Got to Believe
-Mikan Yukihira and Natsume Hyuuga, the star couple of showbiz. That's until the cameras go off. "Your hiding something. And trust me Yukihira, I'll find out what that is." "Now Hyuuga, you know two can only keep a secret if one of them is dead." And were on in 3..2..1! "So tell us, what's the secret of your love?"
BEFORE I START THIS FIC, PLEASE LOOK FORWARD TO THE AUTHOR'S NOTE AFTER!
Everything was quiet. Not a single word was made. Reo was standing there, a huge shock visible on his face, and me? I just lost my voice. He didn't look at me, and it felt as if he understands everything, but still couldn't get over it, and looked like he was still processing things.
I force myself to stand up, tears falling from my eyes and that's when he turned his attention towards me and gave me what I didn't expect from him. A smile. He smiled at me. A hurt, tearful, but understanding smile. I couldn't take it.
It was my fault, so why is he looking like he was gonna apologize?
"Reo..." His name slipped out of my mouth. And I felt as if it was taboo. I feel the tears run down my cheeks. My knees were wobly but I turned around and ran for it. His hurt voice following me.
"Mikan! Wait!"
Everything barely registered on my mind. This day is just... Stupid. And confusing. Why the hell do I have to go with this? Its just so unfair. She's already dead yet I feel like I'm suffering more than when she was alive.
Kuonji, my father, was Luna's psycologist. I mean... I knew he was one, but I didn't know that... Luna and... ah fuck.
Guess I barely know anything about my own family.
Luna was mentally ill, treated by my dad, who is a doctor, and at some point during our second year of college, she went crazy and tried to kill me 'cuz she thought I was taking Reo away from him since I was pregnant that time and she herself aborted my child. And since she was unsuccesful in her 'mission', she...died.
...Well that surely is simple. Easier sad than done.
But I don't get it! How can my dad keep this from me? He was my best friend's doctor! Luna spent nights at my house and slept the same bed as me all the time!
...Wait, Luna was twisted, seductive and manipulative, so did she...
Eew! Gross and disgusting. Don't think about that please Mikan. Your best friend sleeping with your dad, gross!
That's probably the most disgusting thing I've ever thought my entire life.
God I need some coffee to calm myself down. Then it hit me.
"Shit!" I scream and grab my purse, heading outside. I was suppose to meet Hotaru!
"Your late." She raises a brow at me as she sips a cup of coffee. Probably cappuccino.
"I got here as soon as I can. And I was trying to get my shit together."
She gives me a questioning look.
"Don't ask." I say and head for the counter. "One caramel macchiato , venti, please." The lady wearing the green apron smiles and takes my money.
"Name?"
"Yuki." I smile at her. Thank you professional worker who don't fawn at serious people. I walk back to where Hotaru was siting. "Okay, so why did you call me out here?" I ask her. She only gesture behind me, which was a glass window.
I look behind me and sweatdropped. In big blue letters: SUSHIMINTO, was labeled on the other side of the street.
"You followed the guys?"
"Your boyfriend was with them."
"How did you even know they were going there?"
"I'm Imai Hotaru, I know everything."
"So... in other words, your just following Ruka?"
"...He might have another girl in there."
"I thought you guys broke up months ago?"
"I'm not letting it go that easily."
"So go talk to him."
She glares at me and sips her cappucino again. "For someone who hides a lot of secrets, you sure are confident to tell me that."
My eyes widened and I look at her. "E-Excuse me?"
"Don't get it wrong, I don't know anything about you. I can read your expression, aura, whatever it is. Your hiding a lot of things."
I visibly calm down. "Well... your right about that."
"Yuki!" I stand up once more when they call my name. My caramel macchiato! I walk towards the counter and grab my cup, together with three sugar packs and a stick and went back to Hotaru.
"So, do tell me why you decided to follow him at this time, in broad daylight no less."
"I went through Ruka's messages. Koko invited him to go."
"How did you... wait don't tell me. Your Imai Hotaru and you know everything." I laugh as I quote her words from earlier.
"Hyuuga was in a good mood."
"Is he full of smiles, rainbows and sunshine?" I smirk. I see her shiver.
"I can't even imagine it." She says. "He was talking."
"He's not mute Hotaru." I feel her amethyst eyes glare at me in annoyance.
"I'm sure you already understand what I'm saying. He was talking, actually responding to what they were saying. And he wasn't frowning as if he was forced to come with him. He looked pretty happy."
"...We got over a fight." I say. Hotaru just raised a brow at me and hands me a magazine. I look at it curiously before widening my eyes as I read the bold lettes.
"STAR COUPLE QUARREL OVER BOSS' INTERVENTION?!"
"W-What is this?" I ask quietly.
