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Wow. It's the only word to describe my thoughts right now because..well..it suddenly felt like I was in some major soap opera. The main character suffers a tragic relationship break and has someone else to lean on. That person eventually becomes close, feelings erupt and things go awry in a weird sense. Time passes, though, and they get close, anyway. Then the former significant other comes crawling back with a dire threat that could cause the main character to go into hysterics or something, thus choosing the 'better' of his choices. And then he has to break the heart of this..person to save them from dramatic crap and so on and so forth. All in all, it was like a soap opera. Bite me.
I hadn't even wanted to leave Axel with those words. But he was so damn persistent! Knowing him, though, he'd get over it. Sooner or later. I just couldn't let Naminé spread whatever nasty rumor she had hidden beneath her sugar coated personality. I was pretty sure she knew about us. And speaking of Naminé...
"Roxy!" her voice called melodiously. I stopped my brisk walk down the hallway and glanced around, finally spotting her bleach blond hair bouncing in the air as she made her way through the mist of the crowd to reach me. I winced lightly as she threw her arms around my neck in an embrace and pressed her mouth against mine for a second. I only returned to the affection with a light pat on her back and a forced smile. Apparently that wasn't enough because her face darkened considerably. "I thought we went over this, Roxas. People aren't going to believe us if you keep acting so damn modest."
I would have to swallow my pride a little and just do as she said. I knew it. She knew it. Hell, anybody else would have known it if they knew what was going on. I refrained from rolling my eyes at her and allowed my arms to go around her more casually. God, it felt weird having to force myself to do this. I mean, I used to be the one to have convince her to be a little more publicly open. Once I pulled back from the rocky embrace, I glanced at the crowd in the hall behind her out of habit. And then I saw Demyx, the lifesaver of all eternity.
"Hey, Nami, I have a friend I have to talk with real quick. I'll be right back," I said, using a nickname rather than a personal pet name. I brushed a light kiss on her cheek to make her happy and then ran off down the hall after the taller blond. "Demyx! Dude, have I told you that you were a lifesaver?" He only looked at me confused. "Anyway, you didn't tell him, did you?"
"No, Roxas, I didn't. I mean it when I say I keep my word," he said with a light smirk. But it seemed to darken when he looked away. "Are you even sure that's what she's thinking? Because I find it highly doubtful that Naminé knows what's going on between you two."
"What else could it be, Demyx? There's nothing else she could pin me with!"
"Why don't you just confront her and ask?"
"She won't say anything because if she cracks the secret, and it really isn't what it seems, then she has nothing on me!" I complained. He only glanced at me, quirking an eyebrow sharply. Then it dawned on me quickly. He had a point! I mean..I had a point. "You..God, you're smart, Demmy. I owe you one!"
"Demmy...?" I heard him mutter before I turned away and darted off. I found Naminé where I had left her, looking a bit flustered in the emotions department.
"Naminé, I need to talk to you."
"Yes, Roxas?" she said, smiling sweetly. But her eyes deceived the angelic mask she had on her face.
"Whatever it is you're threatening me with, I want to know," I demanded. I'd been through living hell for the past couple of weeks because of her threat and it kept me from what I really wanted and my own life. I hated it.
"Sorry, Roxy. That's for me to know, and for you to find out when you mess up!"
"I'm through with you, Naminé! I've been done with you since I saw you in that alley. Get it through your head!" I shouted involuntarily. I was emotionally fed up with her games and puppetry. She was the cause of me hurting Axel like I did, probably scarring him, no doubt. I felt horrible and I really didn't want to give him such an icy shoulder. But I had been afraid. And Demyx was the one who had helped me see what a big mistake I had made.
"Roxas Julian Hikari, you are such a jerk!" flared Naminé. Her eyes were burning with anger and her face was about as red as a tomato. And to make matters worse, she had gathered a couple of people behind her. Well, not just 'people,' but Seifer and his two lackies. "No, you aren't a jerk. You're a fucking pansy for being in a play. A child's play, for that matter. And another thing, I know about your dad. He left because you weren't good enough to be his son. You and Sora both are nothing but immature, idiotic, selfish, lying, chil-"
"That's enough." My breath hitched at the sudden icy chill that ran down my spine. There were only two people who could send such a cold feeling through my body with that dangerous low voice. And yes, this person had red wild hair, a thin body, and a bit on the tall side. However, this certain redhead didn't have a wonderful shade of green eyes. When I averted my own gaze from Naminé, they landed on none other than Reno. "So, I've heard so much about you. You are the one that no doubt cheated on my little friend here, right?"
