A/N: I'm so sorry I didn't update sooner, I really am. Just lots of things happening this week. I'm getting ready to go to band camp. I have fund raising and I have writer's block. So, sorry if this is a bad chapter. Kinda corny. Haha. OK. So yeah, R & R! Enjoy? :)
"I've got it!" I jumped up and down. Me and Edward had been discussing how to tell Charlie about the baby coming early, and if there were any alternatives to telling him the Cullen's were vampires.
"What is it?" Edward asked me. He stared at me while I continued to jump up and down. I finally stopped and breathed heavily until I could talk.
"Well, we never told him that it's your baby. So if we do tell him, we can just say that I got my symptoms later than usual or something. I mean, he doesn't know when we had sex. So we can say we had sex a few months ago!" I can't believe I used the word sex so many times.
Edward looked up at me. A smile slowly crept onto his face. He jumped out of his chair and picked me up and hugged me. "You're brilliant." He whispered into my ear as he set me down, which sent shivers down my spine. "But, before we spring the news of this baby being mine, we might just want to tell him I'm back." He suggested.
I laughed. "You're right." I smiled. He bent down to kiss me.
"And, here he comes now." Edward said as he pulled away. I grabbed his hand and led him to the front door, waiting for Charlie. "He sees my car." Edward informed me.
I nodded and took in a deep breath. Right as I let it out Charlie came through the door. He stopped when he saw Edward. He opened his mouth to speak but I spoke before him. "Hey dad!"
"Hey Bells." He said as he stared at Edward. "Edward."
"Chief Swan." Edward nodded.
"Um, Bella, can I talk to you alone for a minute?" Charlie asked me, finally looking at me. I nodded. He motioned for the kitchen. I followed him there.
"Bella, what is he doing here?" Charlie asked me, thinking he was out of Edward's hearing.
"He's my boyfriend, he can be here." I told him.
"Since when is he your boyfriend?"
"Since always." I stated.
Charlie rolled his eyes and huffed. "I don't want him back in your life Bella, he'll hurt you again."
"No dad." I said. "He's the father." I stated.
Charlie's eyes grew bigger with shock. "W-what?" He stuttered.
"He's the baby's father." I said calmly.
"Since when?" He asked.
I rolled my eyes. "Since always." I repeated the words I had said moments before.
"That can't be." Charlie looked deep in though.
"Dad, he won't hurt me again." I reassured Charlie.
"I can't trust him."
"He only left because he had to. His whole family moved, you couldn't expect them to let Edward stay." I told him.
"Well..." Charlie said. He knew I was right. "It's just...Bella. I remember how bad he hurt you and I don't want him to do that again."
"He won't. Dad, he loves me. I love him. If you want to keep him away, then go ahead and try. It won't do any good. You can't break us up or anything." I told him. "That will hurt me."
"I don't want to hurt you, it's just...He shouldn't have left saying he didn't love you. You were so hurt last time. You cried for weeks and you were lifeless. I couldn't stand to see you like that again. You were so crushed." Charlie said softly.
"He only said that so I could move on with my life. To make it like he was never apart of it." I explained quietly. "Now excuse me, I'm going back to Edward." I added walking away from Charlie.
I walked back to Edward to see him a bit sad.
I grabbed his hand and pulled him out of my house.
"What's wrong?" I asked and I got into the Volvo.
"It's just...Charlie's thoughts..." Edward somewhat explained.
"What?" I asked concerned.
"I just feel so bad for what I put you through." He looked at me with a pained expression.
I shook my head. "No." I said. "You did what you had to. I forgave you, so forgive yourself now."
"I don't think I can," he replied looking back at the road.
"Edward," I started. "It's ok. The only thing that matters is that you're here, with me." I took his hand and intertwined our fingers.
"Forever no matter what." He smiled at me and kissed my hand that was twisted with his.
I smiled at him and realized we were at his house. "Are the others home?" I asked.
He shook his head. "They went to hunt." He looked at me. I noticed his eyes were darker.
"You should've gone with them. You're hungry I can tell." I said and smiled weakly.
