I was falling. I was falling into a pitch black ground. I couldn't see anything, I think I was fainting, I really didn't know. I think I was going into shock. I think I was having a heart attack, nothing made sense right now. nothing. if you told me right now that pigs could fly I would've believed you. I was falling hard. had I hallucinated him? was I dreaming? had I gone crazy? all these questions ran through my mind but, i couldn't find any answer. my mind was completely blank as i fell, i don't know where i was falling, i didn't even care. maybe i had died, maybe i was in heaven. he was alive. Edward was alive. he was not dead, he was never dead. this was way too much for me to deal with, my mind was completely blank and i was falling. i wanted to faint, i wanted to know that this was not a dream. this cant be a dream, destiny cant play such a cruel joke on me.
i still couldn't see anything, i still couldn't hear anything. i felt annoyed, i wanted to see Edward's face. i wanted to touch him to make sure he was real. maybe this was some cruel joke. all this time i had mourn his death and it turns out that he was a vampire just like me. all the tears i had shed, they were for nothing. all this time he was alive and he didn't even tell me? he didn't even bother to tell me that he was a vampire? nothing made sense, it was like when water dripped from a sink. drip. drip. drip. Edward. Edward. Edward. his name got burned into my mind. this was too much for my brain. i had spent a century thinking he was dead, i had mourn his death so much and now it turns out that he's alive? maybe this was a joke, destiny was playing a sick cruel joke with me.
my mind seemed to start working again. this cant be a dream because i don't even sleep. he was really here with me, he was really alive. he wasn't dead. James hadn't killed. my body was filled with joy, Edward was here. my Edward. he wasn't dead. my husband was here. slowly i started to hear again but, i still couldn't see anything
"what the-" Emmet
"she's dead!-" Rosalie. i wanted to snort but i couldn't find my voice
"OH MY GOD! is Bella okay? what's happening?-" Esme
"BELLA! OPEN YOUR EYES!-" hysterical Alice
"whoa! what-" Jasper
"everybody quite! give her some room! everybody go to the side!" Carlisle. i still didn't hear the voice i wanted to hear. the sweet velvety voice
an awkward silence followed. everybody was waiting for me to open my eyes but, i was already awake. i didn't want to open my eyes, not really. i was afraid of what i might find. i was afraid that i had hallucinated Edward, i was afraid that he would disappear the moment i opened my eyes, i was afraid that he wasn't real, i was afraid i had mistaken somebody else for Edward. i was afraid of so many things and they all connected to one person, it would kill me if i opened my eyes and didn't find him. suddenly it hit me: what if he really was here? what if he was waiting for me to to open my eyes? what if he was actually standing there, staring at me? i had to open my eyes!
I slowly opened my eyes. 8 vampire stared back at me, their eyes wide and never blinking. I didn't look at him just yet, I wasn't ready. I would probably fall again if I looked at him, I had to prepare myself. I had to prepare my mind. If he was actually standing behind me, I would probably 'faint' again. Even if he wasn't standing behind me I would 'faint'. Either way I would 'faint'. This was way too much for my vampire brain. It was killing me that I hadn't looked at him yet but, could you blame me? what if he wasn't real? I was terrified.
"BELLA! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU?" Alice all but screamed at me. I blinked twice and really focused on her. But, my mind wouldn't work right. There was a possibility that he might be standing right behind me, how could I focus on anything but him?
If I didn't answer Alice, she would probably rip my head of so i slowly said "I don't know?" but, it came out more like a question.
"YOU DON'T KNOW! YOU DON'T KNOW?" Alice screamed at me again. I blinked 3 more times and slowly shook my head. all my thought were on him, it was getting hard for me to focus on Alice
"Alice. Calm down." Jasper said in a soothing tone. I gave him a grateful smile, he nodded back. Suddenly Carlisle was standing in front of me, his expression all doctor like. "Bella, does this happen often?" he asked me in a serious tone. i slowly shook my head
"so you're saying this is the first time this has happened?" i slowly nodded. he frowned and at me.
"I'm not sure what happened back there. I've never seen anything like it before" he sounded frustrated
"it's okay. i'm fine" a total and complete lie. I wasn't okay, how the hell could I be okay when he might be standing right behind me? Jasper frowned at me
"why are you so anxiose?" he asked me slowly. Quick! think of something, think of some lie!
"uh i think i didn't lock my car" I said lamely. I couldn't think of anything more interesting, my whole brain was thinking about him.
"A car girl huh? i think you and Rose will get along just fine" Emmet said and laughed a big belly laugh.
"i don't think so" Rosalie sneered. I didn't even pay any attention to her. I couldn't pay any attention to anyone. Jasper frowned again but, thankfully didn't open his mouth.
Esme came forward with a small frown on her loving face. she gently touched my cheek. "are you really okay, dear?" she asked lovingly. I gave her a tiny smile. "I'm absolutely fine" the lies were coming more naturally. Esme frowned again but nodded.
Alice ran towards me and scowled. "you gave me a heart attack! one minute you're standing and the next you're laying on the floor with your eyes closed! i didn't even see it coming!" Alice scowled again. "I'm sorry?" it sounded more like a question. Alice huffed but, then smiled. "all is forgiven!" she said and gave me a small hug. i patted her back slowly
"uh huh" somebody cleared their throat. i froze, i literary freaking froze. it was him. it was his voice, soft and velvety. he was here, i could always recognize that voice. even in hell. it was so soft and velvety, i felt my hear clench. he was really here, i wasn't dreaming, he was actually behind me. he was really here. joy burst through my whole body. he was here. my Edward was here!
"Oh! this is Bella!" Alice said and flipped me around effortlessly.
i was falling. i was falling again but, this time everything didn't black out. No this time everything brightened. i felt the whole world brightened. the sun was more shinier, the flowers were more colorful and the world was a happy place again. my heart got stuck in my throat. i opened my mouth and closed it again. He was here. Edward was here. I had a reason to live again. something in me changed, it felt like i was in a whole new body. i felt happiness for the first time in a hundred years. i had missed that feeling, it felt like i was running over the moon. my head was in the clouds. he was here. my reason to live was here
he looked the same. the same full red lips, the same high cheekbones, the same strong jaw, the same thin nose. only one thing was different though. his eyes. oh! his eyes! they were a beautiful golden color. i felt like his golden eyes were peering in my sole, it felt like they could see right through me. his eyes were diffrent than the other cullen's. yes they were the same color but, something was diffrent. his eyes were liquid, it felt like caramel was flowing through his body. the other cullen's eyes were a frozen gold color but, his were liquied. he was beautiful.
memories from the past started to show themselves. the first time i saw Edward, the first 1 second kiss, the first dance. him saving me from James. i couldn't believe it, Edward was standing right next to me. i didn't care that this was all wrong, we both shouldn't be alive. he was here, my life had a meaning again. my dead life was worth living again. happy unshed tears made my eye watery but, none fell. the tears were frozen, like me. both Edward and i had forever now, we had forever to love.
"Edward" i said softly. he was here, my Edward was here
hey! yay! i finally finished writing this chapter :) soooo Edward's here! who's happy? i know i am. the next thing- the winner of the chapter competition is... ILUVPIYNK! congratulations! you'll be receiving chapters before i upload them and lots of sneak peaks! thank you to all the other people who sent me their chapters! they were all amazing and i loved them all but, sadly there could be only one winner! 3 more things! 1- i just finished the short second life of bree tanner! (i know i know, took me long enough) but, it was a amazing book! made me cry a bit too but, it was great! 2- i just came to know that breaking dawn will be split into two movies... cool but, who'll play nessie? and 3- make sure you COMMENT! :)