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EPOV (I do not know how it will turn out, but I am trying it. I am starting where Tanya shows up)

I had her trapped between my arms. Bella was stunning with her face all flushed, her infectious smile and her eyes shinning with excitement and amusement. I feel this powerful current flow between us and it was possibly the best sensation I have ever felt. I wanted to kiss her so badly. I want to be her everything. I know I am such a sap, but it is true.

Are faces were so close, I only had to lean in slightly and my lips would touch hers. I caressed her cheek with my hand and she blush and shivered. I knew it could not be because she was cold. I could practically feel the heat radiating off her. I started moving in closer and closer and she closed her accepting what was happening. I was about kiss her when…

"Edward", a familiar voice said. I stopped moving closer and was annoyed at whoever interrupted us. I could see Bella felt the same. My heart fluttered at that. She wanted me. At least it seemed like she did.

I turned to look at our intruder and was met with, "Tanya?" What was she doing here? Why now? She nodded and smiled at me. That smile use to leave me breathless, until I met Bella. I turned towards her. She was beautiful, that was for sure, but she was not nearly as beautiful as I almost kissed. Almost being the operative word.

I turned my head to look at Bella, but she was gone. I saw her heading towards the exit and I knew I had to stop her. I ran to her and grabbed her by the wrist. I felt that spark that always seemed to course through us when we touched. Even when we were close, I could feel it. "Bella, where are you going?" I asked confused. Why was she leaving? Was it because of me? Because of Tanya? Though she seemed fine, I could see signs of sadness in her deep brown eyes.

"Edward, you and Tanya need to talk. And I doubt you want little old me butting into your conversation." She smile, but it did not reach her eyes. Bella could never be a bother in my eyes. Why didn't she see that? "So I'll leave you two alone. And I'll talk to you later?" The last part was a question, as if she doubted I would want to see her later. She seemed so fragile and I could tell she doubted herself and doubted me. It hurt a little that she thought of herself that way, so poorly.

I wanted to reassure her. "Of course Bella. We'll talk later." I smiled but it was forced. She lightly brushed her hand against my cheek and leaned into her touch. I truly smiled at her this time, wanting her to touch me like that always. But I wanted it to be more than a friendly gesture. I sighed softly. "Bye Bella." I love you. Oh how I wanted to say it. Man up and say it then, my conscience told me. But I did not.

"Bye Edward. Good luck. I wish the best for you. Unlike me you get your second chance." I loved how she said my name. Her voice, like bells, was mesmerizing like her. Her smile was forced once again. Her eyes didn't sparkle and I felt my heart clench at the sight. I watched as she walked away feeling empty.

I wanted to go after her; oh boy did I want to go after her. Something inside me told me I should sort things out with Tanya first. I would see Bella later. Later, I promised myself. I walked back to where Tanya stood. She was leaning against the wall where Bella and I just were only a moment ago.

I stood next to her and she turned her head towards me. "Tanya, what are you doing here?" I asked her. After all this time why now?

"I wanted to see you Edward. I wanted to apologize actually." She motioned with her head over towards a bench. We sat down as far as the bench would allow. I sat there as patiently as I could and waited for her to talk. "Edward I am so sorry for what I did to you. You came to tell me how you felt and I just ripped your heart out. I don't think I can ever forgive myself for what I did." I looked into her gray eyes and wished that they were brown ones I was looking into instead.

"I forgive you." I said quietly. "I forgave you along time ago. For a while, I actually thought I was still in love with you. And then I met Bella and everything changed." I sighed. Bella, my Bella. I could say her name over and over again.

"You really forgive me?" She smiled and moved closer. She gave me a short friendly hug. "Thank you Edward. I am so happy for you. I hope I can be as lucky as you someday." She hugged me one more time.

After that, we talked about what has been happening in our lives. Tanya changed since the last time I saw here. She was kinder and nicer than how I remember. Not selfish like before. I enjoyed talking to her, but I knew I had to go talk to my Bella. Oh how I wanted her to be mine. I felt rude for leaving Tanya. I knew she wanted to spend this time to get to know me again.

"Edward go to her." I looked into her eyes and knew she was serious. "We can catch up another day. We have each other's numbers. Bella needs to know how you feel. She is probably so upset right now." I just sat there staring at her. She changed so much. I was amazed. "Edward are waiting for….Go!" She laughed as I ran to my car, yelling goodbye to her.

I sped to Bella's house. I had to talk to her. I need to tell her how I felt. Even if it meant risking my heart. I had to. Bella is worth it.

I parked in her driveway. I sat there for a good ten minutes when someone knocked on my window. I jumped in my seat and looked out. "Alice?" I asked as I rolled down my window.