"I don't feel ready to leave you just yet." He smiled his famous crooked grin.
I laughed. "What's so funny?" Edward asked me. I turned away and blushed.
"Nothing." I lied.
"Tell me, please?" I turned back to see Edward...pouting?
I sighed and rolled my eyes. "I was just thinking that you are obsessed."
"Hmmm..." He mused. "I am." He smiled. I laughed again.
"I think I've been obsessed from the beginning." I admitted.
"Really." It wasn't so much as a question.
I nodded. "When I first saw you I was really curious about you and your family. But...when I was in biology that one day with you. My first day at school, you acted like you hated me or something. So I was so wrapped up in trying why or how someone could hate me that much without knowing me. I was somewhat relieved when you left but I was curious where you went. Why you left. I kept thinking that you left because you wanted to get away from me. Guess I was right.
"When you came back, you seemed like a whole different person. You were nicer. More talkative. Then I became your friend I guess. When I heard the myths about vampires I wasn't sure what to believe. I knew it didn't matter. There were three things I learned that night I found out you were a vampire. One, was that you actually were a vampire. Two, that you thirsted for my blood. And third...I loved you. I was surprised that I felt that way. Although, there were some signs." I said. All Edward just listened to me. He composed his face so that no emotion was given away.
"What signs?" He asked.
"Well, once you said 'you and I' in a sentence. I liked it more than I should've. I knew it was wrong...but I did like the sound of it." I confessed.
"Really?" He asked. His lips twitched in fight of a smile.
I rolled my eyes. "Go ahead, tell me I was stupid. I know you want to."
"No, I don't. I want to tell you I love you. But then again, you know that." He smiled fully now.
"Which I still don't understand why. That frustrates me." I admitted.
"You don't know why I love you?" Edward's eyebrows knitted together.
I shook my head. "I mean, it's never made any sense. You're perfect and I'm the total opposite."
"Well that's what makes me love you." He tilted his head to the right a little bit. He smiled lovingly. "You're my opposite. You're my ying to my yang." He chuckled. "You, my love, complete me."
I snorted. "Yeah, sure."
"You don't believe me do you?"
"No, I believe you think that."
"So you don't think I complete you?" He looked a bit hurt.
"No! Of course not. I do think you complete me, but how could I possibly complete you?" I shook my head.
"I'm not sure. You know, when I first met you. I didn't know that I'd be here right now, with you. I never thought I'd be sitting here with you in my car, knowing all my deepest darkest secrets. But here you are. You're not afraid. You're braver than anyone I've met. You're more caring than anyone. You love me more than I deserve. You, my dear sweet Bella. Are the reason I am here right now. You could never possibly know how much I love you. You may think you know, but you don't. Just sitting here with me, and not running away screaming makes me love you.
"Don't you see? That's why I love you. Loving me is very hard to do, I know that. But you do it. No one else does. I mean, sure my family does. But not like you, Bella. You've given me a child. You make my heart beat. It beats for you. You may not hear it, or feel it. But I feel it. I know that no matter what you do in life, where you go. What you do. My heart will follow, because without you, it will stop beating. And I don't want it to. It feels so good. Never in my existence will I want it to stop beating." He told me. At every word my heart beat faster and one more tear trickled down my cheek. Never in a million years would I have thought Edward Cullen loved me like he does.
"Do you understand?" He asked me. I was sobbing now and all I could barely do is nod. "Good." He said. Then he pulled me into his lap. I just laid my head against his chest and cried the happiest tears that I will ever cry.
"Thank you, Edward." I told him when my crying started to slow down.
"No, thank you." He kissed my hair. "You are my life. Always will be. Even if you aren't with me, you will be all I think about."
"What do you mean if I'm not with you?" I asked, pulling my head away. I had stopped crying now.
"Well..." He began. "I mean, who knows? Maybe you'll find someone you love more than me or decide I'm not worth it. Which, by the way I'm not." He said. I couldn't speak. He was the craziest man I knew. "Maybe when you want to have a life and actually live, then you will. Maybe you'll decide that you don't want me to come or maybe I can't come." He continued. He was about to say something else but I spoke before he got a chance.
