Define Vampire
I was at Sams', David was with me much to Sams annoyance and slight paranoia, Sam seemed to be trying to keep composed more to deprive David of amusement at seeing him a bit paranoid. I stay out of Sams head, but David was more than happy to inform me that Sam was more than a little bothered that his mind might be being read by him at this moment, which it was, but David ignored the hate Sam had for him, all to amused by Sams discomfort.
Cris had moved out, Nicole decided to stay, from what Sam has said, she had gotten a bit uncomfortable around Cris after my interrogation from the other night. Nicole cared for her brother, but when thinking on his actions, well couldn't blame her for being a little freaked out at living with him. She was currently in the kitchen making a sandwich and Sam told me she was suspecting something due to the photos Sam had set up of us, showing a preteen Sam and me with our mom.
Now I'm siting on the couch, David next to me, smoking. David being nice enough to ignore Melony when she asked him to put it out. It's nice when David ignores and not actually says something. Milferd was here, and already made his curiosity known.
" Does he have to smoke inside?" Melony turns her attention on me since I was the more complaint one.
" Um, he doesn't have too, he just wants to. I'd take it from him, but he'd probably bite my finger off for wasting a cig." I said looking helpless as possible, David looking at me with a smirk on his face. He would, yea, he would bite my finger off if I tried. Then he'd lick the wound and be all nice and comforting afterwards, like when he tore my eye out, never mind that he did it in the first place.
" Good to know." Sam said as Lisa ran down the stairs, Joey behind her. She stopped and stared at us wide eyed. " Lisa, they're not here to do anything to you, Mike's just visiting as usual, just his friend's here to. "
Lisa walks over towards us with fear and curiosity, it's been near four weeks since her lesson and she's no longer paranoid Sam was going to leave her with us... I actually think Sam may have used that line, if she doesn't act right, he'll send her to stay with uncle Mike. That would scare me too if I was her.
" Yea, not here for you tonight." David puffs the smoke out in her direction.
Nicole then walks in from the kitchen, munching a sandwich, stopping by the stairs to glance at everyone. " Don't mind if I sit, or is this a private moment?"
" It's alright, nothing private going on." Sam then sits on the couch, ignoring the look David shot him. " So, three more nights till the reunion. It's a Hotel far away from the Boardwalk as you can get and still be in Santa Carla."
" Whos idea was that? Oh, yea Lance, how could I ever forget." My words came out full of sarcasm that couldn't be missed by a deaf guy. " What's the excuse this time?" I snorted, this wasn't a surprise, the fact Sam managed to get a reunion in Santa Carla was.
" He doesn't want to have to deal with a bunch of tourists in the middle of the reunion and that's also the reason for the postponement, since a reunion in a theme park town wouldn't be good because of all the distractions. That and he also didn't like the idea of coming up here to grandpas old ranch, he can't survive without the necessities of complimentary mints and fluffed pillows in the morning. " Sam rolled his eyes. " Here's the address, please don't do anything bad, at least nothing in the open. I don't want waking nightmares for the rest of my life, Mike." Sam glances at David as I take the paper.
" We'll be perfect angels." David has this dark amused look on his face. " Seriously, what do you think we would do in a hotel?" He takes a puff from his cigaret. " We're not into doing things out in the public. Don't piss where you eat, you know?" David still had amusement on his face, the thoughts I picked up from him are along the line of very unflattering thoughts towards Sam for Sams even thinking we'd do something that would attract attention towards us more than just being around does.
Melony looked at Sam confused. " Sam?" Her voice was questioning but Sam didn't seem to catch the meaning either.
" Means we're not going to do something blatantly in public that will piss the residents off. We are ignored as long as we're not messing directly with them without being provoke. So you don't have to worry about anything bad happening in the hotel." I leave out the whole part about accidents do happen to people, especially a certain person, but Sam was already aware that something will likely happen to dear ole dad.
" So you... Will all be at this family reunion... This I have to see." Milferd always had to see something that had to do with supernatural, namely me. he glances between me and David. "Sam says you two are like... Mates? How do..." Milferd jumps when I yell out Sams name.
" You little weasel! I told you to not say anything about that!" I had near leaped up and lunged for Sam, who had jumped from the couch and though no longer young an spry like he was, he some how managed to dodge me and try to keep the couch between me and him.
" Sorry Mike, it just slipped out, we were talking and that came up." Sam apologizes with a shocked Melony and Lisa looking on in almost horror thinking I was probably going to eat my brother.
