Finally, an update! Sorry to those who have been waiting... Meh, I need to be more consistent on ALL stories instead of focusing on just one at a time...But I probably won't. Just saying... Haha, enjoy~!

Head Over Heels

(Tears for Fears)

[I wanted to be with you alone, and talk about the weather. But traditions I can trace against the child in your face, won't escape my attention.]

Roppi opened his eyes wearily. He had a dreamless sleep, the first one he had since Anri's death. He knew immediately that it was because of the blonde.

Tsuki was lying next to him, curled into the sheets. His arm was haphazardly thrown over the raven's torso. He had a small smile on his face. The 'treatment' they had decided on was affecting both of them in a positive way.

Roppi couldn't understand what the feeling was that the tall oaf filled him with. It was like lightning in his veins. It made him happier than he had ever been, yet more scared than he ever remembered feeling. He wasn't used to being attached to someone this much. The only person in the world he had ever truly felt anything more than hate for was Izaya. And here he was, locked up without Izaya, and he was doing fine.

If he could keep the blonde around, he felt like he could honestly give up cutting himself. The relief that their activities from the night before brought him into a sense of peace greater than any razor blade had ever brought him. It was more than sex. It was a connection between the two of them. They had felt it since their meeting. Now it was more like a fire than a lightning shock.

Roppi scooted closer to the blonde and nuzzled into his shoulder.

"Tsuki...It's time to wake up." he whispered.

"Nnnn...Noouuuuuuuu..." Tsuki whined, curling closer against the lithe body in his arms.

"Alright. I'll just go see if Seiji wants to hang out with me today." Roppi smirked.

"No!"

"Ahh, so you're awake now?"

"Don't even joke about that! He's a psychopath! Roppi-san needs to stay here with me." Tsuki sighed contently, burying his face in black hair.

"Ugh, come on Tsuki. You don't want to eat breakfast with me today?" Roppi purred.

"You never eat anyway."

"Well now I'm starving. You exhausted me so much that I need more energy."

Tsuki removed himself from the raven's neck and looked up at him hopefully.

"Really? You'll actually eat with me? You're not going to starve yourself anymore?"

"I promise, Tsuki. We made a blood oath together. As long as I have you here, I'll stop self-destructing." Roppi told him genuinely.

"R-Roppi-san..."

"Now come on. Either get up and eat with me or I'll just have to leave you here."

"I'm coming!" Tsuki exclaimed, jumping from the bed. He pulled a crisp white T-shirt over his head and began to get his scarf when the raven stopped him.

"Tsuki, you have to wear long sleeves today."

"Eh? Why?"

"To cover up the cut you gave yourself. If the doctor's see that then you'll be in trouble. They may make you stay even longer if they start feeling like you're suicidal." Roppi explained.

"O-Oh...Right." Tsuki shivered at the thought and quickly went to the chest to pull out a gray sweater. He then put his scarf around his neck and placed his glasses on his nose. He looked over at the raven, who was sporting a black V-neck shirt with red trim.

"Ready?" Roppi asked him, pulling his jacket on.

"W-Wait..." Tsuki said quietly, walking over to the perfect creature and holding both sides of his head as he observed the smaller man.

He still couldn't believe how lucky he was to have Roppi. Even if they were both pretty fucked up, at least they had each other. It was an amazing feeling to have a reason to wake up everyday. It was something he hadn't really ever had. So he took this opportunity to press his lips to the raven's.

"Mmmm, well good morning to you too." Roppi grinned at him when they parted.

"Roppi-san...Thank you..."

"For what?"

"Just...thank you..."

"You're so weird sometimes... Come on then. I'm really hungry." Roppi sighed, grabbing the man's hand as they left the room.

"Whooo! Why don't you two strip and have at it right here?" Erika called from down the hall when she saw them.

"Erika! You're being vulgar again! You know the characters never have sex in public unless it's just a hentai manga!" Walker chastised from beside her.

"No, it would be a yaoi manga! And public sex is perfectly acceptable since it's just us two that would be watching!" she argued.

"I-I don't wanna have sex in public..." Tsuki whimpered, his face red.

"But you do it in private? I KNEW IT! Yaoi has never failed me!"

"Erika!"

"Let's just go..." Roppi sighed, tugging on the male who was frozen with embarrassment.

They made their way to the cafeteria to get breakfast. Tsuki noticed an immediate change in Roppi's demeanor. The raven looked...cheerful. His garnet eyes were shiny and he was actually smiling every now and then at the things they were discussing. He got food from Simon and was really eating it this time. Tsuki was grinning like an idiot as he watched his roommate.

"What?" Roppi asked him after he swallowed a bite of his toast. "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"You just make me happy, Roppi-san." Tsuki said, shaking his head.

