Title – You Found Me
POV – Edward and Bella
Setting – Killeen, Texas (near Fort Hood, Texas)
Mortality – All human
Time Setting – Fall of 2007
Summary – The worst part of being an army wife is not the wait, it is when the wait is over and you find yourself with no husband and son with no father. That's the hardest part and at that point you can only find comfort in a certain person, when does the comfort become something else? Bella is what we call an army wife. She is married to Sergeant Black. He has been in the army since he was 17. He is best friends with Edward Cullen, a guy who is dedicated to the army but doesn't realize that it's taking a toll on his life. Tragedy strikes and soon there are two people left and they must depend on one another to get through it. Can they get through it without making a sinful mistake?
A/N – This song was featured on Grey's anatomy, it is a GREAT song and too long to post the whole thing, but check it out.

Black crows circling up above
Crying out, do you hear that sound
I never thought it'd come to this
Paradise raised to the ground

Sometimes I don't sleep at night
I hear the wind in the morning trees
I wonder how my child will fair with wars and bombs and thieves.
A thunder has begun

Some are blind but choose to see
Fly's into the truth they weave
Some put their trust in faith
Some say I don't believe

Each man unto himself
Is an island in a raging sea
With a boat to anchor sail all but two which will it leave
–A Storm is Going to Come, Piers, Faccini

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The Thunder

EPOV (Edward)

"Alice, please don't dress her up like a doll. I ask you to bring her a change of clothes." I begged. I was sure despite my requests she would bring her a designer outfit.

"Edward come one…you know me." I eyed her. "It's what I do but I will be subtle." I didn't trust her to be subtle but I didn't really have too many options.

"It's a funeral keep it subtle." I warned.

"Edward I know that. I'll be there at in an hour." She handed me a small bag. "This is for Jake."

"Thank –" I was interrupted by my phone. "Hold on." I told her and answered it. "Hello."

"Edward." A familiar voice answered but I couldn't put a name to it. "It's Jasper." He clarified.

"Oh, yeah it's me."

"Do you mind if I take Jake this morning and meet you and Bella at the service?"

"Uh…sure, yeah. Actually come by and Alice, my sister will be here with him. I have to go check on Bella."

"It seems you're the only one who keeps her going, she won't listen to me and apparently she listens to you. I appreciate what you do for her and my nephew, if she would let me do it I would."

Bella didn't really listen to me, I was persistent and I never let her go. She wanted to give it all up but I refused to let her, which was all I did. "I don't mind." It's what I have to do for my sanity, I added mentally.

"You met Julia." He stated. I walked away from Alice and into the hall.

"Yes, a few days ago."

He was silent for a couple moments. "I read your file, and look I shouldn't have, I do apologize. It wasn't her fault, I took your file and I read it, sorry."

"Ah….It doesn't matter, it's fine I guess."

"I'm glad you decided to come."

"Me too."

"What did your colonel say?" He asked.

"Honorable discharge." I said bitterly. "Hey don't say anything to anyone, my family doesn't know yet. My sister only knows I visited the office but doesn't know about the discharge."

"Yeah sure, I am sorry about stealing your file."

"It's…okay." It didn't really bother me, he pretty much knew all along. The hard part was telling my family everything. I was putting it off for as long as I could. "Alright well, I'm going to go to Bella's and Alice will be here."

"Alright, bye."

"Bye." I hung up and told Alice that Jasper would be coming over to get Jake.

I was already dressed. Colonel suggested that I wear my uniform and I agreed. I should wear it one last time. I drove to Bella's house and I let myself in, she was bad about locking the door.

I found her sitting at the table still in her pajamas. "Good morning."

She turned and forced a small smile that quickly faded. "Hi." She said nothing for a long moment. "I have nothing to wear." She whispered.

"I know. My sister will take care of it." I assured her.

"You seem to know a lot."

"Knowing and assuming are very different things."

She shrugged. "They serve the same purpose."

"Perhaps."

She looked around herself. "I feel so lost, I don't know what to do anymore. When he was gone I always knew that he was coming back but now I know he isn't and it's hard to handle that. I could tell my son in a few months his father would be back but now what do I say? I have no hope."

"Is your son no hope at all? He misses you and you are strong you can keep it together. It's hard losing…your way of life" I knew that feeling all too well, "but you can do it. You can live, if not for you, for your son."

"You're good."

"I wish that were true, I can't even take care of myself. I try though. You're going to be okay, I know you are."

