A/N: Woot woot chapter 14!

Chapter 14: First 'Date' and China Ellis

*My POV* (Still Monday)

Craig was relaxing on his bed when his roommate walked in, grinning and obviously hiding something behind his back. The silver eyed boy sat up and cocked his head questioningly, not liking to have anything hidden from him.

"What do you have?" He demanded, squinting his orbs. Kenny stepped closer, bringing a bag from his backside. The brunette reached in the package and shyly held out the present. The raven just stared at it. In front of him was a soft plushie stuffed guinea pig, big enough to fit both of his hands. The fur was black and white, with brown paws, the eyes were gleaming green. A deeper green ribbon tied around it's neck to finish it off. Craig grabbed the toy, still gazing and face unreadable.

"I-I know it's probably too late to g-give you a get well gift," The McCormick fiddled with his fingers, "But here you go! I just wanted to get you something for what happened." Oh no, he doesn't like it! Look at how he's just staring at it!, He thought. Surprisingly and alarmingly, Craig smiled.

"Thank you, how did you know I love guinea pigs?" Shit he's too sweet, too kind! However this toy is so adorable..The raven thought hopelessly and frantically, still trying to ignore his emotions.

"Eh, it was a guess." Kenny hesitantly and abruptly sat down next to the raven, peering into his face and brushing away the long bang. Fuck the bastard's too close and he's touching me! I can't move, my heart is beating too quickly, The Tucker stimulated, biting his lip.

"I'm so sorry, I can't believe I put in you in such danger." The brunette apologized, observing the healing marks on his crush's face. He noted that above the right eyebrow it had a small stitching. The 4 gashes(2 on either side) on his cheeks seemed to shrunk a bit and were glued or stitched together. Why did he had to get hurt in my mess? Why does someone I love always get punished from being with me?

"It's f-fine. Like I-I said, you couldn't s-stop me from going with y-you. You shouldn't say sorry, you s-saved my life. If a-anything I should be thanking y-you.." Craig muttered, averting his eyes. I'm just glad that you're alive, the raven mused secretly and humiliating from having such thoughts.

"But still, you have permanent scars while I die and come back healthy, it's not fair. How's your skull, did the tiny crack heal properly?" The hazel orb boy worried, caressing the teen's head gently.

"Mhm, t-though I c-can't wash m-my hair for about a-another 3 days." Tucker stuttered, cheeks fainting a light pink from the delicate fondle. "I b-barely feel any pain, didn't I tell y-you to q-quit touching me?" The more he lays his hands on me, the harder it gets for me to ignore my feelings!

"Sorry I forgot." Kenny giggled, removing his hand. "May you show me your other injuries?" Craig lifted his long sleeved of his slightly muscled left arm, there was a stitched scar that ran horizontal. After the raven saw the brunette's concern face, he pulled the sleeve back down. I wonder if I should show him the marks on my back...no he'll just feel more bad, he probably forgot about that injury anyways, He pondered. Unfortunately, the McCormick remembered what he was told.

"What about the stab marks to your back?" He asked. That's so nice, he doesn't want to show me all of his scars because he doesn't want me to worry too much, Kenny gushed silently, reading Craig's stormy eyes. The Tucker huffed and nodded reluctantly. Ken got up and went behind him, the teen lifted his shirt a bit. The brunette bit his tongue, keeping him from moaning in grief. Craig's lean back had a long gash that went diagonally from his right shoulder blade to his lower left section. He couldn't help but gingerly touch the scar, the raven stiffen at the airy strokes of Kenny's fingertips along his bare skin.

"Q-quit fucking t-touching me!" Craig pulled his shirt back down, the brunette got up and sat in front of him again, gazing in the other teen's silver eyes.

"...Do you really hate it when I touch or kiss you? Is it really that awful?"

"...Y-Yes, in a w-way.." The raven answered unsure. Why is he asking me such a thing? I mean, I don't exactly hate it when he feels me, but again, I haven't made an decision on what to do yet.

