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I really don't know how long it has been since I've talked to Glen and Ashley but it's been a while. School has been out and today is New Year's Eve. I'm excited for two reasons. One, my parents are off in Mexico--I think that's where they went--- pretending their marriage is not a complete lie. Two, I plan on getting so drunk I will not even remember my name. Sounds like my new year is going to be started right, isn't it?
Glen hasn't said more than two words to me since that fateful day in my room. He's driven me to school but it's usually a silent drive with pitiful looks coming from him. I can understand why he feels sorry for me, but I can't stand those looks. That's why I have never told anyone about what happens when my bedroom door is closed. I cannot stand those looks. But Glen hasn't been himself lately. I miss his perverted jokes. I never thought in my life I'd say something like that, but I miss my brother being---my brother.
"Hey, Spencer can I talk to you about something?" Kyla quietly spoke as she closed my door very slowly. This must be something serious. Whatever, I'm back to my normal self I can handle this. My bruises from the other week has mostly have faded you can't see much but some faded bruises. So that's a good thing, if I hook up with a complete random stranger---I cannot wait.
Oh right, I need to answer Kyla. "Yeah, of course." I smiled at her with a pair of concerned eyes.
Kyla sighs as she plops down on the bed with me. I just look at her and wait for her to start talking.
"Glen told me something disturbing and I need to ask you if it's true." Oh holy shit, I wasn't expecting this at all. Way to bring down the mood.
"Okay, what do you want to ask me?" I smiled and just pretended like I didn't know what was coming.
Kyla paused for a what seemed for a very long time then she shouted very quickly, "Glen told me dad has been hitting you! OHMYGODISTHATTRUEICOULDN'TLIVEIFTHATWASGOINGONALLTHISTIME---" Kyla kept ranting and raving like she usually does when she's anxious and nervous. I let her pace around the room with her hands flailing every where. Until I finally got fed up and shouted at her.
"Kyla! Calm down, and let me answer your damn question."
She sat back down and grabbed my hands, "Is it true?"
I diverted my eye contact towards the floor and thought about if I should admit to the truth or not. I regained eye contact and spoke softly, "Yes, it's true." Kyla began to speak but I cut her off, "But I don't want to talk about it and don't let it ruin our New Year's Eve night, okay? Promise that? I want us to enjoy the night and we will talk about it all tomorrow."
Kyla's eyes began tearing up and she was already starting to look at me differently. I removed my hands from hers and gripped onto her arms and shook her.
"Promise me! Okay?" We looked each other in the eyes and I knew it took a lot for her to muster her next words. Because I knew she wanted to ask me everything about how and why our father hits me. But the truth is, I can barely admit it to myself, how can I spill every detail to someone else?
"Okay, fine. I promise." I leaned in and hugged Kyla. I went to let go but she continued to hold on to me, like she was trying to make up for all the time dad has been beating me. I cannot take this sympathy, I'm not good with that. Damnit, why couldn't it go back to no one knowing.
Kyla wiped away her tears and slowly composed herself. She smiled and decided to break the awkward silence. She sniffled before speaking, "So, how are you and Ashley doing?" She grew a half smile on her face.
Well, it's not like this is a better topic than our father beating me. Because it hasn't been going well. "Well, not good. We've just been arguing lately and shit. I've been going through a lot. With Carmen joining a gang, Glen getting threatened by dad, and Ashley still not breaking up with Glen---I've just been fed up with her not making choices and I kind of just have been gearing all my anger on her."
"Oh, well you know that's not good. Okay, so I wasn't supposed to tell you this but Ashley came and talked to me."
My eyes lit up, what the hell did she just say. She can't just---okay stop thinking and find out what Ashley said to Kyla. "She came to talk to you about what exactly?"
"I promised her I wouldn't tell you." Kyla look away.
"What the hell! You can't tell me she came to talk to you and not tell me why!" I pouted on my bed as I crossed my arms. I gave her one of those you-have-to-tell-your-sister-looks.
Kyla was about to get up to walk away but I grabbed her arm and pulled her back down. "All right fine!" She paused, "Since you asked so nicely."
I sat there waiting very impatiently as she took her sweet time to think of whatever the conversation was between the two. "Well?!" I shouted at her as I widened my eyes, so she would get the hint that I wanted to know badly.
"Well, she's really concerned about you. You have been really hostile towards her the past week or so and she's starting to feel bad. She was asking, what she did wrong and what she could do to make things better. She also told me that she's breaking up with Glen---tonight."
Okay, what? Did I hear Kyla right or was I day dreaming? She's finally going to break up with Glen, awesome. It only took me being a complete bitch to her to get her to do it. Well finally, doesn't mean I'm not going to play hard to get now. Damn Spencer back to your old ways.
"Did you hear what I said?" Kyla tapped me on the shoulder and I snapped out of thinking mode.
