SM owns all things Twilight-Eclipse was awesome-I was shocked and happy that Jasper actually got a lot of movie air time for once. He did an excellent job and Carlisle looked HOT as always.

Bad Boys

Jasper and Alice

Chapter 14

Jpov

I couldn't believe my eyes, whenever I saw Alice and Bella standing inside of my own house. How many times had I warned Alice never to come here? I promptly took her by the arm and led her outside.

"Jasper please don't be upset with me, I was worried about you." She looked up at me with those big brown eyes of hers and there was no way in hell that I could stay angry at her.

"Alice I could never be that mad at you, I'm simply trying to look after you, to keep you sheltered from our way of life" I said stated firmly "you can't just show up here, I don't want you getting hurt." I moved my hand from her arm to hold her small hand in mine, still pulling her as quickly away from this hellhole as I possibly could.

"Jasper, don't be silly I won't get hurt." My sweet angel was so innocent in the ways of our existence. I knew that I had to make her understand that she was in danger, hell we all were. However, I had to get her out of this place first. I put her on the back of my beat up motorcycle, and we took off as fast as I could go.

We rode for awhile as I tried to figure out a way to inform her that she was at risk of becoming a victim in this lifestyle I led. She held onto my waist tightly, and I could feel the love radiating off of her. I knew no one would ever love me as much as Alice has come to. She saw beyond my faults and looked at my needs, and there were many. I returned her love ten-fold, and I would do anything to protect her from the ugliness that was my life. I worried that if she knew the real me, she would run away screaming. However, I also took comfort in the reality of knowing that would never happen, my Alice would always love me unconditionally.

I pulled over into the town park and went and got us both a soda to drink. She sat down in my lap and wrapped her arms around my neck, smiling up at me. I pulled her securely against my chest, my beautiful angel.

"Alice we need to have a serious conversation about a couple of things." I started slowly, dreading this discussion even prior to starting it.

"Why do I get the sense that I'm not going to like this Jasper?" She looked fearful and I couldn't help feeling that identical sense of anxiety.

"Because darlin' your not, I can promise you that." God I despised this, how am I supposed to tell her that loving me can bring her harm or worse, possibly death?

"Carlisle got the shit pounded out of him Alice, and he doesn't appear too healthy. I can't really go into the whys, and how-But as always, dear old daddy is at the center of it." I raised my hand in a gesture to keep her from speaking before I lost my courage to finish. "It wasn't Carlisle's fault-but I still held him responsible for it. Dad has this cruel way of punishing us to keep us from going against him. He pits us against one another, so to speak. He threatens one of us to keep the others in line." She sat very still now her head resting in the side of my neck, listening intently.

"When Carlisle messed up, he paid for it, but it wasn't enough for James. Especially since he still felt like Carlisle had one coming from him for defending me over that whole school incident. You remember that, right? " Alice nodded her head not sure if she should say anything or not. "Well long story short he wanted to get back at Carlisle by hurting me and the worst way to hurt me Alice is to threaten you." I spat out.

"James wants to hurt me Jasper, why?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"To hurt me and in turn Carlisle, It's complicated-but at the same time also pretty cut and dry. It is, what it is, Alice, blackmail in its most basic ugly form." Alice's eyes began to fill with tears at this point as the seriousness of what I was explaining to her started to take root in her mind.

"Why would your mother be with such a malicious monster Jasper? She had to have known what kind of individual he was." I knew this question would come up.

"Alice why are you with me?" I asked tilting her chin up to gaze into my eyes.

"Because I love you, you know that Jazz." Her tears were dripping from her quivering chin, and I took my thumb and whipped away as many as I could.

"Have I ever led you to suppose that I am some sort of good guy, Alice?" I looked deeply into her red glassy eyes.

"You are a good guy just in a bad situation." She replied in the most serious tone I had ever heard come from her little mouth followed by a head nod. She meant that.

"I am not a good person, Alice, I have my own skeletons. They may haunt me more than they do the others-but I own them." I could tell my words were hurting her; they were hurting both of us. Nevertheless, I needed her to see things clearly.

"I refuse to consider this Jazz, you are a fine man, and I love you. How's that for cut and dry?" she sobbed.

"Ali you know how much I love you, but at times I believe you would be better off without me in your life. I only wish for your safety and well being. I suppose the only way that will come about, is by my discontinuing all contact with you." My heart bled as I said these words, and I had to bite my own tongue to fight back the tears.

"Jasper, NO" She all but yelled at me "I refuse to live without the man I love. I don't mean to stoop as low down as James, but if you break up with me, I vow I'll show up at your home every single day." She huffed "I mean it, I won't let go of you without a fight." She was pulling on my shirt with no intent on letting me go.

"I can't win no matter what I do, someone is going to get hurt, Alice" I rubbed my hands across my forehead. I couldn't think strait at this point. Alice very swiftly changed the subject on me.

"What are you planning on doing about college Jasper?" she asked in a quiet voice.

"It's another year off- but I can't go to college, even if I wanted to, I have no way out, none of us do" Alice needed to start experiencing reality instead of being so willful about things.

"Jasper you're too intelligent not to go and make something of yourself." I laughed at that "It's not apt to take place, Alice, I'm sorry."

"Do you love me, Jasper?" why does this feel like a loaded question?

"You know I do, but do you honestly want to be with a man that carries so many secrets. You have no idea who I actually am, or what I've done in my life, and I can't show you that piece of me. Please understand that" I paused "you would only ever get half a man."

"I don't believe that Jasper and I know I see the actual man, it's the others that don't get to share in that." I just couldn't believe my ears. This tiny little woman had more, blind faith in me then I could ever have imagined.

