Title: Second Chances Chapter 14
Author: tommykayketchup
Rating: I tend to swear a lot when I type, so pretty much expect swear words.
Disclaimer: I don't own Skins. Only Lily Loveless, who is now in my wardrobe along with Charlotte and Charlie.
A/N: Dedication, for Erika; something to read when she wakes up. Lol, for being a great mate, and a source of my inspiration. 3.
Chapter 14.
"Emily, I can…-" Effy immediately defends herself. She knows she deserves whatever Emily throws at her, but really doesn't want a black eye from her. It's always the quiet ones that pack the hardest punch.
"Save it. I don't fucking want to know." Emily spits. She doesn't want to hear what Effy says; has no time for her.
Effy continues talking; tries to get her to be rational, and ultimately fails.
"Ems, it was a mistake, she loves you…nothing will ever change that."
"Fuck off. In fact. Fucking get out"
"Emily, we should talk about this…privately" Naomi walks down the stairs after finally composing herself.
"What's a little conversation between friends? I mean, it's not like you and Effy don't share anything…friends, secrets…saliva."
"Wait, what the fuck? You two've been….shagging?" Katie asks getting involved in the conversation after standing confused.
"No! We've not been shagging…we kissed…once for like…a few minutes…that was it."
"That was it? It shouldn't have been that at all? Fucks sake Naomi." Emily's furious.
"Okay, you guys leave. Ems needs to be left alone..."
Naomi sighs, and drags her feet to the door, dejectedly. "Come on, Eff…leave her to calm down..."
"No…look…this is my fault okay, Em. My entire fault…and it's not fair you blaming Naomi…because…I kissed her…Look…a few days ago, I told Naomi I was in love with her, and…I made a move on her, and she pushed me away…what you saw…was me trying it again…and maybe Naomi got confused for a minute, because of your fight…but I'm telling you, Emily…she loves you, you need to forgive her." Effy pleads, attempting to persuade Emily to calm down.
Naomi looked down at the floor. Confused for the lies Effy had just told, Proud for Effy trying to defend her, and broken because she can see Emily's pain in her eyes. Her gorgeous brown eyes no longer glistened. They'd turned a dark, murky brown. An angry brown. Not the brown eyes she had fallen in love with. Then they changed. Flashed.
"FUCK OFF" Emily charges towards Effy, and swings her left arm around her head. Continually beating her about the upper body. Naomi flinches, not sure whether to restrain Emily, help Effy, and risk her own body being abused, or to stand and watch.
She bravely, and albeit rather stupidly, decides on the former.
"Ems…" She wraps her hands softly around the waist of Emily, pulling her softly away from the brunette now cowering on the floor; who, in hindsight, didn't even attempt to protect herself.
"Emsy…come on. Calm down." She pulls Emily closer to her body; holding her firmly towards her body, whispering. "It's going to be okay…im so sorry." Over and over.
Emily sinks into her touch. Her body shaking, not knowing how to react due to the emotions consuming her. Her face a picture of confusion, and pure devastation.
"Ems…do you want them to go?" Katie asks softly, in the softest voice Naomi's ever heard her use in general, not just when talking to her sister.
"Effy…go…" She whispers. Her voice has broken. The remains only a shell of a crispy raspy voice, choosing to say some syllables, neglecting others.
"And…" she adds after a few seconds.
"And you Katie…me and Naomi need to talk…" She softly removes Naomi's hands still firmly wrapped around her waist, and proceeds to walk to the staircase, nodding at Naomi in turn.
Follows her up the stairs. Heart pounding in her chest. Unaware of which Emily she'll be greeted with in the bedroom.
"Sit."
Naomi complies, unwilling to start another fight.
"Talk to me." She says calmly. Like it was the easiest statement to flow off of her tongue.
"About…what?"
"About….us…about Uni…about…Effy…I'm giving you the chance to fix this….to tell me how you're feeling, to tell me what goes on in the fucking head of yours. This is your one chance, Naomi."
"I…Em…"
"I'm serious, Naomi. Your chance to explain everything. What you want from life…what you want from me. I want to know everything and I want to know now…"
"Em, I love you…"
"I know you do…but what you say, depends on whether I'm still your girlfriend this time tomorrow, so stop with the fucking emotionless shield, and fucking let me in. I'm supposed to be your girlfriend, Naomi. I know jack about you. I don't know…your favourite colour. I don't know your first pet…I don't know what your favourite music is…I don't know why you're in love with me, and I don't fucking know why you kissed Effy. Just fucking open up to me."
Naomi sits and bites her lip. Honesty was her strong point. She could easily point out everyone's faults with no regard for their feelings. Everyone, but Emily, that is.
"It's yellow."
"What?"
"My favourite colour is yellow… My favourite music is Oasis…I listen to it in the bath after a hard day… My first pet was a goldfish called Ruby. I accidentally fed her too much, and she kept eating and eating, and died, and my mum wouldn't let me have anymore pets. I don't know why I kissed Effy…confusion…maybe…anger…about our stupid fight…but it's not love, never will be, and I certainly don't fancy her."
"You don't?"
"Definitely."
For the first time in days their eyes match, fires light, and souls yearn; bodies ache.
"And…I fell in love with you…because…god…you're so amazing…your eyes…they melt me. Send me in endless butterflies. Your nose, such a cute little nose. The way you rub it three times straight after you've sneezed. The way you scrunch it up when you laugh. Your lips…your soft lips. So…kissable. I have dreams about those lips. Your ears are perfection. I love the way you moan when I nibble on them, and your neck. God, your neck. Your skin is so soft and smooth…and…your tits are pretty good too…you have sexy legs…powerful…and smooth and…dangerous…and your ass….biteable." she laughs before getting back on topic.
"I love you because you're you, Emily. You have the biggest heart and soul. You're so kind, and compassionate, to the point where it's tiring that you have so much love, and trust in people. That I want to wrap you up in cotton wool so no one could ever hurt you. I love how you always try your best by everyone. I love your organisation. You're so…precise. I love how you care about everything. Your exams, your family…you cared about me once. And I loved that".
Emily begins to tear up. Tries to avoid it. Wants Naomi to feel terrible a bit more.
Loved how you'd wake up in the morning and first thing you'd do is brush my hair from my face, and kiss my forehead. I love how you sing in the shower. I love how you dance in your underwear in the mirror in the bathroom. I love how you use the little bows in your hair. I love how you beat the crap out of your brother day in and out, because he deserves it. I love the way you talk. Your voice is amazing. I love…-"
Emily dives forward, and plants endless kisses on Naomi's face before lingering on the lips.
"You." Naomi adds when she gets opportunity.
"I love you too, Nai….just…don't kiss Effy anymore." She adds between sobs.
"That, I can do."