"Thank you, but there isn't, I've come to accept that." Emily shrugged, mixing the meat and the water once again. "I'll just go for a swim tonight to relax, to loosen up." Emily added, placing her hand on Alison's waist. "Come with me when I do?" She asked her sweetly.
"Of course I will, but I guarantee even with an injury you're much better than I am." Alison had never been much of a swimmer. She'd always focused more on tanning and lounging around looking good in a bikini than actually going for a swim. "Hot tub after?" Alison asked, her eyes twinkling slightly at the idea.
"I'd have to go start the hot tub right now, I haven't used it in weeks, neither have my parents, and the filter must be pretty... rusty." Emily added, a little laugh following her words. "Let's just eat, I'm pretty sure everything is ready." Emily took the warm saucepan and then drained the pasta.
Alison rolled her eyes slightly. It seemed like Emily was avoiding the idea but she didn't want to argue. Alison grabbed out two plates and two forks, setting them at the table before sitting down. She waited for Emily to bring over the pasta and sauce, the scent reminding her of all the times the brunette had cooked for her over the years.
After the meal was served and all was put in place, Emily sat right beside Alison, her foot trailing over Ali's. "The hot tub sounds great, Ali." She tried to comfort her. She loved doing whatever pleased Alison, but when Alison was gone, she had changed; she only wanted to please herself, which made it hard since Alison was back.
Alison giggled slightly and played footsie with Emily under the table. She picked up her fork and dug into her pasta, chewing slowly. Once she'd swallowed, she licked the excess sauce off her lips. "Mm, still the best." The blonde smiled over at Emily and placed her hand on her arm, gently stroking it. "Hey...we don't have to do everything my way." She could sense that the brunette was trying so hard to please her, but this time she wanted things to actually be equal between them. She wanted Emily to be happy too.
''I love the hot tub too Ali, don't worry.'' Emily smiled sweetly, placing her foot behind Alison's leg to stroke it just a little. ''Don't worry, if I don't want to do something, you'll know.'' The brunette winked, placing her fork in her plate, taking a small yet satisfying bite of fresh pasta.
"I know. I just don't want you to think about last time before I left. I don't want you to think I have some power over you." Alison smiled back at Emily and felt a sudden shiver as the brunette stroked her leg with her foot. She settled back in her chair and took another bite of pasta, realizing just how much she'd missed certain things about Emily.
''Don't worry. I'm good. We're good.'' Emily added, pulling Alison's leg a little closer. She took a soft breath, knowing she had to stop herself right now or else she'd try to go further. Radley had not let her have any human contact with anyone; she craved it more than anything right now.
Alison leaned in a little closer to Emily. She'd missed her touch, the way her warm breath blew against her bare skin, even her voice. She craved all things "Emily," which was why she was trying so hard to make sure everything was good between them. "I really missed you." The blonde whispered softly.
''I missed you too.'' Emily admitted. Alison was the only one that could make her spill her guts so quickly. The brunette finished her plate quickly, walking over to the dishwasher to place her dirty plate in it. After, she put away the leftovers in little containers in the fridge.
Alison knew that Emily couldn't hide her feelings for her any longer and she was quite happy to hear the brunette express them. "You know I love you, right?" The blonde reminded Emily of what she'd told her in the library, knowing that the girl would want to hear Alison say it for real instead of just reading it from an old letter. She finished her plate of pasta and placed her dirty plate in the dishwasher as well.
Emily stopped what she was doing once she heard Alison say those three words. The brunette couldn't help but turn around and take a soft breath. She blinked a couple times before finally speaking. "I... Ali. I love you too." She whispered to the blonde, finally able to tell the girl she loved her face to face.
Alison couldn't have been happier to hear Emily say those words to her face to face. She knew how much strength it took to say it, as she'd done a good job of hiding it for years partly for that reason. The blonde walked over to Emily, closing the distance between them. She wrapped her arms tightly around the brunette and looked into her eyes. "I, Alison DiLaurentis am madly in love with my best friend, Emily Fields." She announced her proclamation in a voice just barely above a whisper.
