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Chapter 14- Drifting

The next day I woke up and immediately sat up. Oh crap I forgot to stay up until Edward got here. Did he come or did he just go home. I looked around at my now tiny room and saw Edward sitting next to me. "Good morning beautiful," said Edward as he kissed the top of my head lovingly.

"Morning handsome," I countered back as I stretched and yawned at the same time. "I'm so glad there's no school today! I needed the break. And with so many things happening this week I don't think I can keep up with it all."

"Well your dad is already at work and El has been taking her shower for like an hour now so I thought I'd make you breakfast," said Edward as he led me to the kitchen and to what looked like a feast of food in front of me.

"Oh my gosh I can't possibly eat this all!" I complained as I got a plate and fork before sitting down. I scooped a couple things on my plate until I was satisfied and started eating slowly, conscious of Edward's eyes on me.

"Good morning Edward!" said Elena as she came down the stairs in a skimpy dress. She was about to kiss Edward on the cheek but he resisted and held her away. "Aw come on Edward remember yesterday? That was a lovely kiss don't you think? At least you weren't tempted by blood as you are with my sister."

I slouched as I heard those words. She was right but Edward never think that way. He loved me, it didn't matter that I was so tempting. He risked it to be around me. "Good morning El," I said with a smile but Elena didn't return it and instead sat down next to Edward and me.

"So I was thinking that we could work on my control around humans today Edward. Wouldn't that be fun? And then maybe we could go shopping for some new clothes. I've been really wanting to go to Juicy and Hollister lately," said Elena, flirting with Edward again.

"No thanks I was thinking of spending the day with my girlfriend. We were going to go to somewhere special," said Edward, annunciating girlfriend so that Elena would know he was taken.

"Well I bet Carlisle will say differently. He told me that you had the best control since you haven't killed or taken a bit of Bella yet," said Elena as Edward winced visibly.

"And may it never come to that," said Edward with a shudder.

"So what do you say Eddy? Are you going to do it?" asked Elena with her famous pout. I scowled at El as Edward simply nodded and they started to head out. "We're going to have so much fun! Bella see you later!"

I watched Edward leave for the second time, choosing Elena over me again. I sighed as I put the extra food in containers and that in the refrigerator. Maybe today would be fine alone, homework needed to be done anyway and I wouldn't be able to do it with Edward here anyway.

I got out my Biology homework. We had to take notes on cells. So easy. This was going to be like grade school work so it would be easy. The rest would be a little more time consuming but I had the whole day to do it so I didn't mind.

During the time I did my homework, I took a shower to wash my hair and shave my legs but by the time I finished all my homework it was twelve o'clock and my stomach growled, announcing lunchtime. I smiled down at my stomach and got up, putting my things back in my bag. Maybe I would go have lunch with Edward today. I think Elena had enough Edward time. Now it was my turn.

I drove to Edward's house in my car, quickly. I didn't really care about driving the speed limit; I missed Edward so much. I got there with a smug smile on my face. It only took fifteen minutes.

I came in the front door and ran up the stairs to Edward's room and opened the door. I had a smile on my face but that vanished as I saw Edward with her. Most of their clothes were off and they were kissing much more passionately then I even could in my human state. "Sorry Edward," I mumbled as a single tear cascaded from my eye.

I closed behind my quietly and was faced with Alice, Jasper, and Esme with sorrowful looks on their faces. "We're so sorry Bella. We don't know how it happened," said Esme's motherly voice as she reached out to put a reassuring hand on my shoulder but I just flinched away.

"I just wasn't a good enough girlfriend for Edward I guess," I said quietly and slowly went down the stairs. I couldn't think of anything, I didn't know what to do; I was so numb, maybe shock.

I left the car Edward had given me and started walking toward home. It would be better not to have Edward so close to my memory now. It wouldn't help the situation. It was just really hard to accept that Edward didn't choose me over my sister and she won once again.

The rain started to pour down and I was glad the world was crying for me because I couldn't. It was like my tear ducts didn't have any water in them. I wanted to cry because it felt so much better to have a good cry but I couldn't even have that could I?

I shivered, I was already soaked but that was bodily reflex. I didn't feel the cold, I didn't feel the blush that had risen to paint my cheeks; I couldn't feel anything. It would be so much better if I were paralyzed then to have to feel this kind of pain.

I don't know what time I got home, I couldn't tell day from night in such a state. I just got home, made Charlie his favorite dinner and locked myself in my room. At least my door had a lock now.

I curled up in my covers and laid there looking at the plain white walls, as plain as I was in the end compared to the rainbow of my sister. At least I hadn't taken pictures of him, now I won't have to throw them away. At least he never gave me anything, or I would have to give it away.

It was Twilight and my bottled up emotions exploded and my calm aura turned to tears and stifled gasps. He really doesn't love me anymore. Probably only wanted to have a fling with a human just for kicks and then move onto her sister for a joke. Well it wasn't very funny.

In time I curled myself up in a ball and put myself in a corner, repeating to myself, "It's okay," so I wouldn't have to feel my whole heart shatter. Because I had already given my heart for Edward and he had thrown it precariously away. He didn't care for an average human like me, just about himself.

It didn't end there as I heard Charlie pull up to the driveway. He was home, I thought as I picked myself up, fixed my hair and washed myself before even thinking of seeing Charlie. "Hey," I said to Charlie in a weak voice as I gave him a frail hug.

"Hey Bells, it looks like you're sick. Go to bed and get some rest. If you really need to I'll call in sick for you tomorrow," said Charlie as he kissed my head and I went back into my room.

I went back to my room, a little calmer but I knew really I was being smashed to bits little by little. He was gone. It was quick, I had only known him little over a month or so but that didn't matter. I knew people that had relationships that only lasted two days. This was just one that didn't work out.

I felt a knot in my chest as I sat down on my bed. It hurt too. It felt as if someone was sawing out the middle of my chest to extract my heart that way. And now it was empty as my life had been before I came here and now is again.

I laid down in my bed again, cringing from the pain every now and then but not having the heart to yelp in pain. It wasn't worth it to be worried about me. Everyone kicked me on the streets anyway; nobody cares. It wasn't fair that it had to be me though. Everyone who had it like me would probably say that but it's so true. So dejected and unwanted it was just cruel. We couldn't even get one person to care about us long enough.

I slept, crying myself silently to sleep, knowing that Charlie wasn't comfortable around people that were hurt and Elena hating me so much. The…They couldn't even see me anymore. They probably pitied my sorry life because it was so sad it was funny. No friends…anymore, my family, being controlled by the notorious Elena, and everyone else didn't even see me.