I'm Not Him

Chapter 14: Vaguely Familiar

*Hikaru's P.O.V.*

….Beep!…Beep!…Beep!…Be-

My digital alarm clock shattered the silence of the bedroom Kaoru and I once shared. I shifted a bit before I abruptly switched off the annoying tone by pressing the button located on the top of the machine. Even though I had my alarm clock set it was not needed as I had already been awake, to be exact I had been up for about six hours. Ever since Kaoru had disappeared I hadn't been sleeping well, or more like not at all. In this passed week I probably only obtained about eleven hours of sleep. Kao was like a security blanket, but so much better. A blanket could never rub your back after a tense day at school. A blanket could never gently nuzzle it's nose into your neck and make the cutest little whimpers of satisfaction while intimately cuddling with you. Nor could a blanket whisper 'I love Nii-Chan , my one and only big brother.' softly into your ear.

I had taken all of things Kao and I shared together for granted, so now that he was gone I realized how much I actually loved my baby brother. I mean I always knew I loved Kaoru more than anything, or anybody else in the whole entire world, but I never knew life without him would be so depressing and dark.

I was angry. Angry at everything yet nothing in particular. I hated sunshine, happiness, love, and anything else that reminded me of Kao. I hadn't been attending school for the pass week either. I just simply couldn't bare to sit alone at the two person desk Kao and I used to share. I missed the little love notes he would pass to me in chemistry class, and I missed how we would pick over each others lunch's in the cafeteria.

I had lost all hope of ever seeing my baby brother alive again. Kyouya had informed me that the first twenty-four hours are the most crucial when finding missing persons, and once I even overheard the head of the Ootori police force say that Kaoru was mostly likely dead or would never be found as they had not a lead. He seemed to have just vanished into thin air.

The Host Club had disintegrated completely, we were all a mess. Hunny was nearly not as bright and jovial, and Mori seemed distant and lost. Whenever the sweet blonde Lolita teen wrapped his teeny arms around his dearest Takashi's waist or intertwined his own fingers with his, Mori would coldly brush him away, leaving Hunny alone and confused. Hunny was always crying, and it was so strange to see Mori fail to come to the distressed boy's aid. He would just walk out of the 3rd music room leaving Hunny to be taken care of by the other members of the host club, and whenever we tried to comfort him he only wailed louder and kicked and screamed. He once even threw Usa-chan across the room, crashing straight into a tray full of expensive porcelain tea cups, shattering them all upon impact.

Kyouya would often have frantic fits of rage, we were losing money and he was stressed over the disappearance of Kaoru. They were all completely at random, and you never knew when the Shadow King would snap at you, so we all just avoided him. Haruhi became severely depressed, one by one she watched each of her most dearest friends self destruct. Finally she couldn't take anymore and walked away from the Host Club. She also unrolled from Ouran Academy all together. Tamaki had soon disbanded the Host Club soon after Haruhi's departure, he claims it was the hardest decision he ever had to make. I knew how much he loved all of us, I knew we were the only thing he had. He wasn't prepared to lose something so dear to his overly dramatic heart. His own little makeshift family was unfairly ripped away from him.

I rolled onto my side, pulling a sheet from over my head and gazed at a photograph sitting on my mahogany bedside table. A blue sky and shimmering aquamarine sea highlighted the background, but the main focus of the picture was Kaoru and I clutching onto each other on the pure white sand in our matching bathing suits that we had helped our grandmother design ourselves. It was a photograph taken of us about three years ago during summer vacation. I reached out and slowly turned the picture face down, hiding the distant memory.

'I miss you Kao.'

*Hunny's P.O.V*

"Young master Haninozuka, please do brighten up." A maid softly suggested as she stood outside my door. "How about something sweet? I'd bet you'd like that! I can bake whatever you'd like, so what will it be?"

I sighed miserably before answering the awaiting servant. "I don't want to be a bother, you don't have to do anything for me." I answered flatly.

"Really! It's no trouble at all! Why don't you come out of your room for a while? I miss my young master's bright smiling face." She answered, determined to pull me out from my lonely, depressed state.

"You should really come out master Haninozuka! Please! For me." She banged what I assumed to be her fist against the door in irritated determination, that irked me. How dare a servant tell me what to do?