Emily simply looked into Alison's eyes. She had no idea what to say, this all felt so... surreal, it felt too good to be true, and Emily felt as though she was dreaming. The brunette blinked a couple of times, her eyes still on Alison's. ''Wow.'' Emily felt her heart skip a beat, she didn't mean wow to be rude, but more like a surprised tone. ''I never thought I'd hear those words come out of your mouth.''
Alison couldn't take her eyes off Emily's. She knew the brunette would be taken aback by her words but she needed to say them, not just for Emily's benefit, but for herself as well. She took in a deep breath and slowly let it out. "Well believe it babe. I meant every word in the library and I mean it now too."
Before Alison could speak some more, Emily gripped the blonde's waist, pushing Alison's body just slightly beside the counter. The brunette kissed her, softly at first, and then added passion. She caressed Alison's cheek as they kissed, cupping it to keep their faces close to each other.
Alison felt Emily press her up against the side of the counter. She let the brunette take charge and kissed her back gently, slowly making the kiss more passionate as Emily did. She held the brunette tightly, bringing her body closer to her own.
Emily whispered through the kiss and onto Alison's lips. ''You don't have to say a word anymore, I've got you.'' Emily finally let herself open up to Alison, a smile on her face. She pulled away to take a soft breath, and then leaned into Alison to kiss her once more, biting her lip as she ended the beautiful kiss.
Alison didn't say a word, knowing that Emily was happy with her silence right now. She smiled brightly at Emily and tucked a loose strand of the brunette's hair back in place. The blonde took in a breath, her heart still racing. She kissed Emily back once more before pulling back to let herself to fully catch her breath.
''Why don't we skip the swimming and go straight in the hot tub.'' Emily offered, her hand still over Alison's waist. ''Let me go get my bikini on, make yourself at home.'' The brunette finally let her hand leave Alison's embrace. She made her way upstairs and into her room, finding her dark red bikini, sliding it on and then going to the washroom to grab some towels for both of the girls.
"Hmm, I think that sounds perfect." Alison mumbled softly, still regaining her composure. She released Emily once the brunette mentioned getting changed into a bikini. Alison went into the downstairs guest bathroom, grabbing her bag from the staircase before she did so. She changed into a yellow bikini, one her mom had given her, not that she wanted to remember that, but she knew that Emily loved yellow on her. Once she was changed, she walked back out and waited for the brunette to join her.
Emily had the towels over her shoulder. She walked down the stairs to join Alison, who, to her surprise, was wearing yellow. Emily chuckled and shook her head, cocking her head to the side once she reached Alison. ''You and yellow...'' She pierced her lips and then walked towards the back porch where the hot tub was.
Alison titled her head shortly and smirked. "You don't like it? Because if you don't, I could always take it off..." She spoke in an innocent playful tone and winked at Emily. She giggled a bit and walked out with Emily towards the hot tub.
Emily started the hot tub, letting it heat a little before the two got into it. ''Oh shut up.'' She mumbled playfully, and then turned around to face the blonde. ''Bubbles, no bubbles?'' She questioned her with a whisper, though all she wanted to do was just kiss Alison, over and over again, it was hard to control herself.
Alison laughed and playfully nudged Emily. "You'd like that a little too much, huh?" She winked at the brunette and bit her bottom lip. "Maybe you should make me shut up if you want me to keep quiet so badly." Alison chuckled lightly and slowly licked her lips. "Bubbles." She answered simply, her eyes taking in Emily's body, enjoying every little inch of the brunette's bare skin that was showing.
Emily slipped some liquid bubbles in the tub, smirking as the hot tub heated up and the bubbles took over the top. The brunette removed the top and slid it over beside the hot tub, finally placing the towels over the dried up deck and walking inside, sitting and melting with the warm water.
