A/N... Thank you everyone for all your reviews. You ALL are the BEST! Amazed at all the difference of opinions here with Buffy/Angel... Wow, I have to say Buffy does strike a chord with everyone, whether it's good or bad... She gets people feeling thats for sure!! That alone has made for an interesting twist. I always liked her myself, but there were times I wanted to smack her for letting people treat Angel the way she did...Okay, enuff of my rant! Anyhow, I'm just following my muse here. Thank you for all the continued support in this story. :)

Oh and you can blame my 13 year old niece for bringing Buffy back! Ha ha! Just kidding, but she did get my mind thinking there... She just discovered all my Angel and BTVS on DVD and we watched them together. She now has a huge crush on Angel and seeing them together again reminded me, (especially, the BTVS episode, "The Prom" and the Angel epi..."I Will Remember You") of how beautiful B/A are together. Okay, nuff said. I do want to say, I'm sorry I can't please everyone with the pairings, but my muse is on a mission here and even I'm not sure where she'll end up. :) But I hope you all hang on for the ride... :D

Title: Welcome to my World.. The Story of Angel and Booth.

Author: Angel's Blue Eyed Girl

Rating T

Pairing Booth/Brennan... Angel/Gwen

Setting: Set during the first season of Bones... and after the last episode of Angel... This is an AU Bones/Angel crossover.

Disclaimer: I own none of the characters.. Though I wish I owned both Angel and Booth... Sigh... But alas I don't they belong to someone else, not me. But this story is mine!!

Summary: Angel,Spike and Gwen have spent the last few years traveling helping the helpless. Slaying demons and vampires in towns and cities across the country. But when a new hell mouth has opened under Washington D.C. Angel and Company move there, knowing once again the world is being threatened by evil. But when bodies, that look like occult, ritual slaying start turning up on Federal land Agent Seeley Booth and his partner Dr. Temperance Brennan begin an investigation that leads Booth straight to the Vampire with a soul...

Chapter 14.

Angel Investigations...

Buffy was upstairs in the room Angel had put Dawn in last night and Booth and Temperance were still in his office when Gwen came home. Angel saw her walk into the lobby. Their eyes met and he saw pain and still a bit of anger in her eyes and he put his head down. He couldn't hurt her. Truthfully, he wasn't sure what he wanted. He DID love Gwen. He lusted for her too. Sex with her blew the top of his head off and he was quite positive he was addicted to the feelings she gave him. He was happy she'd come home.

"Hey.." He went to her. Her bright blue eyes met his dark ones. "Hi handsome..." she said softly, letting him kiss her. She looked up at him from under her lashes. "So...How'd your date go?" she couldn't stop herself. Even though she'd said okay, damn! It still bugged her that Buffy was here.

Angel looked away from her. Afraid she'd see it in his eyes. 'The Kiss' he'd shared with Buffy. "It wasn't a date Gwen." he said quietly, wanting her to drop it.

"Oh? Well it wasn't just a simple ride either, was it?" Her eyes swept his sexy black silk shirt and dark pants. He looked good enough to eat and Gwen felt jealousy sweep through her again. "A little dressed up to pick up a friend aren't you?"

Angel was extremely glad he couldn't blush, because he'd be flushing with guilt right now if it was possible. He HAD taken a considerable time to get ready, because it was Buffy. He put his head down, finding it hard to meet Gwen's eyes. He couldn't be untruthful to her. These were the times Angelus reared his ugly head, telling him to lie and have both of them!! Angelus wouldn't have a problem with that. Angel did.

"I'm sorry Gwen..." was all he said. Not sure he could explain, even if he had the words, which he didn't.

She felt tears come to her eyes and with determination pushed them away. "So am I baby. " she whispered and walked proudly past him and up the stairs, determined not to show him how bad that hurt. She stopped at the top and looked down at him. He was still watching her, a good sign.

