Hey, I had some requests to update this story and I knew I needed to get back to it. I'm sorry if it's not very good; it's hard to go back and for the between stories. I will try to update this story some more before going back to "Together". Thanks for your reviews.

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Olivia felt Elliot's hands creep up underneath the back of her t-shirt. Olivia pulled away from the kiss. "El…" she whispered.

"Mmm." said Elliot, dropping his lips to her neck, placing kisses down her neck to her collarbone. He dropped his hands down to her waist and pulled her body against his.

Olivia needed to stop this. As much as she wanted this, she wasn't ready. There was too much hanging over her head. She hadn't gotten the results of all of the testing Melinda had done, and didn't have a final answer on the pregnancy either. She didn't want to start anything physical with Elliot until all of that was resolved; especially because when she made love with Elliot, she didn't want there to be any barriers between them. On top of that, Elliot didn't know about any of this. She didn't want to start a relationship with him based on deception.

Olivia pushed against his shoulders. "El….El, stop."

Elliot pulled away. "What's wrong?"

"We need to talk."

Elliot stepped away from her, a puzzled look on his face. He was pretty sure there had never been a good conversation that started with those words. "Sure."

"Let's go in the living room." Olivia reached into the refrigerator and grabbed two beers.

Elliot raised an eyebrow at her. "We're going to need alcohol for this talk?" he asked. More alarm bells were going off in his head. He couldn't imagine what they needed to talk about. With all of the shit that had happened today, what else could they possibly have to talk about?

Elliot sat down on the couch, but Olivia sat in the chair next to the couch. Elliot noticed that she was distancing herself from him. Olivia took a drink, finishing off half the bottle. She held on to the bottle, picking at the label with her fingernails.

"You're going to ruin your manicure." said Elliot, trying to lighten the mood. Olivia didn't look up, but stopped picking at the label. "Olivia, tell me what's bothering you."

Olivia looked up at him and sighed. She didn't want to tell him; she was afraid. They had finally told each other how they felt about each other, but if she told him this, she was worried she would lose him. He had a hard enough time with what happened with Jack, but telling him that she had unprotected sex; that she could be pregnant…that wasn't exactly the way most people wanted to start a new relationship. She started to tear up and swallowed hard, trying to fight back the tears.

Eliot was alarmed when he saw tears in Olivia's eyes. Olivia never cried. "Liv. Tell me what's wrong." He leaned over and tried to grasp her hand, but she pulled away. "Just tell me."

"I didn't tell you about everything that happened on Saturday night."

Elliot sat back, a little shocked. "OK." He said, his tone neutral.

Olivia took a deep breath. "I'm afraid to tell you." she whispered and a tear slid down her cheek.

Elliot shook his head. "Olivia, whatever it is, just tell me. I love you, and nothing you tell me is going to change that."

"You might change your mind when you hear what I have to tell you."

Now Elliot was really getting worried. Olivia wasn't prone to drama and it seemed like something was really weighing on her mind. Pushing her wasn't working; he had to wait until she was ready to tell him. He sat and waited, watching her as she continued to stare down at her beer bottle. She took another drink, finishing off the bottle. She set it down on the coffee table. She put her hands on her thighs, rubbing them up and down. She took another deep breath and looked up at Elliot.

"When I…had sex with Jack…" she started, noting the look that crossed Elliot's face when she said it. It passed quickly, but she had still seen the reaction and it made her pause. She looked down at her hands again, unable to look at him. "It happened so fast and…" she stopped again. She stood up and walked over to the windows. This was so hard. He was going to be shocked if she told him that she might be pregnant. Even though the chances were small, she still felt like she had to tell him. If she didn't, and then ended up pregnant, what would she say then?

Elliot stood up and walked up behind her, placing his hands on her shoulders. "Liv…just tell me what's wrong."

"Elliot, do you know how long I've wanted to hear you tell me that you love me? Do you know how long I've wanted to feel your arms around me…to have you take me to bed?" She sighed. "I've loved you for as long as I can remember…" She turned around to face him and saw that he was smiling. "Why are you smiling?" she asked.

"I'm smiling because I feel the same way…I want to take you to bed too. You have no idea how much I've thought about making love to you. In fact, I thought that's where we were headed..." He put his hands on her waist.

"I want to El…more than you can ever know…" She ran her hand over his cheek. "I just have to get some things cleared up."

"Cleared up?" asked Elliot.

"Melinda's running some tests for me."

"Are you OK? Are you sick?" Elliot asked, suddenly worried that she was keeping some kind of serious illness from him.

"I'm not sick; or at least, not that I know." She just needed to suck it up and spit it out. "She's running tests for STD's and HIV…and I have to go back and have another pregnancy test."

Elliot looked confused. "What?"

"When I had sex with Jack, we didn't use anything. And while he's assured me that he's clean…I just have to get tested. I have to be certain. I don't want to pass anything on to you."

