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I could feel myself crying as I think about what I have done. I laughed at this. How cruel.
There is only one person I truly want to be with, but that person is cruel in his own way. The only thing I can think of is just to be with that person. Just being together.
"We came to this time by our Fathers and our Holy Mother's work. We came to have orderly time and follow the rule. This is what our Fathers and our Holy Mother has given us."
This was the time of learning. I tell the genin how we came to this time which is by the hands of our Fathers and our Holy Mother. That was what I have always been told and what I have always told the genins. But I am starting to question if that is how we came to. There were time when I... feel that there was a knowledge we didn't know. Will Aya know this knowledge? I look at the sign that tell us when our time is over. It is time.
"You can all go now."
The genins went out of the door as I walked out with them. I went to the liquid chamber to finish the rest of the mix. There were six people there. I know them, yet I don't know them. I went to my station to start setting the liquid in the plate and mix them. My eyes didn't hurt but it started showing me that something is wrong with the liquid. It doesn't look as it suppose to be. When I looked at it once more, it went back to how it was. How strange.
It was time to rest. Everyone went back to their chamber. I prepare for the next day but I will not sleep. Not yet, because she will come. I heard a noise from above and see that something open. Aya showed herself.
"Shou!" she said.
She came and embrace me and I did the same back. I looked at Aya. Nothing was strange with her. She isn't hurt. I'm glad.
"Tadaima."
I release her from my embrace to begin to start our time together. Without restriction, without anyone, but just us.
"What is 'tadaima', Aya?"
She sat on the bed. Her eye shine as she smiled at me.
"It means 'I'm back.' I'm back to you, Shou."
"I see...I'm glad you're back."
Aya laughed. "Are you ready to start our class, Shou?"
"Yes, I am."
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"Hmmmm, I know."
"Do you know what it is?"
"I don't know yet. But let's find out."
She grabbed my hand and pulled me toward her. My eyes were looking into her eyes.
"Well, what do you see when you look into my eyes, Shou?"
I was confused but I answered her. "I see...your eyes."
She let go of my hands and step back. Her face looked sternly at me.
"I know that, Shou. But what color is my eyes, how do you see them?"
I stayed quiet.
"Colors are everywhere, Shou. They are what you see and say whether you like it or not."
"Like a color?"
"When I see you Shou, I see the color of a sad black. I don't like it. Your hair is soft and a beautiful silver. I like how it looks on you."
I touch my hair. A silver hair. Is that the "color" Aya see? She like them. I look at her hair but I see nothing different. I reach for her hair to touch them. It was soft like her body. It ran through my fingers like water.
"Do you... like my hair?"
"It soft just like you."
Aya ran out of my reach and began talking oddly. Her face was different also.
"W-w-what!? Me? Soft? N-not possible."
"Aya, did I do something wrong?" I asked.
She jumped. "D-d-do something wrong? No, of course not!"
"Then what is wrong?"
She looked away from. "I-I'll tell you if you stop looking like that."
I was confuse. Am I looking at her oddly?
"Aya...?"
"Just stay there, Shou."
I stopped where I was and waited for what she is doing.
"Aya."
"It's just that...you said something nice. And when you looked worry...you look cute." she explained putting her hands over her face.
Even though I don't understand why she reacted like this, I was feeling more than glad at how she look right now.
"Aya."
"Y-yeah." her voice sounds different because of her hands.
I went over to her and pried her hands away from her face to mine.
"I...want to learn more about you and I want you to find more of me."
Her face was wide but then she smile slowly.
"M-me too, Shou."
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"Ren..."
There was someone there. I can't see who they are but they sound familiar.
"What is it?"
"Do you know who did this?"
"If I did, I would kill him."
The air turned dark.
"You don't know do you?"
"You know who did this, Cha."
"Ren, you are the one who betrayed us."
"What!? Explain this to me!"
The air was cold. I can't see. What is this? I look at my hand to see blood.
'Why? Why did you betray us?'
'Tell us and we will spare you.'
'You already hurt us enough.'
This blood in my hands...they are -
"Shou!"
I opened my eyes. My first thought was to look at my hands. There was nothing there. It was clear of blood.
"Did you have a bad dream again?"
I saw the person called Dai when I thought of the dream.
"It's alright, Shou, because I'll be here whenever you need me."
Aya wrapped her arms around my head and moved herself closer. I was shaking from it. The dream have shown themselves more and there was something about it that frighten me. I buried myself in Aya's neck, her warmthness, to save myself.
After a few more time, we separated. It was time to tell what I see in my dreams. This was a routine Aya has set for us when she found me in trouble of sleep. Our 153th lesson had taught me what a dream is and memories.
"What did you see?"
"It was about Dai once again. Someone else was there also."
"Do you know who it is?"
"I heard the name of Cha."
"Okay... Was there anything else?"
I hesitated to tell Aya about what happen next. I haven't learn what 'betrayed' is, but I somehow knew that it's a word I can't tell her.
"Shou, was there anything else?"
"...There was blood on Ren's hand."
"Then are you hurt?"
"I...am sure I'm fine."
She smiled softly. "That's good."
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Our soul will always be bind
So that we could meet
Again and again
Newness will always come
For us that meet
To gain an eternally
"Is that what a song is?"
"Yep! But..." Aya's face became thoughtful.
"You don't like the song?"
She shook her head. "It's just that the song doesn't seem complete when I found it."
"Complete?"
"Well...it say to gain an eternally...and that's it. It's sound funny to me."
"Aya..."
"Mmmmm?"
"What is an eternally?"
"Oh!" she laughed. "Sorry, Shou. Eternally is similar to eternal which mean forever, which is a long time."
Forever.A long time. Eternal. It seem to be such a strong word.
"When the song said 'to gain an eternally,' it doesn't say what you can gain for a long time."
"I see."
Aya jumped out of the bed and spun around. "Let's try to finish the song, Shou."
I felt myself give her a disbelieving look. "Are we able to do something like that?"
She smiled widely. "Why not?"
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"111111, you seem please on these times."
"W-we do?"
"You have changed. Are you not lost anymore?"
"Lost" I was lost when I couldn't be with Aya. Now that I could see her everytime, my inside burst with a warm feeling. I have learned much from Aya, letting me experience such a life with her.
"I...am not lost anymore. Thank you, 91821."
This time I could see how he look. He is a brown man with black eyes and a scar, not a line, on his nose. He had a surprise look on his face.
"Why are you thanking us?"
"Aya has told me that a thank is for the people that had helped you. It is for anyone."
"You found her?"
I smile. "No, she found me and she will always do so."
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Where is Aya today? She hasn't arrived yet and that has already been for some time. I paced around the room, waiting for her to show. I can only wait as I don't know how to go back to Saisei. I look at the place where she usually come. Nothing.
Beep. Beep. Beep.
It was time to wake up. I slowly open my eyes. I didn't raise as I was suppose to. I waited for Aya but she didn't come as she was suppose to. Aya...where are you?
I thought of the last time I saw her. She was still fine, safe. When she came, her eyes were shining. Excitement was what she explain it. Aya was excited because she has found something important for me. Did something happen to her when she found it? Aya...
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A/N: I like Aya in this story. She was soooo cute! I'm so glad that they are on good term now. But eh...it'll end T^T so have fun ^^