A/N: A new chapter, yay me! I am glad to tell you that the new chapter is finally here!

Just before you read the chapter: If anything seems off, or OOC I am deeply sorry, I haven't wrote for this fic in like forever, I kinda need to get into the flow again.. and hope. . If I am lucky, it maybe is good and like before? Even though I doubt it, I would be glad if someone told me this, if it is good, bad, wonderful, horrible, OOC or like before? Please, tell me, so I can get better!

Disclaimer: I do not own Wolf's Rain.

Secrets -

Chapter 14

Lucy stroked away a lock from her face as she started to change Toboes bandages, a small sigh of relief left her mouth as she saw that every wound seemed to heal good, without any infection. She cleaned his wounds, a sad frown marring her face as she thought about what had happened earlier. She clenched her fists tightly and fighted the sudden urge to cry.

He was so small, just a boy and his life was already so damaged. The pain she felt was hard to bear and she blamed herself for what had happened. If she just could have been stronger, then she never would have taken him to that room, and she could have stood up for what she had done to the boss, even though, surely, it would take her life.

But instead, she had done her orders and done something she knew was wrong and horrible, and she had gone healthy while the boy was being tortured, being tortured.

Why hadn't she done anything!?

She took a deep breath and calmned herself, telling herself to look at it in the possible way instead of the impossible. If she hadn't pushed him inside that room, she would have been dead by now, she shivered at the thought of what she would have been through before they killed her but continued her explanation to herself, after she was dead, they would have already dubble the amont of tortute and the 'playtime at Charles' like Roy had called it and Toboe would have been accused of many things, some of them that would have killed and hurted more of the people that worked under Roy. If she had done anything, both would have, probably, already been dead and many more.

But even though she had done the right thing, seeing Toboe right now, she wished it was herself that had been in that cell instead of Toboe.

But that was only impossible wishes, and Lucy was a woman that went for the possible things in the world and she was also a woman that didn't cry over people dear to her being hurt and killed. She was not an emotional woman, not at all, she was strong, hard to break and did what she had to do, no matter what.

Expect when it went over to children.

A child that had it's whole life before him. To have to watch and know that there was a child being hurt in so many ways and that it would end with the child dying, no matter what it actually was, she had done something she never thought she would do.

She had saved someone.

"What in the fucking world happened back there?" Tsumes loud voice was tainted with anger and frustration as he demanded an explanation.

Lucy sighed in annoyance, after being through hell with Toboe, she surely didn't need this, a fucking big baby who had a stick straight up his ass yelling at her and then, right there, something broke.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK, YOU FUCKING IDIOT!"

That, did shut him up.

But sadly, only for awhile.

"I want an explanation, now, what happened back there!?" Lucy had been expecting an loud and angry voice, cursing and yelling at her like a madman, so therefore, she was suprised at the serious voice that was directed at her now instead. It took awhile for her to understand that it was Tsume, looking at her seriously and if she squinted hard enough, she could she something that looked as desperation in his hard eyes.

Somehow, she found it all comical, maybe it was the stress, maybe the guilt, maybe everything and nothing at the same time, but she suddenly felt so old and empty as a rusty chuckle left her pale lips. "He's dying, he's broken and we can't do anything to pick up the pieces, that's what happening." She turned away from the heavy silence that answered her, and to her suprise, she felt hort tears run down her cheeks.

Tsume, with a wounded dignity by getting screamed at by a mere human, muttered curses under his breath while he stalked away, glaring murderously at Lucy as he passed her and she knew she was going to get it at some point later, but now, she didn't care.

"Tsume.." Her words were out before she knew it and she cursed herself silently, why couldn't she just had let him go.

Tsume faltered in a step but continued in a brisk pace, ignoring Lucy totally as he dissapeard behind a few trees.

She bit her lip painfully and closed her eyes. "I'm sorry." But her words never reached Tsume, neither anyone else.

Days went fast as they continued their search for a place where Toboe could get the medical treatment he needed, but without such luck, it almost seemed as they went in circles, leaving them all frustrated and tired.

"My legs hurts..." Cindy whined as she strecthed them, an expression of mild pain entering her face.

"Let's rest for awhile." Kiba said as he and Hige sat down the strecther with Toboe on it. Nothing else had happened after Toboes...fit, the only time he woke up was when they tried to give him food, sometimes they managed to get him to eat something but it was hard when he was so out of it. He was paler than before and his breathing slow and uneven, even if no one said it out loud, it already seemed as Toboe had given up.

Cindy let out a relieved breath as she sat down against a tree. "Man, this is so exhausting and irratating.." She paused for a second and drank from the water handed to her seconds before. "It's to hot, to boring, aren't we near a place where Toboe can get treatment? Ne, Lucy!?"

"Be quiet, you're to noisy, irratating and if you don't stop babbling nonsense soon, I will rip you brainless head off!" Tsume barked as he leaned against a tree. He muttered words under his breath that no one catched, or rather, that no one cared about, they had all gotten used to Tsumes outbursts, they had all understood that it was just Tsumes way of letting out his anger and frustration.

Actually, everyone had found a way of showing their anger and frustration.

Tsume with outbursts and rather violent beatings and words.

Cindy with whining, that was very irratating, but everyone wondered if that just was her personality from the beginning.

Hige had also small outburst here and there, but not as violent as Tsumes.

Kiba continued to be silent but everyone had noticed the twitching at his fingers and eye browns when a loud fighting had went off between various pack members, and it promised that soon, Kiba would be at the end of his patience.

Lucy had gotten silent, only speaking when speaked to and she was almost always at Toboes side.

Everyone, even if they didn't say it or tried to fix it, knew that they were at their breaking point and was getting further and furhter away from each other. Hige could imagine Toboes guilt if he knew that he was the one responsibility for it.

"Lucy.." Cindys soft voice was suddenly serious and had a heavy sadness in it. "How is he?"

Lucy didn't want to give them false hopes, but neither wanted she to not come without anything good, so she went with the best for her, the truth. "Unstable, the bruises and wounds are healing fine on the outside, but the inside is harder to know, but I can tell you all that the internal bleeding hasn't healed yet, not fully anyway, but if we're lucky it was just a small wound, nothing to serious and it will heal, slowly but surely, the question is if Toboe will pull through to that point, it's doubtful though, with the little food we manage to give him.."

The silence followed after that and Lucy went over to Toboe and checked him again, brushing away his bangs from his face. He was thinner she noted.

A sound suddenly made her froze and her blood run cold.

"Toboe!?" She hissed and bent forward to look at Toboes face, who had his eyes open and looking at her under a cloud of pain, tears filled Toboes eyes as he blinked and she felt empty and cold inside as she saw him look away from her, fear lingering in his eyes.

"Toboe.. it's me Lucy.." She said softly.

She saw him try to form words, and it took several tries before he managed to get out what he wanted.

"...C-can you ...kill me?"

Her world turned ice cold and she felt dread fill her stomach as she stared into those golden eyes. She gaped at him and saw Toboe smile softly through the pain, dissapointment in his eyes as he slowly drifted away again.

"Didn't ..think so..."

She wasn't aware of her shaking, neither that voices tried to reach her from every way, all she could see was her blurred vision of Toboe as she slowly but steadily cried her whole heart out.

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Thank you!