Jen stood watching Tilly nervously for an awnser, saw the red heads mouth open and close uncertainly. She couldn't stand it if Tilly said no to this, in her head it had been spontanius and romantic but now she felt like it was a stupid idea and Tilly was definatly going to refuse.
"I've got a feeling your going to shoot this idea down Tilly but before you do can you just... instead of thinking of all the reasons why you shouldn't do this can you think of reasons why you should?"
Tilly had been listing all the reasons why it was such a bad idea, she couldn't trust Jen not to break her heart again, drop her when she got bored, take her for granted and so on. But there was reasons in her head why she should give her another chance, there was still a connection between them the other night had proved that and Tilly had spent the last two years trying to forget her teacher but no matter how many people she had used to try and get over Jen it always failed she would end up popping in to her head anyway.
While she was thinking Jen spoke up again "I have spent the last couple of years with you constantly on my mind Tilly, wishing I could go back in time and change all the things I did that hurt you in anyway. Seeing you again was complete bliss I'd hadn't felt so happy in a long time, I thought it was fate ... that I'd been given a second chance to do things right with you. Those times I would see you and Courtney together ... I hated it and tried pretending to myself I wasn't bothered... My head would say 'Who gives a shit if she's moved on.' but my heart would whisper 'You do stupid."
That made Tilly smile which Jen took as a good sign, she stepped closer and ran her thumb across Tilly's cheek. "I can't pretend that I'm fine with just being friends anymore ... not when all I can think about when I see you is how much I want you, how much I want to kiss you ... how much I wish you were mine again... it's fine if you want time to think about it but can you just let me know if there's a chance? Even if it's a tiny one?... Please?"
"Jen ... I.."
"Hey! What are you two doing out here? I've been looking all over for you. Brian got the drinks so let's not waste them eh." George said cheerfully, "Your not leaving are ya Till's?" He asked as he noticed her car keys in her hand.
"... Er ... No, I was just putting my books in there so I don't forget them later."
"Oh cool, come on then let's get back inside."
Tilly quickly dumped the bag of books in the back seat and walked beside George giving Jen no choice but to follow. As they sat back at the table Brian looked at Jen and mouthed 'Sorry.'
"Brian is scared to go rock climbing Till's you'll do it with me won't ya?"
"Your going rock climbing?" Tilly frowned.
"Yeah once a year I do something I've never done before."
"Yeah ok, I'll give it a go, maybe Brian can go next time when you decide to go bungee jumping or something." Tilly said smiling at Brian who raised his eyebrows at her.
"Er I do not think so thank you very much I came in to this world because of a broken piece of rubber and like fuck am I leaving the same way."
Tilly and George both burst in to laughter, Jen stayed quiet and carried on drinking. When Tilly and George went off to the toilet Brian turned to Jen who was watching Tilly.
"Hey you ok?"
Jen shrugged.
"I tried stopping George from going to find you both but he was worried ... Did he interrupt anything?"
"Not like that we were just talking ... Well I was anyway and just as I was about to get an awnser up pops George. You and him are both moment killers do you know that?"
Brian smiled and then frowned. "An awnser to what?"
"I asked her to try again ... go on a date with me, do things right this time."
"Wow ... she didn't say no though Jen."
"She didn't say yes either, in fact she didn't say anything did she, didn't get the chance." She muttered finishing the rest of her drink.
"When they get back I'll get George to give me a hand with the drinks give you two some more time to talk alone."
"Thanks Brian but I think ..."
"Sssssshhhh their coming."
George and Tilly sat down again still talking about rock climbing and the other things George had done.
"My round then guys ... again ... George want to give me a hand please?"
"No need, the woman Tilly covered for is sending over a round on the house."
"Is she? What a ... lovely gesture."
Jen smiled knowing that wasn't what he wanted to say, Brian stood up and offered his hand to Jen. "Will you dance with me Jennifer?" He asked in a over the top posh voice.
"Why?" She asked puzzled.
"Jesus woman just do as your told for once." He said grabbing her hand and pulling her up. Then he playfully slapped George around the head.
"Ask the lady to dance Georgie boy, does no one here have manners?"
"Say's the bloke that farts and blames it on the neighbour." George replied with a smile.
"It was the neighbour he can only afford beans on his pitifull wage ... and we musn't hold it against him."
"Bullshit." George laughed holding his hand out to Tilly who took it. All four of them made their way on to the dance floor and Jen whispered "What are you playing at?"
"Just trust me ok, I know what I'm doing."
George and Tilly were giggling as they were dancing as soon as the music changed to a slow song Brian shouted out "Change partner's!" He grabbed George and pulled him away from Tilly and shoved Jen towards her.
Catching Jen so she didn't fall to the floor they both felt a jolt of electricity shoot through them.
"Sorry." Jen said softly looking deep in to Tilly's eyes.
Tilly gazed in to Jen's dark chocolate eyes and knew for certain in that moment that no one had ever come close to what she had felt for the brunette ... what she still felt.
"Don't worry it wasn't your fault ... I would have a go at Brian but he'd probably blame his neighbour." Tilly joked making Jen smile.
"We don't have to dance if you don't want to, we can go back to the table and down our free drinks?" Jen said hoping Tilly would rather dance.
"And then Brian and George's?"
"If you like." She replied doing her best to hide her disappointment and walking toward the table, Tilly grabbed her hand.
"One dance first wouldn't hurt though would it?"
"No ... not at all." Jen beamed.
Sliding her arms around Tilly's waist she pulled her close, her smile becoming wider as Tilly put her arms around her neck, they slowly danced together to Emelie Sande's Read All About It. Halfway through Tilly layed her head on Jens shoulder her lips so close that Jen could feel her breath on her neck. The fact that Tilly was dancing with her was a good thing though right? It must mean there's still some feelings there? Taking in a shaky breath Jen whispered. "Have you thought anymore about what I said earlier?"
"Yes."
"And what were you thinking?" Jen asked nervously.
" ... That me and you wernt always a good thing, all the secrets we had to keep didn't exactly help and neither did your alternating between hot and cold ..."
"I know and I'm so ..."
"But! we're away from that place and those people now, so maybe we could try again. I'm not saying all is forgiven and forgotten but let's just see how it goes, take it slow."
Jen looked at her not even daring to believe what she just heard. "So what are you saying exactly? Just so I don't misunderstand."
"I'm saying ... What time do you want to pick me up."