Oceanna

I tried my best not to cry.

Pein had just told me everything he wasn't supposed, and I was so grateful, but so terrified.

The man in the mask trying to kill me didn't come as much of a shock as I thought it would. I mean, normally when people tell you someone wants to kill you one tends to freak out. However, that was last on my list of priorities right now.

He told me that everyone in the base knew Itachi was dead but because of his order had to pretend he was still around when I talked about him. He knew he wouldn't be able to convince Amber to follow his rule, but he said he was fine with that as long as there wasn't room for question.

After that he went into a speech about Luna and Amber. He told me that the official leader viewed Amber as somewhat insignificant but that Luna would become a vital puzzle piece for the Akatsuki. He wanted to kill me because I had information and knew how to utilize it, I wasn't afraid to let it all blow up in his face if I had to.

For that reason alone he wanted me dead.

Pein said he had been doing some research and came across something that would explain my unusual abilities. I originally had a lighting chakra nature, but I was able to do an advanced water technique to save Sasori's wooden ass. I had a lot, but plain, chakra yet I was able to control Samehada for a time. There weren't too many other crazy instances that I could recall though.

While I was away Pein and Konan had looked into a couple of rare chakra types and one of them is called the "No nature chakra" which meant that my chakra was so unstable that it didn't have a set nature. To prove this he handed me a bunch of slips of chakra paper and told me that each one would be different every time.

I did as he said and sure enough my chakra did a little bit of everything. It did fire twice, wind once, water three times, lighting five times, and earth twice.

I really couldn't believe my eyes. We talked about my chakra for a time and he told me that my chakra was extremely dangerous, to me. He said that I should be wary on how much of it I use and how many extreme jutsu's I cast. If I burn up my reserves too quickly it'll be like losing too much blood and I'll faint.

He said the sharingans will be fine as long as he keeps Sasuke out of the base. We were forced to leave them in because he didn't know where Tobi put my original ones.

When we finished hours later, I thanked him and stood. We parted without another word and I walked out the door feeling like a different person. The hall was quiet save for the echoes of my shoes and a soft snoring somewhere down the corridor. As I got closer to Kisame's room the sound got louder and when I turned the corner I saw Hidan lying on the ground sleeping.

I giggled at the sight because I then saw Amber lying on top of him. I tiptoed past and pulled out my phone to take a photo. When I looked down at them I noticed how peaceful they looked. My face softened, Amber always looked like she was about to punch someone when she slept, but now she looked like the happiest human on planet earth.

I left their cuddle fest be and went into Kisame's room. I found Kitai sleeping on his bed and I decided to talk to him about getting another bed. Someone was in the shower and I assumed it was him so I sat on the bed and waited.

A few moments later I heard a sleepy yawn and two little hands wrapped around my arm. Kitai looked up at me with tired watery eyes, "Mommy…"

I smoothed down some of his bed head, "How was your nap?"

He just nodded and stretched. I looked at him and noticed that his clothes were ripped and frayed around the edges. Had he been living on the streets?

I crossed my legs to sit on the bed and pull him into my lap, "Kitai sweetie, do you mind telling me what happened with your birth parents?"

He looked up at me with a small smile, "My real mommy and daddy? I don't like them very much anymore. They said they didn't want me, I think it's because there was another person they wanted as a son. I loved them a lot but they didn't think it was good for me to stay. Before they were so nice and stuff, they made me happy and I loved them and then a big scary looking guy came one day and threw me out the backdoor. They told me to never come back…"

My eyes widened. He wasn't crying but his eyes were watery. A big scary looking man? Does that mean someone killed his parents? "Have you gone back home since?"

He shook his head, "No. I went by a couple of times, but they were always sleeping so I left them alone. They really like to sleep on the couch together. The last time I went they were gone though, and there was a new family there. I think they moved without me."

I tried not to sob for the boy's ignorance. He didn't know, he didn't know that his parents really did love him, and now they were dead. I sighed in defeat, maybe when he's older he'll understand.