Naminé didn't answer, so I looked at her. Her face seemed extremely pale and her fear was evident. Seifer quickly stepped ahead of her to face Reno, Fuu and Rai trailing on either side to back him up. That was when a few of Reno's own people popped out of no where. I didn't recognize them, to be honest. One was a girl, a little taller than me, with short black hair. Then there were two guys, one of which had unruly blond hair and the other had a short array of chocolate brown.
"I doubt that it's your business, flamer," spoke Seifer boldly. Reno only rose a single eyebrow before leaning forward dangerously, coming within inches of Seifer's face. It only took a quick movement to pull out a small object and a simple flick of his wrist to reveal that it was a dangerous weapon of pure metal. And it had only stopped within a couple of centimeters of hitting Seifer in the head.
"And I obviously wasn't talking to you, you hoser. Now get out of my face," retorted the redhead calmly without breaking into any form of a smile, grin or smirk. He held a serious face quite well despite saying the most ridiculous things. It reminded me of Axel.
"Reno, it isn't worth it. Let's just-" I suddenly choked on my own words and I realized that my throat was constricting as I tried to keep myself from wanting to break down. I thought maybe I had put my dad behind me and hadn't even thought twice about Naminé's words until it caught up with me. Instead of forcing the words out, I simply grabbed onto his arm and began pulling at him, but he stood like a cement block.
"I better not see any of you bothering this kid. I've heard his problems and you can hardly begin to imagine how he's feeling. So drop the rumors and threats and leave Rox alone," he managed to bite out icily before finally letting me drag him away. I hadn't bothered to look around until now and noticed the halls were completely empty except for our small secluded group and the retreating backs of the other one. "You okay, runt?"
I lifted my eyes to look at Reno, but I didn't speak. I didn't trust myself because I didn't want to choke up again. It was sort of embarrassing.
"You think he suddenly went mute?" said the girl, who received two sharp looks and a 'love tap' to the back of her head. She winced, but returned an equally hot glare at her abuser, the brunette. "Squall, that wasn't needed! You could have just reprimanded me or something."
"It's Leon," he muttered, staring her down lightly.
"Yuffie, maybe you shouldn't have come along. You're obviously too peppy to help," interrupted Reno. I cleared my throat, earning a look from all four. "Oh! Oh, yeah, introductions. Well, Rox, this is Yuffi-"
"I'm the Great Ninja Yuffie. Don't forget it!" she said a bit loudly. I shrunk against the wall slightly from her over exuberant personality.
"She only says that because she was able to steal one of her teacher's apples one time and not get into trouble for it. Which, by far, was the worst thing to steal because apples make no profit.." muttered Reno. "Anyway, continuing. This is Leon. He may not talk much at first, but if you can get him to warm up a little, then he'll be there to help you out no matter what. And this is Cloud, my friend with benefits and soon-too-be secret lov-ow! What was that for?"
"It's not nice to lie to people. I doubt the kid needs it right now," Cloud spoke up. The harder I looked at the older blond, the more I realized the reason why Reno had mistaken me for him when he had been drunk that day. We looked a lot alike all right, which was pretty creepy.
"What? It was a joke. You knew that, right, Roxas?" I answered with a slight smirk, but I couldn't keep it up for long. Plus, I knew it wasn't a joke. By the way Cloud reacted, I could guess two things: either they were something and he didn't want people knowing, or Reno hadn't done anything to spark something between them. Which would have been weird, because I took him for the type of person to get what he wanted. Almost like his brother.
"So, this is the boy?" piped Yuffie. "And he's only how old? He kinda looks like a girl. Cloud, are you sure you don't have a younger twin?"
"Yuffie, shut your trap. Now, if you'll excuse us, I have something important to talk to Roxas about. Please and thank you?" He sugar coated his words with a very innocent looking grin, which was good enough for his friends. They waved at me, or at least Yuffie did; Leon and Cloud simply nodded their heads and all three began walking down the hallway. "All right, so I heard a few things from a birdy..or two. But mainly one. As of lately, you seem to be having problems coping with a certain dilemma." He propped a hand against the wall on the left side of my head, but I didn't dare look away from Reno's face. Who knew what he would do.
