Chapter 14
[A/N: I wanna give out a huge bear hug to AnuKriYaansh! Girl, you are the only one who got this right! I mean, You explained the whole plot. Ab toh mere likhne ka bhi faayda nahi! I am so glad atleast kisi ne toh pakda jaake! Yup, this is twilight..! I was wondering how nobody got the Sun references uptil now!
Now, I know this is a really late update. But I had office today, and since I am all well now, I had gym afterwards. So I am completely exhausted and I started writing this at 10 PM, isiliye I am this late.
To someone who said that my last A/N felt like an update in itself and it was too long.. Nobody COMPELS you to read the A/N.. It is just that I feel its my only option of connecting and talking to you guys, and that's why I write the A/N.. If you guys are not interested, feel free to skip the A/N, I am not gonna stop writing the A/N.. It is MY only way of TALKING and TELLING you guys how I feel.]
She was pacing to and fro frantically. What exactly was she supposed to do?
And why the hell did she have this almost dying urge to go to him.
She needed to get her facts cleared so badly, goddammit. But right now, more than that, she needed someone to stop her from going. And she knew exactly who would do that.
She ran. Ran so hard she could feel her knees cursing her. But nonetheless, she ran.
As soon as she reached, she knocked on the door, timidly.
"Kiri? It's only been twenty minutes... What's the matter? You need something?" Shail had just opened the door to his hostel room, and had a minor arrest on seeing Kria there, standing and panting as if just having an asthma attack.
"Haan..." She said, puffing, "I do..."
He saw the stressed state she was in, but most of it all, he saw the fear in her eyes. What was she afraid of?
"I need you to stop me, Shelly.. Please." She uttered.
He watched her, puzzled for a second. Why the hell would he stop her? And what from?
"Kya? What from? Kiri, are you not feeling well, love? You are being ajeeb.." He was worried now.
What was with her? She was fine a few minutes back when he left her room. The only reason she would be this frazzled would be... Oh right.
He knew now, and sighed inside. She wanted somebody else to stop her. That only meant one thing. That she didn't want to stop. And if she trusted herself, she would end up going to her Rey. Shail's heart clenched inside, bleeding a bit, as he realized that the only thing he had achieved uptil now with her was just her smile. She still would go to him as soon as he called. He felt divided into two. One part of him wanted to just tell her that she knew he was in love with her, then why should she go to that Rey? And the other part of him, the dominant part of him, realized that this actually was essential for her existence. He knew now, that she hadn't existed much without Rey. She had told how she had spent her last year of graduation college. It was as if she was a zombie of sorts, and if this Rey of hers made her feel alive, then why not!
He took a deep breath, and held her shoulders by both his hands. She stopped panting, and looked deep into his eyes. She was expecting him to berate her, tell her what she was doing was wrong.
But then, how could he ever do that?
"Kiri? Is Rey calling you?" He asked, looking into her eyes honestly.
"Haan..." She said, lowering her eyes, pinching them together, as if waiting for him to scream and make her stop.
"Then? Why are you here, love?" He asked her.
She looked at him with a questioning look, not understanding why he was asking this, but nonetheless, told him what she wanted.
"I want you to say no. Please. Say no to my going to him." She pleaded with him.
"Kiri, Do I own you?" He asked again.
She understood what he was implying, and sighed.
"No, you don't." She replied.
"Then why do you need me to tell you?" He questioned, with sad eyes.
"Shail please... I know you won't like it if I go to him." She tried to reason with him, and tell him that she cared for him.
"Kiri... What I like is secondary. It's high time you stopped living for others.." He tried to make her understand, "If you didn't want to go to him, then you wouldn't have needed any external source to make you stop..."
She bowed down, almost knowing well what he was implying.
"Kiri, go to him. I know you want to." He told her, making her look into his eyes.
"But then... Then would you?" She asked him, unsure of what words to form in the first place.
"No."He answered, confidently, "I am never going to stop making you smile."
She smiled radiantly at his words, and then slowly, left his room.
She knocked on his room, trying to stop herself, but unable to.
What was about them? Why wouldn't he just stop calling out to her.
And what about her? Why couldn't she stop herself wherever he was involved?
She knew she needed to stop. But she... she just couldn't.
She came inside the room, but this time, it all seemed a little different.
Was it because she realized she loved Shail?
Or was it because she could see his gloom for cheating on that girl?
He looked almost... tortured?
She decided she would risk it, and for the first time maybe, talk.. actually talk to him.
"Kya hua hai?" she asked him, getting a shock out of him.
"Kuch nahi." He replied. His voice was clipped, void of any emotion, as he started undressing.
He reached out to her and filled her in his arms, burying into her as if he needed that chilly temperature of hers.
She kissed the night of his hair, and then proceeded into his nape, biting sucking every possible surface of skin she could find.
Somehow, she felt him hesitating for a split second everytime he did something to her.
Every single time he kissed her, he paused for a moment.
Every single time he touched her, he paused for a moment.
Every single time he thrust in her, he paused for a moment.
She just couldn't take it anymore.. And after all of it was over, she finally asked.
"Kya Taani ke saath sab kuch thik hai?"
He jolted and jerked in her direction, shock radiating from his face.
"You... How do you about Taani?" He asked.
And all she could do was gulp. What was she supposed to say now?