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I know right, where the hell have I been. The last month has been sooooo full with stuff it crazy. I finished my exams, I got a new job, I've been trying to write this chapter, I've been planning out this story…ahhh, it crazy!

AND GUESS WHAT!

Okay, so I found out Florence and the Machine (MY FAV ARTIST IN THE WORLD) was coming to Sydney. And me and 'Mebs2010' wanted to go. But the concert was at the Seymour centre and we couldn't go because it was 18+.

But theeeeeeeeeeeeeen, I found out on Friday that she's coming back next year in May and it ALL AGES! So now we can see her and she will perform her new album and I'm SO FREAKING EXCITED!

Do any of you like her. You do know, the song 'Howl' by Florence and the machine inspired me to write this story. Don't know why, but I love it and its one of those songs I will listen on repeat 1000X and never get sick of.

Okay, back to the point…hope you all like it and I love you all…BYE!

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White.

It is complete and pure; the colour of perfection. It represents innocence, purity, wholeness and completion.

Black.

Black is the colour of the hidden, the secretive and the unknown, creating an air of mystery. It keeps things bottled up inside, hidden from the world.

Black is the absorption of all colour and the absence of light. Black hides, while white brings to light. What black covers, white uncovers…

Well lets just say that all there was in my life at that moment was black and I really needed some white to uncover some unknown things…

I was sitting in the lounge room back in Forks. We had arrived back at home yesterday afternoon after we had left Phoenix hospital. It was a long and tiring trip…one that I didn't even sleep on.

I continued staring at the blank TV screen that I had been gazing at for the last 10 minutes. I was so deep in thought nothing around me was catching my attention. That was until someone decided to throw something at me.

"Umm...OW!" I yelled at my sister who was standing in the hallway with crutches under her arms. I looked to the floor where Bella's shoe was laying and then back at her in disbelief.

"You threw a shoe at me..." I stated. She shrugged her shoulders and kept a plain face.

"You weren't responding to me…figured that would be a way to get your attention," she said normally.

"Well you got it…what do you want!" I snapped at her. She raised her eyebrows, surprised by my tone.

"I'm tired…" I grumbled my excuse for my shortness and folded my arms as I leaned back into the sofa.

"That's exactly why I wanted you…Dad told me to tell you, that you should go to bed and rest," she delivered our fathers message to me.

"I'm fine…I don't need to sleep," I lied. When in reality I was dying to just close my eyes for just a few minutes.

But how could I?

How can you relax peacefully when you've just been in one of the most traumatising experiences of your life. When every time you close your tired eyes, their suddenly open again from seeing that horrible event.

How can you sleep serenely if you don't know if your going to wake up again?

"Si…please go get some rest. Do you know how exhausted you look?" she asked rhetorically. I pursed my lips together and ignored her comment. Bella sighed and started to make her way over to me.

"Could you please stay still…I don't feel like picking you up off the floor again," I said, remembering last nights event as Bella tripped on her feet in the bathroom.

"I'm fine…but your not," she replied. I sighed, annoyed and stood up walking towards the stairs.

"Look, I'm going alright…now can you leave me alone?" I questioned her. She looked at me worriedly and pursed her lips concerned.

"What's going on with you, Si?" she asked me. I shook my head and laughed at the foolishness of her query.

"What's going on, Bella…what's going on? Oh, I don't know…maybe the fact that I was kidnapped and treated like a piece of garbage by some random psychopath that had no human quality about him," I suggested.

"Si, its not-," I cut her sentence short.

"Or maybe it's the fact that everyone, except me, knows what the hell is going on around here. But its all okay, because The "Cullen's" are going to clear everything up for me and the whole thing will be A-OK in the end,"

"What do you expect me to think Bella. This isn't your everyday situation," She looked down sadly, while I hoped she would finally tell me what she knew. But it was Bella…my sister, Bella. She wasn't going to give in easily…

"Tonight, okay…you'll find out tonight, I swear," she told me. I sighed and shook my head, not taking what she said as a believable comment.

"I'm going to my room…" I mumbled so low she might have not been able to hear it. I trudged up the stairs and entered my bedroom, crashing down on my bed as soon as I saw it.

I'd had enough of this…of all of it. Nothing made sense to me anymore…

Bella and I told each other everything, but lately everything was some big secret. The other thing was that I wasn't even supposed to be 'dragged in this mess' according to Alice. So obviously I wouldn't know anything if that creep didn't take me…

But why did James want Bella? What relationship would my sister have with a person like that. And more importantly, why did the Cullen's know about him too?

