"You guys know when you were asking about Zig last night?" I asked, trying to get the words out through my tears.
They both nodded.
"I think -" I couldn't get it out. My throat felt tight, it felt as if I couldn't breath.
"I think I might be pregnant."
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I heard nothing but their gasps. Tristan covered his mouth, and Tori loosened her tight grip of me, looking down on me. I couldn't look at either of them, I could tell they were just as shocked as I was.
"But you said -" Tristan gasped, uncovering his mouth. "You said you guys never-"
"We did. Mo - more than o - once." I couldn't seem to get the words out of my mouth without the sobs coming harder.
"Shit, Maya." Tori whispered under her breath. I felt Tristan grab my hand. It was all silent for a minute, as I let my big sobs out, Tori trying to keep me from completley sinking into the couch. Tristan sat there, completely shocked.
"You guys used protection, right?" Tristan asked.
"We did," I replied, whipping my face. "But we used the ones I already had. I made sure I had them like a couple months in case Miles and I did anything."
"So you can't be, you used protection." Tristan assured.
"Zig was much bigger than Miles was, what if it br- broke." I began sobbing again, digging my face into my hands.
"This was your first time?" Tristan asked sympathetically. I nodded my head yes. "Maybe you can't get pregnant then, is that possible?"
"No, you still can." Tori assured him. "Maya, did you feel it rip inside of you?"
I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know, I don't think so." I looked up at her, she was crying too. "I was too caught up in the moment to know." Tori continued rubbing my back, both of them crying also.
"Does Zig know?" Tristan asked.
"No, he doesn't. And he won't until I know for sure." I whipped my face again, grabbing both of their hands.
"Maya you have to take a test." Tori demanded me, her whipping her face also. "It's the only way you'll know."
"Yeah but Tori, sometimes those tests are wrong, Maya you should see a doctor." Tristan said.
"Tris, I can't see a doctor, how would I even get there without my mom knowing?" My stomach sunk when I thought about my mother. What would she even say? The thought of telling her made me want to throw up.
Tristan was silent for a second.
"Owen," he began. "My brother can bring you. He's dating one of the nurses there, he can probably get you an appointment without Marg finding out."
I looked at him for a second before nodding my head. "I should take a test first, just to be sure." Tristan nodded back.
"What about the other times you guys had sex?" Tori asked. "Did you use a condom?"
"Zig bought his own after our first time, so they had to be the right size."
"Oh my goodness, Maya. I'm so sorry." She wrapped her arms around me, resting her face in my shoulder. Tristan did the same.
Knowing I had them, knowing I had these friends to fall back on definitely made this messy situation just a little bit better. The thought of my being pregnant - the thought of me having a baby inside of me scared the living shit out of me. I was sixteen, I had so much ahead of me. I had so much plans for college, and this could change it all.
I knew in my heart that if this came out positive, I would not have an abortion. I would never have one, ever.
"I'll go by a test from the drug store, okay?" Tristan said, parting from us and beginning to get up.
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"You're my best friend, Maya. I'll would buy a hundred tests for you." I put on the smallest smile I could, as he got his jacket and he was suddenly out the door.
I turned to Tori, with still wet eyes. She put her hands on my lap, grabbing my hands.
"Tori, what do I do?" I cried, "What if I'm pregnant?"
"There's a chance you may be," Tori said, whipping the black makeup off of my face. "But there's also a chance you won't be. If it comes out positive, we will think of something, I promise."
"How would I even tell my mom? Or Zig?"
"If you're pregnant, that's Zig's son or daughter in there. It's your guys baby, and I know in my heart that Zig would never leave you, ever." She assured me, grabbing my face. "We all love you, Maya. And if there's a baby inside of there," she started, pointing to my stomach. "my love, Tristan's love, and even your mom's love won't change." I smiled.
"My mom would kill me, I know she would." My smile faded.
"She won't kill you, obviously she will be pissed but I know Marg, she wouldn't put you or Zig on the streets."
We sat there for ten more minutes talking and crying, until Tristan came back.