" You slipped it, to him!" I pointed at Milferd, of all the people to mention that detail to, he says it to the creepy now grown Milferd. I had gotten a little more detailed about me and Davids relationship just to ease Sam who couldn't get over the idea I was in an abusive situation for 20 years, no matter how much I assured him. This left me with having to go threw as best possible in a way his very human mind could understand. I don't think he still quite got it, but he finally stopped asking me if I was OK.
" Nothing to be... Shy about, is their a ritual? Do you court?" Milferd was looking at me almost hopeful. Oh fucking god, the man's un-phased by the fact I'm near climbing the cough to catch Sam.
" Mating? Ritual? What are you talking about? What's going on?" Nicole looks worried and confused by the strange talk. This gets me to stop and flop on the couch.
" It's nothing, it's uh, we're like partners, Sam's just weird because he's still... Pining over his first lover." I draw out the word lover, this earns me a pillow in my face with Sam telling me to shut up as he leans full body onto me.
" Why Samuel, fratricide, who knew you had it in you? Maybe I was wrong and you would have been a good member to join us. Oh wait, no. I tend to find it more productive to kill those who have a serious need of therapy and large amounts of pills." Davids tone was sarcastic, still he was puffing on that cigarette. Sam pulled the pillow away, looking very embarrassed and yet still able to shoot a glare towards David.
" Sam, not in front of the kids." Melony was glancing towards Joey and Lisa who are watching their father who was trying to choke me with pillow a moment ago. She then looked at David, wanting to say something, but refrains from doing so, likely afraid to scold him. Sam shot David a glare, but also said nothing.
Sam had gotten used to acting out in a more extreme way with me after my turning, since I was more likely to be irritated than harmed from his actions and then Sam was smaller and not near my strength and felt need to act out more to get my attention and cooperation, which he really kinda had to other wise I ignored him. This position didn't change from time, Sam will always be my weaker younger brother, just he's not so young anymore.
" And you wonder why Marko doesn't like you." David's now looking at Sam with a sort of neutral expression on his face that borders amusement. " He's right, you do have a big mouth."
**** Later ****
David had left much to everyones relief, deciding to leave me on my own, Sam, Melony and Milferd had left the room ad went into the kitchen to talk, leaving me in the living room with Lisa and Joey. Nicole had went upstairs a bit suspicious and confused by the conversation to do with me and David.
" What's the difference?" Lisa had suddenly asked me.
" Hu?" I looked at her, not sure what she was meaning.
" Vampires, what's the difference between you and... Edward..." Lisa hesitantly asked, too a little bit of guts for her to ask knowing that I wasn't found of her.
" We don't sparkle or whine over some flaky girl.. we sure as.. uh." I glanced towards Joey who was now listening intently to what I said. " We certainly don't care about holing out for marriage.. if you think about it, that's lame. If you're damned for eternity, what does it matter? And seriously, no guy is going to stay a virgin for no hundred years unless he's really mentally messed up in the head. It's not some kind of messed up twisted love story, I don't know why you girls like it so much. Being undead isn't something to look forward to. The transition, the changing into what we are is far from fun, it's not just physically painful, it's mental.
Lisa squirmed a little bit, digesting and actually listening to what I said. She had lost a lot of that arrogance she had, but watching a slaughter, no being in the middle of a violent slaughter is a good way to snap a bad kid straight.
" It's not the bull shit of being dark and brooding and in love. I don't hate what I am, I relish it." This got me a confused look. " Yes, it's a horrifying experience, going threw the change and it lasts for days and you don't complete it till you've taken your first kill. I'm speaking from memory though, the person I was as a mortal is long dead. You don't change only physically, but mentally, your nature, perceptions, feelings and instincts develop once you sprout fangs and tear threw someones flesh. It's all over, what you were, replaced by the thing that was growing inside you." It sounded far less romantic than the shows she's watched which make it sound like it's just a little pain from death, with nothing changed.
" That movie is nothing but garbage, even if it was about humans, it'd still be garbage. The so called vampire isn't any more different than a human that needs a shrink. You don't stay the same and not everyone can handle the change. It's just that bad Lisa, turning into something that is not you and there's nothing you can do about it as the thing inside you destroys that part of you that makes you human, till all that's left is it and the tattered remains of who you once were... That movie makes it seem so simple and easy, far from the truth." I paused." I can show you what it's like with out actually turning you." I held out my hand towards her.