"Well, when Izumi excused you from us, Hyuuga was flaring up. He followed you guys y'know, stood by the door, probably evesdropping on your conversation. I doubt it though, rooms like that is probably hard to hear through. We heard you scream after."
"You were with Natsume?"
"We're cousins. Like it or not, his worries are my worries too. Don't worry, I didn't hear what any of you were talking about. I was at a safe distance."
"And Nobara?"
"She was laughing the whole time. Rei went and took her away."
"...You said you know everything, so you probably knew about Nobara's relationship with Izumi?"
"Yeah, she's the adopted daughter. And Izumi favoured the youngest one over her." I clearly don't know why we are talking about this topic actually. And I really do wonder why.
"Your relationship with the idiot improved I see."
"Eh?" I wondered.
"I mean, you two don't look like your trying to kill each other anymore. Well you actually."
"What do you mean me?" I glare at her, obviously offended.
"Don't tell me you don't know?"
"Knew what?"
"That the Hyuuga idiot loves you."
"..." I tilted my head to the side, confused of what she was saying. Then it hit me. "What the fuck?!" I scream, grabbing the attention of the staff. It was broad daylight on a week day, so we were the only ones in the cafe. "Sorry..." I whisper and slid down my seat in embarassment before looking at Hotaru again. "I mean, he does not. 'Love me'." I emphasize the word love.
"Again, we are family, and you really think we wouldn't know? It was pretty laughable actually. He'd daydream a lot and Kaoru-kaa-san would laugh at him."
"E-Eh?"
"I'm serious. "
"E-Even if he does 'daydream' , if its possible for someone like Natsume to do something like that, it probably wasn't about me..."
"So, you'd rather he'd daydream about another girl?"
"No!" I talked without thinking and blushed. "I mean..."
"You like him as well huh?"
"I do not..." My face heats up and I take a drink of my caramel macchiato.
"Oh, this is cute." She smirks and places her elbows on the table. "The great Yuki Yuikihira in denial? Should I tell you more embarassing stories about my dear cousin?"
"Hmph. I don't really care but I'm not stopping you."
"He's a tsundere." I almost spit my drink out. Natsume? A tsundere? Is she serious?
"Okay, that one your just making up."
"Do I look like I joke?"
Well, no. But imagining Natsume blushing and looking away from me is kinda...
Creepy? Ugh no, I don't even wan't to think about it.
"Stop, please. Your ruining my image of him."
"I do wonder what he likes about you." She disregards my words and continues. "Not that I'm insulting you. Its just, your quite mysterious, and...weird."
"Natsume dated better women I assume?"
"He's never dated anyone before. Shocking, but true. And it was hilarious watching you two suck each other's face off."
That had me. "...You were watching?"
"My family owns a security company. All the CCTV camera's are all under us."
"..."
"Told you I knew everything."
"...Do you hear everything as well?"
"No."
"Okay."
Me and Hotaru split up after the weird talk. Jeez, that woman was watching all along? It was weird enough knowing Natsume is a tsundere, but it makes it even more akward to kiss him now that I knew someone was watching.
...Not that I want to kiss him again.
My thoughts were disturbed when my phone rang once again.
"Hello?"
"Hi Mikan!"
My eyes glared at nothing as soon as I hear the jolly but strange voice.
"What the fuck were you thinking Nobara? Natsume happened to see that report! He's not gonna let this go until I tell him how, or why I have it!"
"Hehe, calm down. Just tell him it was all on me and he'll let it go."
"Its kinda the opposite, Nobara. He doesn't like you."
"That's quite hurtful."
"How did you even get your hands on this? All the way from Hokkaido no less!"
"I know people."
"Hey Nobara."
"What?"
"Did you know? That my dad was Luna's doctor?"
"Hm? Oh yeah I saw the name. Luna spilled a lot of secrets on that guy. He was your dad, and he knew a lot about her. You should ask him!"
"No. I don't want to. And why are you even still on this case? Its already closed, Reo, you, me, and Izumi already knows who killed her. So why would you still be after this?" I ask her in irritation. It was always Luna this, Luna that. She's always the topic dead or alive. "Are you trying to torture me?"
"...You thought you gained freedom after her death huh?"
"No! I never have any of that! Cause until now, I'm still paying!"
"You don't have to pay for anything Mikan. You didn't do anything wrong."
"...You know the facts already Nobara. What else do you want?"
"I'm just really curious, Mikan. I admit, I never mourned for my little sister. Not even once."
"She...said she wanted to kill you..."
"I don't think she was talking about me."
"I'm pretty sure she said 'sister'."
"Maybe she was talking about you, I mean, Kuonji was your dad after all, maybe she changed some things."
"But... I didn't know Luna then, or Reo."