She met his eyes, "You need to decide what you want Angel... We were pretty damned happy and now all I see is... Buffy face and it took me over a year to wipe that look off your face, I'm NOT going to sit by and watch you go through this again. Make up your mind baby, cause I love you, but I'm not so in love with you that I can't or won't walk away." With that she turned and strode up the stairs, proud she'd had her say. It wasn't until she turned the corner and was out of his sight, that her shoulders fell and the tears came, she wiped at them furiously. "Dammit Angel..." she said softly, going into their room, wanting to hurt something... Particularly a petite blond slayer!!

Angel watched her go. He turned and saw Illyria standing behind him. He was startled, she was the only thing that could sneak up on him and sometimes it unnerved him. "Hey Illyria..I didn't hear you come in..." He was hoping she hadn't heard his and Gwen's conversation, but as usual his luck wasn't that good.

"Why does she cry because you are dressed handsomely? " she asked, as usual cutting right to the chase.

Angel shrugged, not wanting to get into this and not wanting to be reminded he'd made her cry. It broke his heart to hurt her. He was wondering why he always seemed to hurt the ones he loved, when it went from bad to worse when he heard Spike's drunken voice...

"Because Blue.. He didn't get all poofed up for Gwen. He got all dressed up to see the Slayer, right sire?"

Illyria nodded understanding. "Oh yes, the Slayer. That is why Gwen said you have 'Buffy face' You love this woman.. This Buffy the Slayer. And so Gwen is now feeling the fear of losing you to her."

Spike grinned, weaving a bit still... "Oh yeah Blue... He loves the Slayer.. he loves Gwen too, but you see my sire here... Well, he always leaves, and now poor Gwen, well she's gonna get a dose of what he does best... Leave."

Angel shot him a glare. "Spike..." he interrupted, threateningly. "Shut Up!" He was at the end of patience and right about now he could use an outlet for all this nervous energy. His eyes flashed golden, "One more word and I'm gonna find out if beating you to a pulp will make me feel better right now." he flashed a grin that reminded Spike way to much of Angelus at the moment and wisely he decided to stop pushing.

"Yeah.. Shuttin up..." NOT wanting to test Angel when he was wearing THAT look. It just brought back too many memories of pain and punishment, and he knew better. Teasing Angel was one thing, teasing Angel when he was wearing Angelus face was another. "Yeah, sure thing... Angelus." he couldn't resist calling Angel that when he looked like this though and Spike smirked a bit at this tiny defiance.

Booth who was coming out of the office just then stopped dead in his tracks at hearing Spike call Angel, Angelus. His eyes went from Spike to Angel and it all clicked. "Angelus?...Oh shit! YOU'RE Angelus?!" he exclaimed, looking at Angel, his mind trying to understand how this man he had come to trust could possibly be the same monster he'd spent the morning reading about.

Lorne and Brennan had come out behind Booth and Angel saw the absolute horror in his brother's eyes, the shock, yet sympathy in Temperance's and the resigned sadness in Lorne's and he felt a crushing guilt of his past all over again. He didn't even wonder just HOW Booth even knew the name. Him and Temperance had been doing research, obviously Booth had read about him and now he'd be disgusted and afraid of him.

Spike wanted to kick his own ass. He really wished he'd learn to NOT say whatever was on his mind, he swore he was as bad as Cordelia used to be at times. "Bloody hell..." he whispered, feeling Angel's pain and seeing Booth's shock.

Booth ignored Spike, his eyes focused on Angel. "Well? Are you Angelus?" he asked again, his hand unconsciously going to his weapon.

Angel saw where Booth's hand went and felt all the steps he and Booth had taken towards a good relationship slipping from his grasp. //Not again..// he thought. //Please not again.// He didn't want to lose his brother again, just like he lost Connor. He sighed, there was nothing else he could do, he told the truth. "Yes, I was Angelus." he said whispered, agonized.

Booth hoped he'd misunderstood him, but knew he hadn't. He looked at Angel's youthful, handsome face and it all made sense, hadn't women told him the same thing at times. That he was beautiful...Handsome yes, but he'd been called beautiful and angelic too at times, much to his chagrin. //Shit!// Booth thought//Angel IS Angelus... How could I have been so wrong about him?// He sighed, rubbing his head. He couldn't be that off in his assessment of Angel, he knew there had to be more to this, more than those books said.

