Chapter 14- a nostalgic sound

Zero didn't come to school the next day. Riku talked and joked with me during break but I didn't feel like laughing. Instead, I felt like crying the whole day, I had no appetite for food or anything else. My stomach felt hollow, my throat tight and my heart felt heavy and I just wanted the day to end. I wanted to see him, but what was I going to say. I love him but I can't be with him. These thought added to my depression and it took everything I had not to get up in the middle of class and leave. When school was over, I performed disciplinary duties, took a shower in my own bathroom this time, and went to bed.

The next day Zero came but I didn't see him until I came in late to class. I didn't talk to him and he didn't even so much as look at me. I knew it was bad, but it was better for him to be here then where I can't see him. Love makes you so selfish. I looked at him with every opportunity I would get. My eyes making up for what I had missed yesterday. He was the same as usual, but there was an atmosphere around him I couldn't place. Our eyes met once when I came in from lunch and he looked up, we stared for a good three seconds before we both turned away. My heart jumping and my face becoming red.

He helped for the first half of the disciplinary duties then left without a word. Kaname greeted me and I smiled at him, too busy with the girls to talk to him. When I was done I started patrolling the grounds. I quickly made sure there were no student outside then made my way to my dorm. Suddenly rain started to pour down on me, and I wasn't even halfway to my dorm. I made my way into the nearest school building. I opened the door, and the sound echoed inside. Everything was dark and quiet, I close the door behind me, the only sound I hear is the rain outside. I walked in and decided to stay here until the storm passed. It was the old night class building. It was supposed to be renovated to a new building but then they stopped midway, I didn't know why though. I walked through the building, the windows were large and so were the hallways. There were more rooms here then the school building. I didn't open any doors. It was dark enough and I didn't want to be scared. When I had taken a round of the first floor I came back to the main entrance. I saw a figure there and my heart jumped, it turned to me. It was Zero. I sighed but my heart still beat in that abnormal rhythm.

'Sorry, I'll leave,' he says in the darkness.

He turns and opens the door, the rain was still pouring and there was suddenly the sound of thunder.

'Don't leave,' I almost screamed, he turns to me, 'Don't leave,' I say again, looking down. I hear the door close and look up, expecting to find him gone. But he's there, with his back to me, his hands still on the knob, as if he would change his mind any second. I go to him, I wanted to see him, I wanted him to see me, I wanted him to smile at me, to laugh at me, to love me. Silent tears ran down my cheek. I was glad there was no lighting here. I was right behind him now, I leaned my forehead to his back, he stiffens under my touch.

'I'm sorry Zero,' I whisper, my voice breaking in the apology, 'I haven't been myself lately.' He turns to me after a few seconds I hear him sigh then he raises his hand and uses his thumb to wipe my tears. This makes me cry harder, all my frustration was coming out. I missed him so much that my feelings were overflowing.

'I'm not scared of you Zero,' I say as his fingers freeze on my face, 'I'll never be scared of you, I told you I wouldn't.'

He gently pulls me to him, wrapping his arms around me. I cry into his chest and wrap my arms around him. His strong body supports me as I lean into him. I feel the thudding of his heart. Its beating fast, yet it sound soothing to my ears. An almost nostalgic sound. He holds me until I stop crying, I pull away when my tears are spent and I start to feel tired. My tears have made an irregular circle stain on his jacket. I can't hear the sound of the storm outside anymore.

'I feel tired,' I say, not wanting to talk. He nods and turns. I miss the contact with him. We walk out the building and start walking to the girls dorm. Suddenly, I feel Zeros warm hand take hold of my cold ones. I don't say anything and neither does he. My stomach dips and starts to flutter. I don't want him to stop holding my hands, I would never have known how much warmth you can feel with just a small gesture if it wasn't for Zero. When we get to my dorm, I reluctantly let go of him hand.

'Thank you Zero,' I say, and as an after thought, say to him, 'I'll see you in school tomorrow.'

He smiles, and my stomach flutters even harder and my heart beats faster. He frowns a little, but I smile at him. His face relaxes, I give him a little wave and go inside. Yori's asleep, so I take a shower and go to bed, anticipating Zero's presence tomorrow.

Sorry, my chapters keep getting smaller and smaller for some reason -_-

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