Okay so on a scale of 1-10 how much do you guys hate me for how long its taken me to update..? I AM SO SORRY! I've just been super busy with life!
Um heads up… Angela is basically a big asshole in this chapter… Sorry thought I'd just be blunt about it.
Also, check out my one-shot 'Why Did You Leave Me?' it's angst, fluff and smut all in one!
Your favorites, follows and reviews are greatly appreciated!
On with the show guys!
Previously…
"I don't want just anyone" Maura said softly, Jane felt her heart shatter, Maura had changed her mind about Ian,
"Ian?" she questioned, Maura shook her head,
"no Jane. I want-" she paused "-I want you. Because, I… I'm in love with you", Jane felt her breathing stop, her eyes wide, before she said….
"Oh" Jane trailed off, Maura gulped at the silence that followed,
"Jane…Please-" she whispered "-please say something" Maura pleaded.
"I guess it's good that I want you too, I love you Maura, I'm in love with you too" Jane whispered looking deep into piercing hazel eyes which lit up instantly,
"you do?" she asked,
"I do, I really do, I have for a long time now", they lay there in silence for a few moments before Maura spoke,
"may I-" she hesitated "-may I kiss you?", Jane nodded her consent, with that Maura leaned in and kissed her tenderly, Jane moaned softly at finally feeling the other woman's lips against hers. They broke apart,
"God.." Jane mumbled,
"nope, just me-" Maura said smiling softly, "-Maura" she added as if Jane needed reminding who she was. Jane chuckled lightly, and snuggled deeper into Maura, her head going back to the crook of Maura's neck which was quickly becoming Jane's favorite place, Maura in return held her closer, her toned arms around the detective,
"Maur.." Jane mumbled again,
"hmm?",
"I want to talk about us but-" Jane said groggily "-the meds are kickin' in",
"sleep, mon amour, I'll be here when you wake up" she responded lovingly,
"I love you Maur" Jane said sleepily,
"I love you too Jane" Maura said quietly, before kissing the top of Jane's head.
When Jane awoke a few hours later she was disappointed not to be in Maura's arms, the blonde in question was snoozing on a large armchair situated by her hospital bed. Jane suspected that she had fallen asleep while reading, she saw Maura shiver in her sleep and frowned. She winced slightly as she slowly moved out of her bed, picked up the spare blanket at the end of her bed and walked over to the sleeping doctor, she covered her up and bent over. She ignored her ribs screaming in protest and kissed the top of Maura's head, the doctor shifted slightly before opening her eyes slowly,
"mmm, sorry, I must have fallen asleep",
"stating the obvious there Maur" Jane said smiling warmly, Maura grinned, before suddenly turning serious, Jane obviously noticed straight away, she perched on the arm of the chair, and ran her hand through Maura's hair, an encouraging touch to help Maura speak whatever was on her mind,
"I want us Jane" ,
"I do too Maur, but-" Jane hesitated "- we have to take things slowly, could you do that Maur? Take things slow? For me?" Jane asked hopefully, Maura nodded her head vigorously.
"Of course Jane", she clasped Jane's hand in her own, Jane smiled thankfully at her, before she winced in pain "-Jane! You're putting too much pressure on your ribs!" Maura admonished, ushering Jane back to her hospital bed,
"urgh Maur relax would ya! I'm fine!", Jane said feigning annoyance, Maura just glared at her and Jane pulled the sheets up so her eyes peered over the top, Maura chuckled,
"Jane stop being so silly!",
"you haven't been on the receiving end of your glares Maur. It's a scary place to be",
"Jane",
"no"
"Jane!",
"one condition", Maura raised one perfectly sculpted eyebrow at the request,
"I'm listening",
"lay with me" Jane said shyly, Maura's eyes softened, and she sat down next to Jane, the bed was in a semi recline position so Jane simply moved her head to rest on Maura's shoulder, their hands intertwined tightly,
"Maur are you sure you want to jump into another relationship?" Jane asked, breaking the peaceful silence,
"I'm not jumping into anything Jane, I've loved you for long time" she responded softly, kissing the top of her head,
"as long as you're sure",
"I've never been more sure of anything".
"Are you gay now?!" Angela yelled, startling her daughter who was dozing and still cuddled up to an also dozing medical examiner an hour later,
"Ma what..?" Jane said groggily, Maura sat up slowly, bringing Jane up with her.
