Song of the day All my love by Lena Katina (she is the red head from the group Tatu. I am sure half of you know them).. I really love this song... Beautiful lyrics..

To OriginalSoundtrack: i am sorry for making you cry.. believe me that wasn't my goal.. As for Stehole he is going be here for a little while till he's gone forever..

To TheQueen: Thank you for the compliment.. I love drama but only when i write a story and when i read a story.. In my life i don't want it.. i want to be as drama free as possible..

To ShadowHawk kv: I love men.. I have no issues with them..Unfortunately there are good guys and bad guys.. If you read any of my other stories you would know that i had a crazy psycho, being a girl, who stubbed Ashley..

To foreverinlove: i will try my best to let him pay for what he did.. I don't think he is going to hurt them again..

To queenred12: Well.. he lost it.. he was drunk and he couldn't see anything but Ashley taking Spencer away from him.. not that i am ofending the **.. i don't like him..

To FFReview: They do realise that they are becoming closer and closer they just don't know how the other feels and it's too soon..

I want to thank you all for your wonderful reviews and the alerts.. It means so much you love the story.. Thank you for taking your time to tell me your thoughts.. Know that i am considering them..

Chapter 14

Spencer's POV

You hear every day about women being abused. Women being raped. You wonder why someone didn't say anything. Why someone didn't help. How is it possible to hurt another person? And when that happens to someone you know, a friend, a family member, your own child then things are different.

I knew that Steven was an asshole. A pusher. When we were together he had his way persuading me to what he wanted. He was another Paula Carlin. And I was always listening to him. Not that I didn't understand what he was doing. I just didn't want to say anything. And for my mom I should be a lovely girlfriend and a future lovely wife to my boyfriend.

Spencer Carlin. This is me. But who is me actually? The one that I wanted to be or the one that my mother wanted me to be? Spencer Carlin wanted to be free. Spencer Carlin was in love with a girl when she was younger but to her mom that was forbidden. That was unforgivable. Paula Carlin couldn't have a gay daughter and of course as a good daughter I was I put it behind. I hide it deep inside and I forgot what I wanted and she never found out about it. I had only two relationships my whole life. To my mother's discomfort. Steven being my second of course.

You are wondering if I liked a girl after that crush in high school. The answer is no. I managed to hide it so well that I pushed my feelings away. It amazed me how they came back when I met Ashley for the first time. When I saw her that shiny day with her beautiful smile. Then the things I forgot, the things I thought that I forgot were coming back and I just didn't know what to do. How to react. What would happen? I was with Steven. A guy that I've been with for two years. And now I was starting to like Ashley. A girl I didn't know at that time. A girl that I didn't know how to talk. And all I did was to be what I knew the best. Being an uptight snob bitch. As she said I was.

Day after day I was going to that bakery shop just to see her. She was always making my day without even know it. Till that night that fate brought us together accidentally. And since that day she managed to bring light to my life. She managed with her beautiful daughter to make me feel something when everything was black. And I could smile because of her.

I was starting to forget Steven. Steven was a back up plan. Someone that I was supposed to be with. But when Ashley came into my life I just wanted to end this with him. I wasn't in love with him. I never had been. And he was making miserable. Ashley was making me happy just being there with me. Even as friends..

When he came to my office that morning I knew that it wouldn't end well. I didn't expect him though to do something like that. Although it is just an assumption. Ashley still doesn't say anything about who it was. But I know it was him. I saw it in his face that he was up to no good. I didn't know that he would hurt Ashley. It wasn't her fault. She had nothing to do with me and Steven but in his crazy mind he thought that she was the reason I was changing. She was the spark of my change not the reason.

When I got inside the meeting I felt strange. My mind was to Steven and what happened minutes ago inside my office. I don't know why or how but something was telling me to go back to my house. I told Helena that I was leaving and I called my house phone. No one was answering. Ashley was in her crunches so the first time I didn't get worry. Second time and nothing. Third and nothing. I knew that something was wrong.

When I opened the door to my apartment I found her on the floor, unconscious covered with blood. The first thing I did was to see if she was alive. I checked her pulse but it was almost not existent. I tried to talk to her. I tried to see where she was hurt. She was a mess. And the blood on the floor. That bastard. It had to be Steven. No one had the reason to come in here and hit Ashley. I called the ambulance and found the strength to call Emma's school. I didn't know how long we would be at the hospital. Once the ambulance was here I found the doorman and asked him if he saw who came inside. He said that he couldn't remember because he was on the phone at some point. He realized what happened when he saw Ashley on that medical table and his face fell. Our building had cameras and I am sure it wasn't a thief. It was someone he knew.. And that someone was sure Steven.

"I want the tapes from today. Who got inside our building, who left and what time. You heard me John?"

"Ms Carlin.. I don't.."

"Someone was hurt at my apartment and since you were talking on the phone and you haven't seen them I want the tapes. I will come and take them when I will be back. Have them ready"

"Yes, Ms Carlin"

"Spencer?"