"I hate myself Ali, if James were to hurt you" I shook my head not even finishing the thought. She reached up and kissed me passionately. "I love you Jasper, promise me that no matter what happens we will be together; please give me your word." She pleaded

"I promise Alice" How could I refuse my love anything no matter what the cost, I would pay it gladly for her.

"Jazz, take me somewhere and make Love to me. I need to feel you inside me."

The lady didn't have to ask me twice. I took her by the hand to help her up. She started running and giggling as I began to chase her. I grabbed her from behind and started swinging her around, laughing like we had never experienced such an intense conversation only minutes before. I knew in that moment that I would do anything to remain with her.

Later that night

I arrived home around 10:30 that night; James was waiting up for me, no revelation there.

"Where have you been tonight Jasper? And don't try and lie to me and say you were working. I stopped in at that little mini mart job of yours earlier today. I needed beer and you weren't there to sell it to me." He had that 'I got you' look on his face.

I dropped my head and mumbled something about riding my motorcycle to clear my head.

"Well I got home around five and its close to eleven now, is your head all clear? Because I think it's time for us to have a little chat."

I knew this was coming, I was just hoping to avoid it. He knows I will do anything to keep the people I love safe, especially Ali. I moved to sit down in the recliner while he sprawled himself out on the sofa, clutching his beer in his hand, here it comes.

"I wanted to talk to you about your little girlfriend Jasper. I did some research, as I like to call it, into things, and I found out who her parents are and where she lives. I was thinking maybe I could pay her a visit, since her parents won't get home for a couple of hours after she does. Is she a good little fuck Jasper?" he sneered

This is the part where I want to rip his head off; this is his way of baiting me. We all play this part in James's head games. I look away from him and grit my teeth, pulling my hands up into tight fists at my sides. I refuse to acknowledge this evil bastard by looking at him.

"James, don't start this just tell me what the fuck you want." I just wanted to get this over with.

"Well Jasper you know I wouldn't want to hurt you little girlfriend. She's so small and fragile" he chuckled."Breaking her would break you, I'm sure-but the most brilliant part would be you going to jail for her murder….It's always the troubled lover that does these things, isn't it?"

I wouldn't allow a reaction to show on my face at his cruel remarks. I learned to wear a mask many years ago.

"Just tell me what you want James, before I start tearing this place apart." I threatened.

"Well Carlisle is passed out up stairs; he's not looking good. Rosalie, well she won't be home until around three or so, given her new place of employment. So I was thinking" he said while pausing to finish his beer. "I miss how close you and I was when you were a little boy Jasper. I was thinking maybe we could pick things back up from before your mother disappeared." He grinned.

He had been hinting at this for a couple of months now, and it was making me sick. Maybe I couldn't control things when I was little-but it was for damn sure, I wasn't going to be his bitch anymore.

"No" I gritted my teeth "you want to play house; you do it with one of your drugged up friends."

"Are you sure about that Jasper? There are a lot of people lives at stake, given your selfishness. Alice isn't the only one you know, Carlisle is upstairs in pain. He could easily stop breathing during the night from his injuries. Rosalie's brakes could give out on her way home one night. Bella, I know that wouldn't hurt you, but it would affect Alice and Carlisle, and I would make sure you carried the blame." He threatened once more.

"I refuse to do it" I stated harshly and walked off upstairs.

I checked in on Carlisle, and he was moaning from the pain he was feeling from his head injury. I got some fresh water and a washcloth along with another pain pill and antibiotic. I woke him from his sleep to take them.

"Jasper, Thanks man, my head hurts so much." He swallowed the pills and finished off the glass of water with shaky hands.

"Carlisle, I think I'll just stay in here with you tonight and keep an eye on you, Bubby."

"Thanks Jasper, my gun is in the top drawer." He sighed "I think James is trying to kill me, I think I was supposed to die on that drug run." He hoarsely uttered out

"I think James is trying to kill us all Carlisle." I was certain of that.

"What do you think stops him, Jasper?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Do you have a theory?" I responded.

"Mom or Dad must have had life insurance policies on themselves and us. Dad had a high-quality career. I imagine James might have spent mom's share, but I bet that somewhere in our hometown, ours is put away until we either turn eighteen or twenty-one. I've had a lot of time to lay here and think Jasper. James hates us; there was no reason for him to take us with him, unless something was in it for him. I remember 'children youth' coming to our house on plenty of occasions before James moved away with us. He could have given us up to the state; nothing motivates James like money Jasper?"

"Maybe secrets Carlisle, we all have them thanks to James." I hung my head.

"We need to get Rose and start sharing them with each other than. This way he can't hold things over our heads, use us against one another." Carlisle's eyes were droopy from the pain pill.

"Let's just take everything thing one day at a time until you get better bubby, now get some sleep." I suggested

"One more thing Jasper, Bella loves me, and I love her as well. I'm going to try and give her the one thing that she asked for, a baby. I don't know how much time I have left. However, I do know that I am going to do everything in my power to make the memories she has of me good ones." He slurred "She has to know I love her.

"I understand" and I did. I saw the two men hauling Carlisle in the house that night. They had a reputation for killing marks. I don't know what saved Carlisle's ass that night and got him back home in his own bed. Even so, whatever it was, I was thankful to still have my big brother around, even if I did unjustly blame him for James' threatening Alice that night.

Carlisle fell into a deep sleep then, and I sat in the chair watching over him with his gun sitting on my lap. No one was going to hurt us tonight, I heard James snoring from the living room. We were safe…at least for now.