A/N: OK so huge oversight on my part! In the last chapter I said that Damon's mom left when he was young… but she was at Caroline's engagement party… and I never explained why. I always mean to explain in one of the flashbacks that he comes in contact with her again, but I totally forgot… that's was happens when I take too long of a break from a story. I'm going to try my hardest to fit it in somewhere, I'm just not sure when. And I know I said I wasn't going to update again before the weekend, but I lied. You guys are just too awesome and I couldn't help but post this now. Enjoy! And happy weekend for real this time!
FLASHBACK:
"Hey Matty" I pull him in for a hug
"I heard you were back in town" he smiles widely and hugs me back "and not alone …"
"Matt this is Damon, my boyfriend. Damon, this is Matt, we grew up together, we've been friends for ages"
"It's nice to meet you man" Damon holds out a hand for him to shake
"Yeah, you too" matt reciprocates "listen, I better get back to work, sit wherever you guys want, and I'll bring over some menus"
Damon and I pick a booth next to a window, Matt walks over with the menus "it was good to see you again Elena, maybe we can get together and catch up"
"Yeah that would be nice" I smile
"So this is the main restaurant in town?" Damon asks
"Yeah"
"It's small" he says while glancing around
"It's charming" I smile warmly "I've always liked this place, even more so now that I don't live here anymore, it just feels like home."
"That's nice" he smiles and reaches for my hand "to have a place that's home, even my home never really felt like home"
I nod and rub my thumb in soothing circles on his hand, I know better then to ask questions, I need to let him tell me his story in the way he wants
"So, you and farmer john huh?" he teases
"His name's Matt, and what about him?"
"You two high school sweethearts? Hold hands around the roller-rink, Share milkshakes at the local diner, that type of thing?" he smirks
"Yes, we dated, and this may be a small town but it's not that kind of small…" I laugh
"Was it serious?"
"Well I mean he was my first boyfriend, that kind of thing always seems serious at the time… Then you grown up, life moves on, and it becomes just a blip on the radar"
"Did you guys…" he fades off suggestively
"Have sex? Seriously, you wanna talk about this…"
"Hey, just asking" he holds his hands up defensibly with a smirk on his face
"Yeah, we did. He was my first. Now can we please not talk about this anymore" I blush
"Lucky guy" he smirks
"Ugh fine, who was your first?" I ask
"This girl named Madison, it was our freshman year of high school, She was nervous, I was awkward, and it was just plain bad" he chuckles
"That basically sums up my experience too" I laugh
"Well… good thing we know what we're doing now" I wiggles his eyebrows at me
"I swear, I can't take you anywhere," we laugh
After eating we grab our things and leave
"Come on, I wanna take you somewhere. It's a surprise" I add before he can ask
"Ok" he shrugs
"Are you taking me somewhere to murder me" he jokes, as he takes in our remote location
"No" I laugh "don't worry… we're almost there"
"Oh my god" he says as we turn the corner and the falls come into view, "it's beautiful here"
"I love this place, another one of my favorites" I say and climb out of the car, Damon does the same
"I can see why, it's amazing" he walks towards the edge of the water to get a better look at the falls
"This place used to make me sad, but now I'm actually able to look back on all my memories here and it makes me happy" I sit to put my feet in the water, and Damon joins
"I wish you could've met them" I say thoughtfully
"Me too, I would've gladly listened to the protective dad speech" he smiles at me and entwines his fingers with mine
"Something's are just meant to be, you know?"
"Yeah… I do" he cups my face with his hands and rubs my cheeks with his thumbs we stare into each other's eyes until he clears his throat
"How about a swim" he whispers
"The water's probably freezing" I shake my head
"Come on Gilbert, a little cold never hurt anyone" he stands to take his shirt of, and my stomach does flips, god this man.
"No, you'll get sick Damon"
"Eh, I think I'll be fine" he takes off his pants leaving him only in his underwear
"You're on your own… I'm not catching a cold before Christmas" I hold hands up in defense
"Suit yourself" he says and jumps in "you're crazy! the water is amazing" he says when he resurfaces
"I'll take your word for it"
"Oh come on 'Lena" he pouts and gives me his best puppy dog eyes
"Ok, fine" I stand up and remove my top and pants before jumping in "if I catch a cold you better take care of me" I say when I resurface
"Always" he says as he swims over to me "thanks for inviting me to come here with you 'Lena, I'm having a really good time. I really like it here" he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me against him
"Good I'm glad" I lean in for a quick kiss, but of course he's not having any of that
He grabs on to the back of my head to deepen the kiss, and of course I don't argue, instead I delve my fingers into his hair and kiss him back with everything I've got
He slowly guides us under a dock and leans me against a rock where the water ends, no one can see us from here.
He stars kissing down my neck and onto my chest, I let out a breathy moan. Taking this as a sign of approval, he moves his hand around to my back and undoes my bra clasp, the cold water licks at my nipples bringing them to attention, just in time for him to take one of the tiny peaks into his mouth and suck on it.