The Tucker fidgeted uncomfortably under the McCormick's deep stare. Kenny suddenly leaned forward, just stopping centimeters before Craig's lips. The raven sucked in his breath from the unexpected proximity, his heart pounded hard. The brunette snaked his arms around the shocked boy's neck.

"I love you, a lot. Please don't be afraid of that." Ken whispered depressingly and determinedly. "I'll wait for you for as long as it takes, one day you will accept me, and I'll be right here for you. I love being with you, I love cuddling you, I love kissing you, and I love looking at you. I love you Craig Tucker, I can't express that enough.." He raised his head to kiss the raven's eyebrow softly. The Tucker blushed furiously from the words and shoved Kenny off.

"D-don't say t-that to me." The raven mumbled, turning away. "I d-don't want y-you to love me. You d-don't know how my c-chest tightens every time you say t-things like that." The McCormick studied his crush's stormy distressed orbs. Please Craig, tell me why you can't feel the same way...Kenny begged quietly, then forced a giggled, hiding his sadness like usual.

"You're so cute, you know that? Well, I'm going to give Kevin his present." He picked up the bag and headed to the door, then at last thought he said,

"Remember when I told you what to do about your problem? 'Just listen to your heart.' So, please, listen to your heart Craig."

*Kenny's POV*

I found my favorite brother lounged on the couch in the living room. He perked up when I appeared in front of him, I smiled.

"Guueess whaaaat I gooot?" I sung, waving the bag in his face.

"Hmm," Kevin sniffed in a humorous manner. "I smell...Sugar Cookies! Oh you little sly dog you, give it here!" I laughed as he reached up to snatch the package, he has a thing for these cookies.

"Ah ah, what do you say to your little bro for buying you a late get well gift?" I teased. He rubbed his chin in deep thought.

"Uhm, I say, 'if you don't fucking give me my damn mother fucking cookies I'll snap your leg?'" He smiled innocently. "Is that what I say?"

"Hm, let me think about that, oh yea no!" The next thing I knew, I was being pulled down onto his lap, I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist and arms around his neck. The old position caused him and I to blush awkwardly. Kevin grinned sneakily and jerked the bag from my hands, tearing into the basket and gulping down 5 cookies already.

"Thanks Kenny, you didn't have to give me this." He said through chewing, I reached in and grabbed me one as well. "So, watcha get block face, I know you gave him something."

"Hehe is it that obvious? I got him a plushie toy guinea pig, ooh I should have shown you it before I handed it to him." I gushed. "It's soo cute, like him! Craig said he loved it."

"Pfft, you're making me more envious of him every time you say his name." Kevin shook his head chuckling. He brought his face to my cheek and licked off the crumbs slowly. Even though I knew this was just a normal gesture(for us anyways), my blush deepened and I buried my head in his chest. I felt his heart beating the same rate as mines, quickly.

"I'm sorry, I couldn't resist. Your face is right next to mines with crumbs all over it." My brother apologized embarrassed. "I'm just making this harder for you to get over me, am I?" I unwillingly nodded.

"Kyle told me, that I don't have to get over you, as long as I know that I can never date you again." I lifted my head up and smiled gratefully. "I can keep loving you like I always had." Kevin's eyes widen, then relaxed. He lowered his head on my chest.

"Really Ken, you say the darnest things."

"No, I mean it. I want to still love you, and Craig. It's better this way for me, I don't feel like I'm losing you while having affections for someone else."

"You'd never lose me, how many times will I have to tell you this?" He nuzzled my neck with his head. "You know, our brother relationship is very abnormal."

"That's so true." I laughed. "How do regular brothers even act?"

"Hmm. First off, regular brothers don't sit in each other's lap like this, and enjoy it." Kevin motioned to the way I was on him.

"Wait, who said I was enjoying this?" I demanded. He lifted his face and raised an eyebrow at me, I pouted. "Fine, I am. Regular brothers don't lick each other's cheeks and like it."

