It's been a week since Edward and I first experimented. His control has improved since then. He has managed to get me off through his touch alone, something I never thought possible. He seems content in pleasing me, even when I try to reciprocate. He gently tells me no and continues to torture me with his cool touch…but not tonight.

Tonight is the night that I give him what he's given me…pleasure through love. He doesn't know it yet, but I plan on taking a part of his virginity; orally at least. I'm positive we will make love before the end of the month, but for now I just want to share other pleasures. I never thought I would feel that way. I've always been the "get in, get laid, get out" type of girl. I would usually just suck a guy off until it benefited me and then we would get right to business. It was a power trip.

With Edward, I feel powerless. He is the one in control. He is the one who makes decisions on what he wants to do and I melt in response. I never imagined it could be that way; never thought that I could be intimate with anyone…especially not him after leaving me. But it's as if we were never separated. The love we shared four years ago has intensified and we want to please each other in every way. It's as if I never changed; never hated him for leaving me. It's only been a week, but the memory of my past has faded. Edward makes it so easy to forget…except when he's feeling guilty.

I think that's one reason why he's been so attentive to my needs; he still feels like my lifestyle was his fault. It doesn't matter that I've told him over a hundred times already that he was not responsible for my actions and he keeps saying "if I had never left, you would never have had to make a decision, either way." I tried again bringing up that I could have been dating someone else and he hurts me and would have made that decision. Yeah, that doesn't help either. He hates thinking of me with someone else.

So now I just let him get the guilt over with. I think only time will heal the wounds. We may be happy, but there are trust issues that we are working on. I do wonder everyday when I go to work if he will be there when I get home. And he always is. I don't know what he does with himself all day; it's not like he can go outside (it is LA). I think he tortures Sonny, my neighbor's dog, from afar.

I love him. So much. These four years have only increased my love and desire for him. And tonight he will know that…

If I can ever get out of work!

I have been stuck in a meeting since three. It is now six. We had an emergency meeting discussing our security; apparently there has been someone snooping around at night. We don't have solid confirmation but the evidence is building. My office hasn't been tampered with, but my boss's has been. So now everyone has to voice their opinions on how to proceed. I know I should be listening, but when you have a beautiful angel at home waiting for you, you tend to let your mind wander.

After another twenty minutes, we were released. I never flew out of that office so fast!

I broke every speed law getting home; luckily no cops were around. When I got home, Edward was waiting for me. As soon as I stepped inside, he enveloped me in his arms. He brought his nose to the top of my head and inhaled deeply. Then he sighed.

"I know, you only love me for my scent," I teased. He smiled and kissed me. "Not even close," he said against my lips. I took the opportunity to deepen the kiss by snaking my tongue into his mouth. I heard his breath hitch but he didn't pull away. In fact, he pulled me closer to him. I could feel his chiseled chest against mine; his strong arms tighten around my waist and his lips pressing firmly against mine.

I didn't want to pull back, but I had to breathe. When I did, he pressed his lips against my forehead. "I've missed you so much," he said. I smiled at him. "Me too. And I have plans for tonight."

He raised his eyebrows. "Oh?" I kissed him again. "It's a surprise." He chuckled and pulled away. "Okay," he said. He moved to the refrigerator. "Let's get you something to eat."

I shook my head. "I'm not hungry." He opened the door and pulled out a block of cheese. My stomach growled. He looked over at me. I blushed. Of course he would hear that. He leaned over and kissed my cheek. Then he handed me some cheese. I nibbled on it while watching him putting things away.

"You're a natural in the kitchen," I said. He turned to look at me, question marks in his eyes. "You seem to know perfectly where everything goes and what to do."

He smiled. "Well, I spend all of the day here while you're at work. I have a lot of time on my hands. And the Food Network helps me learn what to cook." He came over and wrapped his arms around me. "That is, of course, when I'm not torturing Sonny."

I laughed and placed a hand on his chest. "I knew you would be harassing him." He smiled his crooked smile and his golden eyes sparkled. "He is so annoying and I have to get my kicks somehow." I laughed again and laid my head against his chest. He held me, content.

"I love you," I said.

"I love you too, Bella." He kissed the top of my head. I pulled away. "It's time for the surprise," I said, taking his cool hand and leading him to the bedroom. He stood in the doorway, wondering what I was doing. I kissed him passionately.

He returned the kiss and his hands found their way to my hips. I turned my head a bit and deepened the kiss while running my fingers through his hair. He growled low in his chest. I nipped on his lower lip.

His grip on my hips intensified and he pulled me closer to him. I pulled my mouth away because I had to breathe and started trailing kisses up and down his collarbone. I heard his breathing grow heavy as my lips made contact with his cool skin.

"Bella, that feels amazing." His voice was ragged. His left hand started stroking my hair. I started unbuttoning his shirt and placed kisses up and down his chest.

He let go of me to let his shirt fall. Then he led me to the bed. He tried to get me to lie down first, but I refused. "The surprise is you. I'm taking care of you tonight." His golden eyes grew wide. "Bella…are you sure?"

I nodded. "You have been fantastic this past week, but every time I try to please you, you shove me off," I said.

"That's because I want to please you." He started moving away.

"And I want to please you." I placed my hand on his chest and he stopped. He looked into my eyes as though he was searching for something. As if finding it, he nodded.

