Suicide Is Painless

There is a lot of talk about war in this chapter, I don't go into much detail since I have no idea what these people go through but I have much THANKS for them and all that they do-Kiwi333

We humans are foolish enough to believe in a silly thing like hope. We want to agree that things will work out and things will be fine in the end. It's such a stupid thing really because when we're let down out believe in hope gets smaller and smaller till it's not there anymore. And then we're all alone.

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Owen walked out of the OR to find Cristina; he had to tell her something about his past. The patient he worked on was a war hero, and it brought back a lot of memories for him. He finally found her in the place that was completely theirs. The vent.

"Cristina I think it's time I tell you about the war." Owen said grabbing hold of her hands.

"Owen you don't have to do this if you don't want to." Cristina knew that this was a big step for him and she would be right next to him the whole time.

"I want to, I guess I should start at the beginning." Owen sighed, over the course of two hours he told her of his time at war. All the men and woman he lost, the things that he saw that never leave his head.

"Owen I am so sorry you had to go through that, but you're safe now. You're here with me okay?" Cristina stroked his face with her hands kissing him lightly.

"Thank you for understanding Cristina." Owen said between the kisses that they shared.

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Owen wasn't the only one that had a past that was dark; Tedi had also dealt with a patient that reminded her of the war. When what she needed to do was done she ran off to the nearest supply closet. Mark eventually found her in the midst of an anxiety attack.

"Tedi its Mark, I want you to take deep breaths okay? In and out, in and out." Mark rubbed her back as he felt her breathing become steady and calm.

"I don't know what happened, that patient reminded me of the war and then it's blank. I don't remember what happened." Tedi cried to him as they held hands.

"Hey listen to me, its okay. It's okay to cry, you went through things people can't even think of and you made it. I am right here for you okay?" Mark gave her hand another squeeze before they got up together and walked out of the closet.

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Meredith was in the room with her patient that had major surgery on her spine which had left her paralyzed.

"Listen to me June, if we don't exercise the muscles in your legs they will deteriorate and you won't have the chance to walk again. So get up and we can work on it okay." Meredith tried to stay calm but she was going to lose it and fast.

"No my life is over, I can never walk again or dance or even stand. I wanna die. Just leave me here and let me die!" June screamed over and over again at Meredith who was standing there ready to yell back. Izzie was standing outside listening to what she was saying, just as Meredith was about to speak Izzie walked into the room.

"June listen to me, I get that you want to die. You think that your life is over, but you lived. Thousands of people died today but you lived. Sure something went wrong but you're still here and you're still breathing." Izzie said to her with teary eyes.

"You know nothing about what I'm going through, you're just like the rest of them." June said bitterly.

"No I'm not like the other doctors; about six months ago I was in a hospital bed just like you. I have cancer and I always will but I am living with it. I have hope that they will find a cure. You have a chance June, we know how to keep you healthy till you can walk again but you need to hope that it will happen. Trust me June you don't want to die." Izzie said grabbing her legs and placing them over the bed and on the ground.

"I don't know how to be this person." June said crying.

"Then let us help you figure it out okay? You just need to take that first step." Izzie said taking the walker behind her and placed it in front of June who took it with both hands.

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"Dr. Kepner does this pillow look clean to you because it doesn't look clean to me, and I thought I told you I want lime jello not strawberry!" Mrs. Gates yelled at April, she had turned into her personal slave in a matter of minutes when they first met. Bailey was walking past when she saw the resident getting bossed around buy the patient and decided to take action.

"Dr. Kepner can I talk to you outside for a moment please?" Bailey asked which was met with a thankful look for April.

"Yes you can, what's the matter Dr. Bailey?" April said to her once they were in the hall.

"Are you a doctor or a nurse?" Bailey said straight out.

"A doctor." April said cautiously.

"Well then act like one and tell that woman that you are a doctor and not a nurse." Bailey said crossing her arms over her chest

"Okay I'll do it." April said marching back into the room and gave the woman a piece of her mind. Bailey looked on from outside and a smile on her face.

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"I can't believe that the kid just died, she was fine and then..." Charles was speechless after his patient had died out of nowhere.

"It happens sometime Charles, kids are magical but sometime they just die and we don't know why. You did nothing wrong and you remember that." Arizona said to him, this was the worst part of her job.

"How can you do this every day?" Charles asked her.

"It's not always like this, you have to hope that you can save all of them. So that when you do it's an even better feeling. And that feeling you have right now goes away but the feeling after saving them doesn't." Arizona smiled at his before she skated off.

"I hope you're right." Charles said in a quiet voice as he went off to tell the parent what had happened.

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"Mr. Walker listen to me Dr. Sheppard is an amazing surgeon and I promise you that he will do his best." Jackson explained to a patient that keeps changing his mind whether or not he wants the risky surgery that will save his life.

'I don't want o die." Mr. Walker tried to explain to Jackson.

'I get that. I do. But you have to trust us that we know what we're doing and we will save you. You need this surgery or else you will die. You have to fight and we can help if you give us a chance." Jackson said handing him the forms he needed to sign. With shaky hand Mr. Walker took them and signed on the dotted line.

"You better not kill me." He said trying to laugh.

"We'll do our best." Derek told him just as he was being put under.

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"Little Grey what are you doing here?" Callie was stumped as to why she was here.

"Please don't call me that, I need to smash something. What you have for me." Lexie was boiling with anger now that the news of Mark and Tedi had sunk in.

'You can break up those cast if you want." Callie held out a hammer to her which Lexie took and started to smash.

"I'm just gonna go, lock up when you're done." Callie said to Lexie who was grunting and smashing like there was no tomorrow. Slowly she backed out of the room leaving Lexie there.

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"Richard what are you doing here?" Adele asked him when he showed up at her doorstep.

"I need to apologize to you, for everything. For Ellis, and choosing work over you, and drinking again." Richard said, this was a hard thing for him to do.

"Took you long enough." Adele said opening the door to him.

"I can come back?" Richard asked as he picked up his suitcase.

"Yeah you can come back, but I swear if you do this to me again Richard there will be no more chances." Adele said giving him a quick kiss before closing the door after he was in the house.

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Truthfully our hope is never gone because we always end up believing in something that seems impossible over and over again. Without hope where would we be? Depressed waiting for things to end, that's no way to live. We have to believe in a stupid thing like hope because it makes everything seem better.