Alison watched as the bubbles rose, completely covering the clear water underneath. She climbed the few steps up the deck and stepped into the hot tub, the warm water instantly soothing her. She sunk down deeper into the water beside Emily, feeling her muscles start to relax as the jets started to pulse against her back.
Emily smiled as the blonde sat beside her. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes, letting her neck rest on the neck supporter. "Ugh, I could live in here." The brunette chuckled, loving the heat that the hot tub had to offer.
Alison laughed slightly, trying to keep her volume down, so as not to disturb the peaceful evening. "You know, that's not a half bad idea." She smirked slightly and leaned her head back a bit, closing her eyes as well.
''Well, we'd need food, some wine... and a toilet near by.'' Emily added, laughing softly before re-adjusting her body comfortably against the padded mats behind her. ''It's nice to just come out here, look at the stars, and spend some time with someone who means a lot to you.''
"I'm sure we could find a way to make it work if that's what you really wanted." Alison chuckled and reached up to tie her hair up in a bun with the rubber band she'd worn around her wrist. "I agree. I don't think there's anyone else I want to spend this night with besides you." Alison admitted in a soft whisper.
''Honestly, I'm just glad my parents are out of town, I still need to figure out how I'm going to lash out to them when they're back.'' Emily pierced her lips as she spoke in an angry tone. She took a deep breath and let the warm water relax her. She swayed her hands around the top of the hot tub, playing with some bubbles.
Alison reached over and gently placed her hand on Emily's shoulder. "Just be careful, Em. Don't make it bad enough that they try to send you away again." The blonde didn't want to imagine what she'd be like if Emily left again, especially now that she'd openly admitted she loved the brunette. She was just worried because things had been quiet for a while now and that wasn't usually the case. The possibility that something could blow up in her face at any moment set her on edge.
''Don't worry, Ali...'' Emily placed her hand over Alison's, trying to comfort her a little bit. ''They won't send me away again, I don't think they'd do that.'' She sighed, hoping that her statement was actually correct. The brunette looked over at Alison, slowly wrapping her arm around Alison's shoulder to keep her warm.
"I hope you're right. Your parents are so different from anyone else. They hate me and I doubt they'll ever trust me." Alison sighed slightly and rested her head against Emily's shoulder. She wanted to enjoy every moment with Emily to the fullest just in case they didn't have many left. ' 'They'll learn to love you, or at least endure you, because you're not going anywhere and I'll make sure of that.'' Emily spoke seriously. She was happy with Alison around, nobody had bothered them, yet that is.
Alison smiled softly and leaned in closer to Emily. "Relax, Em. If I go anywhere, you'll be the first to know and I hope that you'll come with me." She added, not wanting the brunette to think she'd just leave again without her. The blonde was truly happy; she only hoped that just this once both hers and Emily's happiness could last.
''I'm relaxed. The stars are out, the hot tub is warm, and there's bubbles.'' She added the bubbles in there just for kicks. The brunette looked down at Alison, who was directly beside her. She took a soft breath, sighing happily. ''How do you feel right now?''
Alison laughed softly at Emily's last comment. She knew the brunette was trying her best to make her smile. She was always the best at making Alison smile or laugh just when she needed it. The blonde looked up at Emily, smiling brightly at her. "I feel like nothing could ever be better than this...right here, with you."
Emily tightened her grip over Alison's shoulders. She placed her free hand over Ali's lap, a smile over her face. ''I'm happy that you feel that way.'' Emily added after Alison's sweet words. ''I'm relaxed, and content.'' Emily responded to her own question.
Alison placed her hand on top of Emily's. "I'm sorry it took so long for me to tell you the truth." The blonde blurted out, even though she knew her words might ruin the girl's mood. "I'm glad you're managing to finally relax." She added, knowing Emily truly did need her rest as no one ever got a good night's sleep in Radley.
