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Losing his Mind

Part II:

"Papillon" Ciel stirred a bit, feeling something stroke his head softly. He was on something resting, soft and warm. Unconsciously he moved closer to it to obtain more of the comforting heat. "Comfortable?" Ciel finally registered who was talking to him and he jumped up to the ground landing on his hands and knees. Turning he saw Gabriel sitting at his desk with a pair of loose fitting black pants and an open white button up shirt.

Ciel bared his fangs at the man, growling slightly. "Back off you psycho. What the hell do you want?" Gabriel gave a look of false hurt placing his hand over his heart.

"You wound me my love." he smirked moving so that he stood in front of the boy. Crouching down into position so that he was at eye level with the boy he spoke again, this time with a calm that Ciel had never heard before. "But I couldn't stand by and let you stay with that man, not after what he said about our child." Ciel instantly froze his eyes wide as he stared at the floor. 'That's right.' Ciel thought, Sebastian had called his child a parasite and wanted to kill it.

"I will not give into you. You are only after my child and nothing more." he said rather calmly. His body shook slightly. Ciel let out a sigh and stood up on his feet then looked Gabriel in the eye then said. "You are a liar, a sick bastard."

"Am I?" Gabriel questioned disappearing and reappearing behind the young earl leaning down to speak in the boy's ear. "That demon is a soul eater, remember that."

Ciel already knew Sebastian devoured souls. He also knew he couldn't consume his anymore because he was now without one due to him becoming a vampire. "Just what exactly are you implying?" The earl said looking down at the ground.

"I'm merely suggesting an idea as to why that demon would want to take away our little one. He says he wants what's best for you and to see you unharmed. And yet he makes you unhappy by saying you should let him kill the baby." Gabriel smiled tilting his head. "Now does that sound like someone who loves you?"

'He had to be lying. The man was only after one thing. He didn't care what happened to him at all.' Ciel thought turning to face Gabriel. "Lies, Sebastian is just worried for my safety and life. He wouldn't really make me get rid of the baby, he can't go against me."

Gabriel shook his head standing up to his full height. Taking a few steps forward he grasped the letter opener open palm. "Now why would I fib to you my love? I care for you and only want what's best. That demon will only harm you and cause more pain.

If you don't believe me then I'll let you go and you can see for yourself his true nature." The vampire spoke with finality as he started to fade away.

"I warned you." That was the last thing the vampire heard as he started to feel a little sick. Closing his bi-matched eyes he began to feel dizzy and collapsed.

S&C

When Ciel did open his eyes he saw he was leaning against the wood top of his desk, papers were thrown along its surface and floor. His body was drenched in sweat and his breathing was uneven. "Was it all a dream?"

"A dream you say?" whirling around Ciel noticed Sebastian standing behind him with his familiar smirk placed delicately on his lips. "My lord you look as if you've seen a ghost. Were you perhaps having a nightmare?"

The boy nodded, but had a feeling of fear and unease as he looked at the older man. "It's nothing Sebastian. I- I'm not feeling well. It's just because of the pregnancy."

Sebastian raised an eyebrow in curiosity. "Oh? Then allow me to help you relax." he whispered against the nape of Ciel's neck, trailing his tongue across the flesh. Ciel shivered and jolted back away from the demon.

"What the hell are you doing?" he screamed eyeing the demon in panic.

"Helping you unwind." Sebastian said running his fingers down Ciel's arm.

'Unwind? And he thought this would be a good way.' Ciel shook his head and moved his arm away. "NO, Sebastian that won't help."

Sebastian didn't think so. "Don't be so shy my lord; I have seen you without clothing many times before, it won't be anything new. Just allow me to give you what I know u want."

Ciel's face flushed with anger and embarrassment. "What the bloody hell are you implying Sebastian? Stay the hell away from me." but Sebastian only continued to move closer despite his demands. "Stay back dammit!" Ciel screeched, but became silent when a hand suddenly grasped his wrists and ripped him forward. He was then thrown on the desk on his back with his hands pinned above his head.

"I don't think so my little lord. How do you know it won't help if you don't try it?" His smirk grew wider as he ripped Ciel's shirt from his small torso and growing belly. Ciel whimpered and looked away. But when he did this his chin was grabbed so he could look at the demon above him. "Don't look away from me. I want you to see this." Ciel became scared of him, his eyes were glowing a deep crimson red with a face that looked as if he were about to be eaten. The demon slowly let go of the boys chin.