"You're gay?! I knew you and Maura were close but I thought only as…Sisters! Not as" Angela pulled a disgusted face "-lovers",
"Ma…Please…Don't" Jane pleaded, her eyes full of unshed tears,
"don't you Ma me! Disappointment after disappointment with y-"
"how dare you!" Maura said her voice shaking in anger, she jumped up from the bed and stood face to face with the woman she once considered a second mother,
"Maur.." Jane began, one glare from Maura silenced Jane instantly,
"you have said nothing but cruel things to Jane since she was hospitalized and I will not stand by and let you continuously insult the woman-" she paused taking a breath "- the woman I love",
"she is my daughter and I will say whatever I like to her!",
"well be prepared for me to step in. Every. Damn. Time". Silence. The room was full of tension,
"you disgust me Jane, both of you do",
"get out-" Maura said angrily, inside she felt her heart break at the fact that Angela wasn't accepting of their relationship, "-get out or I will get security to escort you out", Angela left in a huff.
"Jane?" Maura said softly, Jane didn't say anything she stared at the wall, tears falling down her cheeks. Her mind was in complete turmoil, she had been pretty much disowned by her mother but not before her mother killed her self-confidence and pulled her down into a deep dark hole of sadness. She felt light kisses on her cheeks, "baby talk to me", Jane's tears fell faster at the pet name,
"I'm…I'm so sorry Maura you shouldn't have had to go through that" Jane said as the tears continued to fall,
"look at me-" Maura commanded, Jane kept her head down, "-Jane, look. At. Me", this time Jane looked up into hazel eyes that screamed love, comfort and warmth. "You are not responsible for what just happened. That is all on Angela. I love you Jane and it's unfortunate that your mother can't accept that. Maybe in time she will come around but hear me when I say this Jane, you will always have me",
"M..Maur.." Jane whimpered, completely blown away by this woman, Maura just scooted closer and lay her head on Jane's shoulder, one leg flung over Jane's legs and her arm resting gently on her waist,
"I love you Jane" Maura said with such sincerity and emotion that Jane nearly started crying all over again. She pulled Maura closer against her,
"I love you too Maura".
"Honey?-" Maura cooed softly, she kissed the soft skin behind Jane's ear, "- Jane?"
"mmm…five more minutes.." Jane mumbled,
"I need to use the lavatory", Jane's nose scrunched up and her eyes opened slowly, she squinted at the woman in her arms,
"couldn't you just say restroom or toilet?",
"no" Maura replied simply, she felt Jane release her, she swung her legs off the bed, and smiled cheekily at Jane before kissing her softly. Jane smiled into the kiss,
"hurry back" she whispered against her lips, once Maura entered the private bathroom attached to the hospital room, Jane had a few moments to think. Her ma was disgusted and disappointed with her, she was in a new and young relationship with Maura. Maura, god things had really changed between them. There was so much pain and hurt that was once connected with the blonde, she had put Jack before her, she had said mean and hurtful things… 'Jane don't go back down that dark road, things have changed' she thought to herself. Just as she had that thought, Maura walked back in and she instantly sensed the shift in Jane. She perched at the end of the bed and placed her hand on Jane's thigh and squeezed gently,
"are you okay?",
"hmm? Oh…Yeah I'm good" Jane mumbled, Maura tilted her head,
"Jane, please tell me, I don't want to push you but if this is going to work we need to communicate with each other", Jane sighed in response.
"I was just thinking about everything",
"and is this what's gotten you in a melancholy mood?"
"melon what?" Jane asked dumbly, she would later blame this moment on the medication.
"Gloomy Jane",
"oh well yeah I guess so. I know that we've made our peace. But sometimes I can't help but think about what happened-" Maura nodded in understanding "- a..and I know it's…it's not all your fault. I know that now, but I'm scared because I know what it's like to be hurt by you and it scares the shit out of me". Maura's eyes were full of unshed tears, she pulled Jane into a fierce hug, Jane whimpered a little at the pressure but held Maura close,
"oh mon amour, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry", Maura chanted over and over,
"it's over now Maur, I just, everything has been so…tough, god I know that you know what I'm talking about, you've been through some horrific things" Jane said sadly. Maura pulled back from their tight embrace and cupped Jane's face,
"it's over now Jane, it's all over, we can move forward with our lives",
"b..but"
"no"
"court" Jane said bluntly, Maura visibly tensed, she knew that she would have to testify in court as would Jane,
"I know, I'll do what I need to do" Maura said gravely,
"together Maura, I'll be by your side every step of the way", Maura looked at Jane with such adoration and love that Jane felt her heart flutter,
"thank you my love",
"no need to thank me Maur".
Hmm… I didn't really think this flowed all that well and it didn't really move the story forward… However I guess it's okay to just stay still and allow Maura and Jane a little time to get everything out in the open.
I'm happy to take on board any requests, so let me know anything you guys may like to see in future chapters!
I hope it was okay and once again I am so sorry for the delay on updating.
Next chapter will be up much faster.
Please leave a review and let me know what you think!
Thank you for reading :)
Rizzles for the win!