"Regular brothers don't say they love them in that way."

"Regular brothers never kiss each other."

"Regular brothers never slept with each other.'

"Regular brothers don't go on saying what regular brothers do." We laughed.

"Let's face it Ken, we've never been the 'everyday siblings'. I don't want to change that. "

"Pfft, me either. We've done too many things to try to change anyways. Speaking of siblings, how's Kare?"

"Ah, have you read her diary lately? It said she was soo close to confessing to Mad, but she wimped out. I swear, I'll hurt that girl."

"Haha, she only has 4 more days until the dance comes." A thought occurred to me that should have came a while ago. "Oh my god! How are you? How's the wounds healing? And oh my Jesus! Your leg got cut and I'm sitting on your lap, oh my damn-"

"Kenny! Calm down, I'm fine. They've given me pain medicine so I could walk easier. The stitches are nice and fit and my tooth will grow back. Everything's alright." I sighed relieved.

"That's-" I couldn't finish my sentence, as we saw our mom staring at us strangely and confused. Kevin and I looked from her, to our position of me sitting wrapped on his lap. It took us at least a good minute to realize the situation and remove our selves from each other.

"H-Hey mom..." The shaven head teen greeted nervously.

"Yea, h-hello." I stuttered. How long was she standing there!(?)

"...What were...uhm...well, never mind! Can you boys come with me into the guestroom? Your father and I would like to speak to you guys, and your sister." My brother and I glanced at each other, when was the last time they wanted a conversation with all 3 of us?

"Uh, ok."

We walked into their room and saw Karen already sitting on the bed, we sat on either side of her. Mom closed the door, dad was the first to speak.

"Kids, I'm sure you guys know your parents aren't experts on long speeches, so this'll be short. We want to say, we're sorry." I promise that you could hear a pen drop.

"We've given up on a lot of things in our lives, and it affected you all." Mom stated, clasping her hands. "We wasted all of our cash on drugs and beer, it's our fault that we lost our home, which wasn't even much."

"We put you through so much suffering, and we did nothing about it." Dad went on. "We are aware that you two, Kevin and Kenny, did drugs and drank with us, also prostituted yourselves. We aren't ashamed of that fact, we're not angry."

"You two did something that we could never do, get a job and get money for the family." Mom praised. "We're proud, also of you Karen. You were and still is strong during those times. We're just so, so sorry for our faults. But, it might not seem it, we do love you guys."

"Believe it. You three fill in our hearts at night when we dream. We know that we must be the most neglectful, pathetic, pitiful-"

"Oh just stop it!" Karen wailed, running up to dad and throwing her arms around him. "You two are the best parents I know! My brothers and I don't care about your mistakes, we don't care what bad things you've done! All we care about is if you love us, and you do. That's all that matters..."

Mom glanced from Kare to us, uncertain.

"Is...is that true?" She gasped. Kevin and I exchanged looks, I had to answer.

"Y-Yes mom. We thought that you must love the drugs and alcohol more than us." I fidgeted.

"We never really had that parental affection, you know?" Kevin finished, his green eyes watering. Mom came and embraced us.

"We promise you that we'll get a job and get a better house. Ms. and Mrs. Tucker are kind enough to help us with that." Dad informed, kissing the top of Karen's head.

"You guys can't keep living this way, so starting today, we're no longer going to hide things or do retarded mistakes." Mom told us. When she let go, my siblings and I started glancing at each other, talking in our minds. We silently made the decision to tell our secrets, Kare went first.

"M-mom, dad? We have something to say too." She went back and sat between Kevin and I again. "I'm bi-curious and has a crush on Mad." My sister grinned timidly.

"Kenny and I love each other and had sex before." Kevin confessed, gazing at them right in the eye, crap now it's my turn.

"I'm in love with Craig, and the times I go missing, I actually die." I avoided my eyes from them. It was silent for a long moment, a very uncomfortable, uneasy moment. Finally, dad recalled he had a voice.

