Hey guys. Sorry for the long wait for the next chapter.. a lot has been going on. So a lot of you have been asking how I am doing.. and I am doing okay. I can't seem to figure out a good way to stop cutting yet... it just always leads to more cutting.. so.. Anyways. I hope you guys like this chapter. Thank you guys so much for all of your support with my treatment/recovery.

Cat's POV

"I never wanted to trust him. Ever."

He looked at me with mixed eyes. There was some horror and sadness. But there is also relief, happiness. Does he feel like this for me? I shouldn't have said that. I am not sure about it. I mean.. he is the only one who has ever treated me right.

Beck... I don't understand why he left. I don't know why he would leave when I need him so much right now. But I guess that doesn't matter. All my friends think I am different... but I haven't even changed. I can go back to covering it up. We can all go back to acting like none of this is going on. I can go back to being 'happy' and clueless.

But I was observant. Taking in all of there criticism when I walked by. Some people hate me because I'm crazy. But some loved me for that. I guess Beck was one of those who loved me because I was crazy. Now that I am over it, he is over me.

He pulls away and looks blankly at me.

"Cat.." He hesitantly says.

"As a friend, I mean. I didn't mean like.." I cover up.

"Right! Right! I knew that." He looks 'relieved'.

"Sorry.." I say quietly, looking at my knees, about to cry again.

Robbie dragged me to the kitchen, making me eat, again. Lovely. He hid all the knives, under lock and key. Everything sharp, and I seriously mean everything, is locked away. Nothing I can get to now.

He sits a plate of pasta, with about 10 noodles on the plate, and a glass of orange juice in front of me, looking at me, waiting for me to dig in.

"Look Robbie. I really am not hung-"

"Cat. Eat the food." He says sternly, again waiting for me to eat. No matter what I said to make an excuse, he didn't listen. He just sat there waiting and watching me.

An hour and a half has passed and he hasn't said anything, he is just sitting next to me. Every time I would try to get away, he quickly grabbed me and carried me back, sitting me on the stool.

I slowly picked up the fork, giving up. I took one noodle in the fork, wiping off all the sauce on the edge of the bowl, and slowly putting it into my mouth with shaky hands. I slowly chew, shutting my eyes tight, trying not to think about the calories and fat that I am gaining from this.

"Good job!" Robbie cheers. I look at him after I swallow, there is a wide smile on his face. I giggle slightly with the ridiculous look on his face, but quickly remembering what I just did.

I am ruining everything... and Robbie is making me.

I wait about 15 to 20 minuets, then slowly pick up another noodle, doing the same procedures. After I finished all of the noodles in a record time of 4 and a half hours, he smiled big, pulling me up and into a hug. He never left me.

"I am so proud of you!" He exclaims, smiling, squeezing tighter around me.

"Now finish your Orange Juice." He orders, sitting me back down on the stool. I sigh and take a small sip of the juice, making a sour face.

"This is gross." I tell him. "I don't like this at all." He gives me a stern look. I take another sip, again making the face. After a couple of sips, he takes it from my hand and dumps it down the drain.

"Fine. Apple juice next time." He says, pulling me to my feet and bringing me to the couch and turning on the television.

"Lets get your mind off things." I cuddle up close to him as we watch CSI. I lay my head on his shoulder, and slowly drift asleep.

I wake up the next morning, laying on the couch alone, with a blanket around me. I get up, streach, and run to the guest room to get my phone.

4 new messages.

"Cat. I am so sorry. That was wrong of me to leave you like that. Can we please talk?" Beck

"Cat! I know that I screwed up! Please talk to me." Beck

"It was a "in the moment" thing! I was just so frustrated. I'm sorry!" Beck

"Please don't ignore me, Cat." Beck

I don't text him back. I can't let him suffer anymore.

I go into Robbie's room and slide the door open just an inch to peek in. He is fast asleep. I quickly run to the bathroom. Opening the cabinet.

"I can't let any of them suffer anymore." I whisper to myself.

:/ Bad chapter. I know. Sorry guys. Tell me what you guys think? Thank you guys again. -3

Sierra xx