"Huh. Well, I don't know what I did to that girl. Always seemed to hate me from the moment I met her." She whispered through the phone. Then I heard Rei. "I gotta go."
"You didn't answer my question. Why are you doing this?"
"...I wanted to look deeper 'cause I think she got what she deserved..." She said and hung up. I look at my phone. Was she serious?
Things just getting weirder and weirder today. I still don't understand why. Izumi favoured Luna over Nobara. And for some reason, Luna sent her to rehab. Probably because she though she was being neglected...?
Ugh, I don't understand a fucking thing. I'm in this situation and I don't understand anything. That's really stupid... I'm stupid.
"Yes, yes you are." I glare at the voice that ruined my thoughts.
"Go away Natsume."
"And here I thought we were getting along." He closed the door behind him and sat down next to me.
"We would, if you'd stop ruining my moments."
"And what moment would that be?"
"...The ones where I'm thinking about a murder case." I reply to him casually.
"Hn." He dismissed and looked up the cieling. I just told him the truth and he dismisses it like that. Wow, I like this side.
"What are you doing here anyway?" I raise a brow at him.
"I missed you." He cut loosely replied. I frown at him.
"I didn't. Now go away." I stood up, wanting to sit somewhere else that's not beside him. But he grabbed my hand and pulled me back down. "Hey!"
"I told you I like you, didn't I?" He whispers on my ear and it I feel as if its the best thing I have heard all day. I feel my face heat up.
"S-So?"
"So, why won't you believe me?" He raised a short brow. Huh... now that I am focusing on his face, he does have short eyebrows.
"I didn't say anything about doubting you."
"Your implying it."
"Okay what do you want?" I ask him. "Is it so hard for you to be direct?"
"I told you already."
"The Hyuuga idiot loves you." Hotaru's words echo through my mind and my blush darkens.
"...I have commitment issues...?" I replied in a form of a question. Natsume gives me a "are-you-fucking-with-me-right-now" look. "What? Its true." Well, slightly, true. How long has it been since I had a boyfriend? Two years? Got me knocked right now, and crazy wife aborts it.
Holy fuck I'm a hot mess.
The next thing I felt was his arms wrapping around me and his lips on my hair. His tight grip somehow giving me unwanted comfort. "...What are you doing?" I whisper.
"Do you trust me, Mikan?" He whispers in my ear, and I feel myself getting hot once again.
"...I do." And that made me feel I'm being married off. Seriously Mikan?
"Then why won't you tell me anything"?"
I hug him back, same grip as his and lay my head on his chest. "Two can keep a secret if one of them is dead." I say to him.
"I'm guessing your favorite channel is ABC." I laugh at that. Yeah he was right, I was just quoting Pretty Little Liars here, especially when it came from their theme song. I pull away from him and look at his red eyes.
"I thought I made it clear about how I feel about you?" He cups my face . "Even Imai told you, didn't she?"
My somewhat "butterflies in my stomach" mood was ruined as I widened my eyes and pull away further. "How do you know that?" I ask.
"You two were across the street, not cross country."
"Oh..."
"She wasn't lying."
"Okay, I'm lost. How do you know what we talked about?" I raise an eyebrow at him and placed a hand on my hip. "I clearly deserved an explanation here."
"You were stupid enough not to notice a blonde and a red eyed someone enter the cafe."
"Hey!" I pout at him. "There's a lot of blondes and red eyed people in the world."
He wraps his arms around me again.
"Mikan!"
I glare at whoever decided to disturb us. It was Narumi. Again. He opened the door and didn't even seemed faze at the fact that we were hugging each other.
"Oh hello Natsume-kun. Mikan we're going home. The rest of the shoot's canceled. Something about Tono's wife giving birth?" He says and waves his hand as if it wasn't a big deal. "Anyway car's out front and we gotta go."
I glare at him. "I'll be right there Narumi." I hissed. Couldn't he see that I was having a moment? A very heart pounding one?
"Natsume-kun, have dinner with us." He smiles.
"We just had lunch Andou." Natsume replies to him. His obviously irritated and felt the same way I did. "And its three in the afternoon."
"Oh well then come stay at our house."
...That works too.
"Who's he?"
I rolled my eyes as I close my bedroom door with me and Natsume in it. "Who's what?"
"The guy." I quickly turn to him and see him holding a picture frame from my bedside table. It contained me, Luna, and Reo. We looked so happy, smiling as if it was the best day ever. Reo had his arm around me and his nose buried on my hair.
"...My ex-boyfriend."
Natsume raised a brow at me. "And why do you have a photo of him?"
"...Memories. We had a huge history."
"What happened?"
"The cliche story of your best friend dating your boyfriend."
He gives me a look of sympathy, a face that didn't suit him, and puts the frame back. "I'm guessing the blonde is the best friend?"
