A/N: Soooo this is where the M rating comes in. This is my first time even attempting to write this kind of stuff so please tell me if I can improve or whatever. I just don't think it really even deserves to be written. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: Don't own it, never will.
Wednesday couldn't come any faster. I had spent most of the night with Bella while she slept. Edward got back the hospital at around three, thank goodness for Jasper. I took this time to go and hunt for the next day. I wasn't going to leave Bella's side until she was healed and doing things by herself.
I jumped off the doe that I had just drained and hid it in some bushes. As I started sprinting back to Forks, I pulled out my phone and looked at my messages. There was one from Bella and two from Jasper. I opened the one from Bella first.
Love you- Bella.
Of course she would just text to say that. I tried to hold back the grin that turned up on my face before texting back.
What happened to your "rules?" - Alice
I closed my phone deciding to open the next two messages later. I started to focus on the path ahead of me, enjoying the feeling of the grass beneath my bare feet. I could see the clearing a few yards away. As soon as I saw it, it was gone. The floor beneath me disappeared and I was hurled into the air a few yards back. My stomach hit the trunk of a tree, and I heard the groan of the tree coming out of its roots. I couldn't understand what was happening until I heard a familiar growl from behind me.
"Who the hell do you think you are?" Edward growled at me. "Do you think you can just try to move in on Bella? She doesn't love you; she isn't a fag like you! Do you think you can force yourself upon her? It won't work; you're never going to be alone with her again."
He grabbed the back of my shirt and threw me into another tree. I tried to focus on what was happening, but failed when Edward grabbed my leg and flung me into the clearing. I was in the air for a few seconds and I took this time to regroup myself. I landed on my legs in a crouch. I searched the lining of the trees searching for Edward.
"What the hell. What did I do?" I asked. I knew exactly what he said when I heard him say the word fag. He had the nerve to use that name on me?
"You know exactly what you did. Jasper wasn't as careful as you thought he would be. Just one gap was all I needed to find out. " I heard him to my left and started sprinting in that direction.
"So what if I love her. If you're so confident that she wouldn't love me then you don't have to worry about me. "I growled as I pushed past the trees and looked in every direction.
"Just stay away from her. Rosalie is the only person allowed to be with her by herself. You will not be near her without supervision!" He came out of a tree and tackled me to the ground, pinning my arms to my sides.
"You don't have any say in when I can or can't see Bella; if she doesn't love me then you shouldn't care." I tried to bite him but he pushed me back.
"She is my girlfriend, she is mine! She was mine since the moment she said she loved me." He half growled, half whispered. "Therefore, I have every right to allow who does and who doesn't talk to her."
"She isn't some piece of property!" I kicked him off of me. "Don't treat her like she only does what you tell her. If you really loved her, you would let her do whatever she liked."
"Yes, exactly what you would do if she was yours, but here's a news flash, she isn't yours. How could she ever be in love with you, you're a girl." He scoffed.
"What do you want Edward? If you want to tell me to leave her alone, I'm sorry but we're best friends. It would be too obvious if I just stopped talking to her. I can still be friends with her. You don't have to worry about me."
I started to walk away toward the clearing but was stopped by a pair of strong arms.
"Rosalie is staying with Bella tonight while we meet up with the wolves. Don't even think about going to be with Bella alone. Rosalie will be there, and you don't want her to know." He shoved me one last time before sprinting off toward Forks.
I looked at his form in disbelief. What was his problem? If he was so sure that Bella loved him, he wouldn't have a problem with me loving her. I grabbed at my hair in frustration before heading off into the same direction as Edward. I remembered I had two texts from Jasper and decided to check and see what he wanted.
I think he knows. I'm so sorry; I thought I was doing so well. He only caught a glimpse so I don't think it will be much for him to work with. Be careful. – Jasper
I laughed at myself. If I was smart enough to open the messages in the first place, I wouldn't be in this mess. I opened the next.
He knows! Go hide or do something he's coming after you. Be careful, I don't think I have seen him this angry in a while. – Jasper
That would have been useful a few minutes ago. I texted him back saying it was okay and that I just had a run in with him.
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I got to the house in five minutes. As I stepped into the house, I was attacked by Rosalie and Jasper with concerned looks on their faces.
"Are you okay? You look like shit." Rosalie panicked.
"Yeah, he caught me off guard, that's all. He just told me I wasn't allowed to see Bella by myself. Rosalie has to look after Bella while they're meeting with the wolves." I looked at Rosalie with a pleading expression.
"Of course you can come by when he leaves. " She patted me on the shoulder.
I walked past them calling back. "Thanks, I have to go get cleaned up. What time are you going to Bella's?"
"In like an hour. Come by in like two. You'll have more than enough time to be with her."