I rolled around on my back, trying to forget about the rapid thoughts that coursed within my mind. I didn't want to think about it anymore, it was all just too confusing.

Without even noticing, my eyelids started to close and overtiredness took over my body and mind sending into my nightmares once again…

FLASH!

"Mmmm, almost smells as good as you…wonder how she'll taste," he spoke, letting out a low, wicked laugh.

FLASH!

He rapidly caught hold of my throat and clasped his cold fingers around it; his tight grasp cutting of any air that needed to escape or enter through me.

FLASH!

His eyes…his dark, blood red eyes…

FLASH!

I was heaving out cries; the pain becoming so excruciating I thought I was about to faint. I could feel the warm blood trickling down my upper limb, the metallic smell making me want to hurl…

I shot up out of my bed, my eyes snapped open and I gasped as the air filled my lungs. My hand held my chest tight as I looked around my surroundings, making sure I was still in my own bedroom.

Uncontrollable tears started streaming down my face, my body shook from fear as the images of my nightmare streamed through me like a river. I held my head in my hands as I curled up on my bed in a vulnerable position.

A moment later, a knock interrupted my cries; causing me to bring my attention to the door. I sighed and figured it was Bella coming to check on me, but I really didn't wish to speak to her. Plus, I rather she'd not see me in the state I was in.

"Go away Bella," I said aloud, and stuffed my face back into my pillow.

The door started creaking open as she started to walk in. I huffed and jumped out of my bed, marching to he door.

"I said Go aw-," I was cut short when I saw a face that wasn't Bella's.

"Don't shoot…it's only me," Jacob laughed and held his hands up in a surrendering position.

"Jake," I blinked a couple of times making sure he was really standing in front of me. He grinned goofily and waved his hand before he shoved both of then in his jean pockets.

"Oh my gosh, Jake!" I shrieked in shock and ran up to him, engulfing him in a tight hug. He chuckled and wrapped his long arms around my torso, lifting me slightly off the ground.

"Nice to see you too," he joked as he placed me back on the ground. I beamed a smile for the first time in what seemed like a very long time as I let go of him and placed my feet on the floor.

"You have no idea how happy I am to see you," I admitted to him. He smirked and placed his hand on his chest.

"Yeah…I seem to have that effect on people," he replied snobbishly. I laughed and playfully hit his arm.

I couldn't help it, but I found myself wrapping my arms around him again. Before it was in a surprised motion, but at that moment…it was relief I was feeling.

A few days ago, I didn't know if I was going to see my sister again…or my Dad…or Jake. My future wasn't being controlled by me, but by him…by James. And I didn't know what his motives were…but I didn't think it involved me waking up again.

So seeing Jake… holding Jake, I felt comforted; like nothing could get me. We protected each other through everything, and even though he couldn't help me when I was in desperate need, he was helping me by just being there…

"What's wrong, Si?" he asked more concerned now as he held me again.

I sniffled a little and took a step back from him. "Nothing…," I shook my head and tried to laugh it off.

"Nothing, I…I'm just being silly," I tried to convince him that I was fine. I knew he didn't believe me… he was the only person in my life I couldn't lie to successfully. But I think knowing that something was upsetting me, he dropped his question and moved on with our conversation.

"So, Charlie told my Dad about you and Bella…" he commented as he when and lounged on my bed. I followed him and crossed my legs as I sat down as well.

"Um…yeah, yeah I-…fractured my hand, Bella got off a little worst though," I explained to him, holding up my wounded hand to show him the injury.

"What happened?" he questioned. My eyes widened as I looked down at my hands and fidgeted with them.

Like I said before…I've never been able to lie to Jacob. I actually have never lied to Jacob truthfully. Maybe the occasional white lie here and there…but not something like this…not something this big.

I choked on my words, not knowing what to say. He furrowed his eyebrows as he looked at me and tilted his head slightly as he waited for my response.

"Well…I-…I" I stuttered horribly.

I wanted so desperately to tell him. I wanted to spurt out every detail that I had experienced so just at least someone could feel my confusion and listen to the way I felt.

I always told Jake everything, he was my best friend, it was only right. So telling him seemed like the correct thing to do in my mind. But every time the thought crossed my mind, Alice's voice echoed in my thoughts…

"Sienna, this is a matter of life and death…you must not, under any conditions tell anyone, it's for your own good…"

"I fell down two flights of stairs," I said so quickly, hoping he would find at least a spec of truth in my words.

He arched an eyebrow for a second or so before he burst out laughing. He rolled on his back and held his stomach as he hysterically giggled like a school girl.