"Ok, let me get t-this straight. Our daughter is bi-curious, that's fine. Our two sons had sex and dated, not so fine. And one of our sons dies and comes back, what the hell?"

"Stuart, language!" Mom scolded. "W-would you children, m-mind telling us a little m-more about this?"

We sighed in unison, knowing we're going to be here for awhile to tell the whole story. For the next hour, we explained how Karen gets the idea of being bi-curious from Kevin and I, we explained how my brother and I relationship started just as an act for money, then got deeper. We explained the times I die and how we don't know why I come back. We explained my situation with Craig, and it took another 20 minutes for them to believe all of this was true. We also told them the new things they probably didn't know about, for example, my new job bagging food or about the real reason why Kevin and Craig had gotten injured. It was nice, having a family chit chat like this, even if this is our first. After our talk, Kevin and I left the room, Karen stayed to get tips about picking up women from dad (never get tips from dad on anything).

"I don't know about you, but I was scared shitless telling them all that." I shivered. "I'm so relieved that they're ok with it."

"Right, though I swear I head dad muttered something about 'redneck sons' when we told them how we used to date." Kevin chuckled. "Oh by the way, I won't be going to school for 2 days, and block face. The doctors advised that our body's aren't ready yet."

"Aw I see." I stated.

"Guess what, I have a plan for you to complete step 6." My brother whispered in my ear the mission and details, it was absolutely perfect.

"A-are you sure he'll like it though?" I questioned, Kev just put on a smug smirk.

"Puh-lease I'm always right."

*Craig's POV*(Tuesday Morning)

I woke up in bed to see Kenny on his side of attic, reading a book. I glanced at the clock and it was way past to being tardy for school.

"Dude, why the hell are you here? Why aren't you in school?" I ordered, not liking that my day of 6 hours not seeing the brunette has vanished.

"Since you took care of my body when I was dead, I'll take care of yours!" The brunette answered cheerfully. "Good morning. By the way, you held the guinea pig so adorably while you were sleeping."

That comment made me realized I was holding Cow in my arms, (I named the toy guinea pig Cow because it's black and white), I have to admit, he is soft and comfy. But wait, Kenny is going to take care of me all day? Oh hell no this is not good, I'm still recovering from yesterday of how he said he loves me for like the 3rd time! Not to mention what happened in the shower...and if he's staying here, what about his job?

"What are you going to do about work, you've missed enough days already when you were dead." I told him, yea that'll make him leave.

"When it's time, I'll go to Finney's Market, and come back. By then everyone else should be home from either work or school. Ah, and Kevin is at a friends house resting instead of here." My roommate informed.

"Well, I could take care of myself! I don't need you to help me, my wounds are healing just fine. I didn't need you all those other days while I was hurt." I retorted.

"Ok, then try turning in bed." He challenged. I attempted to twist and failed miserably. As soon as I tried moving my side, my back ached. "The bandages gave you some kind of support, though now it's gone, you have me."

"Grr, fine you could stay, you're wasting your time though."

"Yay!" Kenny cheered. "I'm not wasting my time, I get to spend most of my day alone with you. It's practically a date!" He winked his hazel orbs, I blushed faintly.

"It's not a date." I groaned, getting up. "I'm going to go wash my face and-" He had halted me before I could leave.

"I'll wash your face for you." He offered.

"The f-fuck! I think I could clean myself up Kenny, move!"

*Kenny's POV*(Kitchen)

The plan that Kevin had told me yesterday was to get a 'date' with Craig, since it's clear that I barely spend time with him during my schedule. Kev would be at his friends house so I'll have at least a good 5 or 6 hours with my love. Perhaps this will be enough for him to accept me. I'm in the kitchen, going to make him pancakes when he walked in.

"What are you doing?" He inquired, studying me taking out bowls and a frying pan.

"I'll make you breakfast!" I chirped, Craig gave me the 'once-over'.