The raven raised an eyebrow as he observed the blonde's expression.

"Well, I'm just returning the favor."

"I make you happy?" the taller man asked, his eyes wide.

"Of course. I thought I made that clear already."

"You know I'm stupid. I have to have things explained to me." Tsuki grinned.

"Don't call yourself stupid. Only I can call you stupid, stupid."

"Heh...Sorry."

"But yes, you make me happy. That's why I like being around you." Roppi informed him, turning back to his breakfast.

If an asteroid hit the Earth right then, Tsuki could have died happy.

Roppi had to go talk to Dr. Kishitani that afternoon. All the patients were required to talk to him once a week, and today was the raven's turn. He walked into the large office to observe the man sitting with the woman named Celty.

"Celty...I wish you would talk to me..." he cooed in a voice not used for therapy sessions. It was more like a voice used to flirt with someone.

"..." Celty looked at him through her red hair.

"Um... Should I come back later?" Roppi asked from the door. This looked kind of private.

"No, no. I'm just trying to convince Ms. Sturluson that she does indeed have a head..." the doctor sighed, taking off his glasses and rubbing them clean through his white coat sleeve.

"Celty is a strange name. She's not from here, is she?" Roppi asked, taking a seat beside the woman. Her teal eyes locked on him.

"No, she's from Ireland." Shinra explained.

"Ms. Sturluson, what happened to your head?" Roppi asked in a low voice, leaning toward the woman. Her eyes widened considerably and she pulled out her little PDA and typed on it.

[Alien abduction.]

"Aliens? I never knew they were real." Roppi remarked.

[THEY ARE! I've seen them! They took my head because it was full of memories from seeing them!]

"Oh, I get it. They don't want anyone to know of their existence."

[Right! So don't tell anyone or they'll take your head too!]

Shinra was watching the whole exchange with a smile on his face. Celty never talked to anyone so openly except for him.

"Celty, would you like to sit in in our session? If it's okay with Orihara-san." the spectacled man remarked.

"I don't mind." Roppi said.

[That'd be nice...]

"Alright then, it's settled. Tell me what's been new this week." Shinra said, taking out his notes.

"Do you believe in the definition of irony?" Roppi asked, leaning back in his chair.

"Irony? What of it?"

"Well, you know my cousin. He hates Shizuo Heiwajima, correct?"

'Yes...Those two fight like cats and dogs..." Shinra shivered.

"I'm really good friends with his younger brother. Tsuki is my roommate, and we get along great. It's just...weird."

"Ah, well Tsukishima does look just like Shizuo. And you look remarkably like Izaya. It is a little strange to watch you walk down the hallway together. Sometimes I feel like he may pick up a vending machine and throw it at you or something. Like in high school."

"A vending machine?"

"Yes. That's the kind of thing Shizuo throws at Izaya."

"I've never actually seen them fight. I've seen Shizuo chase him, but never throw something. Anyway, I've just been thinking of how ironic my life has become." Roppi continued.

"Do tell."

"I spent so long trying to kill myself. I realize that now. I wasn't hurting myself just to do it. I wanted to die. I was just too afraid to actually do it all at once, so I was doing it slowly."

Shinra wrote this down as Celty lowered his gaze to her lap.'

"Now though...I'm locked up in this place against my will...but if you told me to leave right now, I wouldn't. I don't know...I just feel more sane in here than I ever felt out there..."

"Yes, that's because you're with people who understand you." Shinra observed.

"No. It's because my roommate understands me. And I'm not leaving this hellhole without him." Roppi huffed.

"Tsukishima is here for a reason too, Orihara-san."

"I know that. He told me. But I can't leave him here. And honestly...I feel like if we stay together we can be closer to sane than we can apart from each other."

"Both of you have more time to spend here together. Isn't that enough for now? There's always time to plan ahead, but for now you should focus on your treatment."

"I realize that. I'm just telling you where my mind has been." The raven finished.

"I see. Does he feel the same way you do?"

"What way is that?"
"It seems to me that you're in love with him."

"What. The. Fuck."

Was he in love with Tsuki? Really, he had no idea what love was, or what it felt like. He had felt nothing but hate for so long that it was almost all he knew. But Tsuki...

Tsuki was different...

"Am I wrong?" the doctor pressed.

Instead of an answer, Roppi just shrugged. He didn't want to discuss this anymore.

"Hm... You are aware of our Christmas dinner here tomorrow night, correct?" Shinra asked, changing the subject.

"Yes. Masaomi told me."

"Is...Is Izaya...coming?"

"Yes."

The look on Shinra's face was one of pure terror.

"Shizuo will be here for Tsukishima..." he whimpered.