Elliot listened, but he was stuck on the words 'pregnancy test'.

Olivia was watching his face and could see that he was trying to process what she was telling him. First he'd had to find out that she had slept with Jack. Now he had to find out that she'd been stupid enough to have unprotected sex.

"I know it was stupid. I don't ever do that. Ever." She reached out and put a hand on Elliot's arm. "El…" When he still didn't say anything, she dropped her hand. "Say something."

He looked up at her. "You could be pregnant?"

Olivia shook her head. "I don't think so. There's a very small chance."

"You're not on birth control?" Elliot furrowed his brow.

"Not really."

Elliot still looked confused. "Not really?"

"I never have unprotected sex Elliot, so I don't worry about taking my birth control pills; I forget sometimes."

Elliot turned away from her and sat back down on the couch. Olivia turned back towards the window, tears spilling over her lower lashes. She had lost him...everything she'd always wanted had been in her grasp…and one stupid night had ruined everything. And it was her fault. She had let it happen. She turned around.

"El. It's OK." she said, swiping at the tears trailing down her face. "I understand if you want to leave."

Elliot looked up at her. "Liv, I don't want to leave." He stood up and walked back over to her, wrapping his arms around her and burying his face in her hair. He placed a kiss on top of her head. "You can't scare me away that easily. I'm just trying to process everything." He sighed. "It's been a long day; a lot has happened."

"I'm sorry El. This is such a mess."

"Shhhh. It's OK. We'll figure it out together."

"But…"

"Liv...we'll figure it out together." He pulled back from her. "Let's not talk about this anymore today. I don't know about you, but I'm exhausted." He thought back to this morning and everything that had happened since he had received that goddamn envelope. "Let's just go to bed."

Olivia pulled back. "El…"

Elliot pulled her back to him. "I just want to sleep Olivia. Let me stay with you. Please?"

Olivia nodded. "I want you to stay."

Elliot leaned in and kissed her. "I love you. And whatever happens, we're in this together."

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Olivia woke up with Elliot's body draped over hers. She looked at the clock and saw it was 2AM. Everything that had happened that day came racing back, causing her to sigh heavily. Elliot stirred, pulling her body closer to his with the arm draped around her waist. Despite the turmoil going through her mind, she smiled. It was nice to have Elliot here with her; she could get used to this. She closed her eyes, trying to go back to sleep. But her mind wouldn't shut down. After another half an hour, she was still awake. She lifted Elliot's arm gently and rolled out from under his body. She found a sweatshirt and pulled it over her t-shirt and padded out into the living room. She turned on the TV and surfed for something to watch. She finally settled on an old movie, grabbed a blanket and lay down on the couch. She was hoping the movie would make her sleepy.

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Olivia woke up to the sound of Elliot's voice. She opened her eyes and saw him leaning over her, his hand on her arm. "Liv."

"Hey." said Olivia, sitting up. "What time is it?"

"7." said Elliot. "Why are you sleeping out here?"

"I couldn't sleep so I came out here. I was watching a movie and I must have fallen asleep."

"I thought maybe you didn't like sleeping with me…" he joked.

Olivia smiled. "Actually, it was really nice waking up with you next to me. I just didn't want to wake you by tossing and turning the rest of the night."

"If you needed to talk, you should have woken me."

"I didn't want to talk anymore. I'm all talked out." Olivia flopped back onto the couch. "I don't want to go to work today."

"Amen. Do you think Cragen would mind if we called in sick?" Elliot laughed, knowing that wasn't going to happen. "Get up and jump in the shower or I'm going to go and use all the hot water." Elliot stood up and headed towards the bedroom. Olivia jumped up and rushed past Elliot, making him laugh as she shut the bathroom door. "You win." he said. "But save some hot water for me."

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They left Olivia's apartment and headed towards the precinct. They stopped at a coffee shop on the way and grabbed coffee and a bagel. As they walked, Elliot debated whether or not to ask Olivia more about the tests Warner was running. He decided that if they were going to make this work, there couldn't be any secrets. They had to be honest with each other.

"So, when are you supposed to get the test results back from Warner?"

"I'm not sure. She said she would call me. Some tests are quick and others take a day or so." Olivia said.

"Have you taken a pregnancy test?" Elliot asked.

"Melinda gave me a test but it had been less than 48 hours. She said you can get a lot of false negatives."

"Did she give you the morning after pill?"

"She gave it to me, but…I couldn't take it El. I know I should have but I couldn't. I just couldn't." She looked over at him as they walked.

"I understand Liv." Elliot said. He took her hand in his. "Remember, we're in this together."

Olivia stopped, and Elliot stopped with her. "El. I just want to tell you again that I'm sorry about all of this."

"Liv…stop worrying. I'm not going anywhere. I love you."