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Well here is chapeter 14.

Chapter 14: How could you?

"I slept with Seth." said Phoebe.

Those four little words crashed into Paige like a wave crashing on a beach during a hurricane. She was speechless. She didn't understand how to react to that. She had heard what Phoebe said clearly yet she didn't want to believe it. Maybe she was dreaming. This was all just one horrible nightmare and she was going to wake up soon then she could just laugh this all off. But the look on my sisters faces told me otherwise.

"YOU WHAT!" yelled Paige angrily.

"I'm so sorry Paige. It was before this all happened. I didn't know what type of person her was. If I had known that he was going to hurt you I would have never done it. I swear." said Phoebe.

"That doesn't make it better. Did you ever plan on telling me before this all happened? Any of it? You dating Seth for starters. The brother to the person that killed my best friend." said Paige.

"Paige I.." said Phoebe.

"Don't. You knew how angry I when Carol was killed. She was my best friend Phoebe. You are not stupid! You knew that dating him would hurt me. You did it on purpose." yelled Phoebe, "But that doesn't surprise me. It was stupid for me to think that anything could be different. Guess I was wrong as always."

Phoebe was quiet. Prue could see that she was about to cry.

"Hey calm down! Paige it she didn't know. It happened a long time ago and we can't change that." said Prue, "You can't hold that against her. She is sorry Paige and she loves you."

"I don't believe you. I can't do this right now. I hate you!" said Paige before running out the front door.

Phoebe began to cry as soon as she heard Paige slam the door. Prue went and hugged Phoebe.

"I will go after Paige." said Piper, "You stay here with Phoebe."

"Pipe you have a broken arm. You are in no condition to go after Paige." said Prue, "I'll go. Just lock the doors behind me and don't let anyone in. If anything happens you call me."

"Prue I am not fragile. I won't brake." said Piper.

"Piper please. I can't deal with this. I need you to stay with Phoebe now can you do that for me please?" asked Prue agitated.

Piper didn't want to stay in the house. She hated Prue treating her like this. She was fine. Maybe not one hundred percent but she didn't want to be treated like she had to be protected twenty four hours a day. She loved Prue but she could be so overprotecting sometimes. She knew that Prue was always under so much stress from having to take care of everything. She had to take the role of mom and that wasn't fair but Prue just truly overdid it sometimes. Piper wasn't a little kid any more. She could take care of herself.

"Okay." said Piper not wanting to argue.

"She's at the park." said Phoebe trough her tears.

"Don't worry I am going to straiten this all out you just stay put okay and take it easy. Everything is going to be okay." said Prue.

Prue gave Phoebe a hug and a kiss on the forehead before leaving. Piper sat beside Phoebe.

"Pipe I didn't want to hurt her." said Phoebe.

"I know you didn't Phoebe. She loves you you know that. She's just hurting Phoebe. Give her some time." said Piper.

"I wish I could take it back. I wish I was dead." said Phoebe beginning to cry again.

Piper hugged Phoebe close She rubbed her back and tried to calm her down.

"Don't you dare wish that Phoebe. We love you so much. How can you wish that you were dead? That would hurt us more than you could know. We already lost so many people. I will not lose you too Phoebe. Everything is going to get better." said Piper.

"I hope so." said Phoebe.

"Lay down and get some rest." said Piper.

Phoebe and Piper went to Phoebe's room. She laid down and so did Piper. She watched as Phoebe began to fall asleep. Piper could see how much pain Phoebe was in. IN the blink of an eye their whole lives had been ripped apart. Nothing like this ever happened before and they didn't know how to handle it. It was going to be a while before Paige could trust anyone and feel comfortable. It made Piper angry that Seth had come into their house and made Paige afraid. The manor was their home, their safe haven, and Seth just snatched that away from Paige. Now Paige was lost and confused and it scared everyone. Paige was always spunky and sarcastic. Even when none of them had gotten along she tried to make everyone happy or lighten the mood. She tried not to rebel as much so she wouldn't cause any unnecessary problems. Bottom line, Paige was a good kid. But Seth didn't care he just came along and took it all leaving a broken little girl.