I nodded at her and sprinted up to my room. I noticed that Jasper's stuff was gone, and I couldn't help but feel remorse. I was so used to all his books on the shelves after so many years.
I took a long shower making sure to get all the dirt and twigs out of my hair. Stupid Edward and his mind reading. He should learn to mind his own business. I remembered how infuriated he became from just seeing that I was in love with Bella; I couldn't imagine what he would do if he found out she felt the same way.
I shut off the shower and went to pick out an outfit. I ended up wearing a white skirt a little longer than mid thigh, and a red tank top. I did all make up, and realized that I had about an hour to kill.
I lay down in my bed and closed my eyes. I always wanted to know what it felt like to sleep. Bella always made it look so nice and comforting. I heard a knock at the door and looked up to see who was there. Esme came into the room with a sad smile. I patted the bed and mover over to make her more room.
"I heard about you and Jasper. I'm so sorry dear. You must be so miserable." She started rubbing my back in a comforting manner.
"How can I be sad? I'm in love with someone; I'm the reason we broke up." I didn't dare look at her face.
"And who is the lucky boy who has caught your attention?" She asked.
I anger flamed as she said boy. Why do I have to love a boy?
"You don't know her." I emphasized the her part.
"Well whoever he is, he is very lucky. Anyone would be lucky to ha-… did you say a girl?"
"Yes Esme. I said a girl." I said, slightly embarrassed.
"Oh dear, I don't mean it in a bad way. You can love anyone you want as long as they make you happy. We will never judge you. Whoever it is, we will welcome her will open arms." She hugged me tightly.
"Really, you would welcome whoever it is that I love? No matter who?" I was making sure I had this to use over her if they ever found out it was Bella.
"Yes Alice, no matter who it is." She kissed me on the cheek before standing up. "I can see that you were going somewhere. I'll just leave you be."
"Thank you Esme. It means the world to me that you said that." I smiled at her.
She smiled back before heading outside out my room. I looked around and sighed. The clock read that I still had about fifteen minutes to wait, but really? What would fifteen minutes do?
I swiftly jumped out the window and made my way to Bella's house. I could hear the sound of the TV from the living room downstairs when I was a hundred yards away.
"Would you like to see anything specific?" Rosalie asked in an overly exaggerated voice.
I didn't hear Bella's reply so I guessed that she shook her head. I went to the door and rung the doorbell twice. I heard shuffling before the door opened revealing Rosalie.
"She's all yours." Rosalie winked at me before letting me in.
I softly giggled before walking to the living room. Bella was lying on the couch with her head propped up with two pillows. Rosalie walked past me and sat on the couch at Bella's feet. Bella had her face turned toward me. She smiled softly before yawning. I walked up to her and caressed her cheek.
"How are you feeling? And why isn't your arm in a sling."
"I've been better. I can't move my arm though, thankfully it went numb. I can't feel anything for some reason. Here squeeze it." She tilted her torso in my direction, offering her arm up to me.
I ignored her offer. Instead I carefully picked her up and brought her upstairs to her room. She giggled at me as I laid her gently down onto the bed.
"Someone's a little eager." She laughed at me.
"Bella, as much as I want to, I can't. Edward knows. At least he knows about me. He can't find out about you. No matter what, if you saw what he did to me, you would fear your own life. I can't let any harm come to you."
I crawled up to her on the bed and laid myself beside her. "I won't be stupid enough to let you get hurt." I could feel my lip quiver. "I love you too much."
She stared into my eyes with a look of determination set on her face.
"You let me go against my own rules, and now you don't want to be with me. I created those rules just so neither of us would get hurt. Then, after my constant warning that we should not be together, you make me break the rules… Well isn't that just great."
She turned around and tried to get off the bed. It was actually sad to see all the struggle it took to almost sit herself up right. She fell onto her side looking away from me with an aggravated sigh. I tried to gather my thoughts on what to say, but came up empty. I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her in so that her back was against my front.
"I can't even do anything without feeling like shit." She started gasping. "Please Alice… take the pain away." She started crying. I felt her body start shifting and realized she wanted to turn around. I quickly maneuvered her so that we were face to face.
I could see the shiny streaks of her tears in the dark. Her body was shaking with gasps and sobs and I felt like there was nothing I could to do help her.
"It hurts so much. I feel so much more pain every day and I try to be strong, for you."She used her good arm to hug my waist to hers. "Why did this have to happen to me? Why couldn't I have a normal life? Why doesn't it stop hurting? Please help me."
With her last words, I felt her push me with all her might so that I she was on top of me. Her leg hitched over mine to where she was straddling me. I felt her use her left arm to push herself up into sitting position. I could feel the fear on my face when I realized what she wanted.
"Please Alice; as a good bye gift." She whispered.
I didn't know what she was saying. She had more time; she had to have more time.