"Get the hell away from my door! You aren't to tell me what the fuck I should and shouldn't do!" I screeched before I hurled a violet glass vase at the door. The impact sent sparkling shards of the glass flying in every direction, cutting the air. Before I had time to register what was going on a shard slashed my cheek, I yelped as crimson liquid drained from the wound.

"Young master! Are you alright? Are you hurt?"

"Get the fuck away!" I shouted once again.

"I don't know what has gotten into you! I'm going to ring up you cousin. Maybe he will be able to calm you down!" With that I heard her walk away from my door until her clattering footsteps could no longer be heard.

I didn't argue with the idea of her calling Takashi over. I knew he wouldn't be able to help me. He would just tell me to 'Stop behaving in a disgraceful manner, Mitsukuni.' and leave me all alone again. Even though I knew exactly how everything was going to play out, I still felt oddly hopeful. I found myself wishing that Takashi would wrap his arms around me and run his fingers through my blonde hair, while wiping the tears away from my chocolate eyes with the pads of his thumbs, before kissing me gently on the forehead like he used to when no one was around. Everyone knows Mori. Mori is cold and distant and quiet. But only I know Takashi. Takashi is sweet and loyal, and always worried and concerned for me. Takashi would never hurt Kao-Chan or anyone else for that matter! I don't like Mori, I hate him! I want Takashi! My Takashi! The Takashi that loves me!

'I miss you Takashi.'

*Kaoru's P.O.V*

I peeled my eyes open to the sight of a vaguely familiar place.

'Where am I?' I thought to myself as I stared up blankly at the off-white ceiling. I shifted a bit, and a shrill outcry burst out of my dry, cracked lips. Everywhere hurt, especially my neck. I slowly and shakily brought my hand to my neck to survey the damage, but quickly drew my hand away upon contact from the pain. My neck was severely bruised.

'What happened to me?" I slowly sat up, sending agonizing waves of pain crashing throughout my frail frame. I realized I was lying on a concrete floor.

'What was I doing on the floor?'

I was alone and scared, I drew my knees to my chest, resting my forehead on my knee caps. A tear slid down my cheek, I felt like I was missing someone important…but…but, I just couldn't remember who.

'Buzz…Buzz…Buzz'

I flinched at the sound, and my eyes darted around the room to find the source. It was a cell phone vibrating on the floor within arms length of me. I was certain it wasn't mine, maybe it was left behind by someone. I grabbed the mobile device, and flipped it open before pressing the phone to my ear.

"Hello?"

"Oh! Thank goodness you answered, Mr. Morinozuka! It's Young Master Haninozuka! I don't know what to do! I was hoping you could…"

"Umm… I'm not really sure who is…" I interrupted. "but I can tell him you called.. If I uhh… see him." I replied.

"Oh my apologies sir, I must have contacted you by mishap. Have a good day! Sorry for the mix up!"

The line went dead.

Just as I was about to put the phone down, it began to vibrate again.

"Um… Hello?"

"Mori-Senpai? It's Hikaru. Do you think you coul-"

"Hikaru..?" The name sounded so familiar, as the voice, but I couldn't exactly place it.

"Kaoru… KAORU! IS THAT YOU?" The vaguely familiar voice sounded in my ear.

"Kaoru… That's me isn't it? Yes! Yes! This is Kaoru! I am Kaoru!" I answered, overjoyed that I had remembered something.

"KAORU! WHERE ARE YOU!" The voice asked in a panic laced voice.

"Who are you? How do you know me?" I asked, genuinely confused.

"What do you mean! I'm your br-…" PING!

I looked at the screen of the phone. A blinking red battery symbol decorated the LCD screen before shutting down completely.

Hikaru?… Soo familiar…

Hey! Ichigo Kousei here! OH MY GOD! I AM SO SORRY! I AM THE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD FOR NOT UPDATING MY FANFICS IN A TIMELY MANNER! YOU PROBABLLY FORGOT ALL ABOUT ME, DIDN'T YOU! Anyway I'm back again, and I'm really trying my hardest to update but I am always so busy! Anyway please leave me a review if you don't mind. :3 See you soon!

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