Deciding to continue to go with his instincts, Booth's hands went to his hips, off his gun and he just stared at Angel for more than a minute, sensing him, trying to feel if he HAD been that wrong about him. Finally, he met the dark eyes so like his own, "How? I mean, I can't see you doing all those things." he said, beginning to pace, still looking at Angel, "Hey, ya know maybe I don't know anything about vampires and demons, but I do know people and YOU are NOT like that. I would've known...I would've sensed that kind of evil in you. I know it." he finished softly, rubbing the back of his neck, feeling the tension there.

Angel sighed and just looked at him. It was always like this. People found out about him and they ran away from him, only this time if Booth ran... It would hurt a lot more than ever, except when Connor ran away from him.

Spike seeing Angel not defending himself shook his head, "Well tell 'im you ponce? Tell 'im how you're NOT Angelus anymore cause you got cursed with your bloody soul..."

Booth looked at him, now more confused than ever. //Cursed? A soul? He has a soul? But...// He looked at Angel, "In those books it says when a human becomes a vampire, they lose their soul and the demon takes over... How is it that you have one?" he asked feeling like he was lost here and really trying to get a grip on it all.

Angel was so tired, today had started out in nervous anticipation and now it was heading full steam ahead to sick trepidation. First Gwen, and now this. He didn't want to talk about Angelus with Booth. He didn't want to bring those memories to life for him. "Everything you read about. I did.. I did them and more...So much more..." he murmured, looking at Booth thinking about the worst of all... Booth himself. How could he EVER explain that one. He couldn't and suddenly Angel was exhausted, his pain so evident everyone could feel it.

Brennan watched his face as he tried to put his past into words that wouldn't terrify them all. She felt sorry for him. How did he live with a past like that? It was obvious he wasn't the same person anymore, so how DID one live with the fact you had once been a monster that slaughtered at will? Not easily she was sure and her admiration for Angel grew. She just didn't know what to say to make this any easier, for either of them.

It was so quiet in the room, when her voice spoke softly from the stairs it startled nearly everyone, except Angel... He'd felt her the second she'd headed down the stairs. "Tell him Angel.. Tell them all about Angelus. It's time...You have to forgive yourself. He's NOT you Angel. He's NOT you, not anymore. Please Angel..." Buffy said her eyes going from Booth to Angel and suddenly she had an idea who Booth was...

Angel sighed, "I can't right now..." He looked at Booth, "I'm sorry. I just can't..." He turned and headed up the stairs, wanting to reach out to Buffy, knowing she'd comfort him and he was so tempted, he almost ran past her. But taking comfort in Buffy wasn't allowed for him anymore... He wasn't sure what hurt worse, knowing she was there and still loved him or when she hadn't been there and he thought she didn't love him anymore. The latter had been easier, thats for sure. "I'm sorry Buffy..." he murmured as he hurried up the stairs. He couldn't fix things with Booth right now. Who knew if things with Buffy could ever be resolved. That was so emotionally tangled. But he could fix things with Gwen, if he hurried. She didn't deserve all this and Angel just wanted to feel her arms around him right now, he needed the comfort she gave him.

Buffy watched him escape and sighed. Yeah, some things will never change, when Angel was in pain, he ran. She KNEW he was going to Gwen, jealousy tore through Buffy. A part of her wanted to run back up those stairs and stop him. Tell him to find comfort in HER arms, NOT Gwen's,, but she could see Booth was feeling angry and confused at Angel not explaining. Buffy made a decision then and there, for years she let what other people thought about her control her. Especially with her relationship with Angel. If she had more guts and had stood up to Giles and her friends years ago...