"Bella, I can't. I'm not ready." I forced the words out of my mouth.
"I don't care Alice, I need you… now." Her hand traveled down to my waist to the place where my skirt and shirt met. I could feel each individual finger as they pushed past my shirt and grazed my stomach.
"Bella, I can't. Even Jasper says I'm a little too ro- rough in bed, and that's saying something. And plus look at your arm, you aren't ready." I stuttered.
"I don't want to talk about anyone. I don't want to think of Jasper, Edward, Rosalie, Emmett, Esme, Carlisle, Charlie, or even me. All I want to think about is you." She said in all seriousness. "You don't have to do anything; I can die happy from just making you feel how much I love you. And who cares about my arm, I can't feel anything in it so that really won't harm me."
Her knuckles grazed the underside of my breast and my back arched up against its will. A strangled moan escaped my lips and I heard Rosalie chuckled from downstairs. I growled a warning to her to get the hell away from the house. I wasn't going to make love to Bella with an audience.
Bella pulled her hand back at the sound of my growl with a concerned look on her face.
"You really can't, can you?" She asked.
I nodded my head as fast as I could, no doubt looking like a complete fool. She smiled at me before taking her hand out from under my shirt and grabbing the hem. She raised her eyebrows, asking permission. I crossed my arms and helped her remove my shirt.
I small moan came from her mouth as she gazed at my bare breasts.
"Did you forget the bra, or did you know you were going to get lucky?" She laughed quietly still staring at by breasts.
I just shook my head, not trusting my voice. She lifted her hand to grab my breast but hesitated. I pleaded with my eyes for her to touch me, in any way possible. She brought her hand down to my mounds and squeezed. I arched my back, seeking more from her.
"I'm sorry. I can't do this properly." She whispered. I opened my eyes to look at her. "I can't move my other arm."
She looked away ashamed. I started shaking my head, telling her that I didn't care. I reached for end of her t-shirt and lifted it. She raised her left arm and let me bring the shirt up. I got stuck around her breasts; I saw the edge of her bandage covering her gun wound and I felt wrong doing this. She brought her arm down with a huff
"See, I can't even do this right. How are supposed to do this when I can't…" She stopped at the sound of me ripping her shirt up the front.
She laughed at my smirk, and removed her left arm from the shirt. I lifted her right arm and removed the rest. I could feel the blush radiating from her and for a moment I thought I felt myself blush as well. I brought my hands up to her shoulders, slowly bringing them down across her chest, being careful not to be too rough near the bandage. She slightly jumped when I cupped her pale mounds. I kept my hands where they were, enjoying the warmth coming from them. My thumb stroked her nipples, making it pebble under my touch, and I was rewarded with a moan.
"No Alice, this is for you. I won't let you do anything until you're satisfied." She reprimanded before bringing her left arm up and swiping my hands away.
She grabbed my right arm and put it above my head. Her head came down slowly, too slowly, and laid kisses onto my chest. She came to halt when she reached the slope of my breast. She breathed onto my nipple before wrapping her lips around it.
"Bella." I breathed out.
Her tongue came out of her mouth and licked a circle around my nipple. I tried to push my breast into her mouth, but she wasn't having any of that. She licked another circle around my other nipple and blew on each of them.
"Please don't tease me. It's not fair." I whined.
"Shhh, I'm getting there."
She lifted her head and used her good arm to raise herself.
"This sucks, doesn't it. You can't even be pleasured properly without some sort of interruption." She sighed.
I ignored her and brought her head down me. Our lips met with a hurry and she immediately opened her mouth, diving her tongue into mine. It went straight to my teeth and I had to focus hard not to bite on it when I felt her nipples press into mine. We both moaned at the same and I took this time to push her tongue back into her mouth along with mine.
"Bella!" I screamed when I felt her hand push into my skirt. "You can warn a vampire."
"Sorry, I just need this."
She continued her journey, putting her hand under my panties and cupping my center. I growled at the sensation. The hand stilled when she dipped the tips of her pointer and middle fingers into my folds.
"Oh my gosh, is that because of me?" She asked amazed.
I nodded, slightly embarrassed. She moved to remove her hand but before it could move an inch I caught it and kept it there.
"What do you think you're doing?"
"Well I was going to take your skirt off. I can't really move when one of my arms doesn't work, and this isn't really helping."
This was probably one of the most awkward moments in my life. Not that she wasn't doing it right, but it was kind of… well awkward.
"Here let me get the easy part done." I quickly rolled us over and jumped off the bed. I pulled off my skirt and panties as quickly as I could. There was a gasp from the bed and I snapped my head in the direction looking for any kind of problem.
Bella sat there looking at me in awe. She maneuvered herself to where she was kneeling and slid herself to me.
