And here we have it, Chapter 14! First off, I highly apologize for the long LONG period of no updates...and then I repay your patience with a short chapter. It pained me too, believe me. Anyways, I hope you guys are still sticking with me, because the ideas are rolling in! Read & Review please!

Rin's mind had stopped working properly the second she had decided to look into Sesshoumaru's eyes, but when he put his lips against hers in what was the gentlest kiss that they had ever shared, she knew that she had reached the point of no return. All she was able to register was that he was kissing her…and that he made the conscious decision to do so. He wasn't drunk off her scent, his eyes hadn't turned into that hypnotic red color. He was kissing her while he was completely sane…but what exactly did that mean?

Rin decided that she didn't want to think about the complexities right now. She decided to indulge herself in the soft lips of the demon kissing her so she let go of the breath she didn't realize she was holding and shyly kissed him back.

Sesshoumaru felt a fire rush through him when she did it, holding back the groan that rose up in his throat. He wasn't expecting her to kiss back. He wrapped his arms around her small body and brought her closer to himself. She gasped in reaction and he took that as an opportunity to let his tongue explore her mouth.

Rin felt her body heat up, and her nervousness build. She had never kissed anyone besides Sesshoumaru, so she had no doubt in her mind that she couldn't be too great of a kisser…but still, she shyly pushed her tongue forward so that it could meet Sesshoumaru's. Immediately his grip on her tightened and he let out a growl, and Rin put her hands on his chest in reaction as he put more pressure on their physical contact. Rin felt the area between her legs heat up and moisten, and she squeezed her legs together. She started scratching at Sesshoumaru's chest and letting out soft moans.

Sesshoumaru was having a war within himself. That venomous voice that was his inner demon was whispering in his head.

She's ready…take her….I know you smell what's going on between her legs…she smells so good…fuck her…fuck your bitch…

Sesshoumaru tore himself from Rin and let out the most guttural growl that she had ever heard from him.

"Shit!" Sesshoumaru cursed.

She stared wide-eyed at him, panting to get her breath back from the passionate kiss. His red eyes were back and they were glowing with a vengeance, his teeth were sharpened with his fangs now protruding slightly from his lips, and his claws had lengthened. Yet again, Rin found herself completely unafraid. She was simply fascinated with the beast that could cut her down at any moment…she also got more excited. With a shaking hand, Rin reached up and gently caressed his face. Sesshoumaru slowly turned his head to her, his eyes still glowing red.

"U-um…a-are you ok?" She asked with a flushed face.

Sesshoumaru put his hand on top of hers and spoke in a voice that sounded more like a growl.

"I…fooled myself into thinking that I had the strength to just kiss you as my sane self…but I miscalculated my control. That evil voice inside me comes out and pushes me to make you mine right now. How can I be so weak?"

As Sesshoumaru spoke, Rin's hand made small circles on his cheek gently so she could relax him, and it seemed to work because his beast-like features started to disappear. She watched with fascination, and vaguely wondered if it pained him every time his fangs protruded or his claws lengthened. If it did he was probably used to it by now.

Sesshoumaru took a deep inhale in and looked to Rin's deep chocolate eyes once more.

"You deserved to be cherished and cared for by my sane self, not by a beast."

Rin's heart was pounding a mile a minute. It wasn't a love confession, she definitely knew that, but she was still undeniably happy to hear him say what he did. She was closer to him than she had ever felt before and she wouldn't change it for the world.

Sesshoumaru breathed deeply again and looked away from her, feeling ever so slightly embarrassed. He couldn't believe the words that were coming out of his mouth, but he knew he meant every word. Much like his lustful fits, everything was almost involuntary…but there was no turning back…not that he wanted to in the first place.

When he turned away, Rin again became aware of the lack of clothing she was wearing. She shyly wrapped herself in the comforter and tugged at Sesshoumaru's sleeve bashfully.

"U-um….w-w-where are my c-clothes?" She asked almost quietly.

Sesshoumaru cut his eyes at her and felt his heart jump at how cute she was right now.

"You mean that little red dress that you were frozen in?" He asked in a way that made it seem like she wore it to entice him.

Rin blushed and looked down, but she nodded her head.

"It is currently being cleaned…do you not like what you are wearing?" he asked, unable to stop himself. For some reason he wanted to tease her, and the words were just continuing to spill out.

Rin bit her lip and fisted the comforter around her as she felt her face heat up more and more.

"I...I-i…I just d-don't know whose c-clothes th-these are….a-and I hate to….i-impose." She said with her eyes squeezed shut.

"Yes, I can definitely understand why wearing a stranger's clothes is uncomfortable…but you are wearing my shirt Rin. And I don't think I count as a stranger anymore…but I will ask Kagome to let you borrow some of her clothes if it bothers you." He said, looking directly at her face so he could catch every reaction.

Rin gasped when she heard him. This…is his shirt? Well that definitely explains why it's so big. But now she didn't want to take it off, but she was too damn bashful to say it.

Sesshoumaru could see that her thoughts had changed about what she was wearing.

"Well…? Should I go ask Kagome for some proper fitting clothes for you?" He asked in a straight face so that she wouldn't realize he was teasing her.

Rin refused to look at him, squeezing her legs together and gluing her eyes to the floor. Why is he asking her these questions? He should know well enough by now that she was super bashful and that she was not going to answer questions like that so easily…unless…he was teasing her?

Rin then looked up at Sesshoumaru's face…which was straight and emotionless as normal. Except for his eyes. In his eyes there was a flash of something very bright. It was soft and inviting…something that she had seen in his Father and brother's eyes but not in his.

And in that instant, as Rin's smile spread from ear to ear, her heart confirmed that everything had slid into place. She loved this demon…and although she didn't know if it was good or bad…she knew it was right.