Chapter 14
BoA-My prayer
Micky POV:
I stared at Junsu who held out a bag towards me. I looked across from me, at my brothers who all seemed to be hesitating just like me. Not one of us was used to receiving gifts or presents. Especially from people we barely even knew.
"Uhm…Thanks." I said awkwardly and shyly to Junsu. I carefully took the bag out of his hand and looked back at him. I didn't tear into the bag like I would have if one of my own brothers had given me the present. All I could do was stare at Junsu. He was cute and nice, and I couldn't help but to feel that we'd be really good friends once I let my guard down.
However, for now my guard was still up and it would be up for awhile. No matter what it looked like to everyone else, I was not a person who was raised up and did not worry about falling back down. I just didn't have enough trust in people to let myself go like that. You can thank my parents, or the way I lived…but that's how I lived. I didn't live recklessly and I never will. Once my brothers and I reach our dream, then I might be able to let my guard down. I might be ready to open my heart up and start letting go of my worries.
While I was daydreaming, I realized I had been staring at Junsu. He was probably thinking I was a creep for staring at him for so long. I quickly looked down and away. I felt nervous all of a sudden…and my heart was racing.
"Open your gifts later boys. Eat breakfast first. The most important thing to a good start of everyday is a healthy, filling breakfast. We have a long day ahead of us." Our manager said. Jaejoongie hyung collected all our gifts and ran them up to his room before we all sat down to eat.
Even though I was hungry I ate slowly. I could only think about what the gift was…and Junsu's face. His expressions, his silly and goofy laugh and his smile. I shook my head, why was I thinking about all this? However, I couldn't stop smiling to myself and beginning to eat faster. Our time before we had to leave was quickly running out. It was true that it was going to be a long day, but it was a day towards our future. A day where we were finally going to achieve a part of our dream and a day where we would be able to get to know everyone a little bit better. It was looking to be a fun, but interesting day and I was excited. I wondered if everyone else was just as excited, but nervous as me.
While I ate, I glanced over at Junsu and watched as he ate his own food next to Eunhyuk. 'They must be close,' I thought. I'm sure they were. They looked the same age, and acted around the same age. I was startled when I felt an elbow poke me roughly in the ribs. I turned my head to see Donghae staring at me with his narrowed eyes.
"Eat! Stop staring. It isn't polite." Donghae whispered with a small smirk on his face. I poked him back in the ribs with my own elbow, but a bit harder. Donghae glared at me. I stuck my tongue out before smiling innocently at him. I looked away from him and snuck a quick look at Junsu. Did…did he just look at me too? I looked away real fast but then back at him real quick. He was eating his food and staring at it. It must have been part of my imagination…
I began to eat my breakfast again, but why was my heart racing?
Junsu POV:
I was kind of upset that I wouldn't get to see the member's faces but quickly overlooked it when the thought of food came up. I was starving and I would need my energy for today. I felt like it would be a lot of fun. I sat down next to Eunhyuk and waited for the food to be served. My thoughts returned to Micky. I don't know what it was about that man that made my heart beat faster everytime I looked at him and standing there looking at him with the present in my hand I thought my heart would explode.
I quickly ate when the food arrived, only stopping every now and a while to talk to my Eunhyuk, who liked to eat and talk at the same time. It was then that I noticed Eunhyuk had seemed really excited to go to work today and I had a feeling that he really wanted to see that boy… Siwon. Everyone else had seemed to get along with the other members well but Eunhyuk only seemed to have that boy on his mind. I wanted to slap Eunhyuk and tell him there were more important things to think about but I also assumed that Eunhyuk really liked Siwon and I didn't want to put off that I didn't agree to it at all so I just kept eating.
When I looked over to listen to Eunhyuk I noticed that Micky was looking at me from across the table. He quickly looked away and so did I, but only to try and keep my laughter in. Micky had a grain of rice to the side of his lip. I really wanted to laugh but I couldn't. I mean I knew I could be strange, but laughing out in the middle of breakfast everyone would have thought I went mad.
"Yah… Are you listening?" Eunhyuk punched me. I looked up surprised but a grin quickly rose to my face and I shook my head. He pouted and looked to Yunho who only glared at him. I laughed. It seemed like hyung was still mad at him a little or atleast wanted him to calm down. I shook my head and continued eating.
I was the first one to finish eating so I just stayed at the table, looking around to everyone one at a time. First to Ryeowook who looked so small and frightened that I really wondered what could have happened to him and I really wanted to become a good hyung to him. My eyes moved over to Yesung who seemed happy at the thought that he now had someone close to… sort of… it wasn't really like Ryeowook talked that much. I skipped over Eunhyuk who was still pouting and who I had too much contact with all ready. I looked to Jaejoong next who looked really strong and really pretty… which was weird for a guy. Yunho hyung was always handsome and brave and I wished I could be more like him. Next was Donghae who seemed to be a bubbly person but there was also something deeper in him that was hiding it seemed. Then my eyes finally landed on Micky again and I felt my breathing get shallower and my heart to pump just a little faster.
I hit my face trying to tell myself that I just worked out a little too hard last night and I grabbed the glass of water by my plate. I began chugging it down but ended up spitting it back out and coughing. Eunhyuk patted my back as I kept coughing.
"Are you okay?" Eunhyuk asked and began pounding my back even harder. I nodded and slipped off my chair to go to the restroom. I ran cold water over my face and then patted my face dry before looking at myself in the mirror.
"Aish, Junsu… You pabo… That was so embarrassing…" I talked to myself and I noticed how squeaky my voice had gotten. I slapped my face before walking back out into the dining room and sat down next to Eunhyuk again. I gave my apologies to everyone and then stared straight at the countertop too afraid to look up to see if Micky was looking at me.