Hesitating and desperate to get away Ciel kicked his legs and struggled against the demon holding his wrists captive. Chuckling Sebastian moved his head down to nip and bite and the pale skin presented to him, biting Ciel's nipple to where it broke skin. Ciel let out a pained cry, but Sebastian only bit harder. Using his other hand Sebastian balled it up and punched the child in ribs on the same side he was biting the boy's nipple on. Then he released the flesh.

"My lord I think it would be best if you behaved." The demon warned and Ciel was paralyzed with fear at how dark the tone of his voice was. The pain from the punch only helped his memory jog itself and he could hear Gabriel's words echo in his mind "that demon will only harm you and cause more pain." he shook his head wishing the words would not come true. He shivered once more when he felt his trousers being removed from the lower half of his body. The boy turned his head away from the demon again.

"Didn't I request you not to look away from me? And now I will have to punish you." Sebastian said letting his trousers fall to the ground. His member was erect and visibly pulsing. "For your punishment I will not prepare you for this." The boy shook his head from side to side. Growling Sebastian harshly grabbed the soft blue gray locks, yanking Ciel's head up so he could see those bi-colored eyes. Ciel hissed in pain as he felt the demons fist collide with his face. "Shut up you insufferable brat." The demon growled. Ciel began to weep as he saw the demon smirk down at him.

"N-No don't. Please don't." Ciel was becoming desperate now. Tears running down his face and he was shaking like leaf. But Sebastian didn't listen, and with a sadistic smirk he aligned himself up with the younger boys' entrance and thrust in. Sebastian let the boys wrists go.

"AHHHH!" Ciel screamed louder and louder. He could feel every inch of his butler enter him. He could feel the blood run down his thighs. His walls were tearing terribly and he felt like he was on fire from the searing pain. The noise was like music to Sebastian's ears.

'It's like nothing I have ever felt before. How could Sebastian do this to me? Rape me? Why?' Ciel thought.

"Your screams are so beautiful, like music to my ears. Won't you sing for me some more, louder this time?" Sebastian cooed thrusting himself in and out of his master without even giving him a few seconds to adjust to the size. This made Ciel scream more. He was in pure agony; nothing about this was pleasurable or loving. Only searing hot pain, he even wished he was dead instead of being here receiving the gift Sebastian was giving him.

"I hurts! AHHH! STOP!" Ciel begged looking up at Sebastian with tears falling from his eyes. The man only smiled down at him never stopping his thrusting motion. "Please Sebastian stop." He was denied again and was continuously pounded into harshly and quickly, by a never ending assault. This went on for what felt like hours for Ciel but he was mistaken. When he felt Sebastian release inside of him he thought it was over but was horribly mistaken.

"My lord I warned you that this parasite would cause you harm." The demon spat venomously at Ciel. Ciel looked down at Sebastian who was staring at his protruding stomach. "If you won't get rid of it willingly, then I suppose I will have to." he smiled showing his fangs.

Ciel's eyes widened in fear and seconds later he saw and felt Sebastian's talons dig into his flesh and rip his stomach apart. Opening it wide so he could peer inside and see this so called parasite as it sat in his master. "There we go. Now to see where this thing sits." His voice laced with false care.

Reaching his talon inside and not caring if he pierced the boys' organs or anything, taking his time to reach around he found what he was looking for. Ciel took it all back, this was the worst thing he had ever experienced, and the pain came in waves getting worse by the minute. Blood just flowed freely from the open wound. His butler, the man he had known for years, was reaching inside his opened torso and pulling his child from his womb right in front of him. Finally Sebastian had a hold of the creature and smirked evilly.

"My lord don't you want to see your child?" he asked. Ciel felt compelled to look and turned his gaze to the man. The demon raised his hand with the umbilical cord still attached to the only half formed fetus that was supposedly his offspring. It was red and covered in blood; he could even see every vein in the body. He suddenly felt his throat and mouth fill with vomit and blood so he turned his head to the side and purged whatever contents he had. Sebastian was laughing loudly.

"Poor brat, looks like a still born." The demon said fangs bared. Ciel turned to see Sebastian grinning madly, his teeth shining in the light and eyes glowing demonically. Sebastian never looked more like a demon than here at this moment. Ciel watched as the demon began to close his hand with the fetus still in his hand. Then Ciel heard the popping and squishing sound of the fetus being crushed in the demons hand. Ciel watch in pure horror as the blood spat everywhere, with that the boy screamed. The demon just laughed demonically.

S&C

Sebastian was doing his daily chores when he looked at the time and decided to check up on his master and see if he had become hungry. It had been a few days since he last fed. So he made his way to his lord's office humming a light tune.

