Bella's POV

I woke up the next morning to the sound of an obnoxious alarm blaring in my ear.

I groaned while trying to turn it off.

While in the process, I accidentally smashed it under my hand.

"Oops."

With that I got up and walked to my mirror.

I was a train wreck, like I predicted.

After last nights restless sleep, my hair was sticking out every which way, and my eyes were red and puffy.

I sighed and headed to my closet for something to wear. Not too much, a tee shirt with a picture of the earth holding a sign that said 'save me, I'm cute'. A denim skirt, bracelet, black and white heels, and earth earrings.

After unsuccessfully trying to tame my hair for 30 minutes, I finally gave up and threw it in a messy bun.

Next my face.

I tried to reduce some redness by splashing my face with cold water. It didn't help.

I sighed and started to apply large amounts of makeup to cover up the puffiness.

After fooling around with my face, I finally decided to give up and go with what I had done, though it didn't help much.

I walked to the window.

It was nice and shiny outside, like the forecast had predicted.

I sighed.

Was that a good or a bad thing?

Good, defiantly.

Then why did I feel so awful?

Simple, I was avoiding my problems instead of facing them head on.

A coward. That's what I was.

Chicken, afraidy cat, wuss, all those things would describe me.

I sighed and grabbed my car keys, not really caring whether I was late or early.

I wasn't even in the mood to listen to my music.

Why was I so God damn depressed?

I'll tell you why, you miss-

'Shut up. Just shut up, I don't need to hear this.'

Aww, you hurt my feelings!

'Good. Maybe now you'll get the hell out of my head.'

Nope. I'm here to stay, feelings crushed or not. *insert fake sniffle*

'God you're annoying. You know what? I have a new name for you. Newton.'

"Oh god what is wrong with me?" I mumbled rubbing my forehead.

"I'm talking to myself. That's a new low."

You bet it is!

I sighed in frustration.

This was going to be a LONG day.

I finally reached the school parking lot.

It was completely full.

So I must be late.

I parked my car farther out than usual, and ran to the door.

Don't look at me like that! Nobody's out here!

I soon arrived at my first class.

Five minutes late.

I apologized to the teacher and took my seat.

Math was boring!

I already know all this shit.

Remind me why I decided I needed to go through this to look normal?

To pass the remaining time, I imagined possible ways for me to lower Newton's self esteem. The thought gave me joy.

Suddenly a note landed on my desk.

I rotated in my chair.

Mike Newton was smirking at me.

How lovely.

I slowly unfolded the paper.

Mr. Smithy is so boring! By the way, you look really sexy in that tight tee shirt, and short skirt. Maybe you and I could get together tonight and see where things lead too…

I cringed in my seat.

'EWWWWW!!!!! EW, EW, EW, EW, EW!!!!!!!!!'

And you named me, after him!?!?!?

'Your right. No one deserves that punishment. You, from now on, are shopping.'

Suddenly, while I was distracted, the note was snatched out of my hands.

"What have we here? Note passing? If you can know it, the whole class should." Mr. Smithy said while preparing to read it out loud.

"Um… you might want to read that to yourself first." I suggested.

He did.

I took the first look of anger and then a mix between disgusting and shocked as signs of where he was reading.

If he read it out loud, I would absolutely DIE of embarrassment.

He folded up the note and threw it into the trash.

I sighed in relief.

"Miss Swan, who gave this to you?" he asked.

"Newton sir!" I answered cheerfully, happy to get him in trouble.

I turned around in my seat to see a tomato red Mike.

"Mr. Newton! To the principle's office, NOW!" Mr. Smithy screamed.

Mike scowled at me as he passed by, and I simply smirked.

Ok, so that completely brightened my day.

Hopefully he got the hint that I wasn't interested too.

Maybe today wasn't going to be so bad as I thought.

If it progresses like this, I might get them all away from me in one day!

That would be an accomplishment.

Soon I was on my way to my next class.

All through the morning I didn't see Mike again, but I caught Jessica and Lauren glaring at me.

I rolled my eyes.

Whatever bitches.

Finally at lunch Mike re-appeared.

"Damn it." I muttered under my breath.

Angela giggled.

Jessica, once again, shot me a glare.

Oh please, you couldn't scare a mouse!

I hardened it, then sent it right back at her.

Really, shouldn't they have learned by now that you don't, I repeat don't, mess with me.

She backed off immediately and cowered in her seat.

I smirked.

Mike had taken a seat next to Jessica, not looking at me or even talking to me.

I wonder if he think's he's giving me the silent treatment?

Ugh, boys are so annoying.

Unintentionally, my eyes wandered to the empty Cullen table.

"So Bella, you gonna come to La Push with us?" Angela asked from my side.

I turned back to her.

"I'm sorry, what?"

"Were going to La Push this weekend. You should come with us." she said cheerfully.

"Um…"

I didn't think that would be the best idea. I pissed off a few wolves, no doubt Jacob will remember me, and for all I know they could hunt me like the animals they are if I went down there again.

"No thanks. I'm not really a surf and sun kind of girl. But you should go and have fun." I said, trying not to upset her too much.

I noticed Lauren, Jessica, and Hillary all smiling gleefully down the table.

Bitches.

"Oh that's too bad. We'll miss you. Maybe some other time then." Jessica said, faking innocence.

