"Ellie Wake UP! you don't need to be late your first day back." I picked up my pillow and put it on top of my head. It got very cold as my blanket was pulled off me. I didn't move, but did that stop anyone from trying to wake me up...I don't think so. Two people were pulling at my legs trying to force me to get up!I grabbed on to the head board as tight as I could but then some one started to pull my hands away, and let me tell you three against a sleeping one isn't fair and doesn't work, so I was yanked off the bed into two now screaming girl. I sat up on the two girls I was sitting on looked around and started busting up laughing, then one of the girls under me started laughing then Charlie, who and pulled my hands started laughing the other girl, who I didn't know just looked at us confused.

I got up and got my shower and put on my school robes. I went to breakfast and saw the boys and Charlie and the others. Charlie and Remus were sitting very close they were really hitting it off. James was hitting on Lily and Peter was drooling over something Sirius was doing, as soon as I was within 5 feet of the end of the table all eyes were on me. I looked up and down my table for some help; I'm not fond of being started at. When my gaze met Sirius's he saw the look of plea in my eye. I'm not sure what he did but there was suddenly a bat of pudding over Snape's head and then on it.

"What the----" Every one looked over to him and he went a very bright shade of red. I felt a flood of relief wash over me.

"Thanks Padfoot."

"Uh yea no problem." He looked down at his food and started pushing it around on the plate. I looked at him for a minute longer then was distracted by a morning post. A large brown barn owl swooped in and dropped a White rose and another letter in front of me. "Hey Ell, who's that from?" I looked down at the white rose and letter.

"Don't know Charlie." I picked up the letter, it read,
Forever now and so on then,
my love for you shall never end.

I read it to my self twice before some one grabbed it away from me. "Oh, Ellie has a Secret Admirer!" Squealed Charlie. Sirius stood up and reached over the table to read it, he snatched it away.

"Ha this guy isn't very poetic is he Ell."

"Sombody must be pretty desperate to have a crush on you." Came a sassy reply from Evans.

"Oh Evans I don't know what your talking about, the only reason anyone likes you is because you like to sleep around, why do you think James is after you. It's not like you attractive with that mustache and everything." James stood up glaring at me as Lily put her hand up to her upper lip and she ran out of the room to a bathroom to find this mustache.

"Ellie what the hell is wrong with you! Why would you say something so mean to Lily what has she ever done to you!" I stood there shocked, James had never talked to me like that before. And he knew what she's done to me. My mouth must have been open halfway to the floor.

"I...Can you...can you believe what he just said to me?" I said as James raced after Lily. I sat and cast my eyes downward. He chose Lily over me and she treats him worse that dirt, and he cared more about her than one of his best friends. God everything this past week is going to SHIT! First my...my mom is murdered then I get stuck for 5 weeks with Lily tutoring, then James starts acting like this. All this was very overwhelming and I could tell by the way my eyes were burning that going to cry, I couldn't let them see that. I stood up and as best as I could, walked slowly out in to the corridor.

I was halfway back to the common room when I couldn't hold back any longer; I finally let my mother go. I fell down to my knees crying over her, my dad, James being an asshole, everything. I don't know how long I was there crying before someone knelt down next to me and wrapped their arms around me and let me cry on their shoulder saying comforting things. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore, and when I finally got myself under control I looked up to see who my comforter was.

To my surprise Damian, a boy in my house and in his 6th year was looking back down at me. "I heard what Potter said to you, I can't believe he would be so bogus." I smiled up at him for a minute then looked down, my face bright red. I just cried like that in front of someone I hardly even know.

"I wasn't really crying over…" He cut me off.

"I know, you don't have to explain to me." I scooted back against the wall way from him.

"Thanks and everything." He sat in front of me.

"No problem. You know Ellie, you're really pretty." He brushed a stray strand of hair out of my face "Most people just don't see it with how distant you are and every thing." I smiled and we had one of those horrible awkward silences.

"Uh we better go to class." I turned to walk away when he stopped me.

"Hey, Ellie." I turned back around. "Will you go out with me some time?"

I stood there stunned, I wasn't expecting this. Damian, he is really hot with his blonde hair and beautiful green eyes, but what about my secret admirer, maybe it was Damian, but what if it wasn't. Then there was Sirius, we're really staring to get close. He was also acting weird last night. But am I even ready to date with my mom's death and everything? Then again, maybe this will help me feel better, going out and having fun

"Damian I-----