"Hey, it's okay.. you just got back.. I just got back.. we're both handling a lot of things at once. Don't worry about it, nothing to be sorry for.'' Emily spoke in a calm tone, comforting Alison once more. She squeezed the blonde's hand, stroking her knuckles softly. ''I'm just happy I'm out of there, and nothing happened to you.''
Alison looked into Emily's eyes deeply. She still couldn't believe that they were finally sharing everything with each other, that Emily loved her just as much as when they'd first met. "I'm happy you're back. The last five weeks, I can't even remember anything that happened really. All I know is dad and the girls said I was like a zombie."
''Well if it helps, you're a zombie that I'd still kiss.'' Emily leaned her lips into Alison's, breathing warm air over her lips. She wanted to wait until the blonde clashed her lips with the brunettes, she loved it when Alison initiated the kiss, it just felt more, real..
"That helps a lot." Alison whispered softly, leaning into Emily as well. She could feel the brunette's warm breath blowing against her lips. The blonde leaned in even closer until her lips touched Emily's. She kissed the brunette, gently at first and then slowly deepened the kiss, her arms wrapping loosely around Emily.
The brunette smiled, the way Alison kissed her made her feel like there was nothing to worry about. Emily let her lips move with Alison's, the kiss deepening every second. Finally, she slid her hand under Alison's bikini around her back, stroking Ali's bare back softly, her hands moving from the blonde's shoulder blade to her lower back.
Alison felt Emily's lips curve into a smile against her own. She pulled the brunette closer, her arms wrapping tighter around Emily's body. The blonde felt a slight shiver as soon as she felt Emily's hand tracing over her bare back. She didn't mind though, it actually felt good to have the brunette explore her body.
Emily finally brought Alison's body over top of her, allowing the blonde to straddle the brunette's lap. She knew this was just an innocent little kissing session, but it felt so heated, it was much needed, and it felt good, it felt like anything she could ever ask for. Now that both of their feelings were out on the table, nobody could stop them.
Alison sat in brunette's lap, each of her legs on either side of Emily. She wrapped her arms around Emily as she leaned in even closer, her chest pressed up against the brunette's. She too needed this, to feel Emily's body against hers, for the brunette to kiss her until she had to pull away just to catch her breath. She didn't want to ever stop. This moment felt so right, so perfect to her.
Emily dropped her hands to grip Alison's waist. She held her tightly, protectively, almost possessively. She whispered against her lips with a soft tone. ''You're mine now, Alison.'' She broke the kiss just long enough to lower her lips to Alison's collarbone that was popping out.
The blonde heard what Emily said to her and for once she had no argument. She wanted more than anything, with every fiber of her being, to be Emily's. "I belong to you, Emily." She confirmed, knowing that the brunette still needed Alison to voice how she felt. She knew that Emily still sometimes wasn't sure if this was real, but she couldn't blame her. It was hard for Alison to believe that this could all happen at times too.
Emily smirked when she heard Alison's voice. She left a little blue mark over Alison's collarbone, tracing over it with her index finger afterwards. ''Hm.'' She mumbled, letting her hand fall over Ali's chest. She lifted up her head to meet face to face with Alison's, finally caressing her cheek and pulling her closer, she kissed her one more time, with all the passion and love that she had in her body.
Alison could tell by Emily's reactions that the brunette was happy about what she had said. She knew just what the girl wanted to hear, and she loved that she could now give her everything she wanted without any fear. She leaned in even closer to Emily, as the brunette didn't exactly give her choice, seeing as she tugged on her to come closer. She kissed Emily back with equal amount of passion and love.
Finally, Emily had broken the kiss once she realized the two had been kissing for over a half hour. She kept her arms wrapped tightly around Alison's back, whispering near her lips. ''My skin is all.. yucky, because we've been in here for hours.'' Emily chuckled. ''We should get out and get some rest. We're both exhausted.'' The brunette stretched her body and hopped out of the hot tub, lending Alison a hand and handing her a towel.