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(fan-fiction) Hakuouki:Kaika No Tsubomi
Chapter 14: The awakening

"Don't..please!..I..I won't run away no more..im!" I suddenly gasped and awakened from that nightmare, terrible memories of my father, I started to breath hard and felt my chest my heart was racing rapidly, I began to cry and started shaking those memories, I thought i threw them away long after I met the shinsengumi, I thought I could start all over, but it seems I can't forget about it. Heisuke and everyone ran to the room and were happy that I woken up.

"Arisa you're alright! thank goodness" Heisuke said giving me a hug, I blushed and hugged him back, I cried even more.

"Arisa-chan!, you've been in a coma for two months now, I was so worried you wouldn't wake up!" She started crying and hugged me too.

"Welcome back" Harada said putting his hand on his hip and everyone was smiling.

"You must be hungry right now! I'll go make some food and tea for you" Chizuru said and took everyone else along with her. "You guys come too! Heisuke-kun keep Arisa some company the rest of us will be making her the huge buffet!" She said pulling everyone out and leaving me and Heisuke.

"Ahh, okay I understand" He said getting up and closing the door.

"How long have I been out..again.." I said shaking still scared from the nightmare.

"About two months, you've got everyone worried, Okita came in a few times to check on you"

"Okita?! where is he I didn't see him come in, is he alright" I yelled and Heisuke looked upset for my concern of Okita.

"Yeah he's fine..what about you, every time I went in to check on you, you would always cry and start to scream in your sleep, it scared us to see you in so much pain is there?!..." He looked at me and I was crying, He tried to calm me down but it didn't help at all.

"I..was scared...it felt so real, why did those memories come back..why?!...I thought I could start all over but..but it's no use..no matter how much I try to run away, he always comes back..he...he!" I said wiping my tears every time it fell down my cheek, Heisuke embraced me.

"It must have been scary right..from what I know you were in so much pain..It hurts to see you like y'know hehe, it almost makes me wanna cry" He said hugging me tightly, I hugged him back and cried in his arms, i'm glad to have you Heisuke-kun, I don't know what'd i'd do if you weren't here to embrace me.

"It..was scary..I wish I can tell you..but..but it's too much for me to remember again, i'm sorry" I said shivering.

"It's okay! As long as I know that you're safe and away from those terrible times..ITS OKAY!" Heisuke hugged me even tighter and his voice was shivering, It was as if he knew what was happening, He let me go and stared at me for a while, he leaned closer and kissed me passionately, and I kissed him back, my body started to get hot, I wanted to fully embrace him that night,but I was scared that he wouldn't want to embrace like that so instead I just kept kissing passionately. He suddenly came to realization, he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me away, I pushed his arms off me and went on top of him, I wanted him to be completely mine, but I was too nervous and scared of being reject so instead I hugged him tightly.

"I love you Heisuke-kun!" I held him tightly and he blushed, he was going to hug me back but he told me to get off him and I did, I waited for his reply but he didn't seem to say anything.

"That's enough already..I can't..do this type of stuff with you no more..i'm sorry.." He said sadly, I could tell by his eyes he was lying to himself, but I believed every single word he said, I was rejected..even though he kissed me and comforted me I was rejected..

"I.." I didn't get to say what I wanted to because Hijikata came in the room and told us both to come to the address hall to speak about something, While we were walking Heisuke has kept his distance from me, It was awkward and I was worried.

"Arisa and Heisuke are here now..take a seat..Arisa come up front, we have something to discuss with you right now" He said with a strange look on his face that made me shiver. Everyone seemed to have a serious but sad face, they all stared at my every movement, As I took my seat I saw Okita, I wanted to go up to him and hug him but afraid of all these weird stares.

"Welcome back Arisa" Sannan-san and Kondou-san said with warm smiles.

"Thank you.." I said smiling but then the atmosphere came back, and felt those weird stares again.

"As I recalled you were Souji's replacement before you were in a deep coma am I correct?" He asked me and I nodded my head. "Do you have any memory of what you saw that night" He said giving me a terrible look, I had questioned myself and suddenly the memories came back again, There were monsters with white hair and red eyes that were called rasetsu's they attacked us and I was scared to death, Chizuru and Yamazaki-kun were trying to help me escape until I saw Heisuke was being attacked I jumped in on his fight and killed some of them, one of them attacked me and Heisuke came to my rescue, He also had white hair and red eyes...he..he is also one of them!