"Well, whatever you heard, leave it alone. I don't need anything," I said defiantly, my voice cracking from under the strained emotions. Damn you, Demyx.
"Roxas, Dem told me the whole story at lunch today. I know you want the best for people, and Axel especially, but going around and pretending you hate him when you really don't..." He let his words cease and looked at me with his deep oceanic eyes. I felt under pressure, a needle being stuck into my spine, and I had to avert my own eyes away from the redhead. "I just don't want to see my baby brother regret something. You're the first guy he's taken a chance on and he will openly admit he didn't take a fancy for guys before you came along. Weird, eh?"
Okay, so yeah. He was getting to me. But how was I supposed to act? And what the hell was I supposed to say back to him? I knew if I said something wrong, I'd get an earful, so I had to keep biting my tongue to remember to keep quiet.
"Well, if anything, you should at least talk to Axel now and explain to him. He's been moping around for the most part, as far as I can see, for the past couple of weeks. Sometimes he'd be happy, but that isn't the point. Promise you'll at least try?" I sighed after he didn't move when I didn't reply.
"Yeah, yeah...I'll try," I replied, refusing to look Reno in the face.
"I guess you should get to class, now, huh? You're almost a half hour late."
"What?!" I burst out, leaping away from the wall and around Reno. "Saïx is gonna explode! Ugh, why didn't you tell me sooner?"
I rushed down the hall toward the auditorium. I quietly slipped through one of the doors and felt lucky there was a wall that separated the doors from the rows of seats and the stage itself. Hesitantly, I went around that wall and made my way down the slight slope toward the stage where everyone was scattered, some even taking liberty of practicing on the floor to be more comfortable. I didn't see Saïx anywhere in sight, so I quickly made my way toward Hayner and the group on stage.
"Where have you been? You're lucky that Saïx didn't go hunting you down. He has other problems right now. Well, if you want to call them real problems.." muttered Hayner, jerking a thumb in the opposite direction. On the far side of the stage, I took note of a certain redhead struggling with his lines and a familiar teacher looking cross at all of the mistakes. I felt my stomach drop a few inches; he was having problems because of me and the things I had said to him. Man, I really was a jerk.
"Axel, if you need to talk to somebody about your problems, go to guidance and get it off of your mind. You can't concentrate, which is rare to see in somebody like you." I pinpointed my eyes at the teacher, wishing he would stop and leave the poor guy alone. But I knew wishes didn't exist.
"Sorry, Saïx. Just having an off day. It'll brush off in a while.." he muttered, trying to sound a bit on the chipper side. But if anyone knew him, which seemed like everyone, they would know he was lying.
"Whatever you say. Hopefully this doesn't come around on opening night." Saïx placed a hand temporarily on Axel's shoulder and then he was gone, leaving the redhead to practice with Kairi and a couple of other students.
My hands were sweaty, I realized. Maybe it was because I didn't like the way the redhead was acting. He didn't seem the type to mope around-that was my job. I really had done a number, hadn't I? I didn't even know how to make it up. And I still had to talk to him, but how? What if he didn't want anything more to do with me? Just the thought made me shiver coldly and I forced myself to breath.
"Roxas, are you ok?" I jerked my head around to face Hayner, Pence and Olette, who were all looking at me very worriedly.
"Y-yeah, what makes you think I'm not?" I questioned, forcing myself to smirk.
"Well, for starters, you're sweating profusely," said Olette, bending forward with her hands on her knees. I swiped a hand over my face, feeling the light mask of sweat. "And you're shaking a lot."
"You seemed fine when you got here." I glanced at Pence, suddenly feeling a bit distant. Maybe it was because I knew Axel was sort of falling piece by piece and it was heartbreaking. I was scared that he might try something stupid for some reason.
"Roxas! Will you snap out of it? Go to the nurse if you feel sick!"
