I next morning I woke up, feeling lonely and I wanted someone to talk to, and I had the perfect person in mine. I left my room and looked for Renji. I just hope he wasn't still sore about what happened between us.
I knocked on his door but no one answered.
"Renji are you there?" I called. I knocked harder this time and his door slowly opened a little. I pushed it open and poked my head in and looked around.
"Hello?" I asked again. "Where are you Renji?" I was starting to worry. I went into his place and looked for him. All of the rooms were dark. I continued down the hall until I reached Renji's bedroom. I saw him sitting on the floor with his zonpakuto in his hands. He then raised his hands in the air with his swords blade facing his chest. I saw a small tear run down his cheek. I then heard him whisper.
"I can't live without her." I then saw him start to thrust his sword inside his chest.
"No!" I then ran to him and grabbed his sword by the blade. Not the best idea, but I had to stop him somehow. My hands hurt, but I still held on. I could see my blood drip off of the blade. Renji looked at me in disbelief.
"Hidenka…what are you doing?" he asked, he then looked at my hands. "Let go! Your cuts will get deeper!" but I wouldn't let go.
"No Renji." I started to cry. "I don't want you to do this to yourself. I don't want to lose you." I then moved my bloody hands and released the sword from his grasp and threw it across the room. Tears were streaming from my eyes at this point. I then threw myself to Renji and held him with all my might. My hands staining the back of his robe.
"I don't want to lose you." I said again, trying to stop my crying, but I couldn't. I didn't want to let go of Renji. I could feel Renji hold me tighter, then he loosened his grip and looked deep and lovingly into my eyes. He wiped away my tears, like he always did, and he gently caressed my face.
"I love you, Renji." I said. "I always have and I always will." I hugged him tightly again. "I was stupid for letting you go."
"You're not stupid Hidenka." Renji replied. I missed how he would talk to me when I'm in distress. He looked at me again, "You are the best girl I have ever known." A small smile came across my face.
"No Renji, I was stupid." I replied. "Because I didn't know what I had until it was gone." Renji then leaned in close to me and gave me the most passionate kiss I had ever been given. It was so powerful that I could feel my knees go weak and my whole body slightly shivered. He brought his hand up to the nape of my neck, and made the kiss deeper and more intense. We then fell to the floor, but as Renji was on top of me I pushed him off and put my arms over my stomach. Renji gave me a strange look.
"Hidenka, what's the matter with you?" he asked.
"I don't know if I should tell you, Renji." I replied. "You might freak out."