Eventually Alice arrived. I opened the door for her. "Hello, I'm Alice Cullen." Alice has been known to be very affectionate. She gave her a big hug. "I offer my condolences."

"Thank you."

She handed Bella the bag. "Edward mentioned you might need something, it's not actually made by me but it'll work."

Bella took a deep breath. "Okay, I'll be ready in a minute." She said as composed as possible. She retreated to her room and left Alice and I alone.

"She looks so…broken, it hurts me to see her that way, and I don't even know her."

I sighed. "I know, he loved her so much and she loved him back with the same intensity."

"She's nothing like her brother." She commented. "He's a very nice guy."

"She's nice but who can be nice in her situation."

"I know that but I think they have distinct personalities."

Before our conversation could continue Bella reemerged. She wore black dress pants, and a dark button up shirt. "I'm ready."

"I forgot the coat, it's in the car." Alice said with a sigh and stepped out, within seconds she returned with a dark coat, it was button up and had a tie up belt. "I guessed on the size."

"It fits fine." Bella replied. "We can go…is Jasper with Jake?" I nodded. "Good." She picked up her purse and keys. I asked for the keys and locked the door behind us. Bella rode with me and Alice met us at the cemetery. It was to be held outdoors, it was not so cold. It was Texas it could either be mildly cold or bitter cold and today it was tolerable.

The families surrounded the area. This was the worst feeling I had ever had, I saw weeping mothers and fathers, and wives and children. I saw Rosalie and I briefly left Bella. "How is he?" She asked. Her blonde hair tied into a bun, she looked less like herself without Emmett.

"Not a scratch on him." I promised her just as he had asked me to.

She forced a smile and looked over to Bella who was speaking to Juan. "I can't imagine her pain."

"I am sure it is far worse than it appears." I knew that I would never know her pain, her hear was broken and I have had about three girlfriends. Tanya was who lasted the longest, for about a year in high school before she broke up with me. She said she refused to stand by me as I got shot at. I decided that I was better off without her, I hadn't seen her since. "Well I'm going to go."

When I joined her I saw that she tried to ignore the scene before her. She finally looked up to the front and saw the flag covered caskets, there were three soldiers. Her eyes saw his picture. "Oh god" Bella covered her face with her hands. She hadn't even made it to the casket. I led the rest of the way. Her tears turned into sobs when we reached the area. "Jacob, I miss you, so so much." I stood behind her with my hands behind my back unable to look at her for much longer. A knot formed at the base of my throat and my eyes stung with tears. I wanted to hold it in with all my might but it was impossible. It felt like my brother died.

It wasn't long before Jasper and Jake joined us, to my surprise he was followed by Julia. Bella immediately took Jake from Jasper. Jake's attention was caught by Jacob's picture. "Daddy!" He pointed at the picture.

BPOV (Bella)

"Daddy!" Jake lifted his small finger to point at the picture. His innocence hurt so much, I had to tell him. I couldn't lie to my son. I couldn't watch hope rise in him so that it could be chattered by reality later on.

"Baby, daddy is not here anymore." My voice cracked but I took a deep breath and attempted to continue. It was so hard to give him reality, I wanted him to always know because it would be better this way.

"You don't have to do this." Edward murmured behind me.

"Yes I do." I replied in a hard voice. "I won't lie to my son." I turned my attention back to Jake. "Daddy is gone, he's not coming back. Daddy was taken away from us and…I'm sorry. I'm sorry baby." His expression saddened and I could swear he understood what I was telling him. "He loved you so much, baby, daddy will always be with you." I took his hand placed it on his chest. "He's going to watch over you everyday."

"Yes he will." A new voice said. I turned to find Esme and Carlisle approaching with Billy with Embry and Quil. "He will always be with you my son." Billy continued.

"I'm sorry I didn't call." I managed to choke out. "It was so hard, it's hard now."

Billy's face was pained but he did not cry. "I know Bella, believe me I know what it feels like to lose it all. When my wife died it hurt but I got through it for Jacob, you should do the same."

I nodded as new tears flowed down my face. "I have to try."

"You made him so happy, he loved you so much. From the day he met you he knew that you were something special."

"Well, I appreciate the words of motivation."

"Bella, Carlisle and I will always be here, if you need us. He was like our son." Esme said softly.

Carlisle nodded. "Yes, if life were only fair we'd all be happy but as it happens life is anything but fair. Whatever you need, we are your family." I needed a family, Jasper was all I had left and two people didn't make up a family.