Hopefully the boy wasn't pushing himself to hard again. He sighed and tried to think of something better. "My lord are you ready to feed again, if not than I can come back another ti- Master!" when Sebastian had opened the doors he saw Ciel on the floor bleeding heavily and unconscious. He rushed over and picked the boy up in his arms. His eyes were open but dull, he became extremely worried.

Taking quick action Sebastian ran from the office and moved Ciel to the master bedroom, setting him down on the sheets and examining him.
"What has happened to you my lord?" Sebastian asked cleaning the boys wounds and waiting for the boy to regain consciousness. He had never felt time go so slow in his eternal life.

S&C

Shifting slightly in the many sheets, Ciel opened his eyes to see he was back in his room. Reality struck him a few seconds, remembering what had happened in his office Ciel lurched forward and threw the covers from his small form. His hands moved to his stomach shakily, his clothes were not the same as he remembered. It now consisted of just his night shirt. Ciel breathed out hesitantly, holding on to his abdomen tighter, desperately hoping to feel any movement to ensure the baby was alright.

Ciel sighed heavily in relief when he heard his baby's heart beat in rhythm with his own, a sure sign the child was alive. Then a knock took him from his thoughts as he noticed Sebastian enter the room. He looked at Sebastian in pure horror. He began to visibly shake.

"How are you feeling Young Master?" The demon butler asked taking a seat on the bed beside the fledgling. Ciel scooted away from his butler. Just staring wide eyed at him.

"Sebastian, is that really you?" Ciel spoke quietly averting his eyes so he didn't have to look the demon in the eyes.

"Yes young master, why do you ask? Does your hunger make you slightly loopy?" he asked moving from his sitting position to stand by Ciel's bed side. He noticed his master wasn't looking at him directly, instead looking down as if debating internally on something.

"I-" he stammered, unsure in what he wanted to say. This was foolish, he thought angrily. He was the Earl Phantomhive, he was supposed to be able to say what was on his mind without worrying about consequences. Gaining his strength he looked up to Sebastian stoically. "I'm hungry Sebastian." his voice carried authority and wavering confidence, but power none the less. Sebastian simply smirked and moved closer to the younger, picking him up and sitting him in his lap. The boy shivered at this. Ciel could feel the beast awaking inside of himself.

"It is not surprising that you are my lord. You lost a large amount of blood earlier, it is only natural that your body wishes to feed and replace the nutrients lost. And I also had to use my blood to heal your wounds." he smiled moving a hand to untie the tie from his neck as well as move his collar out of the way so his master could feed. Moving closer to Sebastian's neck as he did this Ciel's eyes began to glow a feral red. Once close to the pale flesh that held back the sweet nectar that was just beneath. Not bothering with giving his servant a warning Ciel bit into Sebastian roughly.

Sebastian moaned quietly in response, he had expected his master to act a little out of sorts, but he didn't actually expect the younger to bite into him so harshly. He merely decided to let the matter go and held his ward closer as he fed upon him. Ciel took large swallows of the red substance, seeming as though he could never get enough of the sweet addicting toxin. After a few more large gulps Ciel pulled away, his body satisfied with the amount he took. But unknown to the young vampire, something else was beginning to stir inside him. A different desire that was harder to ignore than the hunger for blood.

"Have you taken a sufficient amount of blood my lord?" the younger simply nodded and moved to look at Sebastian, his eyes looking slightly brighter and glazed over. Sebastian knew what was wrong with the boy and smirked. He had seen it many times before though. Ciel was experiencing lust for the first time. How cute he looked with his eyes looking distant and bright.

"Sebastian?" Ciel asked, his mind feeling clouded and foggy. His senses heighted and he found his eye lids closing halfway. His body felt hot and sensitive. He didn't care though as he found the powerful urge to bite Sebastian again. Without a second thought Ciel pent his butler to the bed. He stared down at Sebastian who merely smiled at him with glowing red eyes. "I-" Ciel stated only to be interrupted by the person beneath him.

"It is perfectly alright my lord." he smiled again placing his hands around the teens back and pulling him closer to his own body. "I know what you were doing. I can see it in your eyes… Ciel-" Just hearing his name being spoken by the demon made shivers of delight run up the boy's spine. "You are experiencing lust for the first time. It is only natural for a vampire your age. A vampire usually lusts for the first time when they are about a year younger than you are. But since you are a turned and not a bred vampire it is stronger." Ciel swallowed. His body was begun to feel even warmer. 'Was his butler right? Was he really feeling lust toward the demon? Or was it something else? Wasn't he supposed to be afraid of this man?'Ciel couldn't really decide as his body was pressed against Sebastian's.