"Yup." I answered, popping the "P". I sat down beside me him and held his hand. "And don't look at me like that. I moved on already."
"Name?"
"Luna Koizumi and Reo Mouri. Known each other since college."
"Koizumi?" He wonders and for a slight moment, the feeling of him knowing her washes through me. "Isn't she the girl you visited back at cemetry?"
I release a sigh of relief. Of course he won't know her. "Y-Yeah. She was kinda... psychotic."
"How'd she die?"
"...Class A murder." I say to him, unfazed. As if I was used to hearing stuff like that. Natsume is shocked and didn't fail to show it. "Yeah, I know, unbelievable."
"Condolence." He murmurs and looks back at the photo, squeezing my hand.
"Please don't." I roll my eyes at him. I wasn't happy about it. But I really didn't want someone I liked to be pitying a dead person. Especially if that was Luna.
"So you didn't have a good relationship."
"At first we did. But then y'know, we met Reo. Or at least I did. It was kinda weird. It was like she was renting her boyfriend out. She let me date him when they were already... ugh." My grip on his hand tightens, almost enough to cut the blood flow on his hands.
"...Why do I feel like there's something your not telling me?" He asks softly and looks at me in the eye. "I told you, you can trust me."
"I do Natsume." I tell him. "I really do." I rest my head on his shoulder and whisper. "I'll... tell you soon. When... when I'm ready, to face everything." His arms instantly wrap around me and presses his lips on my forehead, and I want nothing more than to be in this position. "I'm sorry."
"Don't. I just, want you to know that I'm here for you."
"Those words doesn't suit you." I laugh and look at him. He leans closer and kisses me. "Don't you ever so those again." I joke at him, but he knows I appreciate those words. I pull away and look at him. "So what do you wanna do? Watch, read, eat? "
Natsume smirks. "Or we could lay on the bed and..."
"Pervert!" I hit his arms.
"I was gonna say that you make up for what Narumi disturbed us from earlier. But what were you thinking?" I blush ten shades of red.
"S-So, we're watching then."
He chuckles and let me go. I walk over to the dvd shelf on the other side of the room. Weirdly enough my books were also placed on it. I bend over, searching for a movie. "What do you wanna watch? I practically have all of them."
"I like what I'm watching right now."
I straighten my body up almost immediately, knocking over a couple dvds and books. "Natsume!" He chuckles again.
"Any horror movie." I rolll my eyes and pick up the books. A familiar blue checkered notebook catches my eye.
My diary.
I grab for the other end and all the papers folded inside falls. I hear Natsume chuckle and laughs about how careless I am. I quickly gather them up and open the hardcovered notebook and I notice that it wasn't the one I always wrote at. The pages were older and it the pages looked quite worn out.
Oh I forgot, my mom has the same notebook I do. I laugh inwardly at my stupidity. But the it hit me. I open the title page.
PROPERTY OF AZUMI YUKA.
IF YOU GUYS READ THE POLICE REPORT ON THE LAST CHAPTER... AZUMI YUKA WAS ON IT. MWAHAHAHAH! ARE THEY SISTERS?! IS MIKAN SOME KIND OF A LONG LOST DAUGHTER TO THE YUKIHIRA FAMILY? AND WHAT THE FUCK DOES YUKA HAVE TO DO ANYTHING WITH THIS?
CAUSE I LOVE YOU GUYS AND MY IDEAS FOR THIS STORY ARE EXPANDING, I AM NOW UPDATING REGULARLY. I'M QUITE HAPPY ABOUT IT. I REALLY DO HOPE THIS STORY ISN'T BORING YOU OUT? CAUSE A LITTLE, AND I DO MEAN LITTLE, MORE AND I'M ABOUT TO REVEAL THE TRUTH. THE WHOOOOOLLLLLEEEE TRUTH. COULD YOU GUESS WHAT IT IS? HAHAHA!
But I really do hope this story isn't boring you out. And I mean it when I say the TRUTH WILL BE REVEALED. Like seriously just one or two more chapters.
So, also look forward to the DIRECTOR'S OFFER. You guys waited long enough I think you should find out like... I dunno, THE NEXT CHAPTER?! Kidding, the next next chapter. Cause after this, is something I think is mind blowing.
But you don't know it MIGHT be the next one. And its gonna be a hella long one.
Oh for those who are wondering, that Luna died in Hokkaido, she did die there. But her grave is in Tokyo 'cause, Izumi is like her 'DAD' and he wanna transfer it to where he is. I looked it up, you can transfer someone's grave, but not the body. HAHHAHA.
I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS AND WELL, YEAH. Please leave a review to let me know what you think. PLease I am on my knees please leave a review. I really want those and I won't deny it.
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