"I got two tests, just in case." Tristan said, handing them to me. I looked at them.
"Thank you, Tris." I whispered. My hands began to shake, my whole body was. Tori took a box, examining the labels.
"It's been 10 days since you guys had sex for the first time, right?" I nodded. She grabbed my hand.
"Are you ready for this?" She asked.
Truth is, I wasn't ready. Who knew peeing on a stick would be so terrifying. This stick would determain my life.
I nodded, standing up. Tori stood also.
"Do you want us to come in with you?" Tristan asked.
"No, I'll be okay. Just wait outside and make sure my mom doesn't come in." And with that I was walking to the bathroom with the tests.
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Waiting for those three minutes had to be the worst three minutes of my life. I sat on the toilet seat, staring at my phone's timer, which only a minute had passed by.
I began pasing in my bathroom, my entire body shaking. I thought I would've fallen over already from shaking too much.
I began thinking back to that night - the night we had sex for the first time. Did I feel it rip inside of me? Would Zig have known if it ripped?
If he knew, he would've pulled it out, right? My mind was everywhere, thinking back to that night.
I began crying, again. I prayed hard.
Please make this negative. Please don't let me be pregnant.
I was brought back to reality when my phone timer went off. I closed my eyes, and took a deep breath. I walked over to the sink where the test lied, opening my eyes.
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Tori and Tristan tried telling me they would stay, but I demanded that they would leave. I didn't want them waiting around my house the entire day. I could tell they were just as tired and hungry as I was, and I practically demanded them to go out and eat, or sleep.
And so they did. It took them an hour to leave, but they did.
Zig wasn't home yet, although he should be any second. I called him ten times, getting his voice mail each time. I was worried about him, but I knew he would make it home safely.
I sat in my kitchen, alone. The entire house was silent. My mom was out with Campbell's mom, and I was all alone. It was so quiet that I can almost hear my heart beat, which was beating very fast.
I heard the door open, and brought my head up to see Zig's figure. He came into the kitchen, sighing.
"Why did you call me ten times?" He asked, he seemed upset.
"Well finally you're back." I rubbed my eyes. My heart sunk looking at him.
"Yeah, I was in the middle of talking to Vince when you were calling me." His voice was low, and he seemed mad. "What did you want?"
"Woah, what's wrong with you?" I raised my eyebrow, getting off my chair.
"Nothing Maya, just a lot going on today." He began walking to the living room and up the stairs.
"And where are you going?" I followed.
"Bed, Maya. It's been a hard day." I grabbed his jacket, causing him to stop from walking up the stairs.
"And you don't think it's been a shitty day for me too?" I began crying, this wasn't going to be easy.
"Maya, I'm sorry. I'm just really tired, okay? You don't understand the stress I'm under."
I looked at him before storming away, shoving a chair on the way. I could hear him coming behind me.
"Honestly Zig, I do. I do understand the stress you're under." I began throwing anything in my way. Something just came over me - a rush of anger that just made me want to scream.
"Maya!" I heard Zig yell as I was throwing the magazines off the counter. "Maya, stop!" He yelled again, grabbing my shoulders. "What the hell is going on?"
I looked at him for a second, thinking long and hard about what I was going to say next. And then the tears came harder. This time he didn't hug me, he stood there confused.
"Maya, what's going on?" He asked, his hands still on my shoulders. "Tell me."
I looked at him again, tears coming out of my eyes.
"I'm pregnant."
The look on his face was a face that I have never seen before. It was like his entire face twisted. Every inch of happiness was taken off of his face, it was like he was possessed. He stared at me, confused. I could feel his hands begin to shake, and his chest was puffing in and out fast. I could feel his breath on my face.
"What?" He gasped, taking his hands off of my shoulders. I sniffled.
"I'm pregnant, Zig." I whispered under my breath, trying to gather all of my strength I had left that night. The entire kitchen was dead silent for a minute.
"We...We used a con-"
"Condom's break, Zig." I interrupted, whipping a tear that seemed like it was traveling down my face for forever.