Ciel moaned softly as his body was pulled closer to the older. He moved his hands up to tightly clench the fabric of the butler uniform that concealed the demon's body. Gripping tightly and without warning Ciel ripped his butlers shirt off and his night shirt off without a single thought as to what he was going to do later to explain his behavior later.

"My, my, aren't we vicious." Sebastian joked placing his hands on the small pale skin of his master's face. Ciel simply huffed in impatience and moved down to claim Sebastian's lips with his own. A little surprised at his wards sudden apprehensive actions Sebastian smiled and allowed the boy to do as he wished.

Ciel sensed his butler's submissive behavior and decided it was a very nice change. Not that he honestly cared. Ciel craved control in all forms, no matter what the situation or matter. He wanted it more even in this type of play of sorts. "You know Sebastian you could actually take part in this instead of taking it all." Ciel said sitting on the man's lap.

"Oh? Can I? Well I like the position we are in?" Sebastian said with a playful smile and eyes that held a hint of mischief. "Unless you really want me to take control?" he laughed slightly propping himself up on his elbows for support.

"Tch."Ciel clicked his tongue in annoyance, rolling his eyes childishly. "Doesn't mean you just have to lie there." he responded boredly, swiveling his hips in a circle teasingly, trying to get his servant to respond.

"But I know how much my lord loves to be in control of things no matter the occasion. Could it be because you are a virgin in mind that you are unsure of what to do?" he chuckled before quickly quieting down as the boy moved on top of him.

"My being a virgin in mind has nothing to do with any of this. I know exactly what I'm doing! Do not think me as child Sebastian you know better of me than that." Ciel grumbled taking his control once more and stealing another kiss from the smart-mouthed demon. He was tired of his butler's behavior, so Ciel decided he would move things along faster. He wasn't known for being the most patient person. Tilting his head to the side the fledgling ran his tongue against the demons lips heatedly. Sebastian complied too the boy's silent request and opened his mouth to feel a small tongue move inside and against his own.

Sebastian smiled as he heard Ciel give a small moan as they continued their little game. Soon Ciel's lungs cried desperately for air and he pulled away from the kiss, breathing deeply as he filled his oxygen deprived lungs. Sebastian simply smiled seeing as he didn't really need to breathe. So instead Sebastian took the Ciel's wrists into his hands and forced them behind his back, making him sit still on top of his lap but unable to use his arms.

"Sebastian what are you doing?"Ciel protested shifting and wriggling uncomfortably. He looked up and noticed his butlers smirk and growled lowly "And what exactly are you smirking for?" Ciel snapped glaring at the demon angrily.

"Oh nothing, you asked me to contribute to this little game of yours." Sebastian smiled moving his right hand to trail down the boy's small chest and glide softly over the younger's erect buds. "It seems you are enjoying yourself quite a bit." he whispered into Ciel's ear huskily making the body on top of his shiver.

"Shut up." Ciel hissed latching onto Sebastian's neck and sucking harshly. He got what he wanted and set out for a pleasant moan that made its way from Sebastian's throat. A rare sound that he knew only he would be able to make Sebastian make. Flicking out his tongue Ciel lapped at the pale skin, coating it in a thin sheet of saliva before kissing the mark he left and looking at Sebastian with a cocky smile.

"I'm in control Sebastian. Whether this is just because I am lusting or because I might have feelings for you doesn't matter. I will be the dominant one in this." Sebastian could only smile wider, his long fangs shining in the dim light. Feeling the older release his hands Ciel moved forward pushing the demon to the bed once again. He would prove the demon wrong, he was no child. He hadn't been one since he was taken captive by the blasted occult. He decided that that was something to think about later and kept to his task at hand. Putting his butler in his place
gradually moving down Ciel placed small chaste kissed down Sebastian's neck and chest, stopping just above the hem of his pants. Looking up Ciel grabbed the pants and quickly pulled them down, not caring if Sebastian had any protests. The man just smirked and watched the boy.

Ciel was not about to stop now, he had gone beyond stopping and his body ached in need for the intimate action he was engaging in with his servant. It made the boy more alluring to him to see him be abrasive if not dominating. It aroused him immensely, and he knew Ciel knew it too, so turning his body so that his ass was in Sebastian's face.