"I think I'm going to be sick," I muttered, leaping to my feet. I glanced at the trio before I felt my stomach complain lightly and my head spin dangerously as I became lightheaded. Without a second to lose, I dashed out of the auditorium and straight for the bathroom a few feet from the doors. I stumbled into one of the stalls, locked it, and sat roughly on the ground, swallowing hard as my throat fought to convulse and refuse air. I wasn't sure what was happening with me, but I really didn't like it. And they were right, I had been fine when I first arrived. I hadn't even started to sweat or anything until I focused on Axel.
Why did he have to have such a big effect on me? And why did I feel like I've blown my chance with someone who might actually care about me? I had everything before him: I had a girlfriend, I had my parents, I had my brother, I had..everything I needed. But when he waltzed into my life on day one of play practice, everything had some stupid drastic twist. My girlfriend cheated on me, my dad walked out on us with my mother being pregnant, and my brother turned out to be lovey dovey with his best friend. Of course, now we were closer than ever aside from being twins, and he was still the same. Okay, well, scratch my brother out of that altogether. He doesn't count anymore.
"I blew it.." I whispered into the air, letting the back of my head hit stall door.
Just then, the door opened roughly, slamming against the white-painted brick wall.
"God, can you be any louder?" Zexion?
"Actually, I could if you want. But that would involve a completely different activity." And...Demyx? Whoa, wait, what?!
"In a school bathroom? I don't think so, Dem."
"Yeah, I know, I know. But there are plenty other places I can think of! Let's start with-" Demyx's voice was cut off and I could only think blindly what was happening; well, sort of, aside from the sudden kissing noises that echoed inside the empty room. So..here I am! Sitting in school bathroom, confused and crap, listening to my infatuation's best friends making out...And then the door opened again.
"Do it again, Dem, and I'll have Axel on your ass, got it?" It was probably the first time I'd heard Zexion's voice sound so menacing. Then again, I barely heard him talk at all.
"Y-yeah..I understand, Zex, I'm sorry. I won't touch another cigarette in my life!"
"Good. Get back to class before they think you got lost or ditched school. It would put a bad mark on your good record here."
The door opened and closed, but I still heard footsteps faintly step across the floor, almost hesitantly. No doubt did Zexion and Demyx put on a little show to cover up their face-suckage moment. I had to be honest-it was really good. The cover up, I mean.
Clink.
I didn't even have time to respond to the sound above my head and found myself sprawled on my back with two feet on either side of my head. I lifted a hand to the back of my head, which had collided with the floor, and looked up at the intruder. I had been expecting it to be Hayner or Pence checking up on me, or even the grand redhead himself, but I was way off. It was my brother, the last person I honestly expected to come to my lonesome rescue in a school bathroom.
"You okay, Rox?"
It was sort of stupid, because it was that moment I realized only two people called me 'Rox.' Those two people were Sora and Axel. Awkward...
"Uh..yeah, I'm fine." I didn't care if I sounded reassuring or not.
I wanted to tear my hair out of my head in frustration for my stupid decisions and go jump off of a cliff because I believed I was so..so stupid. I hated myself. I felt like a jerk. No, I knew I was a jerk. I'm still a jerk, what the hell am I saying? There was no way I could just waltz up to Axel and apologize and explain a little and everything would be fine and dandy. No. These things never turned out that way. Only in fairy tales--if the problem ever happened. It was ridiculous!
"Hello? Roxas... It's really a bad habit if you argue with yourself..in your mind, most of all." Damn brothers and their psychic crap. "It's about Axel, I know it is.."
I looked away from my knowing brother. I didn't want him to see the raw emotion that must have been showing in my eyes. I hated my eyes because they always gave away what I was thinking or feeling. It was insane..
"Why don't you just talk to him? He doesn't seem like he'd such a bad guy over something so stupid.."
"Sora, you don't get it! It isn't because we don't get along or I'm afraid to get close to him. It's because I... It's me! It's always been me! And I'm not saying that because I'm trying to be modest or whatever. I really did mess up," I suddenly snapped. I pressed the heel of my hands against my eyes, forcing back the tears. My stomach clenched painfully and I felt sick all over again. Where was the Pepto-Bismal when you needed it?! "I pushed him away..because I didn't want people knowing about us. I got back with Naminé because I thought she knew about us and I don't want to put any more pressure on him than he already does! Do you get that?"
"No..but how do you know he has so much pressure?" he asked gently. I hadn't realized he had sat down, but I did know after I had my head on his lap and he was absently stroking my hair.