"Mm-hmm."

"Dear God..." Shinra flopped his head on his desk. "This will be just like high school all over again!" he wailed.

"Maybe not. Maybe we can just stay separated from each other."

"If you and Tsukishima are friends, then how will that be possible?" the doctor looked up at him.

"I don't know. I was just trying to cheer you up. Besides, Izaya wants to meet Tsuki. I haven't told Tsuki that yet though, because he's terrified of Izaya. I think Shizuo must have scared him."

[How bad can they be? There are guards everywhere.] Celty's PDA read.

"Oh, sweet Celty... Shizuo can take out an army by himself and Izaya can make them all kill themselves just from a few words..." Shinra told her.

She looked over at Roppi in surprise, her eyebrows raised.

"Yeah, that's kind of true..." he said.

[Maybe I'll stay in my room tomorrow night...]

"No, fear not! I'll save you Celty! You can eat with me!"

She looked at him through her blue eyes, her gaze filled with joy at the thought of it.

"Um...Can I go now? I kind of need to talk to Tsuki about tomorrow..." Roppi sighed, shifting away from the romantic tension.

"Eh? Oh, yes! But remember, Orihara-san! You need to tell Tsukishima of your feelings! Only then will you know of his!" Shinra exclaimed, looking away from the Irish woman to stare at the raven.

"Right back at you, doc." Roppi smirked, stepping out of the office.

Tsuki was on their shared bed, looking through an old sketch book. He looked up at his roommate.

"Roppi-san! How did it go?"

"Good, I guess. There was so much tension in the room because Celty was there the whole time."

"Celty? What do you mean by tension?"

"Come on, Tsuki. Dr. Kishitani is in love with her." Roppi rolled his eyes.

"R-Really?"

"Yes, really. I can't believe you never noticed!"

"Wow...Well, good luck to them then!" Tsuki grinned.

"What are you looking at?" Roppi asked, pointing to the sketch book on the bed.

"Oh, it's the first book I filled up when I got here..."

"Can I see?"

"T-They're not very good...They're old and dingy..."

"Can I see anyway?" Roppi purred. Instead of responding, the blonde shoved it toward the smaller man, his gaze directed at the floor.

The drawings were...sad. Mostly in black and white, the pages were covered in pictures of burning houses, dead flowers, desolate landscapes.

The kind of thing Roppi would draw.

"You were really depressed." he remarked, running his fingers over a picture of a crying boy.

"Y-Yeah... They're bad, like I said. Here..." the blonde said, shoving a newer book on the bed. "This is my latest stuff."

Roppi took it and started flipping through the pages. He froze.

There were pictures of him all over these pages. There was one of him asleep. One of him drawing. One of him crying. A lot of him smiling...

"Tsuki..."

"I-I tried to draw...what makes me happy..." the blonde muttered.

"They...I...love them..."

"Really? You do? You don't think they're creepy?" Tsuki asked hopefully.

"No, not at all. No worse than me drawing you..."

At the back, shoved in with the rest of the drawing, was the one he had drawn of Tsuki on his first day.

"You...saved this?"

"I r-really liked it..."

Roppi closed the book and leaned toward the blonde. He connected their lips and wrapped his hands in the ends of the white scarf.

"R-Roppi-san..."

"Shut up and kiss me back."

So he did. He climbed over the raven and settled their bodies into the bed, pushing the smaller man into the mattress. He heatedly forced his mouth against Roppi's, wrapping their tongues together.

"Shinra...told me I should tell you how I feel... But, Tsuki, I don't know how I feel... I really like being around you... But I don't know what that means yet..." Roppi whispered when they parted for air. Tsuki leaned their foreheads together, tangling yellow with black.

"Would it help if I told you how I feel?" he asked. Roppi nodded.

"I think I'm in love with you..."

There was silence filled with their quick breaths and fast heartbeats. The air was suddenly quite heated, almost unbearable. Roppi's heart was pounding in his ears as he looked into the blonde's eyes.

"...Me too..."

And words were no more for the moment as their lips met again.

For now, Roppi wanted to bask in this moment with the blonde. He would tell him about Izaya tomorrow.

After all, they had a whole night and half a day until Shizuo and Izaya would be in the same room together.

As Shinra had said earlier, may God help them all when that happened.

[Something happens and I'm head over heels. I never find out, till I'm head over heels.]

Sachi: Yes, lengthy update! I feel nice!

Roppi: Finally, you update. You're an awful person to rely on.

Sachi: But I gave you a love scene!

Tsuki: I liked it! I really did!

Roppi: Ugh...me too...

Sachi: Yayyyy~! Review for virtual love and I promise I'll update faster this time! Love all of you!