Hi so here is another chapter. This chapter is short due to the lack of context in this chapter for Jackson. I really liked this episode I found it really controversial and yet touching all in one hour.

This chapter does deal with the topic of Physician-Assisted-Suicide, if you find that controversial or triggering then please skip this chapter, In this chapter I am trying to tackle my believe of what the doctor's in Seattle Grace would do when confronted with that issue. This chapter is not to judge nor to debate any ideas, I have my own and as readers I'm sure you do as well and respectfully I believe some things should be kept private. So no this chapter is not in any way to judge anyone.

Now we have that out the way I invite you to read this chapter as we finally begin to build towards the entire season finale...Please read and review and let me know what you think...

Disclaimer-Nothing is mine.

Little Lion Man

Chapter 14-6x18-Sucidie Is Painless

As April squares off too Meredith and Jackson finds himself caught in the middle of them Hugo finds the whole thing incredibly amusing. Jackson also considers the concept of Physician Assisted Suicide and Hugo asks him a question about the controversial topic and his own decision. And also a little Meredith/Jackson bonding

"So let me get this straight" Hugo said watching him carefully his own dark eyes shining with supressed mirth. "Meredith and April?"

Jackson nodded feeling rather irritated that his son was finding so much amusement in his misery. "Thanks" he said not even smiling a bit (and no he wasn't) "I shall remember your amusement at this moment at Christmas" as threats went it was a rather empty one if the look of unrepeated amusement on Hugo's face was anything to go by.

"So what happened?" he asked setting down the two mugs. It had been one of those days when by some miracle Jackson had been let of by four. It had been a rather slow day the whole hospital consumed by the conversation that Doctor Altman was assisted a patient in committing suicide. Something that Jackson had no interest in listening to. There were several practices of medicine that he hadn't made his mind up yet and ethically he wasn't sure if he was ready to. While he had seen enough pain and misery as an intern to last for a lifetime and he had operated under DNR's before there was still something about willing letting someone die under his care that still shit him up.

The row between Hunt and Altman had shit them all up really. April had categorically refused to ever do that claiming that they saw enough death as it was. Alex Karev had been oddly silent and Jackson knew that he was thinking about his own wife and how she had been dying of cancer. Lexie Grey propped up the silence by stating that the facts had to be taken into account while Meredith Grey (her stony silence around April like sharp pointy icicles) stated that this was the first case they had come across and that they still had time to make their own decisions about how far they were willing to go for their patients.

It was when she got like this that Jackson was reminded that this was Ellis Grey's daughter sat here.

They were both scrubbing away to go into a surgery. Meredith gritting her teeth every five seconds or so with anger. Jackson was suddenly very happy that he wasn't the one she was going home to, he was suddenly worried about what would happen to the amazing neuro god Derek Shepherd when Meredith Grey got a hold of him tonight.

"How…how can you cope with all of this?" she asked gesticulating so wildly that she nearly hit him in the face. "How…I love him" she said finally her voice so true that Jackson believed her. Meredith Grey loved Derek Shepherd with everything she had and vice versa. Jackson thought briefly of how April seemed to light up when the surgeon walked into the room and couldn't help but smile feeling rather pleased for some unknown reason that he didn't want to identify. There was no way in hell that Derek would ever leave Meredith for another woman.

"But he is beyond infuriating" she said reaching for the paper to dry her hands. "I am just as capable of debunking a tumour as he is, I am a good surgeon"she breathed through her nose before shaking her head. "And I'm always going to be that intern" she shook her head before breaking off as if she'd forgotten for one second that she was not in a room with Cristina Yang.

"You know" he said finally dropping the soap back into the sink "Sometimes I think that the only thing I'll ever be remembered for in my family is my son" he shrugged at the look on her face. "I love my son" he said his voice firm "And most of my family do as well but my grandfather is law in our house and as far as he is concerned I am always going to be the grandson that didn't choose abortion for the sake of his career" he shook his head, Meredith stared.

"But you don't regret it" she said finally and Jackson shook his head "No" he said firmly "I don't regret having Hugo" he shrugged looking back at his hands "I don't ever regret having Hugo" he allowed a small shard of the love that he had for his son that he usually didn't let loose, loose enough that she could see it on his face.

"Good" she said finally her own expression unreadable "That's a good thing believe me" she turned away at that point so that she still remained the inscrutable Meredith Grey and Jackson took that to be the end of the conversation. And with that they both dried their arms and hands and went back inside the OR.

"So" Hugo said later that night when they were sat drinking hot chocolate (or in Jackson's case coffee) "Doctor Altman really did help a woman commit suicide?" Jackson nodded looking down at his mug "Would you ever…?" Hugo asked head tilted to the side looking serious before his voice trailed off and Jackson shrugged, "I dunno" he said finally "There are some grey area's you shouldn't cross until you have to and each Doctor could ethically have objections to what the patient is asking you"

Hugo nodded snagging another marshmallow, "What would you do if it was me that was asking?" he asked cocking his head to the side again, Jackson didn't have to pause before answering "I would keep you alive as long as I thought I could"

Hugo blinked but Jackson shrugged "Your my child" he said finally "I would fight till the end for you" Hugo stared at him for a second before nodding "Ok" he said finally "But for what it's worth I would fight till the end for you as well…even if it was against some mad gunman. I would totally throw myself into the room for you and tell the gunman to shoot me if I thought it would make a difference" he bit his lip before ducking his head and grinning again "Not like that would ever happen" he said shaking his head.

"Yeah" Jackson said trying to laugh. To be honest with himself the image of Hugo, his boy, his son, his baby standing in front of a gunman for him would probably be an image that would haunt him for a long time. He shook his head trying to dispel the image before it permanently burned itself into his eyesight.

"Dinner?" Hugo asked turning around and standing up to reach for their fridge. "I take it Uncle Charles is still trying to pick up Reed" he shook his head smirking "Honestly" he turned around to face him "Do you wanna cook and cut at the same time or do you wanna order take out?"

Shaking his head Jackson pulled himself out of his stupor standing up he shook his head "No I'll cook us something, you shouldn't be eating take out on that stomach just yet" ignoring Hugo's eye roll.

The rest of the evening carried on and nothing seemed out of the ordinary but when Jackson went to sleep that night (for once at a reasonable hour) he thought there in the dark that that jump start of terror his heart had given at that image of Hugo and the imaginary gunman wouldn't go away soon.

Next Chapter-6x19-Sympathy For The Parents-As Alex struggles, Jackson realises that April is overreaching with Derek Shepherd and Hugo realises that he's lucky, all the while a patient and her husband are in the hospital and an overheard conversation does nothing to prepare anyone for what's going to happen.