I hugged him tightly, "Kitai I want you to understand something okay?"

He hugged me back, "Okay."

"If I ever disappear, if I never come back, it's not because I don't love you alright? If I'm suddenly gone Kisame or Luna or Amber will take care of you. If I stop coming… home it's because I'm not able to, not because I don't want to."

His eyes widened and he looked down sadly, "Oh… okay. But… promise you'll always say goodbye?"

I kissed his forehead, "Always."

The water stopped and a few moments later Kisame walked in wearing only his boxers. I'm not going to deny the attractiveness of the sight but it was still awkward so I looked away and blushed.

"Oh. Didn't know you were in here," I sent him a look. I knew he could feel my chakra so he was definitely lying. I could even tell by his smirk alone.

"Pein and I talked about some crazy stuff. Look I know Itachi not around so you can quit the bull because he told me quite a bit about what's going on."

As Kisame pulled his pants on a suddenly relieved look crossed his face, "Good. I didn't know what he was planning but I don't really… like lying to you all that much because I'm sure you'll figure it out eventually."
I raised an eyebrow, "Oh you don't do you?"

He ignored me and I went to comment on it when Kitai tugged my shirt, "Mommy I'm hungry."

I snuggled against his hair which was unusually soft. Maybe he was using Kisame's soap or whatever, "Sounds good to me. I think it's about time for dinner anyway, Kisame?"

He sighed, "Let me get a shirt."

The three of us walked down the hall, stepping over the two sleeping bodies, towards the kitchen where Sasori was sitting with Konan. They were talking about whatever and I opened the fridge to start cooking. Konan looked up at me and smiled, "You know you don't have to do that right?"

I shrugged, "Yeah. But I'm only going to live for so long so I may as well do what I love while I still can. And anyway, this kitchen is nice for a giant cave."

Konan rubbed the back of her head sheepishly at the comment, "Actually this part of the cave was built on a whim. A while back we had member who did a lot of recon and he got bored one day and… well this was a product of his boredom."

I smiled, "I think it was a fantastic outcome."

A whine at my side alerted me. Kitai held his arms out to me, indicating he wanted to be held. I picked him up and tried my best to juggle him and the spatula. Well it was more like cooking chopsticks but that didn't really matter.

Hidan and Amber walked in with ruffled hair and wrinkled clothes. Hidan sat down and before Amber could pick a spot he pulled her down to sit on his lap. I tried not to laugh as she tried to get away.

When the routine was over and everyone was full I went to the table and bounced Kitai in my lap. He eventually fell asleep again and Kisame and I headed back. I laid him on the bed gently, "You know we should get a second bed in here."

Kisame frowned, "Why? Just put him across the hall, it's an empty room."

I shrugged, "I guess."

He looked at me and gestured towards the room, "Look at this room, do you really think there's enough for another bed? It can hardly fit the two of us."

He stopped talking abruptly. I ignored him and picked Kitai up again when he started to stir at the noise we were making. I carried him over to the other room where he looked around with half lidded eyes, "Where are you taking me mommy?"

"I'm taking you to your own room Kitai. You had your own room before right?"

He nodded, "Oh okay. But where will mommy and daddy be?"

"We'll be across the hall," I set him on the bed and he fell asleep immediately. I shut the door halfway and when I got back to the other side of the hall I smiled. It was refreshing to see an open door in the Akatsuki base.

When I walked back into his room he grabbed me and threw me on the bed. He laid next to me without a word and shut of the lights. I raised an eyebrow because this was the first time we were sharing a bed.

"What's with you lately? You've been acting weird today."

Kisame turned over and in the dark of the room I could still make out his somewhat glowing white eyes. He blinked, "I've just been thinking a lot it all. Maybe if the times were different then…"

He kissed me softly before turning back around and ignoring me. I sighed and rolled up against his back, feeling his warmth and smelling the salt of the ocean. I gripped the back of his shirt gently, "Maybe if times had been different I wouldn't even be in this world."

With that, I fell asleep quickly.