Part 14

***Jensen POV***
After I finished my song I of course got asked for an encore, but when I looked to see if y/n was still there, she was nowhere to be found. I looked to Jared to Gen for Gen to shake her head at me with a sad look on her face. I had to find y/n. I excused myself from the stage to run to the table.

"Where did y/n go?" I asked Gen and Jared as I scanned the room.

"Brock took her back to her room." Gen replied.

I took off to get to her.

"Jensen wait!" Jared yelled after me.

I stopped reluctantly. "What Jared?"

"Look…I don't know what's going on through your head, but please just remember our conversation a few days ago. Gen and I support you in whatever decision you make, but keep in mind the repercussions as well. We love you AND Daneel, but want you guys to be happy, no matter what that means."

***Flashback to a few days prior to the convention***

"It feels good to get out just the two of us," Jared said to Jensen.

"I know man. I'm FINALLY off of house arrest..."

"So uh...since you kinda brought it up...how's it going between you and Daneel?"

Jensen let out a heavy sigh. "I dunno man...I really don't...I'm just so tired."

"It'll work out man."

"Really Jared? Will it? I'm so tired of TRYING...I thought by now I'd AT LEAST be 'able' to talk to whomever I wanted, but no. Even just to get to go out with you tonight was a fight...I can't...I can't keep doing this. The constant fighting, the lack of trust, the control or lack thereof on my part...I tried...I REALLY did and it's getting me nowhere."

"I had no idea...I'm sorry J. I thought things were picking up, seeing how you guys are whenever you come over."

"Yeah well we are actors right? And apparently better ones than I thought..."

"Look, whatever you decide. Gen and I will be there. No choosing sides, no cutting one off, no bias opinions ok. We know you tried, but if you REALLY think that it's over, then...then end it...BUT...I want you to make sure your judgement isn't being clouded by anything..."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

Now Jared let out a heavy sigh. "I mean y/n..."

"What about y/n? I haven't even been able to see her, let alone speak to her since I've been trying to work things out with Daneel. And we're just friends and-"

"Whoa. J...slow down bud...I'm just saying...everyone has seen how you guys have looked at each other and the chemistry between you two."

"Chemistry? What chemistry?"

"J...you guys can have witty flirtatious banter for hours and when you do, you have to touch each other in some way. A touch on the arm, a light slap across the chest, a body bump...we all just kinda think there might be something more there. Even if you two are afraid to admit it."

Jensen let out a heavy sigh and ran a hand over and down his face. He thought about what Jared had said. He thought back to all the times you guys used to hang out. Then he thought about that night he spent over at your place and how easy it was and how at home he felt.
***end flashback***

***Your POV****

"I honestly don't even know where to start..." he looked at you like a man that was truly lost, a little scared, and something else you couldn't quite put your finger on. He kept avoiding looking at you after you just stared at him trying to read him and it made you nervous.

"Hey," you placed your hand on his knee. "It'll be ok. I promise I meant every word of that song. I've missed you. I've missed having my best friend in my life."

He let out a scoff and you felt hurt at the gesture, which then turned into making you mad. A mixture of your normally short fuse plus alcohol in your system only made it shorter and then to have him kiss you and now scoff in your face. Your emotions were too out of control. You got up and started to make your way to the door, but you didn't get far before Jensen had a grip around your wrist.

"Y/n…stop…I didn't mean to sound like a jerk about that. It's just…I've had a lot on mind, a lot of people saying things to me, and then to hear you call me just a friend…"

"What do you mean calling you just a friend?" You started to feel your heart rate quicken. Was everyone right? All the assumptions that he felt something more for you...did you really feel more for him?

"I mean…is there more than that?"

"Maybe…but it wouldn't matter, because there can't be…"

"And if there could?"

You let out a frustrated sigh. Why did it matter if there could be? He was still married. You couldn't think of him like that and still be friends with him. You didn't want to lose him at all. You had come to love him, as a friend, as confidant, as someone you don't want to live without.

"Y/n?"

"Jensen…I don't know what you want me to say. I don't want to lose you and I feel that no matter what I say, I'll lose you in some form or fashion and I can't live with that."

"I don't want to lose you either. You've become such an influence to me and my life…and that's why I need to ask you something…"

"You know you can ask me anything." You sat back down right next to him, turned slightly to face him. You held his hand in yours as he held yours back.

He let out a tension filled sigh, "Ok…Do you think I should divorce Daneel?"

(End of part 14….ok…so here's a little time to vote. Let me know what you think your character should say/do. I have an idea of what I want to do, but could use some input too. Thanks for reading!)