"Mmm Damon" I moan
"You like that baby" he returns to his ministrations and moves one hand down my belly and dips a finger inside my underwear, into my warm heat "mmm baby, you're so wet for me"
I dig my fingers into his back while my other reaches for a rock to hold onto
"Oh god" I let out another moan
I reach down to pull Damon's underwear off, to free his erection
I wrap my legs around his waist to show him what I want
"Someone's eager" he smirks
"Mhm" I whimper, practically begging him to take me
"It's ok, I'm gonna take care of you babe"
He bends down and captures his lips with mine again and decides to plunge into me when I'm not expecting it
"Ah" we moan in unison. Finally feeling complete
Damon slowly starts moving in and out while my legs are still wrapped around him, my back is pressed into the wall, water splashing around us
I dig my nails in to his back, feeling the tension tighten in my belly
Damon tenderly cups my face in his hand and leans in to kiss me
It's a soft gentle kiss, it surprises me
When he pulls away I open my eyes to look at him and notice he's watching me intently
Our eyes lock and it only intensifies it all, we both fall over the edge at the same time, my heat tightening and milky him for everything he has.
After we return from our high, we stay connected. Pressing our foreheads together, trying to catch our breath
"You ok?" Damon asks and strokes my cheek after pulling out
"Of course" I smile
"It's getting a little chilly let's get you dry" he gathers all our clothes and helps me out of the water and into my car
I turn the heater on first thing; my hands are shaking from the cold wind
I can't help but think about how this time felt different, we've had sex before but never like this, I've never felt like this before… with anyone. This wasn't sex. We made love…
That's when it hits me, I don't just like him anymore, I can't act like I'm not invested in this anymore… I'm falling in love with him.
"Have you ever done that here before?" he interrupts my thoughts
"Nope, you're my first" I smile, knowing where he's going with this
"Lucky guy" he smiles before driving off
PRESENT DAY:
I haven't talked to Damon since Christmas.
He said he had some things to figure out and that he would call me. He could have apologized and gotten back together with Andie for all I know.
I feel awful about everything that happened with Luke, I shouldn't have even started anything with him, knowing how emotionally unavailable I was, that wasn't fair on my part. I called to apologize but he won't answer my calls.
When Damon admitted that there was still something between us, I couldn't have been happier… Then I looked into his eyes and realized he still doesn't trust me… I can't really blame him though, because trust is earned and not given.
Damon doesn't trust easily, he never has; but he did trust me, and I broke that. It's my job to rebuild it.
"Elena you have a call on line one" Bonnie says over the intercom
"Thanks Bon" I pick up the phone "This is Elena"
"Hey!" Caroline's cheery voice rings on the other line
"Hey, why did you call me at work, why not my cell" I ask
"Because I knew if called your cell you would know it was me and you wouldn't answer" she says quickly
"That's not true… I just don't want to talk about Damon"
"I know, but that's why I'm calling so just hear me out" she begs
"Care…"
"Damon met with Andie yesterday!" she blurts out
"Oh…"
"Don't freak out, I don't know what happened, but I'm sure he'll be calling you to tell you soon" she interrupts
"Oh uh, ok. Thanks"
"Elena… don't stress over this, I thought you would want to know"
"I already knew he was going to talk to her, he told me Christmas night, I just don't know what he decided to do. He said he would call me and he hasn't"
"Yet… maybe he's just waiting" she tries to calm me
"But if it was good news why would he wait… I have to go Care I'll call you later" I hang up before she can respond
"Bonnie, I'm gonna head home, I'm not feeling too well"
"Ok. Feel better!" she waves
Maybe Caroline is right, maybe I don't have anything to worry about maybe I am just psyching myself out.
When I get home I change into my pajamas and order a pizza, what better why to get your mind off of something then, pizza and a movie.
Halfway into the movie my phone rings
"Hello"
"Hey, it's me" Damon says on the other line
"Hey, what's going on?"
"Do you mind if I stop by?" he asks
"Yeah that's fine"
Fifteen minutes later my doorbell rings
"Hey come on in. Make yourself at home. I have pizza if you're hungry" I offer
"No thank you" he says as he sits on my couch "I wanted to talk to you in person"
"Ok" I sit next to him and signal for him to continue
"I talked to Andie yesterday" he starts "We broke things off"
"Oh…" I look down
"No, it's ok" he reaches over and grabs my fiddling hands "it was all very civil. In fact, she helped me realize something" I look up at his face into his eyes
"What?" I whisper, terrified of breaking our connection
"That I've spent all this time saying I need to figure out what I want, when I've already known all along, I was just too afraid to take it. I told you to stop being afraid… I think its time I take my own advice
"Damon…"
"Wait. Please let me finish before you say anything" he rubs my hand "I'm not saying I'm willing to try to go back to the way we were, because we can't. And I'm not saying this is gonna be easy, because it isn't. It's gonna be really hard, we have a lot to talk about, and a lot of hurt to move past, we have a lot of growing to do; We're different people now, we need to get to know each other again…"
"Where do we start?" I ask
"A date?"
"Just name a day and time and I'm there Salvatore" I smile
"How about New Years Eve?"
"Uh, well… are you sure… is that a good idea?" I frown
"What better way get over our problems then to face them head on? On the day it all started…"
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