a/n: hey guys!

first of all, i forgot to mention something last chapter: i want to thank EVERYONE who reviewed and added this story to their alerts and favorites. You make me sooo happy!

Now, i know i said i wasn't going to update soon but i had a little free time so i decided to write. I know it´s a really short chapter but it's important and i wanted it to be a sort of transition chapter and therefore it makes sense to be how it is, instead of being longer which would ruin the pace of the story and the importance of what happened.

I hope you enjoy it. see you at the bottom!

(i do not own them but i wish i had an Edward. He could toss me over his shoulder and run with me anytime!)

Edward

For a moment, all the disappointment I was feeling gave place to immense happiness. Bella was sitting on the ground, Indian style, at the riverside. She had her back to me and she was throwing little bits of grass she was pulling from the ground into the river. I could hear her regular heartbeat and she was breathing normally which meant she was at ease. That's what I had wanted. She had had no problem turning her back to the trees, where I had disappeared into earlier, she had trusted me.

I approached her quickly but since I didn't want to scare her I decided to stop a few feet away and make myself noticed. I cleared my throat softly but I startled her nonetheless. She jumped a little and turned. "Oh! Edward, you're here!...Already?" She got up and then brought her hands to her butt, trying to clean her pants. "Sooo…?" She sounded excited and she smiled at me. "How was it?" She had her hands behind her back and she was swinging them. She was such an adorable creature. But once I shrugged and looked at her apologetically, her smile left her face and she stopped bouncing. "Oh… That bad, huh? You didn't find anything?" She took a few steps forward, getting closer to me. My throat burned so much and my brain kept screaming at me to do something about it, I had to really concentrate to keep the voice at bay.

"Well, kind of." I was so nervous. I didn't want to lie to her, she didn't deserve it, not after all her acceptance of me. But the truth hurt so much. I was pulling at my hair by then.

"Stop doing that, Edward." And she began stretching her hand to touch me but then regretted it and took it back. "You're going to get… Oh, never mind!" And she chuckled. "So… what happened?"

"I just can't Bella. It's like… isn't there anything you just can't eat? Something that makes you think Eeww! Gross! I'll never eat that again?" I wanted to make a good analogy.

"Oh, yeah! Absolutely! Brussels' sprouts! They are so awful!" She made the cutest grimace.

"Okay… so that's how bad it went. And not only that but… I don't feel any pull. I can hear the animals and eventually find them but there's no scent so… there's no appeal… I guess… I guess I'll just have to try harder next time. I'm sorry." I lowered my head, looked at my feet and brought my hands to my face.

I was feeling really depressed, and not only was I starving I had to embrace the fact that the next night I was going to see Bella only for 50 minutes. Just like I thought: By the end of the week I won't be seeing her again.

I heard her get closer and then her hands where holding mine and she was taking them away from my face. Then she put her fingers on my chin and lifted my head until I was looking at her. "Don't worry, Edward. You're going to do it. We still have tomorrow… and the next day, and the next too!" She was giving me a reassuring smile. How could she be so positive about the whole thing?

"Okay Bella. I promise I'll try… for you." I really meant it and I wanted her to know that I was doing all that for her, no one else… not even for me.

"Don't do it for me, Edward. Do it for yourself." She smiled again and walked by me, then she stopped a few feet away and looking behind her shoulder she said "So, are you just going to stand there or are you going to take me home, vampire style?" and she put her hands on her hips, like I had done earlier.

I couldn't help but grin at her. "You asked for it!" I ran to her, grabbed her and tossed her behind me so she was straddling my back. I had to admit I was taking advantage of the situation to have that kind of contact with her. Then I stormed into the trees, running faster than before, so she could just see what I was capable of.

I stopped at her front door but she didn't release me. She had her head glued to my neck and her grasp on me was really strong.

"Bella?" I couldn't help but laugh.

"Mmm?" was her only answer.

"Bella, are you okay? We're here you know? You can let go now." I was still laughing.

She raised her head but her grasp remained strong.

"Oh my God. I think I'm gonna throw up! It was too much; you have to go easy on me! You'll kill me Edward!"

She slid down my back and put her feet on the ground, her legs were wobbling.

"Ahahah, Bella, Bella. Like I told you, you asked for it!"

"Ah ah. Funny! But yes, it was my fault I guess." She was looking at me intently by then. Was she trying to find something to say? I decided to wait so I just stuffed my hands in my pockets and looked at her, waiting. "So… I guess I'll be going now. Thank you so much Edward. I had fun tonight!" she was smiling and she was so beautiful. Her cheeks were still flushed from the cold wind.