"Yes?" I was looking outside the window thinking the last three days. Ashley wasn't allowed to leave yet from the hospital because they were worried about her concussion

"Why you are there?"

"I was just thinking"

"Where is Emma?"

"At her school. Once I drove her there I came right here immediately"

"I am sorry" now I was coming closer to her bed. My heart was breaking looking at her in that condition. I am going to kill that bastard. Because now I have the evidence I need. He was at my building that day and I am going to put him in jail. If only I could make Ashley admit that he was the one who hit her.

"Don't be. There is nothing to feel sorry for"

"I do. You are here instead of working. And that because of me and my stupid leg and now arm and a concussion" I sat at the chair next to her bed and I put my hand on hers. It was so soft. I looked at her in her eyes.

"How are you feeling?"

"A little dizzy but good. My arm hurts though"

"The nurse said that you can press the button and have morphine in your system when you hurt"

"I don't want to"

"Why?"

"I.. just don't want to. Morphine is a drug that I don't need in my system right now" she would rather hurt than have the morphine. Why? I didn't pressure her though..

"I am going to ask the doctor when you can come home. Ok?"

"Can you just stay here for a while? Please?"

"Of course"

Although she was awake only for fifteen minutes she fell asleep again while holding my hand. That was what the doctors were afraid. That she couldn't stay awake for more than an hour. They assured me though that they were keeping her here out of precaution and nothing more. When I knew she was already asleep I walked outside her room and tried to find her doctor..

"Excuse me. Can you please page Dr Torres?"

"Your name Ms?"

"Carlin. Spencer Carlin. His patient is Ashley Woods"

"Sit right there Ms and I will"

I waited for twenty minutes passing infront of Ashley's room in case I would see her awake when Dr Torres came..

"Ms Carlin, hello. How is our patient today?"

"She hurts and she still refuses to take the morphine."

"We can't do anything about it if she doesn't want it. We can give her though another pain medicine that is not that strong"

"Anything doctor"

"You care a lot about your friend"

"Yeah, I do. When can I take her home?"

"We are going to take her to have some tests and if they are ok you can leave tonight. There is no reason for her to be here"

"When are you going to have these tests?"

"Once we are ready I'll come by her room. Ok?"

"Yes, Doctor"

When I got back to Ashley's room she was awake. These last days I noticed her a lot. She was sleeping for a couple of minutes and then she would wake up. And then the same again.

"What the doctor said? Can I leave?"

"You have to do some tests to see if you are ok and if you are we can go"

"Perfect"

"Also he said that he can have you under another pain pill and not the morphine. So maybe you won't hurt that much now"

"Ok"

She seemed.. I don't know.. Sad? Hurt? She seemed different since that day..

"Do you want something to eat?"

"Not really but thank you Spence. For everything"

"You shorten my name" I said while smiling. I did that too.. It felt so good hearing my name from her..

"You did that first"

"I did. Didn't I?"

"I missed Emma"

"I know. But I didn't want to bring her here. It's not a place for a child"

"Thank you for taking care of her. I hate it that I can't take care of my daughter"

"You can't in your position. I know you want to but you have to realize that you can't. I am just glad that you are alive and not dead. I am going to kill him for what he did to you"

"No you won't do anything"

"Ash, how can you say that? Can't you see yourself? It was Steven and don't try to say otherwise. I know"

"So since you knew why you kept asking me Spence?"

"Because you are the one who was hit. You are the one who can put him in jail. Not me. I can help you do it"

"Really Spencer? You want to put in jail your boyfriend?"

"He is not my boyfriend anymore. I broke up with him that day.."

"What day?"

I haven't told her. She didn't know that Steven went to my apartment the day I broke it off with him.. And slightly it was my fault that she was hurt..

"I broke up with Steven the day you were hurt."

"You broke up with him?"

"Yes and I am so sorry Ashley. Please believe me. I didn't know that he would come to my apartment and do what he did"

And she was silent. I didn't know what to get from her silence. She was mad? She hated me? And she still wasn't talking..

"Ashley?"

"You broke up with him"

"Yes"

"Good"

"That's all you have to say?"

"What do you want me to say Spence? That guy is an ass and he doesn't deserve someone like you"

"So it was him?"

"Spencer., please.. Can we let it go please? I am not feeling well"

"Ashley, please.. if you don't help me I can't help you"

"Spencer, please.."

"Ok. But we are going to talk about this again"

"Whatever.."

I couldn't understand why she was like that. Why she couldn't confess that it was him. I might had the tape but that didn't mean anything. The tape showed Steven got in and get out. He could be everywhere and if I couldn't prove that he was at my apartment then there was no case. Ashley was the only one who could put him in jail and she was still refusing to do it..

TBC

In this chapter i had Spencer confessing something about her.. I guess i should tell what's her story every now and then..

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