Kadlin POV:

I couldn't care at the moment that Elijah was mad at me, my only thoughts were of tonight and not succumbing to my thirst. I didn't want to kill, I didn't want to do something I would have to live with forever.

I needed a plan on how I would get through the night until I could rely again on the sun to keep us relatively under control.

I waited until the sun had started to set and I knew the shadows wouldn't be shifting any more and chose I tree under which to sit. I had already dragged a deer Niklaus had secured for me over and had two thick branches on hand... this next part was gonna hurt.

After sitting down on the cold ground I steeled my myself and raised one of the branches thrusting it into my thigh pinning one of my legs to the ground and then followed again on the other leg.

I was panting now because of the pain, and even as my new enhanced body adjusted to the agony the sensation of a foreign object pushing aside muscle and scraping up against bone to nail me into the ground wasn't something I saw myself getting used to anytime soon.

Elijah rushed over hearing my screams, "What the hell have you done to yourself!?"

He exclaimed and went to free me, "No! Don't! Just leave me be, I'll be fine here along with my deer flavored juice box," I told him pulling the deer closer to me.

"Juice box?" He asked confused, Dammit I was too tired and bereft to watch how I spoke in front of him at the moment.

"Nevermind, just please try not to lose yourself completely tonight... the people you hurt tonight... they don't deserve this. When you feel their pulse start to week PLEASE I beg of you think of me and the girls and how you would feel if someone did that to us and pull yourself back, then look deep into their eyes and tell them to forget anything bad happened this night."

"How do you know so much about this?" He asked looking at me suspiciously.

I closed my eyes to buy myself a moment to think, "I heard tale of it in the old world, monsters of the night who could steal your blood and control you with their minds."

I could tell he didn't quite believe me but he let it pass for now.

Elijah POV:

I left Kadlin alone, walking away from my injured wife felt terribly wrong but I couldn't hear anymore about what monsters we were now. Through out the day pieces of that night and morning kept coming back to me... the look on her face before my father killed me... the cries of the girl they brought in to complete the ritual... feeling my body propel me out of my parent's hovel as my daughters cried for me...

I close my eyes finding it too painful to keep thinking on. No... I would find a way, I would prove to Kadlin this wouldn't change me, I would make it through this night and when we both had achieved enough control we would go back to Ayanna for our daughters, get her to undo her spell that kept us away from them. There could be no other outcome, I would not allow there to be.

Kadlin POV:

I sat there trying to slowing sip on the deer carcass, trying to self learn how to control my thirst and my technique in drinking so I could be sure I wouldn't end up a ripper.

"What are you doing?" A voice I wasn't too familiar with asked.

I looked up to find Finn.

"Trying not to become the monster your parents wanted to create out of us."

He seemed offended, "This was not mother's original intention... she just wanted to protect us, she just couldn't forsee the consequences."

I chuckle dryly at his naivety, "Really Finn? This was never about protecting us... it was about power! Haven't you started to remember yet? How we all completed this protection ritual... your father savagely forced us to kill that girl, and your saint of a mother didn't look at all bothered or surprised by it, did she?"

I harshly ask him and he looks down guiltily over his part in taking the young woman's life.

"No this had nothing do with being afraid or just innocently wanting to protect her family, she wanted to be superior... for all of us to be superior, to never feel threatened or challenged by anyone or anything and who gives a damn who we hurt or kill to achieve that, well excuse me but I DO!"

He slumped down a tree opposite me and ending up spearing himself to the ground as well.

"So do I." He told me, and smiled sadly at him and passed the deer over to him for us to share.

Rebekah POV:

I knew a little from Kadlin what was happening when I awakened this morning, she and I had been trying to keep an eye for signs this was happening but my Mother gave nothing away and took us completely by surprise.

The first thing I struggled with was the realization I would never have children of my own, I hated my mother for taking that away from me.

Kol struggled with no longer being able to do magic... mother hadn't sacrificed that for herself but thought it her right to strip it away from my brother.

I tried to control my thirst when darkness came that first night but I failed, I was devastated by my new life and the euphoric high the blood gave me was the only thing that could distract me from focusing on all my family had lost.

The power was addictive and soon I didn't care about the lives I was taking.

The only thing that was able to interrupt and break through my high was the painful cries of my brother Niklaus.