"I don't trust your cooking, like I don't trust your brother's driving." The raven grunted, sitting down.

"Aww but you know that I'm in Home Ed so-"

"Still no." He interrupted, "I'll just have some cereal."

"Alright," I sighed, "You could have at least asked for sausage biscuits. Why do you people always pick cereal?" I reached up and got the Coco Puffs Madeleine was eating and made two bowls. I pulled up a seat and sat next to him, we ate.

"Where's your parents? The house seems really empty." The raven commented. I could tell Craig's uncomfortable from it just being us here.

"Ah, they're out looking for a job." Oh craps, what do you do on a first date? I have no idea of how to talk with this boy! And sitting here quiet with him all day is just a big waste. Luckily, he started the conversation, though shaky.

"Uhm, w-what do you do with your f-friends?" I blinked.

"Everything! Mostly dumb stuff though. Like one time, we fought over who'd be better in a bikini-don't ask-and Bebe and Butters were judges, it was hilarious! Kyle came in 1st, Stan and I tied, of course Cartman came last." I chuckled, unexpectedly Craig smirked amused.

"Trust me, my crew's much worse. I don't know if you remembered, but we had wandered why every time somebody got drunk, they'd forget everything that happened, that was our 8th grade science project. Somehow Token gotten us Aspen Edge and Tweek video taped us, since he was too afraid to drink. We've gotten an perfect A from our teacher and 2 months of being grounded." He laughed, I was in awe.

"I-I'm utterly I-impressed! Craig Tucker actually drank before, wow." I remarked, he grinned sheepishly. "What did you guys do while drunk, even better, where was I when ya'll did this?"

"Well, in the beginning of the tape, we had just started drinking. 45 minutes later, all of us were shirtless since it was 'hot', Token was on the floor knocked out, Clyde was puking in the bathroom, and I was flirting with the lamp. An hour later of more drinking, we were all singing Christmas songs for some reason. 10 minutes later we were crying about how much we love each other, then 2 minutes later we started yelling how much we hated each other. Finally, it ended up with us laying on one another on the couch asleep. During the whole video you'll hear Tweek freaking out in the background, without no one to calm him." I burst out laughing, he joined me.

"What about you? What swimsuits did ya'll wear?"

"Pfft, Cartman worn a light brown halter with pink flowers and a matching bikini bottom. I know it's a gross image, but the outfit itself was pretty. Stan worn a black and blue frilly triangle bikini top and thong that looked hot. Kyle had a red strapless with white polka dots and matching tight short shorts, plain sexy. I had a white spaghetti strap with black tiny butterflies scattered on it and a black bikini bottom with a white ribbon wrapped around it." I giggled.

"Damn, I wish I could have seen how stupid ya'll looked." Craig chuckled, I grabbed my cell on the table and went to the pictures, I shown him. He laughed at my friends poses and appearance, then looked away and blushed at mines, I smirked. "I look like a fine girl don't I?"

"J-just hush and finish eating your cereal.." He advised. "...You look ok in a bikini. However, Kyle is clearly the one that does look better."

"Hehe, if you say so." This is going great, we're having fun together! I sighed contently, "This date is going on nicely so far."

"I-it's not a d-date!"

*Craig's POV*(Living room)

After eating our breakfast, we sat on the couch watching T.V.

"How about Sesame Street?" Kenny offered, flipping through the channels.

"Dude, no. I'd rather watch America's next Top Model." He glanced at me.

"Really?"

"No!" I smirked at his disappointment. "You like that show?"

"Mhm, Tyra Banks is so gorgeous and deep with the contestants, I LOVE HER! She's my hero." The brunette faked a sniffle. "I wish I could be like her someday."

"Dude, gay."

"Says the guy who plays with a guinea pig and was obsessed with Hello Kitty." He retaliated smugly, I gaped.

"Hey, don't bring that up! Those were bad times back then."