Well maybe he wouldn't be going to another woman right now. She had no one to blame for it but herself, well and Angel too for making decisions for her all the time, but that was another story. Today, she wanted to just face HER part in their tragic romance. No More!! If she wanted him, she had to fight for him, something she never did before. She'd cry and just let him walk away. Well, she was going to let him run right now, but she wasn't going away, she decided. Her eyes met Booth's again, and she made another decision. She would tell Booth about Angelus and Angel. He needed to hear about Angel from someone that loved him, someone who would help him understand Angel. The good and the bad, because if he was who she suspected, he needed to know what a wonderful man his brother was... She continued down the stairs.. "Sit down Seeley," she said softly.

He looked at her surprised she'd called him Seeley. "Why'd you call me that?" he asked, tilting his head and sitting down.

She shrugged, "It's your name right?"

He nodded, "Still most people call me Booth... Why did you call me Seeley?"

Buffy smile softly, "Angel called you that... I guess it stuck, I like it, so that's what I called you."

He nodded again, not sure why it affected him that Angel had used his given name, it just did... "So you gonna tell me a story?" he asked smiling, a bit uncomfortable, but needing answers.

Buffy nodded, her eyes met Temperances as she sat next to Booth and took his hand in hers. "It all started in Galway Ireland... 1753 I believe, Liam was his name then..."

Booth squeezed Brennan's hand, glad for her presence. He had a feeling this was going to be a sad story, with a lot of things he might not want to hear, but he had to hear just the same.

Upstairs...

Angel opened the door, Gwen wasn't in the room. He heard the water running and smiled slightly. She liked baths... They calmed her. He opened the bathroom door and just stared at her for a moment. She really was gorgeous. He felt desire rise in him, he needed her so desperately right now. She had become his rock... Maybe Temperance was right. Maybe Buffy was his instinctual mate, but Gwen had become his choice in a mate. He DID love her, he just wished it were as simple as choosing. Forces greater than himself called out in him for Buffy and he wasn't sure he could resist... He sighed, alerting her to his presence.

She looked up and saw him standing there. "Hey, wanna join me baby?" she whispered, pleased he was up here with her and not down there with HER. Gwen wasn't giving Angel up without a fight. It just wasn't in her nature to roll over and die. Her and Angel had their own history now. Plus they had chemistry, she felt it and judging by the tightness in his pants right now, he still felt it too.

He smiled, needing this connection right now. To say he was confused was putting it very mildly. He hated that he and Buffy and Gwen were in this situation, and it was his fault. His fault, because he couldn't tell Buffy he DIDN'T love her anymore and he couldn't walk away from Gwen either. He took off his shirt giving her an answer without words. He was tired of talking right now. He felt drained, emotionally drained and he just didn't WANT to talk anymore.

Gwen watched him as he undressed, never tiring of looking at his beautiful body, she waited for him to finish and join her. She was already so excited, she was surprised the water wasn't boiling!

Angel grinned at her hungry look, it made him excited. He watched her scoot forward to make room for him. Naked he climbed into the tub and settled himself behind her. He kissed her neck softly, hot opened mouth kisses that made her shiver and tremble with desire. "I love you Gwen...I do, I swear I do." he whispered against her ear, his hands coming up to cup her breasts, making her moan in pleasure.

She looked at him over her shoulder, smiling her siren's smile, "No more words baby, show me. I need you... to show me Angel"she murmured, tilting her head as she felt his fangs scrape the soft flesh of her throat.

He growled softly, lifting her up by her curvy hips, he placed her on top of him, as he sank inside her , his fangs pieced the tender flesh of her neck. "I will baby..." he groaned as he made love to her, wanting the words to be true. "I will.." Even as he said them though, Buffy's beautiful face flashed behind his closed eyes and Angel; shocked he'd just imagined Buffy for a second there, (That was NOT something he would do, imagine another woman, while with Gwen) was disgusted with himself, forcefully, he pushed Buffy from his mind. Concentrating on Gwen, he made love to her with everything he felt for her, making her cry out in pleasure again and again... It was only later, cuddling her soft, still sizzling body against his still pounding heart that Angel thought of Buffy again and wondered if he was going to make a liar out of himself after all...

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