"Oh my god." He whispered, turning around. He slammed his hand on the counter, and bowed his head. "This isn't happening."
"It's happening, Zig. I took two tests." He turned and looked at me.
"And they both came out positive?"
"They both did." I nodded. I have never seen him more scared, not even when we were around the gang. It was like his body was completley flushed out, and his entire face was pale.
"And you're sure...you're sure it's mine?" He stuttered. I threw him a nasty look.
"Yes, it's yours. You're the only guy I've ever had sex with." He sighed again, and I could tell he was shaking, it looked as if he's was going to throw up. He walked over to the chairs and sat down, burying his face in his hands again.
"Did you see a doctor?" Somehow I could understand what he was saying, although he said it in his hands.
"I am, Tristan's brother might take me." I saw him look up at me.
"Wait, him and Owen knew before me?"
"I just told Tristan and Tori today, they got me the tests." I slowly walked over to him, and I could tell he was tearing up.
"God, Maya. This is really happening." He looked at my stomach. "We are having a baby."
I couldn't help myself from crying, so I stood there, covering my mouth. He reached over and grabbed my hand, him still sitting down.
"How am I going to tell my mom? We can't be parents Zig, we are both sixteen years old!" I cried, walking away from him and towards the dinner table. "I have so much plans, this can't happen, Zig! I can't be pregnant."
"Maya, listen to me." He walked over to me, trying to put on his most calm face he could muster. "Maybe - maybe we aren't pregnant. Those tests are wrong sometimes, we won't know until we see a doctor."
"I missed my freaking period!" I yelled. I hated yelling at him, but I couldn't help myself. He was just as shocked as I was about all of this.
He sat down again, motioning me to come over to him to sit on his lap, and so I did.
He sat there for a second, trying to breath off his anger and confusion before saying, "Whatever the doctor says, if there's a baby inside of there, I'm not going to leave you, ever." he lowered his voice. I looked at him.
"You have every right to hate me."
"How could I hate you? I wanted to do what we did just as much as you did that night, and to be honest I wouldn't give that moment up for anything." He grabbed my hand and kissed it. "Let's just try to stay calm right now, until we know for sure."
My phone buzzed, which was lying on the floor on the other side of the room, I must have thrown it over there. I got up off of his lap and walked over to it, kneeling down to see who it was.
It was Tristan.
"Owen got u an appointment for tomorrow at 1:00. U might have to ditch." I grabbed my phone and read his text out loud.
"That's Rubber Room period." Zig assured me.
"I have to skip it," I shrugged. "I need to know if I am now, or else I'll go crazy." I texted him back, agreeing with the arrangement.
"If I skip that period again, I'll be in the Rubber Room until the end of the year." Zig sighed.
"It's okay, Owen will just take me and I'll come home right after we are done." I went up to him, stroking his cheek.
"Are you sure?" Zig asked. "Because I don't care, I'll do it."
"No, you hate the Rubber Room, I'll be just fine." I smudged on the biggest smile I could make, but it turned out to only be a grin. He got up from his chair, grabbed my face, and planted a small kiss on my lips.
"I love you Maya, even if we have a baby in there," he pointed to my stomach.
"I'm so scared, Zig." I whispered, bowing my head. I could tell he was terrified, I could tell he was just trying to be strong for me.
"I am too," He rested his forehead on mine.
We ended up sleeping in the same room that night, managing to make it around my mom when she got home. We talked about what would happen if there was a baby, if I was pregnant.
I asked him what had happened with the gang before he had gotten home, but he tried to shake it off as much as he could, he didn't want more stress on me right now.
He fell asleep before I did. I cried myself to sleep that night.
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Oh lordy, this was a fun chapter to make.
Sooooo, Maya might be pregnant? Maaaaybe not? Any predictions? I know exactly where I see this going :)
Also, some new characters coming into play! I loved having Tori in this, I loved her character and wish she didn't leave! She would've been amazing for season 14 of Degrassi on the power squad.
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