Chapter 14 Natural instincts

Jen and Tilly spent Wednesday afternoon together planning their day out. Having met after lunchtime Jen bought her laptop downstairs and they sat at the table in Dianes house. Diane and Sinead had gone out shopping, so Jen knew that they would have a couple of hours together being themselves.

Tilly turned up and Jen brought her in quickly through the door, they still couldn't take too many chances. Tilly walked past Jen as she closed the door. Tilly pushed her up against the door, leaned in and kissed her girlfriend, their lips met , Jen moved her arms around Tillys neck as Tilly put her hands on Jens hips. As their kiss deepened Tillys hand moved to Jens back and began their now familiar journey caressing up and down Jens form. They pulled apart Jen smiled a bright wide smile,

'Ummm that was nice' she said of the kiss

'it certainly was' laughed Tilly

Jen made coffee for them both and they sat down at the table to look at the sculpture park website and at the route planner to work out how they would get there. They realised it would take a good couple of hours of driving, since it was just off the M1, but both were so excited because there was a new exhibition by a famous Spanish artist Miro.

'Oh Tilly, look they have Miro, when we go to Barcelona, we can go to the Miro gallery on Mont Juic, but look how amazing this is! He is so completely different from Gormley, very abstract' Jen was full of enthusiasm

Tilly beamed, not just because of Jens excitement but because she had talked about them travelling together, and to Barcelona. Tilly felt a sense of security that was hard to describe, but the fact that Jen said it so naturally and as if it was a done deal, Tilly leant over lifted her hand to Jens chin and turned her head towards her

'Did you mean that, planning our future and our trip to Barcelona?'

'Of course, of course, Tilly there are so many things for us to do and places to go'

Tilly felt full to bursting, and kissed Jen with a swift, hard passion that left Jen surprised and breathless. They hugged and then refocused on the webpage, holding hands to keep their sense of closeness. Jen typed up a list of what they would need; firstly good shoes to walk through the park, this was not going to be a place to make a fashion statement after the recent rain, since the sculptures were set out across the landscape that the gallery sat in. They'd need something to keep them dry, in case it rained again, a packed lunch so if it was sunny they could sit by the statues. In fact Jen wrote 'Prepare for four seasons in one day' and they both giggled. Jen lent over and kissed Tillys cheek and said

'You know, I've got a feeling, it's going to be a really good summer' she said

Jen felt freer than she had in such a longtime, she didn't feel constrained by the rules and the regulations, she wasn't Tilly's teacher anymore and there was nothing to prevent them being together now, even though they needed to be careful around Diane and Tilly's friends for a while.

'Me too, I am so excited about all the things we can do together' said Tilly

Tillys phone buzzed, it was Maddy

' You coming out Tils, I'm so bored need a coffee and Tils chat fix x'

Jen looked at Tilly and raised an eyebrow questioningly

'It's Mads, she's bored and wants to hang out'

'So, go see her, it's ok, from tomorrow we have the whole weekend together and that includes the nights. I'll get the things we need together and you just get your stuff sorted. I think we need to go early though so we can make the most of the day' Jen smiled and stroked Tillys cheek.

'Thanks, I don't want to be one of those cheeseballs who dumps their friends'

'I know that' added Jen

'But I don't want to go yet, I'll text her and meet her in an hour or so maybe we could snuggle on the sofa for a bit first?' Tilly said looking under her fringe with her seductive pout

'How could I resist an offer like that' laughed Jen,

She stood up holding Tillys hand and pulled Tilly up and led her to the sofa , as they stood beside it, Jen gently pulled Tilly towards her, lifted both hands and cupped her face lent in and placed a very soft and gentle kiss on her lips

'Tilly, we have all the time in the world to do everything we want together' Jen said as she drew Tilly down to the sofa with her.

As they sat back Jen put her arm around Tilly who nestled into her and lay her head on Jens shoulder

'Yeah I know that' Tilly added.

They sat quietly snuggled, Jen occasionally kissing the top of Tillys head, stroking her arm and hand, Tilly holding Jens hand and stroking it with her own thumb. They were at one, relaxing together to the sound of a compilation cd in the background. As they relaxed their breathing calmed, 'Lucky ones' by Lana del Ray was on and Tilly turned her head up to look at Jen

'I feel like we are the lucky ones, it's as if this is our tune'

Jen lifted her hand and stroked Tillys hair as she said

'We are, we are the lucky ones, I am so lucky to have found you'

She said before leaning forward and kissing Tilly, Tilly moved herself to be able to kiss Jen more comfortably as she lifted her hand to Jens face for added connection. They kissed gently for a while, savouring one another until Tillys phone rang . She reluctantly broke her kiss and answered it. Her mum was ringing to remind her not to be back late so and to find out what food and drinks she wanted in whilst they were away. Tilly explained she and Jen were going on a picnic, so her mum agreed to pick up some things for them. Tilly explained she was out with Maddy and would be home early evening to tea.

'I suppose that's my day mapped out now' she added to Jen with a mock sulk. Jen laughed, and kissed her girlfriend again

'Go on, go see Maddie, text me later, I'll sort everything out for tomorrow'.