I jumped and got up from my seat and cried, "Yes..yes! I remember everything now..the rasetsu's, the bottle!..Heisuke-kun!" I said covering my mouth and turned to Heisuke, He didn't face me instead he turned his head.

"Hei..Heisuke..." I cried and stared at him, I love him but now i'm suddenly scared of him, I was confused and lost.

"Those monsters are called rasetsu's they are inhumanly strong and can heal from any direct attack you throw at them, the only way to kill them is to stab them in the heart, And you have seen it before right, the the bottle" He said giving me information I nodded my head and started to breath hard, I wanted to escape from this place! I don't belong here.

"That bottle is called The Water Of Life, or how we call it The Ochimizu, that is what gives them the power to fight like that..if one person drinks the red fluid, there's the chance they can go insane and start to kill innocent people, or have some sense and be able to control themselves, As you can see Yukimaru-kun (Chizuru) is a Oni, She may not look it but she is capable of healing herself without going insane since she is a full oni, As for us excluding Harada-kun and Kondou-san we are all Rasetsu's" He said informing me I turned and stared at everyone, I was disappointed.

"Wh..why am I here...you..you guys are.." I was terrified and tried to runaway but they all pulled me down and I started screaming. "Let me go!, please...I don't want to be here anymore..." I said squirming around trying to break free.

"If you treasure your life, I would suggest you not leave!" Hijikata yelled.

"I don't.." I mumbled, "Never once, have I treasured the meaning of life! Kill me now! I'm done with living...I thought I could start over and live a better life but..this is just too much..you all lied to me, you kept secrets from me, if I would've known, maybe I could have had time to leave this place.."

"Is that your answer..Do you really wish to die" Sannan-san said seriously and I nodded my head.

"Then your wish will be granted" Sannan-san said and turned to Okita, as he got up and took out his sword and looked down on me.

"It pains me to kill someone that I've known for quite a while now...it's too bad, you have to die now, nonetheless I have to kill you with my own sword" He said smiling, though he was smiling I can see he is hesitating to kill me his arm was shaking.

"Do it.." I said bluntly, Chizuru started to cry and tried to stop Okita, She grabbed him from behind and told him to stop, everyone was sad, frustrated and confused,I grabbed the sword from Okita's hand.

"If you hesitate to kill me now then I will do it myself!" I said putting the sword near my chest, I gave them all my final words. "It was fun living with you guys, I truly did enjoy being with everyone..but if it means getting involved with monsters then..then I'd rather die, life..life isn't such a blessing after all, isn't it..." I tilted my head and smiled at everyone while crying as I said those words, As I prepared to kill myself Chizuru started to run and save me, I thought it would be too late but instead heisuke grabbed the blade with his bare hands and started bleeding, He looked pissed and disappointed in me.

"Your hand is bleeding...let the blade go already, its over..." I cried trying to pull the blade to my chest so I can end my own life but he wouldn't let me.

"I won't.." He said struggling but I kept pulling it closer and closer.

"Arisa!" Chizuru yelled my name and hugged me from behind. "Don't do it!..please don't do it..aren't we friends..just cause were a little different doesn't mean we're not the same people..we love you Arisa...all of us..don't you see that.." she started crying and I also cried again with her.

"Of course I can see that.."

"Then why are you doing this to yourself.."

"I don't know?!...I..I'm done with living..what the point.."

"There is no point in living!..you're right but.. but you can make your own point!..you can create your own dreams, your beliefs, find them, instead of whining like a wuss!" He yelled at me, and he was right.

"Let's live on together Arisa..ne~" She said smiling, I could not bare to see her in tears no more, there right, whether a demon, a rasetsu, or human we all have reasons to live and dream, we can create and re-build.

"..right, you're right" I smiled happily as well, I dropped the blade and started crying Chizuru hugged me and i hugged her back.

"Alright then! Harune, would you like to still battle with us and the rasetsu's?" Kondou-san asked me, I started shaking and told them no, He said he would train me and help me out but I still refused his request, kondou-san understood my situation and was about to cancel plan's until suddenly a man came in out of nowhere, a man of the higher-up's more powerful than the Shinsengumi.