"Okay," he whispered. He sat down on the bed. I could tell he was nervous. "Don't be nervous, Edward. I'll only do what you are comfortable with."

I pushed him back on the bed and started trailing kisses down his chest. "You will be fine. Just enjoy, please." He sighed.

I ran my tongue down his chest slowly, leaving a wet trail on his marble skin. He moaned softly. I then moved to his nipples and slowly started licking and sucking on them. I heard his breathing grow heavy then and his hand moved to my head.

"Amazing," he sputtered. I glanced up at him and smiled. Then I moved to his other nipple and did the same thing. I concentrated on his upper body for awhile, getting him familiar with the sensations. His breathing was uneven and he was moaning uncontrollably now.

I gently moved my hand down to his belt and silently asked for permission to remove it. He nodded and I slowly slid it out of the loops and undid the button of his jeans. Without asking, he lifted up and I pulled them off. I smiled when I saw the huge bulge in his boxers.

He ran his hand through his hair and closed his eyes as his breathing returned to normal. I crawled to his face and kissed him again. "How are you doing?" I asked him. In response, he opened his eyes; they were a light gold.

Keeping eye contact with him, I slowly slid my hand inside his boxers. I gently touched the tip of his manhood and he hissed loudly, throwing his head back. I then rubbed my thumb over is tip while I gently gripped his shaft. He snarled.

"B-Bella," he gasped. I stopped, worrying it was too much and looked into his eyes. They had turned black, but not with hunger. "Your touch is mind-blowing. My skin feels ten degrees warmer." He looked down and saw that I rested my hand on his stomach. "Would you think me a complete pig if I asked you to continue?"

I smiled. "I was hoping you would say that." He closed his eyes again. I gently tugged on his boxers and was given permission to remove them. I then looked at my angel, completely naked in front of me.

Here I thought he could never be more beautiful. I was wrong. Like he did with me, I stared at his form. He opened his eyes, feeling self-conscious.

"You're perfect," I told him. He smiled. I gently wrapped my hand around his shaft and slowly started stroking it. He growled and gripped my sheet. My movements quickened and I pressed my lips to him.

"I love you," I told him. Then I placed his tip in my mouth. He snarled and snapped his jaw and his hand was on my head.

"Stop," he said. I looked up at him, eyes black with lust. "That completely caught me off-guard Bella. I almost came." I continued to stroke his shaft until he was under control. I slowly lowered my mouth onto his manhood. He hissed but didn't move. I started circling him in my mouth while running my hand up and down his manhood. It's natural for a vampire to lie like stone, but he was far from that now. He was writhing, gently bucking his hips towards me and pushing himself deeper into my mouth.

He was huge. Bigger than anyone I've ever been with. I was a little worried how he would fit inside me and then shoved that thought aside. Let him see how much you love him. I withdrew most of him from my mouth and sucked on his tip, running my finger up and down his length.

His hand gently stroked my hair and he started convulsing. I braced myself for the horrid taste that was next. Instead, I got assaulted with honey and cream as he came, long and hard. As I raised my eyes up to look at the man I had just finished, a memory flashed in my mind. In it, I focused on his adorable belly button, then his six-pack abs and chiseled chest, how beautiful and toned it was. My eyes roamed upward and I saw the firm jaw line, the chiseled cheekbones and the purplish, bruised-looking shadows under his eyes. I saw his bronze-colored hair in disarray even more than usual. He was trying to control his breathing and his eyes were closed. He looked content; happy…like an angel.

My eyes widen as I lapped up all of him. I had this dream. I dreamt of doing this when sleeping in my hammock. It was a premonition. Edward Cullen was lying in front of me, his bronze-colored hair in disarray as he tried to control his breathing. His eyes were closed and he looked happy.

Holy shit!

I gently released him and moved to his face, eager for his reaction. His eyes slowly opened, gold seeping from them. He looked into mine. "Bella, that was fantastic. I can't believe how amazing that felt." He pulled my mouth to his.

Our tongues intermingled for awhile and I ran my hand over his chest. He growled lowly. I took the opportunity to pleasure him again. He lasted longer this time and once more I tasted honey and cream when I finished him.

"Why does your cum taste like honey and cream?" I asked him later in the evening as he was holding me. "It's not cum, Bella. It's venom."

I raised my head to look at him. "Really? Why does it taste like that?" He shrugged. "They're natural flavors. You've commented that I smell Earthy; the venom has that taste as well I suppose."

"You've never tasted it?" He wrapped his arm around me tighter. "No. When the venom flows through my mouth, it's stinging. It's deadly; it wants to strike. There is no taste then." He kissed the top of my head. "I'm glad to know that you enjoyed swallowing."

I laughed. "I wish all cum tasted like yours." I immediately regretted saying that. I looked up at him again. "I'm sorry."

He stroked my cheek. "For what? You paid me a compliment. I'm happy to know that I can please you that way."

I started to say something but yawned instead. He chuckled. "Go to sleep, Bella. Tomorrow is the weekend. We have all day to try new things."

I never had better dreams in my life than I did that night.

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A/N: I hope you all liked that.

The next chapter will take a break from Bella's "sexcapdes" with Edward. It will explain what happened with Alex… and what happens when Jacob reappears?

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