The girls got up and hugged and Tilly left.

Tilly arrived and Maddie had a coffee ready and waiting for her

'Hey Tils, what took you so long? It's good to see you babe' she said hugging her friend

'Ahh, getting stuff ready with mum and dad for the trip to my relatives, how's you?'

'I'm fine, mum and dad are being a pain and Callum, well he's distracted by home life, din't know why I bother . You still coming the party?'

''Of course, got that cute new blue dress, I am certainly not missing it, don't you worry '

The girls chatted and gossiped together and we joined an hour later by Sinead

'D'ya know, my mums tapped, absolutely tapped, she's threatening not to lets us have any booze at the party on Saturday, she says shes got responsibilities! I mean, what is she on about?'

'Oh babe, she's just being a mum, she'll be fine she said yes to the party, she's just worrying' said Maddy in untypically understanding style.

'Yeah, it'll be fine, Jen will be there too so I'm sure it'll be ok, it's not like an official school thing is it, really' added Tilly

'Nah, but , you know, she's winding me up within, and I just don't need it! She's like what d'ya want to eat, what drinks do you want, who ' d'ya think will come' I mean, she me mum, she should know what we need' Sinead added in frustrated tones as Tilly and Maddie laughed out loudly at her ranting.

'So what are you wearing' said Maddy trying to change the conversation

It worked and the girls refilled their drinks and carried on talking about clothes and then music and then the topic of Abersoch came up

'So Tils it wont be long now before we head back down to Wales again, I can't wait to have a break from here and from mum and dad' said Maddy

'Yes, I love it down there as you know. Gosh what year we have had since then' Tilly added

'Well all I know is that I'm keeping it safe this time, god I can't wait to get away from here, I mean the college trip was great but Abersoch will be so much better' said Sinead.

Back at Dianes, Jen had packed up her car with the travel rug and had taken her small cool bag out to put some food and some drinks in. She made some vegetable sticks to go with some dips and hummus and Tilly was going to make the sandwiches. Her flask was ready for her to make some coffee in the morning. She then took herself into Chester to find herself something to wear for her weekend with Tilly and for the party. She wanted to look sexy for Tilly but knew she needed to not give the game away, she knew she could make the most of her well toned legs so opted for new red dress. She knew this would work well with her dark hair. She went in one of the lingerie shops and bought some new matching under wear and a new set of summer pyjamas, she did wonder how much she'd be wearing them and chuckled to herself as she paid for everything. As she stepped out of the shop she pulled out her phone and texted Tilly

'Hey, I've just been shopping, got something nice to wear for our weekend and the party : )xx'

Tillys' phone buzzed, as she was heading back from the toilet to where Maddy and Sinead were sat, so she stopped to look the message, she wondered what Jen was going to wear, then found herself imaging Jen without much on and blushed. She sent a text back

'Can't wait to see it all on you, and then to slowly peel it off of you again lol xxx'

Jens phone beeped and she laughed as she walked towards her car and replied

'Neither can I lol ; ) xxx'

Tilly went back to the girls and explained that she needed to go back home, but they had already decided they needed to go to, so they walked out together.

Tilly spent her evening getting her bedroom tidied up for Jens arrival she had new sheets for her bed in the morning. Her mum had already made the guest bed up in room and Tilly had decided that she would put the two beds together, but only after her parents had left in the morning. They were due to set off at 7 and Tilly and Jen had agreed that Jen would drive round as soon as they had gone. Tilly had bought some candles and some rose petals to create a romantic atmosphere for them, she wanted to create a love nest that they could enjoy and relax in undisturbed. Tilly also thought about what she was going to wear and decided on her blue waterproof coat some jeans and her boots. She'd wear a summer top and a jumper. She got her present for Jen out of her draw and checked it over before putting it back, she was really pleased with what she had bought for her. Then Tilly looked at the painting Jen had done for her, she felt warm and loved and lucky to have found the girl of her dreams. She couldn't wait for them to be together in the morning, she was getting very excited.

When she finally went to bed she picked up her phone and noticed she had missed a call and two texts from Jen, suddenly she panicked and wondered if there was a problem, but Jens texts didn't indicate this

'Hi gorgeous, how are you doing?' and 'Are you ok, not heard from you. I hope so I ams o looking forward to our next few days'

Tilly text back 'Sorry, been busy getting things ready for you, I can't wait to have you to myself, in my home and my bed I am so excited : )xxx'

'Me too, just txt me when the leave I will up early. When you go to sleep imagine me holding you in my arms, because that's exactly what I will be doing tomorrow night xx'

'I want you now : ( xx' replied Tilly, desperately wanting her girlfriend to be there with her

'Remember we've only 8 hours to go, I love you Tilly and tomorrow and the weekend are going to be amazing, I am kissing you goodnight now, sleep sweetly xxxx'

'Night Jen, I love you too, just impatient! Lol sleep well xxxxx'

Tilly set her alarm, not that she'd need it, but she set it for 6 am, she wanted to say goodbye to her parents and make the final preparations for the room and be ready to get Jen over as soon as possible, she thought she was still awake but her thoughts drifted to dreams as she fell asleep thinking about the day ahead