I, on the other hand, let out a deep breath as I watched his reaction. He believed me, I didn't know how he took what I said as the truth, but he did. And even though I felt horrible for lying to my best friend…I think in this crazy situation it was best for him not to know.

Though, I still wished to tell him everything that had happened to me in the last few days. I wanted to pour out my emotions and my thoughts and cry on his shoulder as he held me in his arms.

I needed Jake at that moment…I needed my best friend...but he would never know how I actually felt that day.

"You…-you fell down the stairs. Poof, just like that," he said between his laughs. I put on a smile and responded to him.

"No…it wasn't my fault. B-Bella tripped on me and she pushed us both down the stairs," I told him the story that was a cover behind the reality. He shook his head as he pushed himself up and sat upright.

"You Swan sisters are always getting yourself in tricky situations," he joked. I nodded in agreement and cracked a smile at him as I replied to his statement.

"You have no idea…,"

"Are you sure you don't want me to stay, I can ask someone to cover me," Dad told Bella and I as we all walked him to the front door. He had accepted a night shift down at the station but didn't want to leave Bella and I alone in our fragile states.

Jacob and Billy had also left after dinner a few hours ago. It was a odd at the dinner table though…Billy was almost acting weird around Bella and he kept looking between us warily. Even Jake noticed at one stage.

"Dad, were fine…I'll take care of Bella. Just go, its alright," I ushered him out and opened the door.

"You'll be okay?" he questioned Bella as she stood next to me with her crutches under her arm.

"I'll be fine Dad, really I will," she assured him plainly. He simply nodded back at her and turned back to me.

Things had been a little strange ever since we left Phoenix. The things Bella had said to my Dad had hurt him, but you could tell Bella felt terrible for the words she had spoken.

Regardless, they still had made up. But I think it would take a little time before things got back to normal…or as normal as they could be.

"Well, I'll see you then," he said. We both said goodbye and watched him as he walked out the door.

I started to head back upstairs to have a quick shower before Bella's words stopped me in my tracks.

"Hold on, don't go yet," she said. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion and turned to face her.

"Why?" I questioned. As soon as my words were spoken, are car horn was beeped out side and Bella started hopping to the door.

"Because were leaving, Edward's here," she stated and opened the front door again. I slowly walked down the stairs and looked out into the front yard where Edward himself was standing in front of his shiny Volvo.

"Bella, no offense but-," I was cut off.

"I told you that you'd find out tonight, Si. I wasn't lying when I said that," she said as she walked out the door.

I watched her hop out and then shifted my gaze to Edward who was striding forward to help Bella. I bit by lip, not knowing if I actually wanted to go with them.

Did I really want to know everything? Did I want to uncover the secret that was being kept from me?

For all I knew it could have been nothing that big. Maybe just a family dilemma or something like that. But inside I knew differently.

Something wasn't right about this situation, and even though it was a scary thing to confront…I needed to know.

We had been driving for about 10 minutes or so. Bella was placed in the front seat of Edward's car as he drove and I sat nervously in the back seat, fidgeting with my fingers as I anxiously awaited to arrive at our destination.

Finally we entered a small opening on the side of the road and drove down it until we reached something that I didn't even know could exist.

The Cullen's home was absolutely stunning. A huge property they had, with what looked like a meadow around it. Trees wrapped against each other and vines grew amongst the walls of the capturing house.

It almost looked like an enchanted forest; it didn't belong in Forks. But I guess this family was full of surprises…I knew that already.

Edward pulled up to the front of the house, and speedily got out to help Bella. My hand wavered on the door handle as my nerves started getting the better of me. For some reason, I just couldn't open that door…

Eventually, I built up the strength and found myself walking towards the house where Dr Cullen was waiting with a pleasant smile upon his face.

"How are you holding up, Bella?" he asked genuinely as he watched her carry herself up the stairs…Edward hot on her heels of course. I think he had picked up that Bella was bound to fall at least 5 times a day.

"Yeah, I'm well…thanks," she replied and smiled slightly at him.

I slowly followed behind the two as they walked in the house briefly turning to Dr Cullen as I passed him.

"Sienna, nice to see you again," he greeted me with his perfect smile. I swallowed anxiously and nodded as I said hello. He gestured his hand towards the entry of the house.

I slowly walked in and looked around amazed. The house was so different yet so modern at the same. It almost looked as if it had a story to it; like it was made for a reason…

I followed Dr Cullen into a large living room where the rest of his family were standing watching as Bella and I entered their house.

"Sienna, I'd like you to meet my mother, Esme" Edward motioned over to the petite woman standing next to Dr Cullen with a bright smile upon her face.