Jake had become somber in my arms and he laid his head on my shoulder but he was not asleep. I excused myself and took a seat. I was surrounded by nothing but sorrow including my own. I sat Jake on my lap and he leaned against my body. Soon I was joined by Angela. "You're back." I said surprised.

She smiled kindly, beside her was Ben, her husband. "I got back a few days ago but I thought you might need some space so I didn't come over. How are you?"

"Not good but I'm still here."

She took a seat beside me and wrapped her arm around my shoulder. "You'll be okay, you can survive this."

"I wish it were easier." I murmured. "I guess life just doesn't work that way."

"It seems you're not alone, Jacob didn't leave you to fend for yourself." She looked over to Edward, who was alongside his mother and father. His pixie of a sister stood on his left side.

"He does so much for me, I feel guilty but he says he needs to do it because it's the right thing to do and because he needs to take some weight off himself. He thinks he could've done something when he was shot but I know that he couldn't have, it's just the way things are."

She looked over to Jasper and noticed the girl beside him. "Who is that?"

I shrugged, I didn't quite know myself but I had a guess. "I'm not sure, she came with Jasper, I think she's a doctor at his office, but I can't remember. It's hard to think straight."

"Bella, I'm here if you need me. You are one of my best friends and I lament what happened." I nodded and once again I was alone. She had known me long enough to know that I wanted to suffer alone.

The service was a blur; I didn't listen to a word that was spoken or a cry that was heard. I ignored it all because it was all too excruciating to concentrate on. I was finally reeled back into reality once the burial was in action. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I saw the coffin disappear beneath the ground. The flag was folded up and given to me. I laid a white rose over the newly mounded soil. "I love you and you will always be in my heart, you were my first and only love. Our son will always be conscience of the love you had for him, help me through this, help me heal." I whispered before I decided that there was no reason to linger anymore, I turned on my heel and started for the parking lot.

I was stopped by a shoulder on my hand. I turned and before me stood the colonel with a tortured expression. "Isabella."

"Yes."

"He was a great soldier and a great individual."

"Thank you."

He took a deep breathe, I sensed he wanted to say more. "This his son?" He asked but it didn't really sound like a question.

"Yes, colonel is there something you wish to say."

He shut his eyes tightly before speaking. "I apologize for the position I put Jacob in, I admit that it was wrong of me."

I stared at him blankly, I didn't understand but I didn't want him to know that or he wouldn't continue.

"I left him with an awful decision. I influenced the last tour upon him when I should let him sign off like he wished to." It took me a minute to realize what he was saying.

A rush of anger flared up inside me. Jacob had wanted to sign off but he forced the last tour upon him. "How dare you?!" I demanded. "How dare you ask for an apology?" I was sure I was being loud because both Edward and another soldier – Juan I believe – turned.

"I didn't know he'd die." Both Edward and Juan came to my side.

"That doesn't matter, you are a sorry excuse for a husband and a man. How could you? You know the pain of separation, you knew him well and you knew me and yet you made him go. Whether you knew or not, what you did was inexcusable and unforgivable. I lost my husband when he could've been safe at home. You destroyed my world, and you deprived my son from a father. Don't ask for forgiveness because you will never get it!"

Finding out about this only intensified my pain, Jacob and I had a chance, we had a real chance. Edward took Jake and the flag I clutched onto and gave him to Juan. "Bella listen to me, as much as I'd like to believe it, what he did was a horrible mistake. It was a mistake regardless, whether you blame him or not won't change a thing, he's gone and nothing will bring him back."

"You knew, you knew he was signing off. Why didn't you tell me?" I demanded.

"He told me minutes before he slipped away and I didn't want to tell you because of this. I knew it would hurt more if you thought you had a chance. That was probably why he didn't tell you in the first place. It made things worse."

"I deserved to know."

"Do you feel better?" He asked and I shook my head. "Then there was no point in you knowing."

The colonel cleared his throat. "Isabella I am truly sorry, I don't know what do for you."

"I think you should leave, Colonel" Edward suggested. Once he left Juan gave Jake back to me and Edward took the flag.

"Good luck." Juan said wholeheartedly. "He was a selfless soldier and he will be missed." He gave me an encouraging smile and walked away.

He was the first person not to say the word 'sorry.' "Come on let me take you home." Edward said softly as he guided me away.

I glanced to the burial site once more whispering my last good byes. I held onto Jake tightly, he was only hope. He was my future.

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Next chapter will be called, Somewhere Over the Rainbow, but it will be fast forwarded, it won't be sad I promise. The title is happy. Please review, it's very helpful, let me know whether or not you liked it.

~Toodles.