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Alone

Lucas stared out over the city as he tried not to cry. He had known this would happen sooner or later. He had just prayed it would be later. Amy and James needed their mum. He needed Ros. Shaking his head he sniffed loudly knowing that somehow he would have to tell his children that Mum wasn't coming home. Ever again. He closed his eyes and fought the urge to let himself fall from the building. It wasn't until he felt a warm hand on his back that he remembered he wasn't the only one suffering.

"Ruth."

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Harry glanced at Ros as he rested his hand on the door handle. Both knew the Morganston brothers had a history of booby trapping their victims. It seemed unlikely they would change their MO now.

"Harry." Ros held his gaze as she clicked the safety catch off her gun.

He nodded as she held the weapon in front of her. Gingerly he pushed the door open as the smell of smoke began to fill the air. The heat that hit them knocked them both back as Ros coughed and spluttered. Harry knocked her to the floor for the second time that hour as the smoke filled the air.

"Dad?" Harry stopped as he heard Graham weakly call his name. Closing his eyes he fought his way back through the smoke as Ros fought the nausea and breathlessness that was beginning to overwhelm her. Following Harry back into the burning room she found Teresa laying unconscious a few feet away.

"Get her out of here." Harry ordered as Ros pulled the smaller woman in to her arms. Sighing heavily she prayed history wasn't about to repeat itself. Harry grabbed Graham by the arm and half dragged the younger man away from the burning building.

"Dad."

"Graham, help me out here." Harry coughed as Graham realised just how injured his father was. Carefully both men staggered after Ros and Teresa as Graham tried not to lean to heavily on his father.

"I'm." He paused to cough as the heat began to intensify. "I'm sorry."

"Come on." Harry chocked out the words as he tried to remember which way he had come.

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Adam closed his eyes as he listened to the Chief Fire Officer explain what had happened. His blood ran cold as the words seemed to sink in. In Ros' abscence he was in charge and right then he hated it.

"Beth?" He turned to the younger woman. "I know Zaf and Zoe have more to think about than what's going on here but can you ask them to come to the Grid before they take Danny home?" He watched as Beth nodded. She had no idea what had been said but she knew it was serious.

"Adam."

"Please Beth. Now."

Beth nodded before turning on her heel and walking out towards Med bay. Adam leant against his desk as he glanced towards Harry's office knowing his son's best friend was asleep on the sofa while Charlie and Catherine were curled up on a camp bed Calum had set up for them. Another glance at the clock told him he was about to break the hearts of more than one person.

"Ruth? I need a word." Ruth looked up from the facial recognition programme she was running. The colour drained from her face the moment she looked at him.

"No." She shook her head as Adam approached her. "No, Adam please."

"I'm sorry." He pulled her into his arms as she shook visibly. Neither had noticed Lucas appear in the doorway of the kitchenette. He closed his eyes, Ros had been with Harry. If he was dead then she would be too. He knew it. Ros would never leave her post, never leave her friend.

"Graham? Teresa? Ros! Oh God." Ruth wiped at her eyes as she looked away. Lucas met her gaze for a minute before walking towards the Pods. She could do nothing but sob in Adam's arms.

"Ruth." Malcolm approached them quietly. "We can't know. Not for certain."

"The fire officer was pretty adamant that the fire was too much. That no one would survive if they were inside."

"He promised." Ruth wiped angrily at her tears. "What do I tell Catherine and the boys?"

"I am so sorry." Dimitri almost whispered as Ruth nodded.

"Just promise me. We get the bastards that did this." Ruth held Adam's gaze as he nodded.

"You know we will."

Ruth nodded once before following Lucas. She couldn't bring herself the wake the children. Catherine had already seen too much in her 25 years, far more than many young women her age. Nick was already too used to grief for someone so young. She knew he adored Harry and just couldn't find the words to say what was so unthinkable.

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"I don't believe this." Tariq looked towards Alec who was plainly still furious. Beth sniffed as she felt Dimitri drape an arm over her shoulder. Malcolm wiped away a tear as memories of Colin's death came to the forefront of his mind. Calum shook his head as Erin blinked back tears.

"Why did this happen?" She kept her eyes on the floor as Alec punched the wall.

"Bad people want to kill us." Calum answered as Catherine appeared in the doorway.

"What the Hell happened? Any news on my dad?" Malcolm sighed heavily as he crossed the room towards her.

"Yes, Catherine." He turned her by her shoulders and ushered her into Harry's office as the remaining members of the Grid fell silent. Zoe stared at her son as Zaf hugged her. He had no idea what had happened but the world just didn't seem right anymore.

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"I could kill him." Ruth spoke quietly as she looked out over London. The winter air blowing her curls in her face.

"Ruth." Lucas started again.