Ciel looked at Sebastian's erect member with wide eyes filled with curiosity. Moving his head down Ciel let his tongue lick it timidly like a small kitten lapping at milk. Sebastian hissed quietly as the boy licked him experimentally. Ciel heard this and concluded he had done something right. Gaining confidence Ciel placed a light kiss to the tip, licking the slit teasingly. Eliciting more struggled moans from the man above him "Hmph" Ciel laughed to himself before taking Sebastian's large erection into his small inexperienced mouth as much as he could.

Whatever he couldn't fit in his mouth he took in his small hands, moving them along the base and part way up the shaft while his bobbed his head up and down slowly. Sebastian let out a gasp in surprise as he found himself being taken into his master's small mouth. Looking down he saw Ciel's ass and the boy in deep concentration with his eyes closed. After a few moments Sebastian began to rub the boys' ass with both hands, biting his bottom lip. Opening his eyes Ciel looked back at Sebastian to see the demon looking at him biting his bottom lip. He smirked at this and began to lick from base to tip, and then he gently grazed his teeth over the tip of the sensitive organ. Not paying attention Ciel hadn't noticed he was wagging his ass in Sebastian's face and that the man's hands were now on the bed.

When Sebastian saw that his master was defenseless he decided to move things along. Coating two of his own fingers inside his mouth Sebastian leaned forward enough to trace his fingers at the boy's waiting entrance. Ciel's eyes shot open wide immediately and fluttered closed as he moaned loudly, the vibrations moving along Sebastian's member. Groaning loudly Sebastian kept up with what he was doing and pushed his index finger into the waiting entrance. He felt the younger flinch and gently but slowly move his finger inside, rubbing Ciel's inner walls soothingly. Again after a few minutes Ciel relaxed before he felt another finger enter him along with its twin. He felt as Sebastian penetrated deep into him and scissor him, stretching him for what was to come later.

After Ciel deemed Sebastian's member nice and wet with his saliva. He left it leave his mouth with a popping sound. Sebastian removed his fingers at that same moment. "Enough of this." Ciel stated moving up and pushing Sebastian against the mattress and moving so sit on top of him once more, placing his prepared entrance over Sebastian's arousal.
"I want you to tell me if it hurts. I don't want to hurt you or the child Young Master." he responded, Ciel nodded and slowly lowered himself down onto Sebastian manhood. He let out a drawled loud moan in both pain and pleasure. Mostly pain, but he expected it to fade soon. Sebastian as well let out a deep throaty groan as he was engulfed in heavenly tightness and heat that felt beyond blissful. Once all the way down Ciel let out a few shaky breaths while Sebastian placed his hands on the boys' small hips to keep from thrusting into the boy painfully. He waited for his master to adjust and give the word for him to move into that beautiful body that sat above his own. But he fought hard against his demonic instincts to take the boys without remorse and fuck him into the mattress until they both pasted out.

After a few seconds Ciel nodded and moved his hips, signaling the older that he was now free to move. Sebastian took his masters signal and began a slow even rhythm, making sure he wouldn't cause harm to the small boy who sat on top of him. Ciel on the other hand was in complete euphoria, the full feeling he got from having his demon deep within his body was like electricity running through his body with every thrust that went into his body. Sebastian kept a not fast not slow, thrusting motion, raising the boy's hips up and down. He watched as his length would disappear into this beautiful heat.

"S-Sebastian…faster." Ciel pleased wantonly moving up and down on the demon as he thrust up inside him. "Yes my lord." Sebastian smirked and picked up pace a little. After a few thrusts Sebastian hit a small gland deep inside Ciel's small body.

"AHH!" Ciel screamed, his muscles clenching down on Sebastian pleasurably. Sebastian moaned as the walls squeezed down on him. Remembering where that spot was the demon slightly angled him so that he hit that spot dead on every time as he began to move faster. The younger slightly bouncing on top of him and moaning beautifully, this just encouraged the demon to move faster. The boy also picked up pace with his riding until they were both in sync with each other.

"Seba-Sebastain." Ciel screamed around his heavy moans of his demons name. Sebastian enjoyed his name being yelled and screamed so he made sure to never miss that spot. Then the boy gave one last cry, "AHAH!" as his body convulsing and released onto both his butlers and his own chest as he fell forward. Sebastian on the other hand kept his demonic pace as he felt his masters walls tighten around him some more. With a few more accurate thrusts the demon came. Ciel moaned at this and made sure to milk the demon dry as he came deep within his small body.

Feeling weak and drained Ciel stayed right where he was as sleep began to claim him but one thought stayed on his mind the whole time. 'What have I done?'