"You're beautiful." She murmured against the skin at my neck. Her hand trailed down my side and went directly to my ass. She pushed my hips into hers and squeezed as tightly as she could. "I love you, no matter how much I try to deny us, I love you. Forever."
"Oh Bella." I didn't bother being gentle when I ripped off her shorts and panties. "I love you so much. More than you will ever know."
I slowly brought her down onto the bed and spread her legs with my knee. I could feel the heat radiating from her core on my knee. I tested myself and brought my fingers down and pressed into her folds.
"Alice, oh god Alice." She bucked her hips into my hand, seeking more. "No, you go fir-."
I silenced her with a kiss and flicked her clit. I felt her trying to restrain herself as a way to rebel. I laughed into the kiss and rubbed her clit a few more times. Eventually her hips started to lose control and they bucked into me.
Her arm was grabbing at me, searching for something to hold onto as I continued my ministrations. Without any warning, her hand slipped in between us and as quick as lightning she dipped two fingers all the way into me. I gasped as my hips thrust into her. I pull my head away from her shoulder to see her smirking at me.
"You come first, I told you." She started pumping her fingers in and out of me slowly and gently. My head fell onto her shoulder again as a took pleasure in the feeling of her fingers inside of me.
I don't know how long it was, but after what felt like forever I felt the all too familiar knots being knotted in my stomach. I tried get off of Bella, in hopes of getting off before my orgasm took over. I rolled off the side and Bella, being the angel that she was, rolled right along with me. I started giggling at her, but it was cut short as the knots came undone and I fell over the edge.
"Bella, oh Bella." I moaned out.
My body started to tremble and I tried to seek purchase on something behind me but found nothing but the wall. I settled with my head. My hips bucked wildly and I was surprised the Bella didn't fall off the bed. After what felt like forever, my hips stilled in the air and I fell onto the mattress.
Bella pulled her fingers out of me brought them to her mouth.
"You taste good, I wouldn't mind getting some more." She reached down, attempting to get to my pussy.
I swiftly turned us rolled around so that I was on top and brought both of her arms above her head.
"I don't think so. I already came, it's your turn." I whispered huskily into her ear.
I felt her shudder and nod her head against my shoulder.
"Are you ready? It's going to hurt, a lot." I asked her.
"Yes, please. Just make it quick." She closed her eyes, awaiting the pain.
"It'll be over before you know it." I said as I brought my hand to the apex of her thighs.
I could feel her juices coat my fingers as I delved into her folds. Her hips automatically bucked into my hand as I grazed her clit. I moved past that and found her entrance.
"Are you su-."
"Just fuck me Alice." She rushed.
I took no more time in pushing two fingers into her and past her barrier.
"Alice!" She squeaked. Her arm came around my neck and her legs wrapped around my waist.
"Shh, it's okay." I whispered lovingly into her ear.
Her body stayed stiff for a few seconds until she relaxed. I took this as a sign to start. I brought my fingers out, just leaving the tips in before pushing them back in.
"Alice, oh god." She moaned.
I kept pushing my fingers in and out, making sure that my palm rubbed against her clit with every push. I used my own hips to push my fingers into her; and in turn, Bella met my hips in sync. I brought my head down to her shoulder and placed feather like kisses onto her bandage.
I could feel Bella's walls tightening around my fingers and her moans were becoming louder and louder. Thank goodness Charlie is staying over at Billy's. I started thrusting my hips harder and faster, hoping to make this even better for her than it was for me. Her hips suddenly stopped moving, but I didn't sense that she had an orgasm. I looked into her eyes, but saw they were closed.
"Keep going, I just ca-n't keep up wi-with you." She panted out.
"Okay, just tell me if something doesn't feel right."
I started thrusting into her again, going more slowly this time. I pressed my thumb to her clit and rubbed her, trying to bring her over the edge. I pushed in deeply a few more times before I felt her walls clamp down on my hand.
"Alice! I think I'm com-." She shrieked.
Her hips bucked up once and stilled, before falling back. Her walls were still contracting around my fingers and I waited until they finally stopped until I pulled them out.
"I" kiss "love" kiss "you." I kissed her chest as it heaved.
Suddenly, I smelt blood. I knew that when you lose your virginity you bleed down there, but that wasn't where it was coming from. I looked up to see blood coming out of her open mouth.
"Bella? Bella?" I climbed up to her and brought her head into my hands. I shook her head lightly, trying to wake her up; she was still breathing. "Bella wake up."
"Well isn't this dandy." I heard a delighted voice from behind me.
Oh shit.
A/N: OOOOOhhhh a cliffy. Well it's pretty obvious who it is, but I'll keep you guessing just in case. I hope that was a decent excuse for fluff, that was my first time writing it and well let's just say it was kinda… awkward. I like reading it but I don't know how I feel about writing it. This story has about seven or so chapters left, give or take. Please tell me what you think.