"Ha, what made you obsessed with Hello Kitty anyway?" Kenny asked, still flipping through channels.

"...She...she's so cute. I couldn't help myself! Especially Chococat, that black cat." I chattered.

"Pfft, she's not as cute as you." Kenny doted, pinching my cheek fondly. I blushed and slapped his hand away.

"Do not t-touch me!" He nodded apologetic.

"Since nothings really on, we're going to watch Spongebob." The brunette turned to the channel and settled on the yellow character, I stared at him.

"Are you serious right now?" I flabbergasted. "We're not little kids anymore."

"Yea but no one is too old for Spongebob, pfft look, Patrick got hit with a coconut!" He laughed cheerfully, pointing at the screen. I glanced at the T.V and couldn't help but crack a smile.

"Fine, I guess your right, the show is just too funny. However if you tell anyone I said that, I'll hurt you." I threaten.

The episode ended and it went on to another one. It was the one when Squidward and Spongebob had to deliver Krusty Krab pizzas. I don't know what came over me, but I scooted closer to the brunette, I had a urge to be near him. I dared a glance at him, and he smiled, gently curling his arm around my waist and resting his head on my shoulder. I didn't want to reject the warmth I had gotten, so I didn't push him the fuck off (like I should have) and fixed my eyes on the T.V. We sat that way for the next 4 episodes, the way he held me was quite comfortable. Shit, bad thoughts, ignore, ignore!

*My POV*

The two teens were back in the attic playing some Naruto game.

"Why'd you pick Kankuro? I'm so going to kill you with Gaara." Craig snorted wisely.

"Kankuro's just as strong! He could easily beat Gaa-chan in shippuden." Kenny insisted. "He has Crow, that puppet, so that's 2 against one!"

"Kankuro is scared shitless of Gaara, he wouldn't dare raise one chakra thread to his younger brother. And what's up with you and puppets anyway?" The brunette giggled shyly.

"I'm a fan boy for guys that use puppets for fighting. Ugh, like Sasori No Danna, he is so hot and freaking epic!" Craig stared at him with a raised brow.

"Sakura murdered him man, and Sakura's weak."

"That's not right, she had the help of Chiyo to defeat him, plus that pink haired bitch is ugly. Hinata's more of my type."

"Hinata isn't that strong either, I like Ino more, she could get inside your mind. Now that's awesome." The raven argued.

"Oh my god, is there anything that we could agree on?" Kenny sighed, they have been disagreeing and disliking each other's favorites for the past 25 minutes.

"Uhm, we both cried when Obito died?" The silver eyed boy suggested.

"Yea! Ok, sweet. Oh, did you get emotional when Naruto and Sasuke fought? I didn't laugh for days." The hazel eyed boy shook his head gloomily.

"Argh, please don't get me on that again. Mad teased me saying 'they're just anime characters', but it's more than that!"

"I know right!"

"Leave nothing, that resembles a soul of a man! Leave him numb, leave him-"

The brunette grabbed his phone and turned off the alarm, checking the time.

"Well, we had a great time so far but, I gotta go to work now." Kenny informed reluctantly, having fun with the raven. "Don't worry, Madeleine and Karen should be back from school, my parents should be back from looking for a job. Your parents don't come back till 6 right?"

"Y-Yea, byes." Craig replied. The brunette studied his roommate's orbs and saw sadness and disappointment flash through them.

"Aww, You want me to stay, don't you?" Kenny gushed, the raven only blushed and averted his gaze. "AWW! That is so sweet, I'll be back, I promise." The McCormick leaned down and kissed his cheek, running out the room before he could get yelled at. Stripe whistled.

"I know, Stripe. I need to decide soon." Craig groaned, wiping his cheek.

*Kenny's POV*(Finney's Market)

"Hi Christine!" I greeted happily at my job partner, she smiled.

"Hiya, you seem great."

"I am, I had my first date with my crush. But on to more important matters. By any chance, have you ever tasted...sausage biscuits?" I questioned, I will spread the wonders of them little by little. Christ gave me a weird look.