"I don't mean to barge in at a time like this, but I would suggest she stay fighting with the rasetsu's, she has already been registered as a samurai right? It's her new duty to protect kyoto along with everyone else, it wouldn't be fair now wouldn't it ms. harune?" He smirked evily

"But..I don't want t.." I said but he stopped me from speaking. "It doesn't matter to us whether you want to or not you have chosen the path of a samurai and you can't leave from it, unless...you wish to speak to our brutal commander" the man said

"..It..just doesn't end.." I covered my eyes cryin "I don't want to fight rasetsu's...its scary..please.." I asked but he declined, "You put this upon yourself, you start in less than 3 weeks on your shift, whether you know how to fight them or not..good day to you all, and have a wonderful battle with your new foe's ms. harune" He said laughing outside the door and taking his leave, once again the atmosphere came back.

"Isn't there any we can do about this Kondou-san?" Harada asked but he said no.

"Chh!...damn it! why must they always boss us around, to think we were finally being recognized for our hard work they still...DAMN!" Shinpachi said punching the wall angrily.

I was still crying terrified of seeing those things again, Chizuru comforted me and kondou-san came up to me and patted my head. "You must be scared right, i'm sorry i got you into this mess..but their no way to leave your position now, Harune you won't have anything to worry about because i will train you" I looked up at him and nodded my head and hugged him, he seemed surprise but he kept patting my head comforting me. We all left the room, I finally calmed down, I saw Heisuke going leaving so I followed his direction, Heisuke wasn't being himself.

"Heisuke-kun...wait for me!" I shouted he turned around and gave me a weird stare, I stopped running and putted my hand down.

"You shouldn't be coming near me anymore...since i'm a monster to you right..I don't think I can see as much anymore..when you stared at me..you were scared of me, when I saw you like that..I thought to myself that a monster like me can't be with someone like you..sorry." He said sadly yet smiling and left.

"Wha..what...I..that was before, i'm okay now Heisuke really..I'm oka.." I said trying to reach out to him but he slapped my hand. "Like I said..I don't think i should see you anymore.." He said irritably and walked away from me. I dropped on the floor and started to cry, I thought we could finally start a real relationship with each other, but whenever I want to put myself to him we would always try to keep his distance from me. As I cried Okita was behind me and hugged me.

"A real man wouldn't leave a woman crying on the floor like this, ne Heisuke-kun" He said smiling at him and he turned around. "You don't mind if I take her away from your arms, for good?" I was hoping for Heisuke to come and take me away from his arms, I cried and cried and said to myself Heisuke will definitely come for me no doubt.

"Do what you want with her..She was never mines to begin with.." He said, I was completely shocked and I got up and told Okita to release me.

"Is that how you treat me?...I'm just another doll you can throw away...your the worst! Heisuke you idiot!..you're terrible and deceiving...Don't kiss me if you don't love me..don't do that to me...STOP PLAYING WITH MY FEELINGS!" I said throwing my shoe at him as he walked away not listening to a word I said.

"Are you even listening IDIOT HEISUKE?!...I'm done with you..you think you can get away with playing me like that but you won't you DUMB ASS HOLE!" I ran to him and started to beat him, Okita did not seem to stop me from hitting him.

"Hey?! what going on here Arisa stop!" Harada said trying to stop me.

"Give me back my feelings for you! give it all back!" I yelled punching his chest and finally Shinpachi got me off of him.

"What they hell Okita?! why didn't you stop her" He asked

"It was futile, either way..let it be" He said. I calmed down after Heisuke left, and cried on the and everyone left me accept Okita he comforted me.

"Why does everyone do this to me..." I cried and Okita grabbed my shoulders "What about me..am I any good to take care of you, Arisa...I may not be Heisuke but..I won't leave your side, if you accept me as a lover" He asked me and I blushed.

"Will you take me instead.." He asked me seriously, I had no words to say to him, but it finally came to a conclusion, I accepted Okita feelings, He was warm, mischievous, and a very lonely guy, almost like a cat in need of space for love, I hugged and and told him yes. Though I accepted him, at the time no matter how much Okita gave me his love you would always be in my mind Heisuke.