we became really close. During the war, both Megatron and I…became frag buddies. He actually got me pregnant at one point, and…" he stopped before he broke down crying.
Arcee rubbed the back of Soundwave for some time before he continued. "Sorry, but I always get so emotional at this part. I was pregnant for six Earth months before Starscream had to prove to Megatron that he could be ruthless like himself. He attacked me, and I lost my sparkling. It was mixed feelings for Megatron because I lost his sparkling, but Starscream proved that he could be as cruel as any Decepticon should be. I cried for months after that incident; which is why I hate Starscream so much" said Soundwave as a few tears fell. June was quiet as Soundwave said all of this before she spoke up, "You're afraid of Berserk learning about all of this. You're afraid that she will judge you because of your past, isn't it?" He nodded, then said "Yeah, but that's not the only secrets that I know that I'm keeping from Berserk. For femmes that we found during the war, if they weren't offline, we'd raped them until they talked. Sometimes, we'd keep the femmes alive so they could repopulate the Decepticon population. Very rarely, a femme and a mech would fall in love with each other, causing the femme to switch sides. I've always hated those mechs that found their own mate because it added another insult that my parents were right: no femme would ever fall in love with me. When I found Berserk, I wanted to keep her safe from the other Decepticons because I knew that they would do anything to get her to be their sparkmate. I was afraid that I would lose her to another mech."
"Listen, Berserk won't judge you for what you've done in the past; she loves you for who you are" said June as Soundwave shook his head. "No, you don't know everything" he said as he told June of when he drove Berserk away. She was silent as Soundwave said his piece. "I didn't know that she was pregnant, and she still forgave me. She thought that she wasn't worthy of me" he said as he cried again. "But, you came back for her" said June as Soundwave nodded. "Yeah, I promised her that I wouldn't leave her again. I care too much for her and Ravage; I don't want to be like my parents" said Soundwave.