"Edward Anthony Cullen. Are you stupid?!" I yelled at him.
He was appalled by this. "Um..." He was confused, I could tell. "Yes?"
"Why in the hell would I ever leave you? I love you more than life itself. That's why I'm willing to give up my life. Don't you see? There is no one in this world that I could ever love more than you. Maybe, just maybe...I'll love someone else. But never would I ever love them more than you. It's just unthinkable. Unimaginable." I told him. I wanted to kill him for thinking that I would ever leave him.
"Bella..." He spoke softly. "That's my point. You may find someone else you love. Now, you may think you won't love them more than me. But, you never know."
I started laughing. This was to cover the tears that were threatening to fall. They fell anyway. "You are wrong." I sobbed.
"I hope so." He said. He lifted my chin up and kissed me softly on the lips. "I never want to lose you." He said. His eyes were sad.
"Then don't let me go, ever." I breathed.
"I don't think I have a choice." He chuckled lightly. "You see, it would just kill me if I did let you go. I don't know about you, but I can't live without you. I've tried it, and I failed miserably. And I'm glad I did fail. Although, I wish I never had the chance to try it."
"Me too." I smiled at him. "I was forced to live without you. I wasn't given an option."
"And I'm terribly sorry about that."
"I know you are. I'm just saying, I don't want the option. Don't give it to me. Don't force it on me either. Because if you ever leave again-"
"Which I won't." He cut in.
"I won't be able to survive." I finished.
"Me either." He smiled at me. Then he kissed me again.
"Good."
We just sat there in the car, with Edward holding me, for an immeasurable amount of minutes.
But when the moment ended, he told me we should go inside. I agreed and he carried me inside.
We sat on the couch the same way we had before, with me laying in his lap and he playing with my hair.
"I was thinking..." Edward said.
"Shocker." I sarcastically commented.
He chuckled. "If you wanted...which you probably won't want to. I'll be OK if you decide not to, but I was thinking that...Maybe..." he hesitated.
"Just tell me Edward!" I almost yelled.
"Maybe you'd want to move in with me when the baby comes." He said.
I was about to respond but I couldn't say anything. "Move in?" I asked, eyebrows furrowed.
"Yes. I understand if you say no, though." He quickly said.
"Why would I say no?"
"Because I know you. You won't want to leave Charlie. I was just suggesting. I mean, I'd like to see my child whenever I wanted but I understand if you want to live with Charlie still."
"No. I would love to live with you Edward!" I exclaimed. I tried to sit up to kiss him, but it was extremely difficult. Edward sensed this and he bent down and kissed me.
He pulled away and said, "are you sure?"
"Of course! I couldn't think of a better plan." I smiled.
"Good," he said.
"You know what this means though, don't you?" I asked him.
"Um, no?"
"Alice will want to do some decorating for the baby. I mean, do you have an extra room for a nursery?"
"Yes." He simply replied. "But...if you don't want Alice to decorate the room, I will tell her not to."
"No! I mean, if you don't want her to then go ahead and tell her no. I'd rather not decorate a room when I can get a free stylish sister of yours to do it." I laughed.
"Great then it's settled, Alice will decorate the nursery. And you, my love, will move in with me. Then, we'll live happily ever after. Or something like that." He chuckled.
"Something like that." I repeated. "Doesn't sound like a bad plan to me."
"I certainly hope not."
"Mhmmm..." I mused. I realized I was tired. I let my eyes droop and I heard Edward laugh.
"Sleep my Bella. I love you and I always will no matter what. Remember, my heart beats for you. I hope yours beats for me." He kissed me and I drifted off into unconsciousness.
OK so there is your chapter. I'm so sorry, again, that it's been ages since I've updated. Just lots of things happening. Oh yeah, I forgot. Next week (July 21st to July 26th) I will be away at band camp (ew) so I will not be able to update. So give me ideas for the next chapter and review!! When I get back I'll write the next chapter. So yeah...Go review please. And tell your friends if you want to. :)