"Oh right, well good she break up with that dumb ass." I smiled and thought about how I might actually finally get that girl.
"Are you ready for another relationship, if that even happens? Didn't you just break up with Carmen like two weeks ago?"
I thought about it for a second, "Yeah, I just broke up with her---but I'd be ready for Ashley any day. You don't understand sis, this girl is different---this girl, she's just unexplainable. I knew I could love her since the first time I laid eyes on her, I know that sounds crazy and impossible but I know I want her to be mine." I smiled at Kyla and just thought about Ashley. I shook my head out of it before my thoughts became a dirty day dream.
"Hey well I'm going to leave you to your uhh thoughts." Kyla smiled as she got up and started to walk away. "Hey we need to start setting up for the party in like a couple of hours. Glen is out and he said he'd be back with three kegs because he thinks it's going to the biggest party we've ever had."
Kyla left the room then two seconds later popped her head in, "Hey are you bringing a date over?"
"Uh, nope. I'm hoping for a random hot stranger or Ashley. And you know which one I really want." I smirked at Kyla.
"Oh well, that settles that. Aiden said he's coming over in about an hour to help us set up."
"You got that boy whipped." I shouted into the hallway as she walked away.
"I know! That's how I like my men!" Kyla shouted down the hall from the room. And even though we were in separate rooms we both laughed at the same time.
I need to prepare a really cute outfit for tonight. I searched through my closet...jeans or skirt? I looked at my closet and kept debating over what I should wear to make Ashley drool over me. And I still find myself at the same question, jeans or skirt? Okay step back away from the closet and take a good look. I want to be comfortable but look really good.
All right, so loose but tight enough jeans. I threw them on and checked out my ass in my mirror. Nice, looks good those will work. All right the tough part, what kind of cute top should I wear. I am really just diggin' a tight faded tee shirt. Or should I go with a slightly slutty halter top. Hmm, damn it's so hard being a girl sometimes. The clothing choices are so hard. All these decisions make a girl crazy. Okay, tight faded tee shirt and these cute jeans that definitely make my butt look cute.
I ran into Kyla's room to get the approval of my outfit, "How do I look?" I asked as I twirled around.
She laughed, "Probably as good as you'll ever get."
"You're such a bitch, Kyla." I ran over to her and started messing with her hair.
"Hey! I just straightened it! Damnit." Kyla got a pissy mood and swatted me.
"Aww, is Kyla bear pissed at me?" I smiled as I reached to mess her hair up again.
She swatted it away again, "Stop!" I'm glad she's treating me like her usual sister again and doesn't give me any sympathetic looks. Awesome. This is going to be a great night, I foresee it.
"All right, so seriously cute outfit?" I stood up and brushed the wrinkles out of my shirt.
"Yes, Ashley will jump your bones." Kyla smirked.
"Good, that's exactly what I'm aiming for. All right I'm going to curl my hair, I'll be down to help you and Aiden to set up when I'm done." I looked around the room, to see if Aiden was even here yet.
"Where is Aiden?" I said standing in her doorway.
"Oh, he's running late. He said he's bringing you a date, don't be mad." Kyla sat in a flinching motion, preparing herself for me to yell at her or mess up her hair again.
"What?! Kyla!" I stomped my feet and hit her door.
"What? He already told the girl you were single and looking for someone to hook up with! I didn't want to tell him to tell her no! It doesn't mean you have to be nice to her or anything. Please? It's a friend of Aiden's."
I crossed my arms and glared at Kyla. I pouted and shook my head at her. "Well, fine. Whatever." I said as I stormed out the room.
"Don't be mad!" I heard her shout as I continued to walk down the hall.
"Whatever," I scoffed under my breath. I'm going to go curl my hair now and get some of my aggression out on my hair. Wait, I shouldn't do that--it'd end up looking like I had a fro in mid-July weather. Just get your aggression out by screaming into the nearest pillow, then curl your hair. And that's what I did. I walked over to my bed, plopped my face into my euro pillow and screamed. A nice, long, well-needed scream. Now, that I feel better, time to curl my hair.
All right so let's skip over all the boring parts that lead up to the party. So I'm at the party and Ashley has yet to arrive. I am actually getting scared she isn't going to show up because she knows I'm here or something. Glen came with his kegs and I asked him about Ashley. "I don't know, she isn't returning my calls. She said she wasn't feeling good, so she may have fallen asleep. I'm not too worried." Glen shrugged his shoulders and walked off. He can still barely talk to me and he's nice when I ask about Ashley now, not all protective.
I got another drink from the keg and started to chug it down, but all of a sudden I wasn't really in the mood to drink. Whatever, I need alcohol in my system to talk to my date. Yeah she was cute and all but I was hoping to at least talk to Ashley tonight. And this girl was all over me.