"Uhm, sure, why?-Ah that'll be $23.65 sir."

"Because, aren't they just amazing? The biscuit part is nice and soft, also buttery!" During my whole shift I blabbed about the breakfast sandwich. I think Christine will now eat sausage biscuits every morning. One down, 6 million more to go.

*Craig's POV*

I was cheerfully playing with my guinea in peace, when Mad had to burst in. I'm serious, someone always have to ruin my joy time.

"What do you want?" I demanded, petting Stripe's grayish blue fur. My sister had the nerve to walk up, take my friend from me, and sit down. "What the hell!"

"How was spending most of your day with Kenny, hm? Spill." She ordered, I sighed. Of course.

"I have to admit, it was wonderful. He really is kind and funny." Mads nodded approvingly.

"So, that means you've chose to accept your feelings?"

"No, the more I'm starting to like him, the more I'm scared to date him. What if I get too attached to him as I did with her?" I worried. It went silent for a while, then she spoke up.

"Craig, I think it's time. I think you need to confess to Kenny everything that happened. If he still says he loves you, then you better fucking date him. If he rejects you, then I'll fucking choke him, ok?"

"I-it's not that simple! H-"

"Kenny confessed to you about his past didn't he?" Mad pointed out, yet interrupting me. "You said that you look up to him, but you do nothing to be like him."

"What good would it do if I told him? How will that help my problem being scared to be in a relationship again?" I inquired.

"If you tell him, you might be more relieved of the guilt that you have. Plus, aren't you Kenny alike? If you could learn to 'fully love' life as you put it, then you might be braver to accept him." She informed, I blinked.

"You're...you're too smart for your own good." I flabbergasted. "I-I'll tell him everything, though I'm not going to like it."

"You're not suppose to. And don't wimp out!"

*Kenny's POV*

I entered the attic to see Craig sitting cross legged on my futon, has he been waiting for me?

"I've been w-waiting for you..." He told me. Well, that answers my question. "I-I have to confess to you about me, like you did with.." Oh my Jesus! He's going to tell me what happened! OH YES FINALLY! Calm down, calm down.

"Oh, ok." I laid down my bag and sat next to him. Craig appeared very uneasy, slightly breathing hard, I put my hand on his. "You could tell me anything."

"H-her name was China Ellis. That was the girl I dated in 7th grade...she was my first love." The raven began. China, that's a pretty name. "I-I killed her."

"...You what?" I gasped, looking at him surprised. He went right to the point. "Can you start at the very beginning?"

"Mhm." Craig took a deep breath. "In 7th grade, I first saw her. China had long indigo hair, with oval light brown eyes. I liked her from 1st sight, so I asked her out. We had started dating, it was nice. Then our relationship got intimate, that's when my love for her grew into an obsession I guess. 5 months after our relationship, I caught her cheating on me. I felt that no one could love her as I did. I felt that she didn't deserve to even live anymore." He stopped, biting his lip.

"Keep going." I urged, squeezing his hand.

"...The boy China 2 timed me with, was Frank Blackstones. After I had caught her, I revealed to her what I seen. She told me that she was sorry and that it wasn't 'working out'. That pissed me off. China told me that I was getting way too clingy. So I drugged and dragged both of them into the school's meat locker. I tied them to the wall, and waited till they woke.

"I murdered Frank first, I wanted to see China's devastated face when I did so. I went as far as to chop off his head, I enjoyed it. I pressed his detached head next to hers and laughed. I threw the head on a table and slowly killed her, satisfyingly. I slitted her neck, then snapped it with a book that was in my backpack. I slashed her stomach because I wanted as much organs and blood to spill out. Funny, no one knows that I've done it, except my gang and Mad."

"...Craig how did it feel...to see someone you love kiss another? How did you feel to kill the one you love?" I asked unsure. The next thing that happened, made me jump; Craig cried, yet so soft you could barely hear it. The sight made me want to shed tears, Craig Tucker does not cry. He just doesn't.