"Are you going to eventually grow a pair and go in there?" Emmett was rolling on the floor laughing. "Edward you're my brother and I love you, but you're an idiot. You're so blind. How can you not see Bella is in love with you?" She opened my door and pulled me out. "Now go in there and work the Cullen charm." She hugged me and kissed my cheek. With that they everyone left.

I felt a wave of confidence and determination flow through me. I ran to the front door. I was about to knock but then I thought she wouldn't answer or let me in. I noticed a tree next to Bella's window. Her light was on so I knew she was in there. The actual climbing was harder then it looked, but I knew it was worth it. It meant being close to her.

When I made it to the top, her window was open. She sat on her bed reading. She looked miserable and it killed me to know I was the cause. Her eyes were rimmed with red and she kept sniffling. I whispered her name, "Bella." She looked around her eyes held confusion as she searched for the source of the noise.

She didn't see me so she continued with her book. I whispered to her again. "Bella by the window." When our eyes met, I felt whole. She chocolaty orbs peered into my soul. Even with her face all blotchy and red, she still was the most beautiful creature.

She eyes seemed to light up when she saw me. She looked so surprised. She did not think you were going to come. "Edward? How did you get in here? What are you doing here?" she seemed so confused. What she said confirmed my thoughts. Really thought I was still in love with Tanya. My heart fluttered when she said my name. I climbed through the window and stood in her room.

"There is a tree by your window, so I used it to climb up."I shrugged. Didn't she know I would do anything for her? She was a part of me and I could never get enough of her. She did not seem freaked by what I had done. Actually, she was smiling. Her eyes were sparkling again.

"Why did you climb through my window?" she questioned. Should I tell her the truth? She patted her bed, signaling that I could sit next to her. I did not think twice before I sat down on her bed. I had to be near her. I noticed Bella giving me a good once over. She was ogling me! Her eyes finally made it back to mine and she blushed lightly. She knew she had been caught. She tried to look away but I was not having any of that.

"I had a feeling that if I went to the front door, that you wouldn't want to see me." I could feel my cheeks heat up. Bella gently ran her fingers over my cheeks. I looked down. I could not meet her intense gaze. I was so embarrassed. "I knew you would have some excuse as to why I couldn't see you or you might get someone else to do it." I still could not look into her eyes.

"I would have let you in." She stated, "I always want to see you. It's empty when you're not around me." She admitted, blushing lightly. I was thrilled to know that she felt the same as I did.

I finally gained the courage to look into her eyes. I had to see if there was even a hint of attraction or some semblance of love. I looked into her deep chocolate orbs. I could see without a doubt that Bella had feelings for me. Whether she loved me was hard to say, but I knew she felt something for me. I knew I had to get this out before I lose my courage. "Bella, I'm here because I wanted to ask you something." I grabbed her hands and held them in mine. A perfect fit, I thought to myself.

"What is it?" She whispered. Bella waited patiently for me to continue. I took and deep breathe and continued.

"Well I was wondering if you would like to go somewhere with me." She seemed shocked and confused. I noticed that Bella had stopped breathing. "Bella breathe." She took in a big breath in and out. "So what do you say?" I hoped she would say yes. I wanted her to. I still doubted that she would feel something for me. Why would someone so beautiful want me?

"I would love to." She smiled at me and I felt myself smiling back. I would make this date the best she has ever had. I wanted it to be perfect for her. She means the world to me. I want to make her smile. I already had a plan forming in my head.

"Great! It is about three right now, so I will pick you up around six. Is that okay?" I asked. She shook her head lightly, smile still in place and a slight blush on her cheeks. "And it is a surprise where we are going, but I will tell you that you need to dress up." She groaned. I knew she hated both surprises and dressing up, but I knew in the end she would not mind. I could tell she was panicking. So I thought that maybe it would be best to get Alice and Rose to help Bella. "Don't worry I called for assistance. Rose! Alice!" The look of relief came over her face when I said that. Just like that, Alice and Rose came through the door. Alice and her ability to predict the future, she always surprises me.

"Bye Bella, see you at six." I gave her hand a squeeze. I turned to Rose and Alice. "Be nice to her. And do not get too carried away. She is beautiful without anything done to her." It was the truth. Bella didn't the all the make up to be beautiful. Her smile grew at what I said. Her smile put me in a daze. Beautiful, absolutely beautiful. I gave her one more smile and headed out to get myself ready. I missed her instantly and wished I could run back into her room and hold her. Wait. I'll see her later. I have a date with Bella. I am happy and nervous. I can't wait for our date. A date with my Bella.

AN: Sorry, it took me forever to update. I apologize. I hope you liked it. I will try to update frequently.