''Why didn't you wake me up?'' Jay said upset as it was almost time to leave to work. He wasn't going to work, but he would at least see Natalie before Erin took her to day care. Erin shook her head and looked at him, angry. The last few days he still hadn't done anything and she was thinking about leaving him. She didn't want to but she didn't know how much longer she could take it. She wanted to marry him as they were engaged now but she couldn't take it anymore. SHe just wanted him to try again, try to work and therapy and spend time with Natalie but Jay was still too depressed.

''You usually don't put any effort in waking up and I am not going to put any more effort in us.'' Erin sighed as she lifted Natalie up and get her ready for day care. Jay looked as Erin left the kitchen, sitting down on the chair as his legs were giving in and he looked at the floor, upset. He knew Erin was right, but he didn't want her to stop caring about him.

''I could make dinner for us tonight.'' Jay said then as she entered the kitchen again. Erin didn't say anything and instead just walked away with Natalie. Jay laid his head on his arms on the table. He had hoped that his offer would make her talk to him again, but there was nothing that seemed to be okay. He knew he was stupid for how he had been treathing her and Natalie. Now he wanted to make it better, but he didn't have the energy for it.

Slowly he got up and walked to the showers, almost falling down and tumbling over Natalie's toys. He knew he had been home for so long but he wasn't even upset by it anymore, he just became numb. He didn't care anymore, he just wanted it to stop, he didn't want to be tired and in pain and he didn't want to wake Erin up anymore every night. He woke her up when he had a seizure and she would help him and still he couldn't even find the energy to thank her for that and he knew it was bad, but he couldn't do anything. He just felt drained.

Jay got in the shower, sitting down on the shower chair and he showered. Maybe he should try to get to therapy like Erin said and he wanted to try but after showering he was so exhausted that he got his sweatpants and shirt on and laid down on the couch, falling asleep again. Suddenly he was woken up by two hands grabbing his shoulders and waking him up.

''You, you are a freaking idiot! You are an idiot Jay! After all that happened you let yourself get worse instead of better and you break your family.'' Antonio said angry and he looked at Jay, angry.

''You are stupid! Erin has always been there for you after you have been shot and everything that happened and you treat her so bad. I can't believe it Jay, what are you doing?'' Antonio asked angry and Jay looked at Antonio.

''I want to get better, but every time I think I am getting better those seizures come back!'' Jay said angry as he hit on the table and Antonio shook his head.

''What happened to you? You were a fighter and now you only complain and you act full of self pity.'' Antonio said angry and he looked at Jay.

''You better start being a better man to your family, because now it is me telling you this but next time it is going to be Voight, because you are hurting Erin.'' Antonio said angry and Jay sighed.

''I don't want to hurt Erin...I just...I just...I don'r-'' Jay stammered but Antonio interrupted.

''Don't make excuses and od something, go to therapy again and fight for your walking so you can walk with Natalie. So you can walk with Erin on your wedding day.'' Antonio said and Jay slowly started to nod. Antonio had only heard from Erin today what was going on with Jay lately and it made him mad. He thought Jay was not at work because he really was to sick but now he realized that Jay was being depressed and they had to get him out of this.

He would understand that Jay was sad he still couldn't walk and that the seizures where getting worst but it made him angry that Erin was suffering while she had been supporting Jay for so long.

Antonio left after talking with Jay a little longer and Jay looked through the house, he really knew that he had to do something about it. He didn't want to hurt Erin, not at all.

''What is this?'' Erin said surprised as she entered the house and saw that most of it was clean, that the picture frame she had asked Jay was hanging on the wall and dinner was on the table. Jay came walking her way, hardly able to do to so and he took Natalie in his arms, lifting her up shortly before grabbing Erin, afraid he would fall and she frowned at him as he kissed her. He was going to chance he was going to be a good man again and he knew it would take some time, but he would try.

''I am sorry, I am going to be a better fiance, I promise. I am going to be a better father, I promise.'' Jay said them as he held her and he knew he was stupid if he would ever let her go.

NOTE: Jay is finally going to try to feel better again and try to be a better person in the family but can he keep that promise and will Natalie finally have a father? Will Erin still marry him?

Thank you so much for reading ,I hope you liked the chapter and that you liked the appearance of Antonio in this chapter and that you thought that it was realistic. Please tell me what you thought about it by leaving a review!