"N-Nobody had e-ever...asked m-me...how d-did I f-feel..!" He sobbed into his hands. "T-they a-asked me, why I-I've done i-it, but n-never asked how did I-I feel.." I instinctively embraced him, letting him bawl onto my chest, he clenched me back.

"I-I felt lost, rejected, betrayed, broken, furious, confused, and unloved when I saw her kiss Frank. I f-felt delighted, right, appeased, and exhilarated, when I murdered both of them. Only after I had both of their blood on me, after they were dead, after the sin I committed, I regretted what I've done. I hate myself for it. I-I really loved h-her, I did! I was another person when I did the murder, I was in another state. I-"

"Shh, shh.." I rubbed his black hair soothingly. "I understand Craig, you went through so much. You don't have to say anymore about it, I won't tell anyone. Oh Craig, I'm so sorry.."

"T-thank you Kenny." He hiccuped, still whimpering. "That's why I don't want you to love me or for me to fall for you. I'm afraid I'll do the same thing, I might get too close with you. I-I don't want to do that again, but it's so hard because m-my heart won't let me."

"If you kill me like you did China, then I'll just come back, and still love you. Nothing can change that. Plus I'll be glad if you're obsessed with me." I assured him, holding him closer. "Why can't you understand that?"

"I don't even know why I'm falling for you, after so long of not feeling anything for anybody, let alone someone I had once hated.." Craig sniffled miserably.

"You can't figure out why you like me? Well, let me tell you why I'm in love with you. I love you Craig because when I was going through the worst of my depression, you made me feel not alone. You kinda made me realize that, there are other people who are like me. I love you because you gave me the courage to show my full face. I love you because you're cute and adorable. I love you because you're difficult. I love you because you make me laugh, and that you gave me the ability to break free from my mistakes. So maybe, now I could help you break away from yours." I confessed to the raven, brushing tears off his face.

"Do you really have no idea of why you're liking me like this?"

"...I guess it's because you truly love life, which I can't. I'm still stuck in my past, which is pathetic. You're so cheerful and careless that I'm jealous of it. You're also one of the f-few people that can make me happy." Craig mumbled thinking. "I'm still not sure why I'm feeling this way." I blinked shocked.

"I-I make you happy?" He raised his head, and I swear to god, Craig full on smiled. I mean, he smiles, but he Full On smiled. It was absolutely beautiful.

"Mhm, like today. I did have a great little date with you. However I'm scared to accept it." He let go of me and went back to his own space. "What If I do hurt you?"

"Then I'll forgive you. Trust me Craig, I'll never stop loving you, I'm that kind of person." I thought of Kevin, and how I could never quit loving him. "I'll say this again, and keep saying it, I'll wait for you, for as long as it takes. I love you Craig." He gazed at me for a moment, deep in thought.

"What...what do you think of me, now that you know my past?" I answered right away.

"Basically, the same. Except now I know we're even more alike, you have trouble loving, like I did when Kevin and I first broke up. You're still the same Jack-Ass who flips off everyone, you're no different." Craig paused, then rested his face in his arms.

"Thank you Kenny, thank you. It's getting late, I'm going to bed." He got up and went to his side, grabbing Cow and getting settled. Before I could do the same, I noticed that he looked stiff, probably from the stitches on his back. I crept under the covers with him, and started massaging his back gingerly. Craig gasped from my sudden intrusion, then moaned in relief from the pain. I sensually kissed his neck multiple times, he sighed.

"I love you Craig." I hummed. After a silence, he finally answered the 4 words I've been waiting for.

"I...I love you too." I smiled against his skin and snaked my arms around him, bringing him closer to my body. We slept together that night.

Hmm, I should make a little story of when Kenny and his friends wear bikinis ;o O kakuninshitekudasai! (Google translate that if you don't know what it means) or, REVIEW PLEASE!