This is posted about two months ago with the old Chapter 14. I now decide to put this as a separate chapter so people who are tired of write's rambles can skip it. But I also want to keep this part as it is part of my writing experience and it did influence my writing decision. And for all the kind words I received in reviews, which genuinely helped me and gave me strength. I hope it isn't rude of me not being able to say thank you to each of those kind souls.
Dear readers,
So much happened since my last update. I have fought very hard and born a lot of struggle in the hope of a future, but now I am left in betrayal and broken heart. It is hard to describe how I feel but I have been bottling everything up and keeping a stoic face. Now I am slowly trying to reach out for help. It isn't easy. I only have a few connections in this city and even when I am surrounded by my friends, emptiness is all I feel. It is hard to lose someone you can deeply related to, even if he has failed you badly. Still, I hate myself for not being able to hate him. Love and tenderness is still there.
I just though, maybe those among my readers who share a similar experience can support each other. I will be wiser after this, and so will the girls in my story. Because even though they are incredible characters in the cannon story, they are bounded by my cognitive level in my fiction.
I can't thank you enough for all the nice comments you left. It is amazing how much strength I received from you. It is the understanding between us, the experience we shared even though we lives miles apart.
It is a bless.