"We had just ." She closed her eyes. "We have just picked a name for the baby. And he promised me. That bastard promised me." She hung her head as the tears began to fall.

"He would have tried to get Ros away." Lucas rested his arms on the barrier as he spoke. "You know what she's like." He paused. "Was like."

"Ros." Ruth frowned. "She used to hate me."

"She was jealous. She told me all about that time. You, Cotterdam. Seems a bit like me and Albany."

"A bit. We were both set up. Only I took the fall for Harry. I knew Ros would inform on me. She hadn't been here long enough." Ruth wiped at her eyes. "What the Hell was she thinking?"

Lucas swallowed hard. He was determined not to cry. Big Ben could be heard chiming in Christmas Day as He hung his head, his determination to keep his emotions in check all but lost. Ruth rested a hand on his arm. The tears ran freely down her face as she turned to him.

"She loved you so much."

"I." He paused.

"She did."

"She does." Ruth stopped as she heard a voice she knew she couldn't be hearing. She held Lucas' gaze as his eyes widened. He had heard it too. "Lucas."

"Harry?" He turned as Ruth turned her back to them and stared out over the city. She was going mad, she knew she was. Harry was dead. Ros was dead. Graham and Teresa had been kidnapped and murdered. She rested a hand on her baby bump as she tried to concentrate on her breathing. It was just too much.

"It would seem reports of our deaths have been grately exagerated. Lucas, Ros is in Med Bay. The Grid know we are back."

"Ros." Lucas seemed to be reduced to one syllable words. Harry nodded.

"Graham and Terry are in A&E. Catherine and Malcolm are on the way to meet them. The fire officer was a plant." Lucas glanced towards Ruth as Harry stepped nearer. "Lucas, I think your wife needs you. I'll deal with mine." Lucas smiled slightly before almost running towards the door.

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Calum stared at the computer screen, the first of the team to recover himself after the shock of the near loss of Ros and Harry. He was more determined than ever to put Silvitir and the Morganston brothers behind bars. He swore as he tried to work out what Sasha's message may mean.

"Don't overthink it." Alec advised as Calum rolled his eyes and ignored him.

"They made it very personal." Calum barked. "And I don't do personal."

"Neither do I." Erin snapped as she wiped her eyes. "Alec, a trip to the Home Office?"

"Don't mind if I do." He smiled before following her out the Pods.

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"You bastard." Ruth refused to turn from the skyline. She was shivering badly as Harry rested his hands on her arms. "You promised."

"I promised I wouldn't get shot."

"Pedant."

"Classicist."

"Impossible man." Ruth smiled slightly, despite her tears.

"Mule."

"Harry." She sobbed his name out as he finally forced her to turn. The cold biting into both of them as Harry tilted her chin to force her to look at him.

"I didn't get killed. Neither did anyone else. Tim Morganston impersonated the fire officer." He brushed her hair gently out of her eyes as the wind threatened to blow her off the roof. She stared at him in disbelief, half certain a ghost was holding her.

"Not dead."

"No." Harry smiled. "Not dead." Ruth closed her eyes as he pulled her into his arms. Shivering slightly he wrapped his coat around them both.

"Harry?"

"Um." He kissed her hair.

"Don't ever, ever scare me like that again."

"I'm sorry." He held her tighter as she nodded against his chest.

"It's ok just don't do it again." He chuckled slightly as he kissed her gently.

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"The fire officer was not the fire officer." Tariq explained as Dimitri swore. He was beginnign to regret coming back to work. Beth nodded as Tariq continued to explain. Neither spotted Lucas slip through the Grid towards the Pods.

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"Hi." Ros sat on the bed in the med bay as Mike handed her some painkillers. Lucas met her eye as Mike shook his head.

"I am off duty." He announced. "Merry Christmas." He smiled slightly as Lucas nodded. It was obvious the dark haired spook had no idea what Mike had just said. Ros smiled slightly as Lucas stepped towards her.

"We were told you were dead."

"Don't believe everything you hear about me." She smiled wryly.

"Ros." His voice chocked with emotion as she pushed herself away from the bed.

"Hey." She took his hand. "Cuts and bruises, smoke inhalation. I'm ok." She shook slightly as she spoke. Lucas closed his eyes. "It was a bit close."

"Ros." He tugged her hand so she was forced to step nearer to him. "I thought. I thought we'd lost you. That Amy had lost her mum the same age I did."

"No."

"Shit Ros." He cupped her face. "I don't work without you. You have to know that." Ros held his gaze for a moment as his eyes bore into hers. She nodded slightly before his lips came crashing onto hers. For a moment nothing else mattered. She was alive and would fight another day. So far Jools Silvitir and his croanies weren't winning. She intended to make sure it stayed that way.

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A/N More soon. Please review. Oh and please don't hate me too much.