Piper also knew that Phoebe was going to have some trust issues as well. Seth had been her "boyfriend". No matter how much of an ass he turned out to be there was no doubt that at some time Seth did love Phoebe and Phoebe did love Seth. That's why she didn't believe Paige when she had told her that Seth was the one that raped her. It had hurt too much to think that the one person who had been there when all four sisters were at each others throats was a rapist. She had loved him. How could he hurt Paige?

Piper couldn't help but feel tired as well. Her body was sore from the crash still. She decided to just get some rest for a while until Prue and Paige got back. Finally she gave in and closed her eyes felling asleep beside Phoebe.

Prue walked into the park. She knew that Paige loved to come to the park. It was her happy place. Prue looked around and sure enough she saw Paige sitting on the swing. She was swinging back and forth going higher and higher each time. Suddenly Prue noticed that Paige was going too high. She was going to shout Paige's name when Paige fell off the swing. Prue ran over to her. She tried to help Paige up.

"Are you okay?" asked Prue.

"I'm fine." said Paige pushing Prue away.

"Hey I was just trying to help." said Prue.

"I don't need your help Prue."

"You can't stay mad at her. Its not her fault this all happened. You have to forgive her. She feels guilty enough Paige. She loves you why can't you see that. Besides it was way before all this. Maybe that doesn't make it okay but we can't change it now."

Paige was quiet. She knew that this wasn't Phoebe's fault but she couldn't help and be mad. She was just mad that Phoebe had waited so long to tell her. She wanted Phoebe to trust her too like she did. She wanted them to be and share anything. She would never judge Phoebe. She loved her. It hurt her that Phoebe never told her anything. Not even when she was in trouble or hurting.

"I know!" yelled Paige angrily.

"Then why are you mad. Why did you tell her that you hated her." asked Prue beginning to get angry also.

"Because..." answered Paige.

"Because isn't an answer Paige." said Prue.

"How come she didn't tell me when it happened? Why am I always the one who is the last one to find out everything? Everybody always keeps things from me. Nobody ever stops to think that it hurts my feelings."

"Paige we are just trying to protect you."

"I don't need to be protected. I am 14 years old. I'm not a baby anymore. You're not helping anything. Why am I always treated different?"

"You are the youngest Paige. We care about you so that's why we try and keep certain things from you. Paige you tend to do things some times without thinking. I'm not saying that this is an excuse but that can be very dangerous. I don't want you to get hurt. It is my job to keep you safe."

"Yeah well you didn't do a very good job!" yelled Paige.

Immediately Paige regretted saying what she did. She didn't know what was happening to her. She was being mean to all her sisters and they were just trying to help her. She knew that she was changing. She just didn't care about anything anymore. Nothing made her happy or cheerful anymore. She was just filled with so much anger and sadness.

"Prue I'm sorry." said Paige sadly.

She began to cry. Prue was shocked at what Paige had said but she knew that Paige was just scared.

"It's okay." said Prue hugging Paige.

"What's happening to me Prue?" asked Paige.

"You have to heal honey. I know that its hard. You're going to get better. You have already taken the first step, talking about it. Now you have to deal with it head on. You can't push it away. I know that it hurts but honey you have got to do this. It will only get worse if you try and block it out" explained Prue.

"But it hurts." cried Paige.

"It's going to hurt Paige. You were Raped but you are stronger than them. You are a beautiful young woman with a wonderful heart. You cannot let them win Paigey. You are a fighter honey. But you need to believe that you deserve to be helped." said Prue.

Paige was quiet for a second.

"But a part of me doesn't think I deserve it." said Paige.

"Why?" asked Prue.

"Because I feel guilty and I know that I shouldn't. I feel ugly and stupid." said Paige.

"You need to stop thinking that right now! This is not your fault none of it. And you are beautiful and so smart you don't even know. Paige I just want you to get the help you need so you can get back to normal. I miss my missy Paige." said Prue.

"Me too." said Paige laying her head on Prue's shoulder as she stopped crying.

Prue pulled Paige away from her and looked at Paige. She wiped the tears away.

"Let's go home okay." said Prue.

"Okay." said Paige.