"Let's dance!" She smiled as she pulled me onto the dance floor. The party was getting crowded and the familiar faces were starting to disappear. I started dancing with this chick just because she was convenient. But don't get me wrong, I'm a little sexually frustrated so if Ashley isn't around---this girl will due for my new year's kiss. I hate to think like that because that's not what I want. But you know, I kept pouring drinks into my mouth and by the end of the night I won't be thinking.
I was holding onto this chicks hips when I felt someone tap me on the shoulder. I turned around as this girl continued to dance on me. "Hey, Kyla what's up?"
She leaned in and whispered in my ear, "Uhm Ashley's glaring four o'clock." Kyla stepped back and waited for me to find Ashley's eyes.
I looked around the room. Okay, is she that drunk? "Where the fuck is four o'clock? Just make eye contact with the spot and tell me left or right." I got a little snappy because if Ashley is looking at me, she will see this girl all over me.
"Can you bitch at me more please? But right corner," Kyla nodded her head towards her general directions and I spotted Ashley. I gave Ashley a head nod and smiled at her. She definitely did not return the smile, it was barely even a smile I was looking for. Okay, time to go talk to her.
I leaned in and whispered in this girl's ear and I left her on the dance floor. I moved through the crowd and pushed people aside as I pleased. I stood before Ashley and smiled. I went in to hug her but she immediately stepped back and refused. That's it.
"Hey? What's wrong?" I talked over the music and all the background noise.
"Nothing, I was just watching you and your new girlfriend dance." Ashley made eye contact when she said girlfriend and then diverted it to her beer in her cup.
"Girlfriend? Ha, Aiden set me up with that train wreck. I want you, you know that." I smiled and reached out and grabbed her hand.
She smiled and then took her hand back. "Great, well I hope you two can work it out." What the fuck is her problem.
"What the hell! You tell Kyla that you want me then you act like a complete bitch! You're a tease Ashley Davies. You're just a huge tease." I shook my head at her and then walked away.
Of course she chases after me, "No, you don't get the last word!" She yells as she chases after me. I stomped up my stairs to my bedroom, which was the only area off limits in our house so no one was up there. I, of course, slammed my door in Ashley's face and no more than a second later she opened it up and stomped on in.
"You're the fucking tease!" Ashley said as she slammed the door.
"No! You say you want me, you kiss me, you say you can't date me, but then you tell my sister that you're breaking up with Glen and want to be with me! And what now you act all cold to me! I can't do this anymore! So get out!" I said as I plopped on my bed. I cannot take this emotional rollercoaster any longer. There's so much on my plate, I can't do it.
I stood up and I stood before her. I couldn't sit still. "No, you don't get to decide that! You can be such a bitch, but I like you and you look really hot tonight." What? My head perked up and I gave her a smirk. "And I want you really badly." Okay, she definitely said that. I inched my way closer, but Ashley ran towards me and pushed me up against my wall.
Damn, this was really hot. She took my head and forced a kiss on me. I grabbed her head back and tasted her sweet lips. Mmm cherry lip gloss, even sweeter. She pulled away from the kiss and looked at me in the eyes and smiled. She removed my hands from her neck and held them above my head. Oh, this was new. She firmly held them there as she kissed me again. Then she rubbed her nose against mine and whispered in my ear, "I want to be with you. It's us now." I smiled as I heard those words.
"I've been waiting--"
"Shh." She pressed her index finger on my lips. She quickly removed my shirt and then placed my hands over my head again so I couldn't touch her. I tried to get out of her grip but she forced my hands back down. With her free hand she traced a line down my entire body and stopped at the button of my jeans. All my senses in my body tingled and I seriously was instantly wet. I usually like being in control and I wanted to be so badly, but with Ashley, somehow I didn't mind one bit that she was in control. I loved it.
Ashley let go of my hands and we were soon sharing passionate kisses everywhere. This girl makes me crazy but in the best way possible. I threw her on my bed since my jeans were already off it was time for me to take off hers. I've been dying for months to do just this and it was better than all my day dreams already. She giggled as I kissed her stomach and unbutton her jeans and threw them aside.
"Spencer I want to tell you that this is my---"
I smiled up at her, "I know, I'll be gentle." I smirked at her. But I definitely do not want you to be gentle with that tongue ring of yours.
We heard a bunch of motion going on downstairs and we just looked at each other as I held her hand. We heard people shouting, "3, 2, 1! Happy New Year!" I smiled, and looked at Ashley.
"Happy New Year's babe," I said as I leaned in for a nice long kiss as Ashley slipped in her tongue ring. Did I tell you she knows how to use that? I just can't wait till she uses it somewhere else...
"Happy New Year's. I lo--I really like you Spence." Ashley smiled and composed herself. I'm pretty sure she almost said love, but we will tackle that subject later. This has been a great start to the new year already. This was everything I had imagined, hoped for, and more.