"He has family issues.. He stays with his friends and everything, which is why he's been living with us. Mom overheard and told him he could stay until things got better or something." I had almost choked in the middle of my words, but I had held it back well enough not to stutter in my words. "I didn't want to be another problem in his life. Is it so bad to think that?"
"No, Rox, no. It isn't. But you have to think from his perspective, you know? Did you ever notice that he's really happy when you hang out with him? And when you get all mad and frustrated, he does this really weird smile, even though it only lasts for about two seconds? Oh, and I can't forget those sarcastic-yet-perverted remarks he makes, even in front of Mom. She just doesn't get it sometimes," he told me. His hand paused from raking my blond hair and I suddenly felt a bit lonely. Don't ask, I just did, okay? "He makes it obvious, without knowing, how much you effect him. He really wants to get to know you more than he does. Just suck it up, walk over to him, and talk to him about it. He'll listen. I'm sure of it."
I removed my hands from my eyes and looked up at Sora. He had more logic than me, obviously, because his words rang a sort of truth. I had to try, right? I couldn't be a pessimist for the rest of my life. And if Axel really liked me like everyone claims, even him, then it wouldn't hurt to try..
"Thanks, Sora. I think I will..."
Cue bell to end fifth. I sighed loudly. Since Saïx hadn't seen me before I ran out like a crazy drug-induced mongoose, he most likely thought I'd skipped. Oh well. I could explain I was sick and ran to the bathroom for a few moments of privacy while I threw up my guts. Of course..if he didn't believe me, I couldn't blame him. Since I really didn't do half of it. Ah, life is life.
"Come on, Roxas. Let's get to class!"
Well, I can't say much for the rest of the day. Sixth was rather awkward, but at least all we did was watch a short video accompanied by a worksheet instead of picking partners for some activity. I was too nervous to say anything at all to Axel and tried to avoid looking at him the whole hour and a half that was left of school. In fact, I was still trying to think of a way to approach him and bring up the subject. Sora had to elbow me a couple of times to get me out of my daydream/trance thing and actually pay attention to the video.
When the bell rang to end school altogether, I was out of that room and to my locker faster than a cheetah on its prey. Something close to that. Then I was out of those school doors and running down the stairs, almost causing myself to trip and fall flat on my face. I stumbled slightly at the bottom, but I caught myself on the railing and took the chance to look around.
No Axel. No Axel. No Axel... Come on! How hard can it be to find flaming spiky hair?! I complained in my head. Then I saw it. He was heading straight for home, no doubt planning on taking a shower and then moping in the bedroom for a few hours. Whenever he did that, I always did something else, like watch a movie downstairs or go out and walk around town. Well, not this time!
I hurried, carefully, toward Axel, pushing a few students out of my way to the best of my ability. As soon as I caught up with the redhead, I glanced up at him, huffing for breath. He didn't even acknowledge me. I scowled dangerously, squinting my eyes slightly to show I was annoyed-maybe he'd look! But he still didn't turn those vibrant emerald eyes toward me. Fine. I'll do it the most obvious way given.
I grabbed onto his arm, pulling on it to force him to stop. He did, but didn't look at me. Okay, so now I was really getting pissed off. I mean, really pissed. I hated to be ignored.
"Are you going to act like a..stubborn jackass, or are you going to pay attention while I try and explain myself?" I said unceremoniously. I earned a huff, but he turned his head the opposite direction of my face. Stupid..dumb..retarded.. "Fine. If you want to..ignore me..whatever..."
I couldn't use the words I wanted to. It would have made me feel bad. Instead, I just let it slide with gritted teeth and let go of his arm. With a quick breath, I began walking at a brisk pace toward home. I didn't bother with my usual routine when I got home. I kept my shoes on and headed straight for the kitchen, grabbed a Jones Soda from the fridge and my personal box of Pocky (great comfort food, I tell you), and then retreated upstairs to my room. If Axel wanted to mope around, too, then he'd have to pick another room.
Well, I guess he didn't get the hint, even after he saw that I was very settled down in my bed and most likely wouldn't move a millimeter at all. He hovered in the doorway like a ghost. But I refused to look at him. Why do anything if the guy wasn't even going to give me a chance?
"Hey..."