Prue gave Paige a quick hug again and they began to walk home. Paige held onto Prue's hand. Prue looked at Paige and smiled.

"Phoebe..." said Paige trying to wake her.

Phoebe stirred in her sleep. Paige knew that she was having a bad dream. Her face was contorted in fear. Paige saw the tears running down Phoebe's face. She couldn't help but feel responsible in some way. Suddenly Phoebe shot up in her bed. She began to cry hysterically. Paige hugged her.

"I'm so sorry Paige." cried Phoebe.

"No don't. It wasn't your fault. I'm sorry that I made you think it was. I love you Phoebe I was just mad at myself." explained Paige.

"I should have told you earlier." said Phoebe.

"It wouldn't have changed anything. I've spent the last month wishing that I could change things but the truth is we can't. We just have to learn how to take these things and learn from it. What doesn't kill us can only make us stronger right?"

"Yeah i guess." said Phoebe.

"I know. Remember what mom always used to say?"

"Everything happens for a reason. But what's the reason for all this?"

"I don't know yet but maybe it was to bring us all back together if that makes any sense. Whatever the reason I can't spend my whole life being afraid or hating seth and them. I have to move on eventually or i am going to be a wreck for the rest of my life. I don't want that. I want to be normal and happy again. I want you guys to yell at me for not cleaning my room or not eating my vegetables again and stop being afraid t say something that might trigger a flashback or hurt me. I want to be me. I want to argue with you about taking each others clothes and about who's going to tell Prue that we totally ruined her leather jacket which was you by the way. I want us to move on but stay close." said Paige.

"It's going to take some time Paige. It won't happen over night. You know that right?" said Phoebe.

"Yeah of course but I'm willing to fight." said Paige.

"I know you are." said Phoebe.

Paige hugged Phoebe.

"Oh and for the record it was Piper that ruined Prue's jacket. I just let you take the blame." confessed Phoebe.

"I got grounded for that Phoebe! But don't worry I knew what you did and that was why I told Prue that you snuck out to the party last year." said Paige.

Phoebe pushed Paige lightly. Paige lost her balance and fell off the bed. Phoebe looked over the bed immediately to see if Paige was okay. Both Paige and Phoebe started to laugh hysterically.

Piper and Prue smiled as they heard there little sisters enjoying laughing.

"Wow it sounds like Paige is beginning to feel better." said Piper.

"Yeah." said Prue, "She's just got so much anger and guilt built. If we can't help her we have to take her to a professional."

"You think she would actually go or talk for that matter. You know Paige she isn't stupid. There is no way we could trick her into going. It would have to be totally her decision." Piper pointed out.

"She said that she wants to get back to normal. She wants to move on. We can only do so much. We can't understand how she's feeling because none of us have ever been through it." said Prue.

Piper knew that that was a lie. There was someone who knew exactly what Paige was going through. She just wouldn't admit it.

"Yes there is." said Piper.

Prue looked at Piper waiting for her to finish her statement but from Piper's look she knew exactly who she was talking about. But how could she have known.

"Who?" asked Prue.

"You." said Piper.

Prue had never told anyone about what happened to her. She had secretly gone to a party behind grams' back and that was where it happened. She never even told Grams. She got help from a school counselor and when she first started working she went to a professional and got a full recovery. She still had the occasional nightmare but she was better. She had moved on with her life and was herself again. She never told her family because she didn't want her sisters to think that she was weak. And she didn't want them to be scared for her. She loved them so much and she didn't want them to think less of her. She remembered feeling just as Paige did know: lost, angry, confused, scared, and most of all guilty. She had actually believed that she deserved to be hurt. She just didn't want to face the fact that she had been raped.

"Piper I don't wan't to talk about it."

"But Prue its for Paige. Me and Phoebe don't have to listen. We don't have to know anything. But Paige needs you. She needs to know that she isn't alone. You said it yourself she's scared and me and Phoebe are the ones can only do so much. I'm sorry to say this but Prue you are the only one who can truly get through to her. She won't talk to a professional." said Piper.

"Piper I can't." said Prue.

"Why not?"

"Because why would I want my baby sister to know that I was raped?"

Well there you go everyone a chapter and a twist a twofer lol.

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