Esme was gifted with her natural beauty as well as her family. Her heart shaped face and friendly expression made you feel welcome somehow; like a motherly touch had grazed over you.

"Nice to finally meet you, we've heard lots about you, Sienna" she smiled at me with her gold and black eyes; something I noticed all of the Cullen family possessed.

"Oh…" I said surprised, not knowing whether it was a compliment or not. "Ni-nice to meet y-you too, ," I tripped over my tongue nervously.

"And you know Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper…of course Alice as well," Edward continued speaking as I turned my gaze to look at the other family members that stood on the other side of the room.

"Y-yes, I know them," I spoke.

Alice beamed a bright smile at me that almost made me want to smile too. Jasper; who sat next to her, nodded his head politely but rigid at the same time, as if he was struggling to move. Rosalie observed me warily while Emmett waved and grinned a brilliant smile.

They were all such beautiful people, if I didn't have much control my mouth would be open all the time in their presence. But they were just too appealing, almost as if your mind was playing tricks on you, and they actually didn't look that good…it was bizarre.

"Why don't we all take a seat?" Dr Cullen suggested. I took my place next to Bella and Edward while everyone else swiftly moved into a position around the sofas placed in the room.

"Can I get you anything to eat or drink, Sienna" Esme spoke towards me as I sat down.

"Oh, n-no, thank you. I-I'm fine," I declined her offer. She smiled authentically and sat down across from where I was seated.

I started playing with my fingers as I waited for someone to explain the situation to me. So many things were running through my mind it was hard for me to concentrate. I didn't know what to feel. I had so many questions; so many feelings… but I just didn't have my answers yet.

"Sienna, we know you have a lot of questions for us, and I apologise for making you wait unknowingly for so long. But I need you to tell me every detail that happened when James took you, it is vital for us to know," Dr Cullen said.

I nodded and took deep breath, not knowing for sure if I was ready to recover those horrible memories just yet.

Something warm placed itself on my hand and I looked over to Bella who had a compassionate look on her face. She squeezed my hand reassuringly which gave me a little more strength to put my words forward.

I started to explain how everything came about that night. From the moment I had the fight with Bella, to the second James threw across the room like I weighed nothing.

"H-he kept saying how he wanted Bella…and how he was going to kill her and make m-me watch," I said through my tears. I wiped my face and shook my head trying to shake out the images.

"Is there anything else, Sienna? Any specific details that you missed?" he asked me as I collected myself.

"Y-yeah…there's one," I said flatly remembering the terrifying image that was placed in my head. The only thing I wish that I hadn't seen that night, as now it haunted me every time I closed my eyes…

"Were going to have to tell her, she's seen to much, Carlisle" Alice spoke suddenly.

"We don't have to tell her," Rosalie retaliated.

"Rose, enough!" Esme scolded her words.

Dr Cullen leaned forward in his seat and intertwined his fingers together as he looked at me concerned. "What was it, Sienna" he asked.

I breathed heavily and closed my eyes trying to remember every detail about those monstrous things that had been giving me nightmares.

"His eyes…" I finally spoke. "They were blood red...I've never seen anything like it,"

As my words left my mouth, everyone stared at each other in a worried expression. I turned to Bella who was looking up at Edward with anxious eyes as well.

"We can't tell her, Carlisle…look at the mess were in since Bella found out about us," Rosalie spoke once again.

"Look at her, she hasn't slept in days because of this. It isn't right not to tell her!" Alice popped up again.

"Tell me what?" I said starting to get frustrated by their words.

"Look, I'm sorry if I'm being rude, but I'm sick and tired of not knowing what happened. I thought I came here for answers, not to be in the middle of a discussion about whether I should find out the truth or not…because frankly, I think I deserve to know,"

A silence engulfed the room and everyone put their heads down in their own thoughts for a moment. I looked over to Bella who had her head in her hands while Edward rubbed her shoulders comfortingly.

"Tell her, Carlisle," Edward said calmly towards Dr Cullen. He nodded and shifted his gaze back to me, speaking something so random my mind did an entire loop.

"Sienna…what do you know about vampires?"

A/N:

Okay, so was this the most worst chapter in fan fiction history, or the highlight of your day. I hope it's the second, so let me know in a review! Even anonymous if you like, I JUST WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEEL!

I hope your excited for the next chapter. Its JAMPACKED with information about everything that has occurred in the past of the story. Everything will be cleared up and if you were confused about anything, it most likely will be answered in the next chapter.

I hope you enjoyed it guys, and ill speak to y'all soon.

Love you