"I'm glad, Bella. And I had fun too!" My hand was scratching the back of my neck. What do I say? "I guess… I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Sure! Yes, of course. Do you want to say when and where this time?"

"Hmm. Okay, how about… 11pm, right here? I know it's late so if you don't want to that's fine!"

"Oh, that's okay. I can do that. So, until tomorrow!"

She didn't mention anything about the 10 minute penalty and I sure wasn't going to!

"See you, Bella! Good night… and sleep well!" I waved at her and began retreating, always facing the door.

She opened it and when she got inside she looked at me and waved too "Good night Edward!"

I had turned around by then and she was about to close the door when I remembered I still had to ask her something.

"Oh! Bella!"

She immediately opened the door, an excited expression on her beautiful face, "Yes?"

"I forgot to ask you, what's your favorite flower?"

"Lilies. Why?"

"Curiosity." I winked and smiled at her and then disappeared behind the house and into the woods.

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Bella

Every time he winked… or smiled, or smirked, or touched his hair, or talked, or breathed, I turned into a little school girl who had just met her favorite boys band. It made me feel ridiculous and ridiculously happy.

That didn't mean I was forgetting the rest. There was some important issue that was really bothering me. He hadn't managed to hunt any animal and therefore the next day I was going to give him only 50 minutes to be with me. I didn't dare mention it to him though, he was probably depressed enough and he didn't need me to remind him of that too. I wanted to be positive for him. Also, it bothered me because my goal with the agreement was to make him feed on animals again. If he didn't do it then he would have to keep feeding on humans. I knew that deep down it really affected him and I also wanted to believed he was a good person so, again, deep down, he would feel better if he stopped being a murderer.

Apart from that, I had had so much fun. The lab, all the things I found out about him, our light talk and heavy too. That beautiful clearing with the river was so soothing. And he was such a wonderful man… vampire… man. He was interesting and polite and funny and smart… And sexy and handsome! And even though he had told me it was difficult for him to be around me, he was close to me the whole time. He had also told me some serious details about him and some of his choices. I wanted to help him any way I could and I wanted him to trust me enough to tell me if he needed anything. Like I had told him, with hopes he would catch the hint, he had to be a little selfish sometimes.

But I was in such a good mood I didn't want to ruin it with too much thinking so I went to my office to read some news, watch some videos, listen to music… even though I wished I was running with Edward through the woods and hanging out with him. I just hoped he would follow through with his part of the agreement because if things kept going like they were, by the end of the week I was never going to see him again.

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Edward

It was still too early but I didn't know what else to do. I didn't want to go anywhere, afraid to slip and kill someone. I also didn't want to go run or anything that demanded exercise because I hadn't had blood, so I decided to retreat to the lab.

It still smelled of Bella. The place looked nicer just by smelling of strawberries. I knew what I was going to do the next night. That was why I had asked Bella what her favorite flower was and to meet me so late. I was going to find lilies and plant them on her garden. I needed to save all the energy I could. If things kept going like they were, in three days or less I was going to become too weak to do anything, so I needed to work on her garden as soon as possible. I wanted it to be a surprise so it couldn't be done that night because she would probably see then in the morning.

I was sitting on the stool Bella had occupied earlier, playing with the flashlight she had left there, and I began replaying the hour I had had with her. There were a lot of things dancing on my mind but there were ones that tapped louder…

"Everyone deserves a happy life and… what if you find someone you like? Someone you wish you could spend the rest of your life with? You just let the person go away? Be miserable when you could try and be happy?"

"It's funny how things eventually connect, you know? How, in the end, there's always a reason for something to happen. There are no coincidences. Don't you believe that?"

"This, what I do, it's not living, it's merely existing. I should have been dead for a long time but instead I'm still here. I can't die, never. I'm damned, Bella. And one soul is enough."

There are no coincidences.

Someone I like.

Let the person go away.

Be miserable when I could try and be happy.

I can't die.

I'm damned.

She's not.

I CAN die. I can try.

I can be with her without compromising her life, her soul. And I'm doomed anyway...

I stood up quickly and went for the cabinet in a hurry. Frantically I picked all the journals I had and the books and threw them on top of the counter. Grabbing a pen I began reading and turning pages and taking notes. She didn't want me to feed on humans, I didn't want to feed on humans, I couldn't feed on animals, I wanted to be with her, I wanted to go with her to places, see the sun with her, grow old with her. I wanted to live!

So I was going to study again, I was going to experiment, test, try again and again and again, everything I could because I didn't want to be colder than Bella anymore, I didn't want to be paler, younger, faster, stronger or immortal anymore. I didn't want to be Bella's monster or vampire, I wanted to be Bella's human. By the end of the week I wasn't going to be seeing her never again. I was going to spend the rest of my life with her.

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