Joey was really staring hard. " Can I see?" The kid had become fascinated, but Sam said he had adopted a fascination for horror movies, especially ones that severely altered humans into monsters. I must have been a real life horror story for him. The good thing was he had no interest in being any of those horrific creatures he likes to watch.
" I don't know." Lisa was nervous and very unsure. It wasn't every night though a vampire would be willing to show them a reality of what they been fascinated with. She then surprises me and takes my hand. " I guess." She seemed to want to understand what I was, after all her ideas of vampires previously had been formed threw a stupid poorly made rendition of a vampire movie.
" Maybe when you're older Joey, this isn't the same as watching, you'd feel it." I place my hands one her cheeks to steady her head, she was now couched in front of me, me being on the couch, her on the floor. " Don't panic." Easier said than done, I wasn't near as good at this kind of thing as David, but had developed some control over time. I then delve into her thoughts and played out my memory in her mind, something I'd never forget, most of the feelings I felt then where alien to me now and only caused me confusion when trying to remember them. I couldn't relate or understand such feelings, but Lisa would. I focused these memories into her mind so that she could live what I went threw, what I felt. It wouldn't last, but the few minutes it did would be more than enough to quell any fascination she had in finding an Edward.
Lisa lets out a startled yelp and jerks away, getting hit fully with the sensations, especially the hunger, I pull her back before she could try and react to this, she was confused shocked and frighten unable to understand the feelings of the vampire as much as I couldn't understand any longer most the feelings of the human. I held her till she calmed, gasping for air and sweating.
" Oh god, oh god... That, oh god.." She kept mumbling out. " That's nothing like.. It's not anything like in those books, it's." She hugs herself. " How could you have been able to handle that?"
" Like I said, few can, it can drive you mad and that was the last stages of my change you felt, it built up over days." I watched her, she had felt it all, down to the sensation of the altering of my physical body into something more monstrous demonic in appearance. She was actually running her hands over her face as if checking that it was still human.
" You're very much still you, it was only a memory you felt." I chuckled at her shaky hands checking over that nothing was strange, my words weren't comfort enough to stop her from checking to see that her feet are still blessedly human. " See? You're normal."
" I don't want that to happen to me." She mumbled out, her fascination with vampires has now been thoroughly extinguished, she had lost interest in Twilight after being in the middle of the slaughter, but now utterly has no interest in vampires at all. " It doesn't harm you now?"
" No, it's what I am, just as you're a human and that just being that will not harm you." I chuckled again, amused at her questions. They weren't nearly as intrusive as Milferds. " Only while I turned was it so painful and horrifying, after my transformation was finished, I was alright, different, but alright. I'll show you, but you wont understand, anymore than I can understand how humans feel." Again I focus on her, passing my feelings, but the current ones, ones that are forged on instinct and a pack mentality and influenced me, the feelings of the others, specifically Davids. David is currently amused by what I'm doing, but hasn't took it upon himself to flood me with his own emotions to overwhelm Lisa. She had her punishment for crossing us, right now there was no need to cause her more torment, but she would feel his probing my mind and the soothing feeling he's projecting on me even if she doesn't understand the meaning or how he's making me feel such.
" That was.. Weird, It. uh. Weird, yea, that was really weird." Lisa didn't understand anything she felt and even seemed a bit unnerved. " It's like being constantly watched from the inside." She shivered. " I don't see how that could comfort you, I'd be totally freaked out at that feeling." Lisa had picked up that part, the comfort in feeling the others and knowing their thoughts and voices. Just for a human there's no way to understand that bond. Humans have no such connection and by nature have a need for privacy, where as we feel comfort and secure, she felt anxiety and vulnerability.
I shrugged. " It's what I am." I looked to Joey who was wanting to see. I sighed. " Fine, get over here kid." Joey scoots closer and with Lisa moving, takes her spot. This wouldn't be as traumatizing to a prepubescent child as going threw that living hell that was the slow deterioration of my humanity and metamorphosis into another creature.
" Cool, but Lisa's right, it's weird, how you feel that? It's cool, but I don't want it, it's to weird." Joeys' face scrunches up as I laugh at his reaction.
" Yea well, you aren't supposed to think it's normal, you're a human." With that, I stand, David left earlier, but he wasn't to far away and his probing my mind was starting to get insistent that I join him and the others.