A soft sobbing echoed through the silence of the night. A pillow, already wet from tears, did nothing to muffle them.

Yuu was crying. Hard. Again. Every night he cried himself to sleep. He would just lay and cry until he was exhausted enough to just pass out.

Since that memorable day two months ago it was the only way for him to fall asleep. If he didn't cry, he would think about the happiness he felt when he was with Mika. How loved Mika made him feel.

He still did, though. And that's what was making him cry.

After a quarrel that seemed so big back then they decided their relationship just wasn't working out. Yuu didn't even remember what they argued over, but it did made him loose Mika.

He remembers as if it was yesterday. Their screaming at each other, Mika's cold expression when he said they were a mistake. His own voice when he said if they were a mistake then what was Mika still doing here.

Mika agreed. And left.

Next day he came back to pack his things. Yuu acted as if Mika wasn't even there, as if he wasn't leaving their home.

He should have stopped him. He should never let Mika break up with him over a stupid thing he didn't even remember.

A broken sob left Yuu's throath, even though he tried so hard to keep it in.

Feeling a surface of a nightstand with his right arm he found his phone. Yuu unpluged it from the charger and lit up the screen. The brightness at first hurt his eyes. Unlocking the screen, his fingers quickly found a file containing their pictures together.

Back when they were happy. And together.

Yuu's sobs got louder. He pressed his hand to his mouth, hating the sound of his own crying. He shouldn't cry. If they broke up like that then they weren't meant to be together.

Still, that didn't stop Yuu from loving Mika.

A thumb caressed Mika's face on the screen. He was smiling on the picture, big grin on his lips as Yuu pressed a kiss to his temple just before Mika took the picture.

Yuu remembered the day it was taken. They went on a date, the day was beautiful and didn't wanted to waste it. The date itself was pretty simple, a walk in the park, a lunch at a pastry shop. Mika laughing over Yuu, who somehow managed to get a whipped cream on his nose.

Yuu bit his lip. He couldn't do it anymore. He couldn't pretend he didn't miss Mika. Because he did. He did miss Mika so damn much it hurt. Even breathing hurt when Mika wasn't around anymore.

Fuck his pride, fuck his stubborness, fuck everything. Yuu wasn't going to last any longer if he kept everything up the way it was until now.

Searching through his contacts he found Mika's number and pressed call. It was the middle of the night, but Yuu didn't care. He had to hear Mika's voice. Even he would shout at him for waking him up, he had to.

After a few signals his voice mail answered.

„Hi, you've reached Mikaela's phone. I can't answer right now, please leave a message. Beep." the first thing that got recorded was most probably Yuu's sob.

Clearing his throat Yuu started to talk.

„Hi... Mika, I'm sorry for calling you this late... I'm sorry for calling you at all, but..." another sob interrupted Yuu's talk.

„I can't take this anymore. I miss you so much I'm going mad. I'm so sorry for anything I said, I didn't mean to. I miss you, it hurts to live without you. I... I still love you, Mika. I'm sorry." with that the voice mail beeped again, signaling the end of the message. Yuu took a deep breath. He didn't regret leaving a message for Mika. He did regret not doing so earlier.

He closed his eyes, the exhaustion from the day and from crying finally got to him. He fell asleep, a phone still in his hand.

He was already asleep when it started to vibrate, screen flashing in the darkness of the night.

„...an..." Yuu felt in his sleep as someone shook his shoulders harshly. He groaned, but never woke up.

„...u-chan..." the shaking continued, but this time Yuu felt a warm hand brushing his bangs from his forehead. That did woke him up. Kind of.

„Yuu-chan!" Yuu's eyes shot wide open, only to close a second later as a bright light of a lamp hit them.

„Thank goodness, Yuu-chan..." still half asleep Yuu slowly opened his eyes, letting them adjust to the brightness. There was something... someone above him.

„Don't ever scare me like that again." the boy blinked, taking in the sight of Mika with watery eyes, hovering over him.

„Go away." Yuu said, his voice still too sleepy to make a louder noise.

„Huh? Wha..."

„You're just a dream. I don't want to see you there, because when I wake up I'll be alone again." Yuu whispered. Mika stared at him, without a single blink.

Then, a fist connected with Yuu's head. Hard.

„Ow! Why did you do that?!"

„Do you still think this is all just a dream?" the pain was real, throbbing in Yuu's skull.

But, if he felt that pain, then Mika really was here?

„What were you thinking when you recorded that voice mail, I thought you planned to hurt yourself! God, I was terrified when I listened to it and you didn't answer when I called back." Mika laid his head on Yuu's chest, listening to his heartbeat. It was reassuring.

„I didn't thought you would even listen to it..." Yuu mumbled quietly.

„Of course I would. I wanted to apologize, too, but I was to stupid and stubborn to make a move." Mika's voice was muffled by Yuu's pajamas.

„Mika..." the blond raised his head, locking his eyes with Yuu's green ones he loved oh so much.

„I'm sorry, I really am. I'm sorry for being an idiot, I'm sorry for shouting at you, I'm sorry for leaving you." his blue eyes were so full of various emotions, too many for Yuu to name all. There was sadness, there was fear, there was relieve, there was love.

„I guess we're both idiots then." Yuu smiled, his cheeks hurting after not smiling this big for months.

Mika chuckled.

„I guess we are... Yuu-chan?"

„Hmm?"

„Do you think... we can be idiots together again?" in Mika's eyes there was hope, too.

„Not again. Still." Mika laughed, the sound Yuu missed for months. Then, his lips were everywhere. Literaly. Mika kissed Yuu's own lips, Yuu's nose, Yuu's forehead, tear-stained cheeks.

Yuu giggled when Mika's breath tickled his ear when he kissed it.

They really were idiots.

Idiots who couldn't live without each other.