It took everything in me not to flip the table on her sorry ass.

"Yeah, too bad." I said, faking my own innocence.

After this morning, nothing interesting had happened and was disappointing.

Well, maybe I could change that.

I spied for a situation I could stir up.

I hid an evil smile as I formed an evil idea in my brain.

A geeky guy was about to pass our table, when I ran up and tripped him so fast that no one saw me.

His food went flying, landing all over Jessica, Lauren, and Mike.

"What the hell?!?!?! HOW DARE YOU!!!!" Lauren screamed in the poor guy's face.

I silently snickered, trying to keep from busting out in laughter.

I was doing pretty good too, that is until Angela busted out laughing, sending me into a giggle fit.

I was clutching my sides in pain I was laughing so much.

Angela was too, while using me to keep from falling.

Soon the entire cafeteria was laughing at them.

"You think it's funny bitch!?!?!?" Jessica shouted.

I simply nodded my head, still laughing uncontrollably.

"Well, let's see how funny you find this." she picked up some of her food and flung it at me.

I ducked, and it flew and hit someone behind me.

The captain of the football team.

"Oopsies." I said.

He stood up and flung food back at Jessica.

She ducked, and it hit a freshman.

Soon a full food fight had started.

Angela and I had crawled under the table to avoid getting hit by food.

But lets face it, hiding is boring.

So I left Angela under the table, where she was refusing to come out from, and joined in the action.

It's not like they could hit me anyways.

So I grabbed a handful of mashed potatos and flung it in a random direction, hitting the back of someone's shirt.

He turned around with an evil grin on his face.

Uh-oh.

It was Patrick, a running back on the football team.

My eyes widened in panic when he picked up food in his hand.

He threw it at incredible speed, but I still dodged it.

Instead of hitting me, it went flying by and hit the principle smack dab in the face.

Everyone stopped immediately.

When he wiped the spinach off his face, you could see the blood boiling in his face.

Oh shit! You can't prove anything! I'm innocent I tell you, innocent!

"Who started this!?!?!" he screamed.

Fingers were pointed everywhere.

His attention suddenly stopped on me, one of the few who was food free.

"Isabella, you're a good student. Who started this?" he asked.

Good to know I'm on his good list.

"Jessica sir. She threw food at me for laughing, I ducted, and it hit someone else, starting a food fight." I said innocently, like I had been hiding under the table for the whole time.

He seemed to believe it.

I looked around the room.

Jessica was glaring at me hard, most were either amused or in fear, and Aaron (the captain of the football team) winked at me, clearly happy I didn't throw him under the bus.

"Miss Stanley, to my office NOW!" Mr. Green shouted.

She shuffled out of the room, Mr. Green on her heels.

I silently snickered to myself.

Ok, I was wrong, this day was going great!

After lunch I had biology, then trig.

Jessica, my partner, was sending me hateful glares.

I rolled my eyes and took my seat.

"What the hell was that!?!?" she yelled/whispered.

"What was what?" I asked innocently.

"You totally squealed on me back there! What was that Bella?!?!"

"I simply stated what I saw. It was the truth."

She angrily groaned and turned away from me.

I smirked and faced the front, happy with myself.

After that nothing else happened.

I was walking out to my car after the long school day when Aaron suddenly started jogging at my side.

"Hey Bella." he said kindly.

Oh shit. Maybe I should of throw him under the bus with Jessica.

"Hi Aaron."

"Thanks for not snitching on me. I've got a big game this Friday night." He said, acting like it was a great accomplishment, though he hadn't even played.

Is he trying to impress me?

I nodded my head and said 'uh-huh'.

"Am I going to see you there?" He asked casually, though you could tell by his posture he was nervous.

Aww, I did that to him!

"Uh, sure. That seems like fun." I said, faking enthusiasm.

He bought it.

How do I know? Because a smile stretched from ear to ear.

"Great. See you Friday then."

I nodded.

He waved by then jogged off to his Jaguar.

Well that was sweet.

I smiled and stepped into my car.

I started going over a mental picture in my head of Aaron.

He looks really cute, with his bronze hair and gold eyes.

One by one his features started to change. Brown hair to bronze, brown eyes to gold.

Before long his entire face had changed, and I was thinking dreamily about a pale skinned, handsome, bronze haired vampire who goes by the name of Edward Cullen.

'Snap out of it.' I thought to myself.

You like Edward! Even when your thinking of Aaron, you're thinking of him! Amazing!

I scowled at my conscience.

'Ok, it's official. I've gone crazy.'

You bet.

Edward still had a hold of my thoughts, and my mind was playing through moments with him.

After an unwanted replay of what I said to him, I was greatly saddened.

'Aww damn it. Now I'm back to being depressed Bella again.'

I sighed and walked inside.

If today was any indication of how my life would be without the Cullens, MAYBE I could make it. Maybe.

That's a big fat lie.

I sighed not wanting to fight with myself, knowing it was right.

I most likely couldn't do this.

But I had to try.

I couldn't be hurt by someone I loved again.

No.

Hey guys! So were in the depression and denial chapters now. But be patient with me! I only have 4 more tops. It's just, Bella is very insecure. She needs time to get over Gregory and learn to trust again. I'm sorry I couldn't do it all in one chapter. Review please, they make me smile!