Don't look at him.. Don't look at him... But his voice sounded too quiet for my liking. Axel was always loud, or something close to it. His voice just had some weird..sound to it that drew my attention straight toward him. He had closed the door and was now leaning against it, one hand gripping the the opposite wrist.
"About...About earlier, I just wanna say that..I.."
"I'm sorry," I interrupted in a murmur. I dropped my eyes to the ground, then to the blanket on my bed, feeling a bit awkward. "You don't have to apologize, because I'm the reason all of this happened."
"Roxas, don't jump into modesty. I have to have some part in it," he said.
"No, I'm being serious. I'm the one that brought all this drama into play." I didn't even know why I was telling him. Axel probably.. Damn her! Why couldn't she have kept her mouth shut?! "Do you still love Larxene?" I looked up at him while I asked. The way he acted would prove more than just words, I think.
"L-love? Her?" He looked, no doubt, confused as ever. His jade eyes had grown wide and he actually looked up at me in shock. I had expected something along the lines of hesitation or something, not shock. However, that emotion soon slid away to show some sort of understanding. But what? "No, I don't. Is..that why you left lunch today? She told you that?"
"Yeah..."
"And you were royally pissed?" I tore my eyes away from him, heat climbing into my face.
"So? I have a right if you go spouting about how you like me and all, and then find out you still love some other girl," I retorted hotly, scowling at him. But that only made him grin.
"Glad to know you really care, Shortcake," he said.
"Shortcake?!" I yelped.
"Well, you are short. And you're as sweet as cake," he fed me. "Sometimes."
"I take that as an insult."
"So..what about this drama? How did it start?" he suddenly asked, changing the subject before my mind. I instantly retreated back into my quiet reserve, thinking of the best way to explain.
"Naminé," I said simply. "She's the main problem. I..I was stupid. She threatened me with something if I didn't go back out with her, and I thought she knew about..about us. I didn't want her to go spreading it around and then have something more to weigh you down. You know..'cause you weren't..like that before?"
Axel was silent and I couldn't help but glance up at him briefly to see how he was taking this. It was hard enough for me. But he was just staring at me with this weird smile on his face. Maybe it was weird because he always smiled at me in some devilish, evil way. I guess I could get used to it.
"Well, I didn't refuse because I didn't want her to spread it around. But Demyx..he kinda helped m-"
"Whoa, wait, Dem knew about it? That was why he was acting weird when I was talking about you today! I should have known.." Right. Weirdo.
"Well...Demyx helped me out, so I confronted Naminé and found out it was..about me being in that play. And my dad..." I hadn't realized Axel had crossed the room until he had an arm draped around my shoulder, pulling me close. I only pushed at him slightly, shaking my head. I was going to be fine..I think. "No, it's okay. I..I'm not gonna cry.."
But even as I said it, I could feel the hotness of the tears stinging my eyes and I ducked my head so he wouldn't see, turning away even. But he refused to let me go and roughly pulled me to him, fitting me snugly between his legs so my back was pressed against his chest. My hands instantly clutched his arms and tilted my face down to them, willing those tears to go away.
"Liar." he said lightly. "Really, lying isn't your profession."
And then, just from those words, I couldn't help but think: How did we get here? It was awkward, honestly. I guess life just threw something random at me at the least expected moment, and that random thing just so happened to be a wonderful looking redhead, a guy no doubt, that confused the hell out of me. And then life turned dramatic and twisted in so many ways I seriously thought I should have been a girl. Right? Tell me I wasn't thinking and acting like a girl! Well, it wouldn't change my mind anyway. I felt like one..sort of.
"You..wanna try again?" I asked, the words feeling strained as they came out of my throat.
"Like..'Do you want to be my boyfriend' type of try?"
I nodded my head lightly. "Yeah. Yeah, I do." His arms tightened around me as he rested his chin on top my head. For once, I can honestly say I feel content since I even met him. Well..just a little.
"Awesome."
One thing to look positively on: I learned something.
And I had to take the stupid route to figure it out.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Fluffy fuzzy stomach caterpillar moment!!! hurrr. lolz
Anyway, I kinda liked this chapter. Don't know why. I do...Hope you guys liked it. :D Anywho, I have to jump off the comp cuz my mom wants it. -gasp- Y'know, since it is her computer. haha I'll start the next chappy asap!!! Luff you guys lots!
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